50. Heart knots
Since last night's milk incident, Liang Lei's mentality towards Yang Chen has rebounded and reversed, and she no longer wants to avoid it, after dealing with her at close range, it seems that even if she meets again, it doesn't seem so uncomfortable.
Qiao Shanshan later said to herself that Teacher Yang didn't know that Liang Lei had such strange allergies to milk, so she caused a misunderstanding.
After calming down, Liang Lei also understood in his heart that he really didn't know what happened later, and it is estimated that his impression of himself was only five years ago.
At that time, I was indeed a milk doll, and I didn't mean to fix myself when I gave milk, on the contrary, it was probably a gesture of goodwill.
But the world is so impermanent, no one will know what happened later, but the world is so helpless, some relationships have changed qualitatively, and there is no going back......
Yang Chen really didn't appear in front of Liang Lei again for the next three days. And she didn't bother to understand why, she only focused all her attention on serious study, after all, the last place before was a very slap in the face and hurt her self-esteem for Liang Lei. Therefore, the past few days have suddenly flown by, and there are less than three days left before the second simulation game.
On the fourth day, Yang Chen appeared in the training room again, he was also a member of the mentor group, and he was going to participate in the face-to-face teaching of the students, although there were not many courses arranged.
Liang Lei no longer has the nervousness she had before, and she can face him more freely. Although listening to his lectures and looking at his face, I still wander from time to time, and my thoughts drift far away inadvertently, but after all, there are no bigger waves and the previous helplessness.
Yang Chen asked himself to look at Liang Lei's eyes with restraint and forbearance. She had made it clear that day - she hated herself! In that case, why bother to go up. She has a new life, a new pursuit, and it's time for her to let go.
The two of them were obviously under the same roof, looking up and not looking down, but they passed a few days without incident, and each other's deepest obsession turned into endless regrets and buried them in the bottom of their hearts......
"It's a simulation game tomorrow, how are you preparing?" Meng Hao asked.
Liang Lei put down the sheet music in her hand with a smile, nodded and said, "Well, try not to make mistakes this time." ”
"Hahaha...... If you play normally, then you can sweep through thousands of armies. ”
"Although I know that Brother Tai has won the award, I still borrow your auspicious words."
Qiao Shanshan also jumped over: "Sister Liang must be okay this time, I cried yesterday." ”
"yes, it's not easy to make you cry." Meng Hao quipped.
"What do you mean?" Qiao Shanshan's eyes widened.
"I said that you are an easy and happy baby, how good it is to have no heart and lungs, don't be as easy to be sad as me, you can't be envied by many people."
Liang Lei didn't answer, Qiao Shanshan does have a lot of similarities with herself eight years ago, she was also sunny, heartless, and lived a chic and comfortable life.
The song to be sung tomorrow is "Father" by the Chopsticks Brothers, because next month is Dad's birthday, and that day is also Mom's death day. In the past, she was seriously ill at that time, and Huang Minliang always guarded herself every inch during this time, for fear that there would be a mistake, and he would follow them.
Thinking of this, Liang Lei gently held the string of red pomegranate beads on her left wrist, which was given to her by Huang Minliang, it was not a valuable thing, but it could cover the scar on her left wrist that had now turned light pink.
That wound was cut by Liang Lei herself.
On the first day of her mother's death, she chose to sacrifice to death, and after cutting her wrists, when the blood was about to die, Huang Minliang actually appeared, and she was stunned and dragged her back from the hands of death.
On her mother's second death day, Liang Lei was at the height of her depression, she chose to exile herself, took a lot of sleeping pills, and finally plunged the world into darkness, thinking that she would never hear the strong condemnation from the outside world and her own heart, Huang Minliang miraculously rescued herself again.
failed to die twice, and Liang Lei finally gave up even choosing death. There is nothing in this world that is worth her efforts to fight for, including life and death.
During the long treatment process, Huang Minliang always accompanied her, never gave up, and finally covered her dark heart little by little. Under the multiple treatments of psychological counseling and medication, Liang Lei gradually got out of depression, transferred from the hospital to a nursing home, and did not re-enter society until the end of last year.
Now, Liang Lei can finally look back and face the departure of her parents, especially after meeting Yang Chen, the unhappy way of meeting and reuniting between the two made her open her heart even more, and clearly realize that the past is in the past and the dead are gone!
Today, Liang Lei takes this stage very seriously, and ties her long hair into a ponytail, neatly and neatly. also cooperated with the styling teacher to put on stage makeup, wearing a set of wide navy blue gowns of the forest women's system, just put on her already thin body, which made her look more weak and delicate.
