Towards the end of the semester, the students' study pressure surged, in addition to attending classes every day, they also had to participate in daily quizzes, often just put down their books and pick up the rolling paper, the wheel battle not only brought a sense of exhaustion to the body, but also made the heart tense and irritable.

As soon as the bell rang for the end of class, Shen Zilu got up and went outside the classroom to breathe, and before his feet could take a step, a workbook was thrown over the table. "I'll finish this question before I go."

Shen Zilu glanced at the questions, and the difficulty coefficient definitely made her want to walk out of the classroom during recess. With resentment, he said, "I'm tired, let me rest and change my brain?" ”

Guan Zhengxing nodded to the desktop, "The more you use your brain, the smarter you are, do a few more while the iron is hot." ”

"...... "Whatever is hot, what iron, she now has an urge to tear it when she sees the exercise book.

In the afterglow, she didn't move, Guan Zhengxing stopped his pen and turned his eyes to look at her, "Tired?" ”

The fire in his heart was extinguished by his words, and he nodded weakly, "A little." ”

"It's right to be tired, comfort is reserved for the dead."

“……”

Shen Zilu frowned and looked at him, "Believe it or not, I'm crazy to show you." ”

"Crazy." He said more casually than she did, and put the pen on the workbook, "I've done the problem after the madness." ”

Shen Zilu stomped her foot hard, the table was kicked by her, and she picked up the pen and began to write, chattering while writing: "It's even stricter than my parents." ”

Guan Zhengxing doesn't care about her broken thoughts, as long as she can calm down and learn well, the rest doesn't matter.

In the afterglow, the pen quickly wrote on the notebook, and the curvature of the corners of his mouth raised.

Five minutes later, Shen Zilu angrily pushed Ben to him, "It's done, you can check it." ”

Guan Zhengxing swept his eyes and drew a matching mark, "Go crazy." ”

Shen Zilu clenched his fists with both hands, "Weichen retreated." ”

Guan Zhengxing saw that she seemed to run out of the classroom, when will this frizzy temperament be reined in. In fact, deliberately giving her problems is also to sharpen her temperament.

Shen Zilu had just left the classroom with his front foot, and after a while, Li Luchen also went out.

The two met at the door of the building, and Li Luchen called her: "Xiaolu." ”

'Huh? "Why are you going?" ”

Li Luchen: "I went to the supermarket to buy refills. ”

Shen Zilu smiled, "Coincidentally, I'll also go to the supermarket and go together." ”

Suddenly, Shen Zilu felt that something was stuffed in her pocket, and she hurriedly pulled it out, "What?" ”

Li Luchen laughed, her eyebrows and eyes were crooked, and there were two shallow small pear vortices, she whispered: "Pine nut cake, don't take it out, I secretly took it to school, it's very sweet, I know you love sweets." ”

Shen Zilu looked left and right, raised her eyebrows and snickered at her, "Interesting." ”

After bypassing the teaching building, two girls came to meet them, who were in the second class and the key class of the school. After walking a while, the two girls talked about the recent quiz.

Girl A: "The recent quiz questions are not very difficult. ”

Girl B: "I found out too. Is the teacher running out of inspiration and can't think of exam questions? ”

Girl A smiled: "It's possible, Lao Guo Xiang's head is bald." ”

Girl B laughed along.

Shen Zilu turned her head to look at the person, and Li Luchen touched her, "What are you looking at?" ”

Shen Zilu asked: "Do you think the recent small test is not too difficult?" ”

The real idea is that the questions are difficult, and when she took the exam, she felt that some of the questions seemed to be out of the syllabus, and it was very difficult for her to complete the exam paper, and as soon as the results of the test paper came out, the score was really pitiful.

Li Luchen concealed his inner thoughts, and pretended to be relaxed: "It's okay." ”

"You're so good," Shen Zilu sighed to herself, "When I answered the question, my brain was about to explode." ”

Li Luchen smiled.

It's just that Shen Zilu pays a little attention to her expression, and you will find that there is some subtle embarrassment.

In the supermarket.

Li Luchen squatted on the shelf and chose a refill, and there were students chatting at the other end of the shelf.

Boy A: "How did you answer today's quiz?" ”

Boy B: "It's very simple, I've written it all, what about you?" ”

Boy A: "I'm done answering it too." ”

Boy C: "It's not difficult, Mr. Wang didn't say that the small test is much less difficult than the final paper." ”

"......" is much less difficult than the end of the term? How many points will she be able to answer at that end?

