58. Voice
Saying goodbye to Zhao Xiaotian, Liang Lei looked at the time and decided to go back to the hotel first. walked to the side of the road and was about to reach out to take a taxi, but at this time, a voice suddenly sounded behind him: "Where are you going?" I'll send you. ”
Liang Lei was startled at first, and when she turned around, she found that it was actually Yang Chen. I don't know when he was standing behind him, but he looked at him blankly.
Seeing that she didn't speak, Yang Chen had to ask again: "Where do you want to go?" I'll drop you off, and my car will be parked not far away. ”
"No...... No, no. As soon as Liang Lei opened her mouth, she found that her tongue was knotted. She didn't want to give this man a chance to reprimand herself at all, anyway, since the reunion, she felt that this man had not had a good attitude towards her.
“…… Alas! Yang Chen thought that Liang Lei would refuse herself nine times out of ten, and it was purely hot in her mind to come out and talk to her, but when she really rejected herself unceremoniously, she still couldn't say uncomfortable.
Liang Lei was inexplicable, had he reached the point where he wanted to sigh when he saw him? Anyway, the two of them have gotten along once, as for it! It's really annoying, and I didn't have a good temper and said, "If Mr. Yang doesn't have anything to advise, I'll leave first." "Since the other party is unhappy when he sees him, he can't afford to provoke him, so let's go. Turn around and take a taxi from another place.
Yang Chen's face became more and more unsightly, did she dislike herself so much? Do you have to avoid yourself like this, and you can't even stand together and say a few words?
Seeing that she suddenly turned around to leave, and her brain was hot, he grabbed her arm without thinking and walked in the direction where he parked.
Liang Lei was completely stunned. What the hell is this?!
But the height gap between the two is already large, not to mention physically, Liang Lei is almost powerless to fight back. was suddenly pulled so that his feet almost fell off the ground, and he was so frightened that he desperately tried to break free: "What are you doing?" You're crazy! ”
But the more she struggled, the more angry he became, and grabbed the woman's shoulders harder and hugged her. Although it was only a few steps away, let Liang Lei cry wolf, punch and kick, ignore the strange eyes of passers-by, and finally dragged her close to her car.
"Don't move!" Yang Chen suppressed all his good temper and finally said angrily.
Sure enough, this roar was deterrent, and Liang Lei finally quieted down, her hands still staying in the air to be waved down again.
Both of them squeezed into the back of the car, and after Liang Lei reacted, she instinctively wanted to grab the door and escape, but found that the car door had been locked by this man and couldn't be opened at all. Moreover, she now seriously realizes that this man has changed a lot from when he left, and he is no longer the docile boy who will listen to him and follow him in everything. And he has become a fierce, cold, black-bellied bastard!
"What the hell do you want to do?" If you can't escape, then face it directly, although it is a little dark on the side of the road, but it will not be broken up in this place.
Yang Chen stopped, looked at the woman who was huddled in the corner of the car, but was still showing her teeth and claws, and it took a long time to find her voice: "Lei'er, I miss you!" ”
His affectionate, deep and soft voice drilled straight into his ears and brain, and he couldn't stop it. Liang Lei was about to burst into tears for a moment, biting her lip and not daring to say anything, and after a while, she responded coldly: "Hmph! Is it? So far, what is there to think about? Now you, don't you want the wind to be windy, and you want to be rainy? Who else can stand in your way? Think of something useless to do! ”
Yang Chen was choked speechless, knowing that in front of her, no matter what he said, he owed more. Back then, she must have been difficult to let go of her departure at that time.
Seeing that he stopped talking, Liang Lei sneered again and said, "In that case, can Mr. Yang let me get out of the car?" Our current identity is a mentor and a student, and I am not suitable to appear here, and it will not affect you well. ”
"Leil! That's not true! Yang Chen was so angry that he rushed forward and trapped the woman in front of him between himself and the carriage.
Liang Lei didn't expect him to be enraged again, so he suddenly pounced, and was so frightened that he hurriedly dodged back. How much space can you hide in the big carriage, and he was immediately trapped in it by his powerful arms, and the breaths of both of them were intertwined, heavy and lingering.
"What the hell do you want to do! Jody. Liang Lei is already crying, this man is too offensive now, and he seems to have no way to deal with him except to defend in embarrassment.
“…… I went to see Zhang Xiao, just a few days ago. Yang Chen looked at the frightened little woman in his arms and said gloomily.
