"I want to take you away. If not, let me stay with you all the time. ”

This was said to Yi Qi Wanxi by someone before. But Yi Qi Wanxi only had a faint impression, and she couldn't remember when, where, and who said it.

Yi Qi suddenly remembered this sentence because of her

After dinner, Yi Qi Wanxi accompanied Yi Qi Mingzhi, Wang and Li to go for a walk, and Yi Qi Mancao did not get together because he still had to study.

The sky was still white, and the four of them walked on the walkway by the lake, and the evening wind blew, bringing the coolness of the lake.

"Wanxi." Yi Qi Mingzhi leaned on his cane and glanced at Yi Qi Wanxi, who was walking with his head bowed beside him, "What do you think about your own marriage now?" ”

Yi Qi Wanxi's mind flashed Si Yu's face, but said, "Not yet." ”

"Wanxi, you're nineteen years old." Yi Qi Mingzhi said, "There are things you should learn to let go." ”

"What did my father say?" Yi Qi Wanxi pretended not to know.

But Yi Qi Mingzhi knew that Yi Qi Wanxi would not know what he was referring to, but he didn't want to debunk Yi Qi Wanxi, so he said: "As a father, I don't know what you and Tianyu think, I originally thought you were quite suitable." Yi Qi Mingzhi's tone revealed regret, paused, sighed again, and said helplessly, "Forget it, it's all over." ”

"Yes, father." Yi Qi Wanxi didn't know what to say, so she only responded to Yi Qi Mingzhi out of respect and habit.

"Didn't you say that the eldest young master of the Si family wants to marry you? Three Misses. "It's Li who speaks.

When the sound fell, Yi Qi Mingzhi and Wang both looked at Yi Qi Wanxi.

"Si Yu?" Yi Qi Mingzhi's voice sounded a little stern.

Yi Qi Wanxi was a little flustered for a while, but she was very calm. But he never dared to look at Yi Qi Mingzhi and the Wang family, so he looked at the Li family and asked with a smile: "Who did Erniang listen to?" ”

"A lot of people in the teahouse are talking about it." Li said, tightening the shawl on the outside of the cheongsam.

Yi Qi Wanxi couldn't help frowning slightly, but said with a light smile: "Erniang thinks that the young marshal may take a fancy to Wanxi?" I still know very well what Wanxi looks like. ”

"You're the daughter of the Yi Qi family." Li Shi said, a gentle smile appeared on the young and beautiful face, "It's not surprising that the eldest young master of the Si family will take a fancy to you. ”

Hearing this, Yi Qi Wanxi was a little shy, and when she looked at Wang, she wanted to know what she thought about it from her expression, but she saw that Wang's face was expressionless, and she looked a little serious with a little disgust and helplessness in her eyes.

"Look at your current appearance, how can you look like a young lady?"

The words that Wang had said sounded in Yi Qi Wanxi's ears, and some past events flashed through Yi Qi Wanxi's mind, and Yi Qi Wanxi quickly took her eyes off Wang's face and lowered her head.

Neither Yi Qi Mingzhi nor the Li clan noticed Yi Qi Wanxi's abnormality, but the Wang clan did. Wang looked at Yi Qiwanxi, who was a little flustered, and a trace of guilt seemed to flash in his serious eyes.

The Wang family also knows about Yi Qi Wanxi, so she has always had prejudices against Yi Qi Wanxi. In fact, at the beginning, this prejudice was not because of Yi Qi Wanxi, but out of self-blame.

As a mother, she didn't protect her daughter, so she felt guilty. Because of guilt, so angry. Therefore, every time I saw Yi Qi Wanxi, the guilt in Wang's heart would emerge and deepen day by day, but Wang couldn't tell the reason why she was angry, so he turned this emotion into a tantrum towards Yi Qi Wanxi. Therefore, it gave Yi Qi Wanxi a feeling that the Wang family hated her.

What Yi Qi Wanxi didn't know was that the Wang family actually wanted to protect her.

In fact, Wang is a very gentle woman and a very good mother, but because of Yi Qi Wanxi, she has become what she is now.

At night, Yi Qi Wanxi was lying on the bed and heard the sound of the rain outside the window, so she opened her eyes and turned over, wrapping the quilt sideways.

Yi Qi Wanxi couldn't sleep, her mind was full of the distant "just for a while", and then tears flowed out of the corners of her eyes.

That year, Yi Qi Wanxi was only five years old, and the five-year-old Yi Qi Wanxi looked very cute, innocent and romantic, and she was a girl who would make everyone want to pamper her. But God joked with her like jealousy of such an innocent and romantic child, and also left a deep wound in her heart that could not be healed.

That day, Yi Qi Wanxi and her mother Wang went to the house of her eldest sister-in-law Lin Xuanying, Lin Xuanying was still in business, and Lin Mansion only had Yi Qi Mingyin and Yi Qi Mingyin, the only son of Yi Qi Mingyin, who was not tall and fat. Because he is an only son, Lin Huaiyin has been spoiled since he was a child.