Li Luchen was in a daze with the refill, angry that she was not angry, that her brain was not good, and that everyone was better than her.

Shen Zilu didn't see Li Luchen come out after settling the account, and seeing that the class bell was about to ring, she walked to the entrance of the shelf to find her.

"Li Luchen,"

“……”

"Li Luchen?"

She squatted in the corner motionless, Shen Zilu walked a few steps, and shouted again: "Li Luchen, what are you doing?" ”

“！” The man came back to his senses, picked up a box of refills and got up, "Here it is." ”

After settling the bill, the two trotted back to the classroom.

In the corridor, Li Luchen met the two girls she met on the road just now, their faces were radiant, exuding confidence from the inside out, and these were what she lacked.

She, not as good as them, is the worst in the school, the teachers don't like her, her parents are disappointed in her, what is the meaning of her existence.

Passing by by mistake, Li Luchen heard the girl's happy laughter, but she lowered her head and felt inferior.

Before entering the classroom, Li Luchen suddenly stopped, and Shen Zilu turned around, "What's wrong?" ”

She shook her head, "...... It's okay. ”

After entering the classroom, Li Luchen saw Guan Zhengxing for the first time, he was brushing up on the questions when she came out of the classroom, and he came back; Behind him is Wen Tuoxi, who has been pressed by her grades when he entered the school, and he has surpassed her in less than half a year; Tan Xiao usually giggles, looks cynical, and his grades fluctuate, but the teacher just likes him.

They are all so good, they are still studying in a hurry, and she has worked hard, why can't she catch up.

In school, there is a class of classmates who are terrible, better than you, and harder than you. When you see them, you always think, what's the use of working hard?

Li Luchen returned to her seat and looked at the classmates in the classroom, like an invisible net covering her, the pressure hit like a mountain, like darkness invisible and silent, pressing her tired and desperate.

On the blackboard, everyone's quiz results are pasted.

Li Luchen is 39, and she ranks fifth from the bottom of the class.

- Scores are a golden section, online is a good student, offline is a poor student.

……

In the afternoon, the fourth self-study class.

The classmates were busy with their homework, but Li Luchen folded his arms on the table, looked ahead, muttered in his mouth, and after talking for a while, Ran Min in the front row turned his head and glared at her, Li Luchen suddenly laughed again, Ran Min rolled her eyes, and scolded her: "Neurotic." ”

Gradually, more and more classmates heard her stupid words, some students looked disgusted, and some students twisted their eyebrows helplessly. Because of the experience of her quarrel with Ran Min, no one wants to get into trouble again, and there are people who can't listen to it anyway.

Shen Zilu heard it and looked back at her, Li Luchen's expression and eyes were wrong, and Shen Zilu pushed Guan Zhengxing worriedly, "Do you think she is a little wrong?" ”

Guan Zhengxing turned around, looked at the subordinate, and said, "Hmm." ”

Ran Min was annoyed by her laughter, turned around and picked up the book on her desk and threw it at her, "You are sick, crying and laughing." If you are sick, go home for treatment. ”

Li Luchen put the book away and began to recite "Zou Ji Satirizes the King of Qi". "Zou Ji is more than eight feet tall, and his appearance is beautiful. Dressed in court clothes and looking in the mirror, he said to his wife: "Who am I with Xu Gongmei in the north of the city?" ”……”

Guan Zhengxing said, "You hurry up and find Teacher Xiao." ”

Shen Zilu hurriedly got up and walked out of the classroom, while the classmates sitting around Li Luchen looked at her with strange eyes.

Teacher Xiao was not in the office of the sophomore group, so Shen Zilu looked for other classrooms and saw Teacher Xiao in the second class on the podium.

Knocking on the door, Xiao Bichang saw Shen Zilu with an anxious face from the glass, "Let's read the second paragraph silently." With that, he walked out of the classroom.

"Is there something wrong?"

"Teacher Xiao, hurry back to the classroom and take a look at Li Luchen, she doesn't seem to be quite right."

Hearing this, Xiao Bichang hurried to the classroom, and Shen Zilu followed the teacher and said: "Everyone is studying on their own, and she suddenly began to recite "Zou Ji Satirizes the King of Qi's Admonition", and then laughed again. ”

Xiao Bichang quickened his pace, his face became more and more solemn, and when he arrived at the door of the classroom, he heard her recite loudly, "The ministers admonish, the door is like a market, after a few months, from time to time, after a period of years, although you want to speak, there is no one to enter." Yan Zhao, Han and Wei Wenzhi, all of them are in Qi ......"

