Chapter Seventy-Three: The Past Is Unbearable
In the study, Guo Xu sat in front of the desk, practicing calligraphy. However, every stroke is no longer calm, but a little flustered. He sighed, and finally put the brush aside.
He pushed open the window, the cool autumn breeze came to his face, the vast rice fields in the distance, and the golden chrysanthemums that were blooming in the near distance were swaying with the wind, and the fragrance came to his nose, a peaceful and quiet scene.
I remember that when I was in the Blue Country before, once Lan Yuluo strayed into a farm, looking at the scene of rice fields and mulberry hemp everywhere, he suddenly said, "Guo Xu, in fact, it is good to have such a farm and live a leisurely life." ”
When she said that, a breeze blew, and her long hair flew in the wind, blowing on Guo Xu's cheeks and on his heart.
That time, Guo Xu remembered her words, and this memory was a lifetime.
If they hadn't met Emperor Song, wouldn't their fate have been different?
She fell in love with the man without hesitation and then married him. He went to the Song Kingdom with her to protect her.
He was just a little guard, and she was a princess on the high. His thoughts about her had long been ingrained in his heart, but he still knew restraint. As long as she is comfortable, that is his greatest wish.
But why did she marry her sweetheart as she wished, but the smile on her face became less and less, and in the end, only her brows were tightly locked?
Isn't it all said outside that she favors Song Palace? Even what he saw. Where, exactly, went wrong?
It wasn't until one late autumn night, when she was drunk and had to pull him to talk, that he learned the truth. It turned out that she only had a name, and Emperor Song's heart lived about a person, a person who could never be forgotten.
Again, she talked about her old thoughts about living on the farm, and said how nice it would be if that were the case.
Guo Xu wanted to comfort her, but his outstretched hand stopped in mid-air. He couldn't do anything, so what right did he have to comfort her?
The change was on the day of the Mid-Autumn Festival, Emperor Song, who had drunk wine, behaved frivolously and pressed him on the bed, and at that moment he suddenly understood something.
He is a man who naturally has his own dignity and would rather die than tolerate being trampled on by others. However, Emperor Song had already seen through his determination to die, and just smiled coldly, "Guo Xu, believe it or not, if you die, I can throw Lan Yuluo into the pile of guards, so that they can have a good taste of the most brilliant pearl of your Blue Country?" ”
He could die, but he must not let his beloved princess suffer such humiliation. So, he compromised.
There are many things, once there will be two or three more times. Since then, Emperor Song has often summoned him. For Lan Yuluo, he endured it every time.
As long as his beloved princess is well, he is willing to endure the suffering of the world.
It's just that Lan Yuluo finally discovered his secret room with Emperor Song. She pushed open the door and looked at the two of them with a look of horror as Emperor Song was prostrate on top of him.
She looked at the two of them in disbelief, one was her husband, and the other was her most trusted guard, which was nothing short of devastating.
She fled in a hurry, he wanted to chase her, but Emperor Song still didn't let him go.
For Lan Yuluo's safety, he gave in once again. It is said that men don't flick when they have tears, but they haven't reached the sad place. He was surprised to find that the corners of his eyes were moist.
Since being broken by Lan Yuluo, Emperor Song has intensified his efforts and no longer has any scruples. Once she couldn't help but ask Emperor Song why, but his answer was even more terrifying.
Emperor Song squinted at Lan Yuluo and said coldly, "Do you think that if it wasn't for Guo Xu, I would welcome you into the Song Palace?" Your so-called infatuation is nothing more than delusion. ”
Hearing this, Lan Yuluo's eyes were as dark as dead ashes. The things that were already known were even more desperate when Emperor Song said them in person.
Later, it was about the pressure of the Lan Kingdom that Emperor Song had to choose to let Lan Yuluo get pregnant. But this task was handed over to Guo Xu.
Facing Lan Yuluo, who was drugged, Guo Xu's heart was like a knife. He knew that if he did, she would hate him for the rest of his life.
However, if she didn't do so, I am afraid she would not even be able to live.
He wanted to save her, so he finally hugged her tightly and pressed down.
At that time, Lan Yuluo still had the only reason left, and pushed him weakly, "Guo Xu, don't make me hate you even more." ”
His heart was like being stabbed severely, and the woman he loved the most said that he hated himself, but he couldn't stop.
"Princess, even if you hate me, I must save you."
In just one night, Lan Yuluo became pregnant. He didn't know what was going on in her heart, only that his heart was leaping. After all, they still have a lifelong connection.
However, something even more desperate happened, Ya sent troops to attack Song and Chu, and Rao was an alliance between the two countries and was also invincible, so he had to borrow troops from Zhao.
Zhao proposed to Chu to take the prince as a hostage, while Song was like his wife Lan Yuluo. And Emperor Song agreed without hesitation, perhaps he had long wanted such an excuse.
Guo Xu wanted to follow him to Zhao State, but Emperor Song did not allow it. It's just that he must stay by his side well, so that Lan Yuluo won't have to worry about his life.
