47 Don't look at me like this
Grandma has never been sorry for anyone in her life, she is generous and generous, regardless of the gains and losses of interests, she raised an uncle who is not related by blood, and she has never been sorry for her aunt. Even Deng Xuan, although he doesn't have such deep feelings for his grandmother, he still has respect.
So my grandmother exchanged her death for peace tonight.
My aunt's eyes were red, and she pulled Yun Shan and said, "I'm sorry, Xiaoshan, you go first, and we'll call you when Mom is buried." ”
In the end, she watched the child grow up, greedy for a while, she did something wrong, but she never thought of killing Yun Shan, in fact, as soon as the news came out, she regretted it. Yun Shan has long been well-behaved, and when she is still young next year, she knows that she will stand by the sink and wash the dishes seriously.
Chen Suping doesn't like her and thinks she's a drag oil bottle, but knows that she is a good boy.
Chen Suping was incited to be greedy to do that, and she couldn't sleep well all night, and she was even woken up violently. Even if she doesn't have the fate to be a family, she doesn't need to hurt others.
When Yun Shan left this time, even Deng Xuan, who often embarrassed her, just watched quietly, didn't make any noise, and didn't say anything ugly.
Grandma exchanged death for the peaceful situation she is now.
There was a bottle of sleeping pills in front of the bed, and the letter left by her grandmother to Yun Shan was pressed underneath. It was a long letter, from when she learned to walk when she was a child, to how happy she ran home when she learned that she had been admitted to college. Yun Shan is the most stupid and innocent, and the most gentle and simple.
- You are not alone, you will always be a treasure in the hearts of some people.
Grandma said that she was too tired, she had done something in her life that disturbed her conscience, but the illness made her live comfortably, she told Shanshan to want to open some, to be able to see Yun Shan's play, she was already content in this life. She said that she had dragged Yun Shan down for so many years, and if Yun Shan still thought of her, don't hate her. She waited for so long, and finally waited for the day she left, Yun Shan fulfilled Deng Ya's wish, and she could die peacefully.
Yun Shan cried while watching, and couldn't cry. This time, she finally saw her grandmother's last face before entering the earth, and sent the old man on her last journey, which can be regarded as making up for the shortcomings of her previous life. Maybe life goes round and round, and only by regardless of gains and losses, can you live a relaxed and happy life.
While Yun Shan was sad, she also let go of a lot in her heart. She can't make decisions for her grandmother, and if she lives more painfully than she dies, she doesn't have the right to forcibly keep people.
At the end of the letter, my grandmother mentioned Mo Zhuoyi......
Yun Shan's fingers that pinched the letter paper were slightly white because she was too hard. That night, they stood in the rain, his eyes faintly red, and a look of danger in his eyes.
She couldn't stand that kind of look, it was so terrible, as if the next moment, he wanted to bite her, even blood and flesh, and swallow it into his abdomen.
Yun Shan thought about it, dared to get closer, and stood on tiptoe to cover his eyes. The fierce and cold madness was all covered by her little hands.
Mo Zhuoyi's world fell into darkness, and his body froze and didn't dare to move. This was the first time Yun Shan had taken the initiative to touch him...... I don't know why, but his heart is beating out of control.
Yun Shan bit her lip, and her voice was still a little hoarse, "Don't look at me like this, I'm afraid." ”
Mo Zhuoyi couldn't help but tremble. What does it feel like to be in this moment? She said that she was afraid, and he subconsciously wanted to admit his mistake and coax her. Mo Zhuoyi has lived for twenty-nine years, and at the age of Ben San, he is so cold that he has never been afraid or regretted anything, but he regrets what he just said at the moment.
Even if these words were only the tip of the iceberg compared to what Luo Shuxin said, they were nothing at all, but when he thought about it, he still felt terrified.
He knew that he wasn't normal, so he had to pretend to be in front of her. This was also a strategy discussed with Luo Shuxin, but at that time he was really on the verge of despair, and he was afraid that she would sentence him to death.
Mo Zhuoyi didn't know what was written in that letter, but even if he didn't think about it, he knew that it was against him. With Yun Shan's feelings for her grandmother, he felt that it was clearly a death sentence from him.