And Liang Lei's heart was like being punched hard by something - what did he do with Zhang Xiao? What did Zhang Xiao tell him again? Regarding his past and experience in the past five years, he knows everything. So, he is like this because he pities himself and sympathizes with himself, right?
Looking at Liang Lei, whose face was gradually pale, Yang Chen finally said slowly: "I'm sorry, Lei'er." ...... year It's all my fault. It's because I have too much self-esteem and feel that I've been hurt, so I choose to run away. At that time, I actually had no self-confidence, and I was afraid that I would not be able to give you a bright future. That's why every word your dad says makes me so poignant. If only I could have been a little stronger......"
"Don't say it!!" Liang Lei roared, holding back tears.
But the heart is screaming: Why? Obviously you are gone, obviously I have survived those days, and obviously I have slowly accepted everything. But why did you come back? Why are you telling me all this stuff? And what can it change?
"Lei'er, I'm ......"
"Yang Chen, you really don't need to feel guilty or anything. It's none of your business! This is my life, this is my ups and downs, this is my own choice. Cause and effect! I don't blame you, really! So, please don't say anything like that to me again, okay? ”
Liang Lei buried her face in her hands and cried, I was afraid that I would look for hope in despair, and I was afraid that my dead heart would rekindle. No, I don't have anything more to throw back and lose......
"Lei'er, let me make it up to you, okay? We...... Do it all over again, okay? Yang Chen also choked up.
"Do it all over again? Hum! How can we start all over again, and can the dead be brought back to life? Liang Lei was already in tears at this time.
God knows! She didn't want to start all over again, she didn't look forward to opening her eyes every day and everything would come back to square one. Mom and Dad were still there, smiling softly at her, at that time, she didn't know Yang Chen.
"We ...... Let's start over and I'll love you as much as I did before. No, no, no! I will love you more than ever! Good no good? Yang Chen was excited, and hugged Liang Lei tightly in his arms.
And this time, Liang Lei did not struggle, or rather, some memories and some pictures have tormented her powerlessly.
Liang Lei leaned quietly in his arms for a long time, and finally slowly moved her lips and said, "Yang Chen, I never regret that I loved you. It's just that we can't go back. Some things are irretrievable, some memories are lingering, and some promises are to be kept in this life......"
I promised my parents' spirits in heaven that in this life, I will never go to you again and be with you.
Yang Chen's heart was about to crack when he heard this, he hugged her tighter, and slowly responded: "Lei'er, a living person cannot be bound by a dead person for a lifetime. Moreover, I believe that their real desire is not that we cannot be together, but that I want to give you happiness. ”
"But what is happiness?" It has long since gone with the 'parting of life and death' that you brought me.
"It's okay, I know it's sudden, it's difficult for you right now. But I'll wait for you, no matter how long, I'll wait for you! It was solemnly made again like a vow.
Once, it was you who used the most beautiful time to warm my cold winter. Now, I want to use my light to lead you out of the rest of your life......
Liang Lei was in a trance, raised her head in confusion, and looked at this man who should have been strange, but was so familiar. Every word he said was like a hammer, smashing in his heart.
She admits that she is about to fall easily.
Yang Chen gently held up Liang Lei's face, it has been five years, and almost nothing has changed. At this moment, her face flashed in her eyes, so close, so crystalline.
Her slightly open lips from the stunned made his mouth dry, and just as he was about to catch hers, she suddenly came to her senses and tilted her head to the side.
Although it was missed, it also made Yang Chen's heart flutter. She doesn't seem to be rejecting herself as much as she used to. Yes, she needs time, and all the scars can be repaired by time.
In the five years of separation, he will inevitably use the next 50 years, or even longer, to compensate, but this 'compensation' makes him happy.
In the end, Liang Lei couldn't say anything about Yang Chen, and she didn't want to quarrel with him later, so she could only send herself back to the express hotel by him in silence. Along the way, she didn't say anything, and neither did he.
After arriving, he inspected up and down again, insisting that it would be better for her to change her home, the so-called safer, but all of them were rejected by Liang Lei. The two argued again, so that Liang Lei was about to get angry, so he unwillingly turned around and left.
Liang Lei, who returned to the room alone, collapsed on the bed and took a few deep breaths.
She was very clear that deep down in her heart, he never left, but was always suppressed by herself. But now this depression has become vulnerable after the contact between the two, and all the thoughts and desires are like thunder and fire, roaring out. Facing him and the future, Liang Lei fell into confusion again.
But as long as she relaxes herself, that sense of guilt for her parents will come out, tormenting her to the point that life is worse than death. But now that the person she thinks about day and night is right in front of her, where should she go......