When it was her turn to play, she took a deep breath in front of everyone and the cameras again. No longer evasively glanced at Yang Chen, he also looked at himself, not too close, he couldn't see clearly behind the reflective lenses, what was he thinking.
Quickly retracting his thoughts, he nodded his head to the backing band behind him, and the slow music began to play.
In fact, when Yang Chen knew that Liang Lei was singing "Father" today, it was a little uncomfortable. This way of directly expressing love through singing made him quite complaining, he had long known that her father was her god and her Buddha, and now she had to sing and chant through the competition, is it a bit exaggerated and excessive. She is already twenty-six, is she still alive under her father's wing? When is it going to be.
"I always ask for you, but I never say thank you, until I grow up, I don't understand that you are not easy to ......"
Liang Lei's voice was low, as if she was telling a story, gentle and tactful, and eloquent. It's obviously gentle, with the unique delicacy of girls, but it seems to hit the hearts of the audience below. Before I knew it, some people were already in tears, listening to other people's songs, and falling into their own story memories.
"I am willing to exchange everything I have for your long stay, am I your pride? Still worried about me? O child you care! Grow up......"
Singing here, Liang Lei's eyes were also dyed with a faint mist, as she said - Dad, the child you care about has grown up!
The accompaniment finally stopped slowly, and the room was silent again. It wasn't until someone in the corner applauded lightly that everyone present woke up like a dream and clapped their hands.
"Did you make a big move this time?" One of the judges wiped away tears from his eyes, then looked up and asked with a smile.
"Huh? What is the ultimate? Liang Lei didn't quite understand it, today, she felt that she was just singing a song seriously.
“…… Hahaha, interesting. ”
"Well, the sound is good, although some details in the middle are generally flawed, but there is a lot of emotion." Tang Yuting also nodded.
After the tutors commented one by one, it was Yang Chen's turn again. I saw him slowly pick up the microphone and say, "Well, that's good." At least compared to last week, there is a significant improvement, which is very surprising and pleasantly surprised. It can be seen that the preparation this time is still very sufficient. It's just that...... Wouldn't it be a little earlier to sing this song now? After all, this simulation game is not broadcast live, your dad is ...... I can't hear it. ”
…… Everyone hesitated, not quite understanding the meaning of Yang Chen's words.
Liang Lei was also stunned for a moment, then shrugged and said, "He can hear it." ”
"Oh?" Yang Chen raised his eyebrows.
"The stereo is loud enough, he's up there, he can hear it." With that, he smiled and pointed above him.
Yang Chen didn't know how to pick it up all of a sudden, he just looked at her in a daze, but his heart was beating like thunder, as if something was about to come out.
Liang Lei didn't say anything, Shi Shiran turned around and walked off the stage.
In the evening, Yang Chen sat in the office flipping through a bunch of materials, these were all detailed introductions to this group of students, and each of them had a thick stack. I hadn't read it carefully before, firstly, because he was busy and had no time, and secondly, he trusted his judgment after contact with people more than the text introduction on paper.
Finally, from the thick pile of papers, he found her bag, pulled it out and looked at it carefully.
When he opened the column where he saw his parents, he found two words written like thunder in his ears: deceased!
How so? His parents...... It's all gone? In just five years? So how did she get here alone? It seems that there is some incomprehensible mystery about her.
even trembled a little and continued to flip back, and found that in the record of her learning process, it was actually written in the column of her college career - quitting school after taking a break! According to the above time, she actually applied for suspension in the year after she went abroad, and applied for withdrawal the next year! What's going on? So that she didn't even finish college!
Looking back, Yang Chen's heart almost jumped out. Most of her life over the years has been in hospitals and nursing homes. What the hell is going on?! Is she sick with something?
Flipping down, he saw the column about love again, and the filling was: Yes!
Hehe! In an instant, the strength in her body was drained, although she had long realized it and had been mentally prepared, but it was still unacceptable to see the silk handwriting she wrote on it. She...... If you really have a boyfriend, it should be the doctor!
Although there was no more valuable information coming out later, the first few were enough for Yang Chen to slow down for a long time. He sat straight in the sofa chair and looked out the window.
Perhaps, in the years since she left, she has not had a good time.
But so what! Does it have anything to do with yourself? Now that he is here, can he stand by her side again? The sun gradually sank into the horizon, just like Yang Chen's heart, and was in various struggles, and then slowly calmed down, and fell back into darkness......