Yu Jingning of You Ping's family rinsed his mouth with water, and fed some medicine into it, feeling much better than before.

The people below were busy inviting the doctor again, Tan Huaiyu sat on the edge of the bed, and saw that Yu Jingning was in good spirits, so he asked, "Brother Yu Xian, what do you think now?" ”

Yu Jingning took a sip of the medicine, took the water brought by the person below to rinse it twice, wiped his mouth with a towel, and smiled at Tan Huaiyu soothingly: "When I was lying down before, I always felt that my chest was boring and abnormal, but this mouthful of blood spit out is a lot clearer." I know that you are all for my good, and it is really hard work to keep it for the past few days. We have such a friendship, I don't know what to thank you for. ”

With that, he arched towards the two of them with a fist.

Gao Miao hurriedly pressed him: "We were stubborn when we were teenagers, and I knew a few of you well. Now who doesn't know the difficulties of your family, we are friends, what kind of thank you are for this kind of thing, you just have to be good now, lively, then I am happy. ”

Tan Huaiyu also said on the side: "What Gao Sanlang said is extremely true. Your great sorrow and sorrow hurt your body in the end. It's not that you won't be allowed to go to Jiangnan, but you are in your current shape, so you should slow down for a few more days and wait until your body is better before you go on the road. ”

Yu Jingning doesn't have to look at herself in the mirror, and she knows what kind of virtue she has become when she is sick in the past few days, and how ugly her face should be. Their worries were naturally reasonable, so they responded a few times.

The doctor came in, looked at Yu Jingning again, and said that he was free of worries, and then everyone was relieved. Gao Miao stayed for a day, and there was a shortage of people, so he said a few more words to Yu Jingning, and then went home.

Tan Huaiyu: "He guarded you for a day today, he should have changed me a long time ago, let him go back and rest." ”

Yu Jingning thanked Gao Miao again, and someone sent Gao Miao out.

Tan Huaiyu waited for his subordinates to bring Yu Jingning some porridge and side dishes, and after eating, he withdrew from everyone and asked Yu Jingning: "What you told me before, but is it true?" ”

"Nature is true." Yu Jingning's face became more and more pale under the moonlight, and said, "I have a clear conscience, but my heart is weak." Now that some people don't die, it should be me who dies, and my mother is still in the palace, if my mother's family collapses like this, how can she live in the palace. ”

"Do you regret it?" Tan Huaiyu suddenly asked, and couldn't tell what he was asking about regret.

The expression on Yu Jingning's face was not vivid, his phoenix eyes drooped, and his sword eyebrows lost the spirit of the past. He held the brocade quilt in his hand, the brocade was crumpled, and now if he looked closely, his hands were really much thinner, and the joints looked particularly distinct, and they were also miserable and white.

It took him a long time before he laughed, and he sounded like he was mocking himself: "Regret? What's the use of regretting? If you step out, there's no going back. ”

"Brother Yu Xian......" Tan Huaiyu wanted to speak and stopped, but in the end he didn't say anything.

"The Yu family has no way out, I should have known it from the beginning." Yu Jingning let go of the brocade quilt, he was sick, he was originally with loose hair, but now he stretched out his hand and gathered all the black hair at that end, "The Gu family of Shaoyang Wang, the Xun family of Duyu Wang, the lessons from the past are all there." It is also a sin for us to have military power in our hands, and it is also a sin to have no military power, and it is a dead end in the end. ”

"As for ......" Yu Jingning said this, he suddenly paused, and his words were blocked in his chest, but he couldn't find a few suitable words to describe it.

He bent down, hugged his head, tucked his fingers into his hair, and took a long breath as if out of breath.

Seeing that he was in pain, Tan Huaiyu gently raised his hand and held his shoulder: "I know that you are depressed in your heart, if you believe me, just say it." I know you're like this, but if you don't say it now, I'm afraid you'll regret it again in the future. ”

Yu Jingning raised his head, his eyes were red, he didn't take the handkerchief, he gritted his teeth for a while, and finally spoke: "As for Xiaoliu, I really don't know what to do with her." ”

Tan Huaiyu's body shook suddenly-he was not talking about Niangniang this time, but Xiaoliu.

He naturally knew that Yu Jingning and Yu Zhiwei had some inexplicable feelings, far beyond the relationship between brother and sister. But he is an outsider after all, where can he know the inside story in detail? was once given a face by Yu Jingning because of this matter, although Yu Jingning also apologized later, but he never asked about these things again.

I never thought that Yu Jingning would want to talk to him about this now.

Yu Jingning choked up a little: "I shouldn't have involved her in this struggle again." 'Rabbits and dogs cook, birds hide their bows' She had already passed once, when she was just a drooping child, and the helplessness in her heart was naturally unspeakable. But now, I put her in this situation again, and I still have a hard time, let alone her. ”

Losing and regaining is naturally ecstasy, but what kind of despair should there be when you can gain and lose.

"She owes me nothing, but now I owe her." Yu Jingning didn't dare to see Yu Zhiwei, his little sister was originally thin, and there was not a few taels of flesh around her, but now at a glance, she is even more haggard, no longer the original delicate, you don't have to think about it, she is working hard for the Yu family!

"But I can't imagine what she's going to do if I don't get her out of there. She should have grown up with gold and jade, how could she really live in such a stinky ditch, pretending to be a man for the rest of her life? Yu Jingning said that he was a little excited here, and he didn't know whether to laugh or cry, all kinds of emotions were mixed together, distorting a handsome face into a strange appearance, "I shouldn't have met her, and I shouldn't have had such feelings with her." Speaking of the right court, I, Yu Jingning, naturally have a clear conscience, but I am sorry for her alone. ”

When Tan Huaiyu heard this, he was surprised and couldn't help but sigh - Yu Jingning had never mentioned these things before, if it wasn't for the fact that she was very uncomfortable today, how could she tell herself.

"In the past, when I watched those dramas, they all said, 'I don't know what to do, I go deep, the living can die, and the dead can live.'" But those are actually telling some reunion stories of talented and beautiful people; After reading the books of the sages and sages, and only teaching people to 'be affectionate and courteous', where someone shows me a clear way, what should I do? Yu Jingning raised his head suddenly, looked at Tan Huaiyu, he couldn't see tears in his eyes, but he felt more broken than tears, "You know, it's naturally easy for the living to die, but what to do when you're alive?" ”

Yu Jingning confessed for a long time, and Tan Huaiyu couldn't spit out half a word of sentence by sentence, thinking that he and Gao Miao were both Qin Se and Ming, and Yu Jingning was the only one who suffered here.

"Well, in today's situation, it is not the time to talk about the love of these children, and it is ultimately frustrating. It's just that I fainted from my illness today, and I talked nonsense for a long time, which made Ji Yu smile. Yu Jingning put on her clothes and wanted to get up, "I'll go to the palace and hand over a pair of cards, I need to see Niangniang." ”