"The guy who doesn't have enough to do and more than he loses." Kang Qing was very angry.

"I know, even if I don't do it, you will kill her, I don't plan to protect her, I can't protect her, so if you do it, I'll watch." Su Yinan said lightly.

"You're watching?" Kang Qing seemed to have heard some big joke, "Do you look at you and bear it?" ”

"It's because I can't bear it that I don't look at it, and it's even more sad."

"You are such a strange person, the world wants to escape, but you are in a hurry to face the reality. Haha interesting. ”

Su Yinan smiled, it's funny, he also thinks it's funny, after all, he still doesn't like it enough.

I don't like Shen Xiwan enough to fall in love with a woman who loves me. It's not worth living this life.

In fact, he had already thought about it, if that day really came, he would accompany Shen Mengfan to go.

I have done too many wrong things in my life, and I have many regrets, but my only regret is that I couldn't tie you Shen Xiwan to me in this life.

I've always regretted not loving people, Mengfan, I'm sorry.

Shen Xiwan, you once told me that I ruined a good girl with my own hands, and now that I think about it, I am really a scumbag.

That girl had given me her youth, but I couldn't gamble with her, so I'm losing all the time, and I'm to blame.

I know that no amount of sorry can make up for my mistakes, so I am willing to accompany Mengfan.

We won't drink Meng Po soup, we will remember the past, and if we can ferry back, then we will make up for it in the next life.

But at that point, you won't want to see me.

But if I really have a next life, I will love Shen Mengfan well, from childhood sweethearts to campus wedding dresses, and keep walking, for a lifetime.

This is probably Su Yinan's last sincere words in his life. It is also the last wish.

He was begging for Shen Xiwan's forgiveness.

...........

"Hey, I'll fly to country F tomorrow, don't you sleep yet." Lin Yan stayed in the Lu Mansion that night.

She looked at the woman who was kneeling at the table and didn't know what she was writing.

As a result, this woman has no head and no brain; said, "You said that I left Lu Yichen aside tonight to accompany you, would he be so angry that he died." ”

excuse me？

Lin Yan rolled his eyes directly, "Obviously, you want to come over by yourself." ”

"Tomorrow I will fly to country F, and I will start the game after three days of rest, but I haven't written the words yet." Shen Xiwan rubbed her hair.

Lin Yan stepped forward and looked at the woman's notebook.

I only saw a crossed-out lyric, and I wanted to bring light to illuminate his dim life.

Lin Yan blinked, "Isn't this sentence good, why cross it out." ”

"I can't pick it up."

"Huh?"

"It's too mismatched." Shen Xiwan poked her face with a pen, "It's a bit like an angel coming." ”

Lin Yan somehow seemed to be poked at the point of laughter and began to have a meal, and Shen Xiwan evolved from being at a loss to smirking with her.

"What's your subject?" Only then did Lin Yan restrain his smile and began to ask.

"There's no subject matter, whatever comes to mind."

"Then you should think more about your brother-in-law." Shen Jiayao from here suddenly came in from outside the door. "I just saw that the light in the study was still on."

"Why don't you sleep yet?" Shen Xiwan pulled Shen Jiayao to sit beside her.

"As soon as I finished writing my notes, I poured a glass of water and drank it, and I heard you talking."

Shen Jiayao picked up Shen Xiwan's notebook, read it for a long time and said a few words,

His mysterious face, his eyes were calm and clean. It wasn't until later that I realized that it was what he saw the light looked like. He said that I came to him like a salvation, with a light to illuminate his dim life, and I wanted to accompany him to the extent that I could. ”

The last sentence was said by Shen Xiwan and Shen Jiayao in unison.

Shen Xiwan nodded with satisfaction, "Thank you, old girl." Then he turned around and picked up the pen and continued to write.

Lin Yan looked at Shen Jiayao meaningfully, but also smiled, "Sister, I haven't been hurt a thousand or eight hundred times, and I can't say such a philosophical sentence." ”

"Everyone has a light in their life that illuminates them, and I am no exception." Shen Jiayao didn't hide anything, and said it directly.

It's easy to be tempted at the age when love is just beginning.

"So, what kind of ending is it?" Lin Yan asked.

"The story is very heartwarming, but the ending is very sloppy. Just like my composition, there is no end that satisfies me. Shen Jiayao was very calm, as if she was saying something inconsequential.

Lin Yan smiled, "I'd love to hear it." ”

Shen Xiwan on the side also put down her pen and moved it, motioning for her to continue.

She had never cared about her sister's feelings, and now she just wanted to listen to her tell the story.

"That was when I first started school." Shen Jiayao said slowly, "The school held an entrance ceremony to welcome new students, although he is a year older than me, he starts school late. ”

"We were in a class, and we didn't even enter the class at that time, so we were stopped by the teacher and stood in line on the playground. He was standing next to me, a head taller than me, a very clean boy, and in the later contact I found that he was indeed clean, and there was no distraction in his heart. ”

"I was arranged by Ban Ren to be a tablemate, and he didn't speak at first, and I was always making trouble next to him. The first thing he said to me was, 'Lend me your homework.'" Shen Jiayao said and smiled.

