In the past few days, Lin Xuan has not had an easy time. Since the last time he fainted on campus and was found by his classmates and sent to the infirmary, the fact that he suffered from severe depression was known by teachers and classmates.

Not knowing how to face everyone's gaze, Lin Xuan, after careful consideration, applied to the teacher for a few days off and said that he wanted to recuperate.

In fact, his classmates didn't care about his depression. After all, everyone is studying medicine, and having depression is not something to be seen with; What's more, the real society has all kinds of troubles and pressures, and almost everyone is about to have depression.

It is Lin Xuan's own personality that determines that he can't handle these things calmly, he cares too much about other people's opinions and ideas, and he can't tolerate any of his things that deviate from the track in front of everyone.

However, Lin Xuan's mind was not on himself at this time, he always had a heavy ideological burden on Chen Chen's death in his mind, especially only he knew in his heart what Chen Chen was killed for.

Too many things are deposited in my heart, from strangeness to familiarity with Chen Chen, from first acquaintance to admiration. Even if this kind of love is like an ant in the dark night, it cannot see the light.

However, after getting to know Chen Chen, being infected and cared for by him, this made Lin Xuan gradually let go of himself. It can be said that Chen Chen is like a bright lamp, lighting a faint flame of enlightenment on the path of life in his heart.

Regarding Chen Chen's death, Lin Xuan couldn't calm down and couldn't be relieved, because no one knew what kind of conspiracy was behind Chen Chen's death.

These days, as long as he closed his eyes, he would see Chen Chen standing in front of him, just smiling at him and not saying a word.

No matter how painfully he cried out and struggled, or prayed with tears, Chen Chen never said a word, looking at him with a smile on his face, that kind of look made him feel awkward.

It was as if Chen Chen was in heaven, looking down at him in hell. Yes, hell, Lin Xuan knew that he could only look up to heaven in hell in this life.

He has always blamed himself, has been repenting, and has always lived in dire straits. For Chen Chen's death, only he knows, and he has an unshirkable responsibility.

It was that phone call that day that made him sell his soul and let him give away his lover who he regarded as a treasure.

But he is also a victim, such an ending is definitely not what he wants, and he would never have thought that he couldn't resist the temptation and hastily agreed to the request of that phone call, and he would take Chen Chen's life.

If he could turn back time, he could go back to the moment he received that call; If he had a pair of discerning eyes to let him know that everything arranged by that phone call was a deadly trap, he would definitely say: No!

It's a pity that it's too late, Chen Chen died, leaving him alone to bear the blame of conscience, morality, and soul; He was left alone to swallow the bitter fruit he had planted.

I don't know how many times, when there was no one in the dormitory, I lay on Chen Chen's bed, feeling his more and more ethereal taste.

Burying his head on Chen Chen's pillow, sniffing vigorously and greedily, this is Chen Chen's taste. It's a pity that after a few days of precipitation, I can't feel it anymore.

I don't know why, every time he hides in Chen Chen's bed, Lin Xuan can experience a sense of tranquility and serenity, and his heart will be soothed and peaceful under the influence of this feeling.

It's a pity that his strong self-esteem and competitive emotions make him unable to tolerate even the slightest mistake in front of his roommates.

Therefore, as long as there were people in the bedroom, Lin Xuan would never come to Chen Chen's bedside, not even glance at it, let alone lie down.

Of course, he didn't allow anyone to lift Chen Chen's mosquito net and sit on his bed. Although the buddies in the dormitory respected Chen Chen, no one would touch his bed, but it was difficult for foreign students to say.

Every time, Lin Xuan carefully tidied up Chen Chen's bed, trying to keep the items on the bed exactly the same as the day Chen Chen left.

There was no other way for him to dispel the sadness in his heart, as well as the loneliness and loneliness in his heart, as well as the endless repentance and longing for Chen Chen.

When he knew that Chen Chen had been killed, especially when he was the first to find Chen Chen's body, and the first to witness Chen Chen, who was still alive the day before, appeared at the scene of Chen's corpse because of him, and then was killed.

This kind of complex feeling of shock and despair is not something that everyone can experience, not to mention that Lin Xuan still has a different affection for Chen Chen.

It's not that he didn't think about it, and everything he knew and participated in was honestly confessed to the criminal police captain who seemed to be kind and reassuring.

But whenever he has this thought, he can't help but think of his father and mother who are far away from his hometown, and the little sister who is crazy and no one recognizes him, as long as his brother.

Now he is considered an accomplice to the murderer, and the truth is known to the police, which is a big crime that will lead to imprisonment or even losing his head.