The day she left, the weather was clear and it was really a good day. She was dressed in a lake blue palace dress, dignified and beautiful.
Guo Xu begged hard, and Emperor Song finally allowed him to meet him. However, the moment Lan Yuluo saw him, he just looked away. Perhaps for her, never seeing her again in this life is the best thing.
"Princess Yuluo, take care."
A thousand words, after all, only these eight words have been condensed.
Guo Xu presented the jade pendant, only to say that it was a gift from Emperor Song, Lan Yuluo was silent for a long time, and finally put it away.
Actually, the jade pendant was bought by Guo Xu a long time ago. It was a couple, and he finally gave her today. Even if it's just in the name of another man.
Later, Guo Xu stayed by Emperor Song's side for several more years, and did not let him go until he met his new love.
As soon as he was free, he rushed to Zhao State. He really misses her and wants to meet their daughter, who is said to be called Zhenzhen.
The peach is dying, and its leaves are really a good name. Their daughter must be as perfect as she is.
However, he was full of enthusiasm, but she treated him coldly. But when they met in a hurry, she let herself go, hoping not to see her in this life.
Indeed, the way she is now, she is even more humble, and staying by her side can only remind her of the humiliation of the past. So even if he was reluctant, he still left.
It's just that before leaving, he secretly looked at Li Zhenzhen for a long time. As expected, their daughter is really cute.
He kept wandering until he came to the foot of Yunluo Mountain. Lan Yuluo's words are still vivid in my ears.
She smiled and said, "Guo Xu, in fact, it is good to be able to own such a farm and live a leisurely life." ”
In this case, I will stop here and build a farm. If one day she is willing to accept herself and give herself a chance, he will give her the life she wants.
Later, he met Guo Yuluo, and her appearance was somewhat similar to Li Zhenzhen's childhood, so his fatherly feelings were hooked. So I adopted this little girl and named her Yuluo, just because it reads like Yuluo.
Time passed day after day, but I didn't expect the news of Lan Yuluo's death to come.
His world collapsed.
At that time, he vomited a mouthful of blood, and the disease was sick for a long, long time.
After he recovered, he rushed to Zhao State non-stop, just to take the daughters of the two of them back to Guojiazhuang.
But at the last moment, he changed his mind because he didn't know how to face her.
He saw Li Zhenzhen following behind Su Junyan in the market, very intimate. Maybe it's good to stay in Zhao like this.
What he didn't expect was that Li Zhenzhen was welcomed back to Song Kingdom later, and he wanted to bring her back, but it was too late. In desperation, he could only train his forces privately in case he needed it in the future.
When the Song Kingdom fell, his people were late. But fortunately, she returned to China with Su Junyan. They have always had a good relationship, and sure enough, they got married. Maybe Li Zhenzhen doesn't need to know the truth of the matter in her life, as long as she lives well.
However, Su Junyan greeted other women one after another, and was later sent to Jiangcheng.
This time, he wanted to protect her, so there was a series of things behind.
Today, he finally told the truth of the matter through the rain falling. But obviously, Li Zhenzhen has no way to accept it.
Maybe for their mother and daughter, they are really humiliated.
While he was thinking wildly, he suddenly heard a knock on the door. Guo Xu opened the door and saw that it was Li Zhenzhen.
For a while, his heart was mixed, with joy, expectation, and fear.
I only heard Li Zhenzhen say, "I heard Brother Junyan mention that our blood is fused." ”
"Yes."
Guo Xu secretly observed her expression, but he couldn't see why.
Li Zhenzhen borrowed, "I need time to accept it now, and there is no way to call you Daddy." So for the time being, I'll call you Guo Zhuang as before, how about it? ”
Although Guo Xu was more or less disappointed in his heart, at least Li Zhenzhen was still willing to see him, which was much better than he imagined, so he could not agree.
"Zhenzhen, this matter is not in a hurry." Guo Xu said slowly, "Actually, even if you don't call me those two words in your life, it doesn't matter." ”
"Master Guo, I want to talk to you."
"Okay."
The two sat in the room, opposite each other, drinking tea and each having their own thoughts.
After all, it was Li Zhenzhen who broke the silence, "Master Guo, my mother, what kind of woman was she once?" ”
In Li Zhenzhen's impression, Lan Yuluo was gentle and beautiful, but she knew that there were too many things hidden in those eyes.
She really wanted to know what kind of woman Lan Yuluo was before she had those things.
Hearing this, Guo Xu fell into deep thought, and it took a long time before he answered, "Zhen Zhen, your mother is kind, beautiful, and both civil and military. In particular, the archery skills are exquisite, and they are better than those of men. ”
This Li Zhenzhen naturally knows, because Su Junyan's good archery technique was enlightened by her mother.
"You love her so much?"
Guo Xu said categorically, "Yes." ”
Li Zhenzhen sighed, but unfortunately for her mother, he was just her humiliation.
She changed her words, "Owner, if I insist on entering this Yunluo Mountain, what should I do?" ”