"That summer, the sky was very blue, and the people I liked were still by my side."

"Gradually, he will also start to chat with me in class, obviously sitting together and still want to write a note, the other side of the headset will always be left for me, the password of the mobile phone is my birthday, will help me bring breakfast intentionally or unintentionally, help me fetch water after class, see me fall asleep on the table and cover me with clothes, he is the class leader, I can be presumptuous and not hand in homework once or twice."

"I still remember one time when I was suffering from heat stroke in the playground at a school event, I heard from my classmate that he ran immediately when he heard the news, picked me up in a panic and sent me to the infirmary, and he was by my side when I woke up." Shen Jiayao paused when she said this, "It seems that the last time I fainted, the person around me was the second sister." Shen Jiayao looked at Shen Xiwan.

"We've been through a year like this."

"A year later, in the summer, we didn't expect something to happen to his family. My mother fell ill and left, and my father's business was losing money. He's going to transfer and leave. ”

"I went to see him off the day he left. He looked at me with his suitcase in his hands, and there was no emotion in his clean eyes, just looking at me like that, until his flight said that it was going to start checking, and there were no words of reluctance, and there was nothing to give me, and he just walked away without looking back. ”

Lin Yan was stunned, isn't it Qi Muxian who is not in the old age?

Cough... The style of painting is off.

"I don't have that much ability to keep him, he's gone, and not saying anything is the best way to separate." Shen Jiayao looked out the window, not knowing what she was thinking.

"He's the cleanest boy I've ever seen, and he's the best guy I've ever treated except for my second sister and grandfather."

Shen Xiwan looked at Shen Jiayao, "I know that I can't keep him, so what were you thinking about at the time." ”

There must be sadness.

"I'm thinking about what we'll be like if he doesn't go. But there were no exceptions, I just wanted to look at him, just look at him, and have his face engraved in my mind for the rest of my life. ”

"And when he said, I looked at him intently; When he did, I couldn't take my eyes off him; He just stood there, and I loved him. ”

This time it's not love, it's love, love from the age of eighteen.

"But I didn't tell him what I wanted because I thought he knew it. But he didn't seem to be so confident in me. All I want is for everything to go well, peace and joy. ”

Lin Yan looked at Shen Jiayao, this girl was much braver than herself back then. At least now she can't talk about the past as if she were a bystander.

"I haven't forgotten the days we walked together, but I left my former self and those countless memories in the past."

"Memories are really an amazing thing." Shen Xiwan said slowly, "It will automatically filter out those unhappy things, leaving only the good." Maybe I don't want to think about those heartaches anymore. ”

Shen Jiayao can do it, Lin Yan can also do it, but he can't. Every time I think about it, the sore spot in my heart is still so clear. I can't forget it, I can't forget it, she won't forget what she came here for a moment in this life. One by one, I slowly recalled it in my mind, and realized that my life was nothing more than that.

It's just a few more identities than ordinary people, a little special.

"Sister." Shen Jiayao shouted, "I don't understand why you have so many worries now, you don't say I don't ask, but you have become much more stable than before." ”

Shen Xiwan smiled. "Sometimes, you have to live like you used to hate."

"What makes you happy or unhappy, you have to face it with a different mentality, the world is impermanent, isn't it. When you think you're thinking or doing the right thing, it's often an unexpected accident. I used to think I was right, but because of this thought, I had to pay for my life. ”

Lin Yan didn't say anything, looked at her, didn't say anything.

To say that Shen Xiwan is coming back for revenge? It's better to come back and love someone again.

Shen Xiwan said that Lin Yan understands that some things are forgotten more clearly than they remember, and some things have to be forgotten. For example, the good memories of a long time ago, she Shen Xiwan can't remember it now.

Maybe it's because I don't want to remember, maybe it's the role of the eye in the body. As the saying goes, things are impermanent.

Shen Xiwan saw that both of them fell into deep thought, so she broke the silence for a moment, "Okay, it's not too early, it's time for us Ah Yao to rest, Ah Yao and I have to catch a plane tomorrow." ”

Shen Jiayao hugged Shen Xiwan when she left the room, "Sister, I want to be needed all the time." ”

Shen Xiwan also hugged the girl in front of her and smiled, "I always need you, forever." ”

In the second half of the night, seeing Lin Yan sleeping in the dark, Shen Xiwan tiptoed up and left to go to her and Lu Yichen's master bedroom, but found that the man was not in the house. I thought he was in another bedroom, but unexpectedly, the light in the study was still on.

Shen Xiwan gently walked over and pushed open the door, and saw the man standing by the window, motionless, as if he had been standing there for a long time. The man's back is a little lonely, and there are some vicissitudes, is this still the invincible Lu Yichen.

"Lu Yichen." The woman's nice voice came from behind her.

Lu Yichen turned around and did not speak. There were many emotions in her dark eyes that she couldn't understand.