The family sent him out to study, and the two pairs of earnest eyes of his parents carried how much hope and expectation. There is also a little sister, as soon as he thinks of his little sister, Lin Xuan's heart is like falling into an ice cellar.

For the sake of the little sister, how much heart have the old father and mother worried about over the years? I was already gray, my hair was bent over. In a few years, the two elders should reach the age of rest, and they are the only hope for the little sister.

What happens if you go to jail or lose your life? What should parents do? What should I do with my little sister? So although Lin Xuan hated himself again and again with contempt, he couldn't muster up the courage to surrender to Yang Zi anyway.

He could only allow himself to suffer in the depths of pain and despair, and let regret and helplessness erode him every moment.

However, he had a hunch that all this was going to end soon, especially when he sneaked to see Chen Chen every day, there were always people behind him who were not far away.

At first, he thought he was suspicious or overly cautious, but after repeated observation, he confirmed that it was the policeman who was watching, and after he looked closely, he recognized that it was one of the three policemen who had been checking on them in the autopsy lab that day.

For the possible ending, Lin Xuan was both afraid and looking forward to it, such a tortured day might end one day earlier, and his psychology would be balanced.

Buried in the thick sand like an ostrich all day long, delusional that it has been hidden, and others cannot see and find it, in fact, this kind of life is not easy.

Lin Xuan suddenly remembered that a poem he had seen was still a pair: red and cuicui, twilight and twilight; The veins are still around, and the plaice is always there.

Where he saw it, he had forgotten, the only thing he could remember was when he saw it, these two sentences were the words of courtship that a man said to his beloved woman.

Because I thought this sentence was very interesting, I also went to the dictionary to find out what it meant.

The plaice is from "Erya Shakti": "There is a flounder in the East, not compared to no, its name is flounder; In the south, there are winged birds, which are not better than not flying, and their names are called the birds. The meaning of this word is to describe the love of husband and wife.

At this time, Lin Xuan thought about it for no reason, his heart was full of thoughts for Chen Chen, and he even silently called to Chen Chen in his heart, If there is an afterlife, I am willing to walk with you like a plaice.

Suddenly, he was full of understanding and sympathy for Ouyang Jing, who he had hated, and when they both lost the same person they loved deeply, the same pain and sadness made him empathize with Ouyang Jing for the first time.

Time passed minute by minute, the bell for class rang several times on time, Lin Xuan looked at the time, the roommates were coming back, he quickly got up, made up Chen Chen's bed, and lay back on his bed.

It's just that Lin Xuan's mood was really depressed, he remembered that he hadn't seen Chen Chen today, and he was so worried in his heart, so he turned over and got out of bed, took out an item from the drawer, walked out of the dormitory, and walked towards the anatomy laboratory building.

Uncle Fu hasn't found out that his key has been taken, because the experimental building is basically only turned on and off twice a day, one morning and one night, and the students are free to enter and leave classes during the day.

During this time, because of Chen Chen's incident, Uncle Fu always felt uncomfortable in his heart, so he spent most of his time sitting in his cabin.

When Ouyang Jing came, Uncle Fu was leaving the hut and walking towards the bathroom in a trance, not noticing that his key was left on the table.

The key was taken away, and Uncle Fu also walked back, sitting in the duty room, watching TV boringly to relieve boredom.

At this time, Lin Xuan finished his remembrance in the dormitory, and was getting up and walking slowly here, and not far behind him, Xiaopang was following him unhurriedly.

At the same time, in the room on the second floor of the Anatomical Experiment Building, Shizuko was holding a marriage ceremony for herself and Chen Chen without the blessings of relatives and without friends to watch the ceremony.

The wedding has come to an end, the noose she is going to hang herself has been knotted, and in a short time, she will embark on the journey of death without hesitation.

Lin Xuan's figure has already appeared at the corner of this teaching building......

Shizuko was tying a red rope representing Yuan Ding's Sansheng III to Chen Chen's left foot......

Lin Xuan walked to the gate of the anatomy laboratory......

The red rope on Chen Chen's left foot had been tied, and Shizuko arranged the red rope and leaned down to tie it to his right foot......

Lin Xuan said hello to Uncle Fu and walked straight to the second floor......

Shizuko stepped onto her desk and grabbed the knot of death that she had tied early......

Lin Xuan walked through the corridor, his footsteps were hidden in the bell of the end of class, and he was less than a meter away from the room where Chen Chen was parked......

Shizuko stuck her head into the knot, then gently shifted her feet and kicked open the desk......

Lin Xuan heard a loud "bang" in the room, startled him, he took a step forward and was about to take out the key he had prepared privately to open the door, and suddenly found that the door of the room was not locked.

Before he had time to think about it, he kicked the door open......