"Li Luchen, Li Luchen," Teacher Xiao stood in front of her desk.

Li Luchen's eyes slowly moved up, and when he saw Teacher Xiao, he said very calmly, "I will recite it." ”

Teacher Xiao: "......"

The fourth class of the second year of high school is a class she leads, and it is the first time she has encountered this situation, so she is a little panicked, but she still has to be stable on her face.

She took Li Luchen to the office, and Shen Zilu went with her.

There were no other teachers in the office, so Teacher Xiao pulled over a chair, asked Li Luchen to sit down, and asked softly:

"Li Luchen, are you uncomfortable somewhere?"

Li Luchen's eyes were clear, and he shook his head and said, "No." ”

Shen Zilu and Teacher Xiao looked at each other, and saw that her current situation seemed to be regaining consciousness.

Teacher Xiao smiled and said, "Have you been under too much pressure to study lately?" ”

Li Luchen lowered his head, clasped his hands together, and rubbed vigorously.

"Li Luchen, if you have anything to say, just tell Teacher Xiao." Shen Zilu persuaded on the side, "Don't be afraid. ”

Li Luchen was silent, and only said after a moment of silence: "...... It's nothing. ”

Teacher Xiao and Shen Zilu exchanged glances again, got up and said, "You stay with her for a while, I'll go out." ”

"Okay."

As soon as the office door closed, Shen Zilu asked her in a low voice, "What's wrong with you?" Did Ran Min bully you again? ”

"Nope."

Li Luchen's eyes didn't look like she was lying, but Shen Zilu couldn't think of how she was fine before class, how could she study on her own halfway through class, and people would ...... Something isn't quite right.

At this time, Mr. Xiao used his mobile phone to call Li Luchen's parents, and after briefly explaining the situation, Li Luchen's parents immediately rushed here.

Shen Zilu had a good relationship with her in the class, and stayed in the office with Teacher Xiao and waited.

In the second period of the evening class, Li Luchen's parents arrived, and after she saw her family, she was a little emotional, and was persuaded to walk out of the school, and Shen Zilu and Teacher Xiao kept sending people to the door. Li Luchen stood by the car and looked at her reluctantly, and Shen Zilu said to her, "Bye, Li Luchen." ”

She didn't say goodbye, but took out another piece of pine nut cake from her pocket and gave it to Shen Zilu.

Until the car was about to drive into the corner, with the help of the street lights, Shen Zilu saw Li Luchen in the back row looking back at them.

The two returned to school, and Shen Zilu asked, "Teacher Xiao, is Li Luchen okay?" ”

Teacher Xiao smiled, "It's okay, I'll be back soon." ”

But a week later, Shen Zilu didn't wait for her to come back, but saw Li Luchen's parents come to the dormitory and class to clean up her things. She walked over and asked Li Luchen when she would come back, Li Luchen's mother had red blood in the whites of her eyes, and she was very haggard, and said to her:

"She transferred schools."

Shen Zilu: "......"

On the first day of the final exam of the second year of high school, Shen Zilu heard Shang Jinhua, who also lived in the same county, say that Li Luchen was hospitalized and admitted to a psychiatric hospital.

After dinner.

Shen Zilu sat on the roof of the experimental building, looking at Jiang Cheng thoughtfully in the afterglow.

There was a sound of footsteps behind her, and she didn't look back and heard that it was Guan Zhengxing, and then, the top of her head was rubbed by her, and Shen Zilu removed his hand in disgust.

"She can't come back."

Guan Zhengxing also just learned about Li Luchen's hospitalization from Sheng Hailuo, and he didn't have to think about it to know that Shen Zilu was going to feel uncomfortable.

He sat next to Shen Zilu, and the legs of the two hung down under the stage.

Guan Zhengxing looked at the remnant sun that was about to sink to the horizon and said: "Everyone has their own path to take, we start from the starting point, but not everyone can reach the end." Someone got off the bus along the way, which is the regret of youth. ”

Shen Zilu nodded, took out two pieces of pine nut cake from his pocket, one for Guan Zhengxing, and the other for himself.

"She gave it to me before she left, and she knew I liked sweets."

Guan Zhengxing opened the red wrapping paper, and the snow-white pine nut cake dispersed with a slight force, the powder was delicate, and the breeze took the white powder away from his fingers.

Shen Zilu licked it, sipped it with the tip of her tongue, and smiled into the distance, "She didn't lie to me, it's really sweet." ”

The sunset was red in their eyes, and he saw her smiling with tears in her eyes.

- Youth is an unforeseen and discrete journey.