Although he calmed down, he carefully analyzed his behavior, except for giving money, he didn't do anything else, as if he didn't need to be so panicked at all. But his keen instincts told him that the letter was more than that.
Mo Zhuoyi's whole body was cold, and the only temperature he could feel was the small hand in front of his eyes. He curled the corners of his mouth, "It was all a joke just now, didn't you get scared?" ”
Yun Shan is not stupid, who would be so scary when joking, the corners of her eyes and eyebrows are dyed with madness. Mo Zhuo wanted to cover up, but she was also afraid of his appearance, so she fell silent and did not answer.
Mo Zhuoyi didn't dare to touch her hand, he coveted this beautiful feeling. Her initiative, the touch of her body, whether it was out of fear of him or something else, he was afraid that she would take a step back.
As long as she is forward, close to him, even if she has a dagger in her hand and the tip of the knife against his heart, he can handle it calmly and contentedly. He cut her heart himself, and he could let her cut a thousand cuts, as long as she didn't throw it away.
Yun Shan's hands stiffened, the height difference was there, she was tired of lifting, and her hands became cold after a while when they were outside.
Mo Zhuoyi lowered his head, like a stone that couldn't feel the warmth and cold, motionless.
Yun Shan withdrew her trembling fingers and saw a smile in his eyes. The terrible anger dissipated, and she couldn't help but feel a little dazed.
He was so easy to coax, as if she was doing something casually, as long as she didn't push him away, he would feel satisfied. In his past and present lives, he has always been like this.
She still remembers kissing him the first time, and the next day he was planted with roses outside the villa, and he had to carry her for a walk in the garden.
"Shanshan, like it or not? It's the first time for Lao Tzu to please a woman like this, don't you feel moved? ”
The sun shone down, Yun Shan lay on his back, whispering his wishes, "Then you let me go home." ”
Mo Zhuoyi laughed, "Think beautifully." ”
He had never planted flowers before, so he didn't know the essentials, and his hands were full of injuries. At that time, my grandmother had not passed away, and she was still looking forward to love and looking forward to the future.
At this time, Yun Shan lowered her head and looked at the letter in her hand. Grandma said, never like him, never fall in love with him.
Yun Shan closed her eyes, she has experienced two lives, she will not be stupid to believe the words on the paper, she only believes in herself.
She was confused, she felt that life was like a big dream, and when she woke up from the dream, she fell into another reincarnation. The once paid has become vain and unworthy, but what she hates seems to be not as simple as she thinks.
Yun Shan's cold has not yet recovered, and not long ago she cried in front of her grandmother's window, her eyes were a little hollow, and her face was slightly pale. She looked very haggard.
Mo Zhuoyi asked in a low voice, "Shall we go to the hotel first?" ”
Yun Shan nodded and followed him to a nearby hotel. Mo Zhuoyi's whole body was already soaked, dripping with water. And her cheeks were pale and her eyes were slightly swollen.
Mo Zhuoyi asked for two rooms and sent Yun Shan to the door. She walked in and gently closed the door.
A familiar scene, the last time he stayed in a hotel, he chased her and insisted on giving her the amethyst anklet, which scared her a lot.
Mo Zhuoyi didn't ask about the content of the letter again, and Yun Shan didn't mention it.
Mo Zhuoyi called the front desk and asked to send a set of clothes. It was the first time that the front desk had met such a guest, although their place was relatively remote, but they had prepared bathrobes for guests, and no guest had ever needed this kind of service.
Mo Zhuoyi's price was enough to make people excited, and the front desk couldn't help but ask, "Sir, do you still want to go out?" ”
"Hmm."
It didn't take long for the clothes to be delivered.
When Mo Zhuoyi took a bath and passed by the hotel lobby cleanly, the front desk hurriedly handed him the umbrella and watched the man's tall back disappear into the rainy night.
"It's raining so hard, why is he going out?" The front desk was very curious, but she also knew that she was not good at inquiring about the private affairs of the guests. She was on duty tonight, so she simply chatted with her best friend, "Just now we came to the hotel with a couple with super good looks." ”
"Don't believe it, that handsome guy just went out, if he has a chance to come back, I'll take a picture for you to see."
"It's raining, and I don't know what he's doing out there."
But fortunately, the front desk doesn't chase stars and doesn't watch dramas much, so I didn't recognize Yun Shan. She chatted with her best friend for about ten minutes, and the man came back.
The front desk saw him carrying a guitar. There was indeed a musical instrument store nearby, but who would have thought that he would run out so late to buy a guitar! The front desk was so surprised that they forgot to take a candid photo.
Mo Zhuoyi took the elevator up and walked straight to Yun Shan's room.
He knocked on the door, and Yun Shan asked in a low voice, "Who?" ”
"I'll open the door."
Yun Shan had already taken a bath and lay down warmly under the quilt. She had the experience of the last time and didn't want to open the door for him, "I'm going to sleep." ”
Mo Zhuoyi softened his voice, "It's only five minutes, okay?" ”
Yun Shan hesitated, knowing that he would not leave easily, and got out of bed to open the door for him.
Mo Zhuoyi was dressed casually and looked much younger. With the cold air outside, the moment he saw Yun Shan, he immediately smiled.
Yun Shan found him holding a guitar, and his black and white eyes reflected his happy mood at this time. She knew he could do a lot, such as shooting, horseback riding, and racing, but she didn't know that he could play the guitar.
Mo Zhuoyi is almost thirty years old, and he began to learn to play the guitar when he was in junior high school, and now he has a very long memory when he thinks about it.
At the time, I just thought it was handsome to play the guitar, but after a while, I scoffed at it. In those years, he learned a lot of bad things, smoking, drinking, fighting, and never touching the guitar again.
At that time, the guitar teacher smiled and said, "If you play it to any girl in the future, she will die happily." ”
He sneered lightly at that time, feeling that no one could be worthy of him Mo Shao to please. But when he thought of Yun Shan at this time, she was nine years younger than him, would a girl of that age really like this kind of thing?
If someone had told him ten years ago that you would touch your black history in order to please others, he would definitely want to beat that person to death. However, at this moment, he was standing outside Yun Shan's door, wanting to give her everything he had. As soon as she was sad, his heart would be broken.
Yun Shan blinked, puzzled, "Mo Zhuoyi, what are you doing?" ”
Mo Zhuoyi's voice was gentle, "Sing to you." He was afraid of rejection, so he hurriedly added: "Five minutes is fine, don't laugh at me if you don't sing well." ”
Yun Shan didn't know how to deal with this kind of scene, she had to admit that Mo Zhuoyi had always been a domineering and unreasonable illiterate person in her heart, probably also incomplete in five tones, she had never heard him sing.
She shook her head, "No, it's too late, you go to sleep." "I don't know how the soundproofing of the room is.
Mo Zhuoyi leaned against the door, slung the guitar on his shoulder, his slender fingers swiped at random on it, and the sound of the guitar echoed in the empty corridor.
He was in a casual posture and smiled a little ruffian, "If you don't like it, I'll play it outside, huh?" ”
Yun Shan couldn't do anything about him, and even forgot about her sadness for the time being. She glanced outside, "That'...... Then you come in. ”
Mo Zhuoyi strode into the room, directly picked up the quilt and wrapped her, "Go to the bed and listen, it's cold outside." Then he sat down on the couch and tuned his tone.
Yun Shan was wrapped by him so that only a small face was exposed. She could tell he was serious, so she waited quietly.
Mo Zhuoyi is twenty-nine years old, and the temperament of those sunny and handsome little boys in her school is completely different. He has long since faded away from the youthful vigor and youthfulness, leaving behind a mature and introverted one, perhaps because he usually doesn't like to laugh, his side face is cold, he looks gloomy and difficult to get along with when he doesn't speak, and he is also fierce when he squints.
At this time, he lowered his head, with a smile in his eyes, and a mellow voice, singing an old song "Love Must Be Done" many years ago, and it seemed that the air around him had become gentle.