Wang and Yi Qi Mingyin were called out by their friends to go out for a walk, so Yi Qi Wanxi and Lin Huaiyin were left in the Lin Mansion. It was not the first time Yi Qi Wanxi had seen Lin Huaiyin, but that was the first time she had been alone with Lin Huaiyin. In fact, there were many servants in the Lin Mansion, and if it weren't for Lin Huaiyin's room, they wouldn't be alone.

Lin Huaiyin said that there was something fun for Yi Qi Wanxi to play, so he took her to his room.

"Don't make a sound." Lin Huaiyin said, closed the door and window of the room, because the light was not turned on, the room was a little dark for a while, but it was the afternoon, so he could still see clearly.

Yi Qi Wanxi stood in the center of the room a little at a loss, watching Lin Huaiyin walking towards her, she was a little scared for a while, but she thought of what Lin Huaiyin said, "Don't make a sound", she has always listened to the words of people older than herself, and she thought about having fun, and she was afraid that if she didn't obey, she would not be like a toy, so she obediently didn't make a sound.

Lin Huaiyin picked up the petite her and put her on the bed. Yi Qi Wanxi was very puzzled and asked, "What is my cousin going to do?" Wanxi doesn't want to sleep yet, right? ”

"It's not sleeping." Lin Huaiyin said, reaching out to untie her clothes, Yi Qi Wanxi was touched by his skin, and felt a little itchy, thinking that he was going to tickle himself, so he chuckled and resisted, but heard Lin Huaiyin's low and terrifying voice, "Don't make a sound." At that time, Yi Qi Wanxi didn't know that Lin Huaiyin was afraid that her voice would attract the servants, but she only vaguely felt that he was a little angry, so she quieted down.

Yi Qi Wanxi looked at Lin Huaiyin with open eyes, and saw that he turned around and took off his pants. Yi Qi Wanxi didn't know what he was going to do, only to see his pants slip to the ground, then turned his head and lifted her legs with both hands, looked at her with lowered eyes, and whispered to her, "It may hurt a little, but don't make a sound." ”

Yi Qi Wanxi didn't know what would happen next, she just looked at Lin Huaiyin suspiciously. In the next second, the pain came from the lower body into Yi Qi Wanxi's brain, and Yi Qi Wanxi's mind went blank for a moment.

She wanted to scream, but Lin Huaiyin's voice came into her eardrums, low and threatening: "Don't make a sound, just ...... for a while"

At that time, Yi Qi Wanxi didn't understand what she had experienced, she only felt very painful, so she hated Lin Huaiyin very much. Lin Huaiyin said: "Don't tell others about this. ”

Yi Qi Wanxi didn't know why Lin Huaiyin didn't allow herself to tell others about it, but Lin Huaiyin didn't let her say it, so she didn't dare to say it. After that, Yi Qi Wanxi hated going to the Lin family very much, but her mother would take her there every once in a while, and she couldn't find a reason to refuse, and she couldn't say a very legitimate reason for refusal, so she still followed. Later, the Wang family no longer took her to the Lin family, but Lin Huaiyin would find an opportunity to find Yi Qi Wanxi by himself every once in a while. Lin Huaiyin would do such strange things to her every once in a while that she didn't understand, and would tell her not to tell others.

A few years later, Yi Qi Wanxi understood that kind of thing, so she hated and even disgusted Lin Huaiyin even more, she didn't dare to tell others, she was afraid.

When she realized that, she was disgusted with herself, with her filthy body. She thought about committing suicide several times, but when she thought of Lin Huaiyin, she felt that she shouldn't die like this, and she should let Lin Huaiyin suffer the retribution she deserved.

Therefore, Yi Qi Wanxi's performance is more mature than her peers, but people who don't know her experience only think that Yi Qi Mansion is knowledgeable and mature and stable, but they don't know that she is actually just a child.

Yi Qi Wanxi understood the affairs of men and women when she was twelve years old, and she finally mustered up the courage to say "no" to Lin Huaiyin at the age of twelve.

Since Yi Qi Wanxi was nine years old, Lin Huaiyin has had a fiancée, but Lin Huaiyin still finds opportunities to be alone with Yi Qi Wanxi, and every time she says, "Just for a while".

In the summer of the year when he was twelve, on a gloomy afternoon, Lin Huaiyin pulled Yi Qi Wanxi to his room as usual, and was about to hug Yi Qi Wanxi, but was pushed away by Yi Qi Wanxi: "No." ”

"Who said that?" Lin Huaiyin's expression was obviously a little flustered, it was all panicked that he was afraid that the bad things he had done would be known by others.

Yi Qi Wanxi looked at him coldly. Lin Huaiyin asked like this, in Yi Qi Wanxi's opinion, it was as if Lin Huaiyin thought that this matter was okay in the eyes of others, so he felt that he was very unreasonable, so he said coldly: "I said it." After finishing speaking, he strode out of Lin Huaiyin's room.

Since then, Lin Huaiyin has never touched Yi Qi Wanxi again. But Yi Qi Wanxi still didn't dare to stay alone with Lin Huaiyin, even if Lin Huaiyin looked at her, she would feel frightened.

But you can't let others know about it.

is the only one who has reached a consensus between Yi Qi Wanxi and Lin Huaiyin.

Yi Qi Wanxi knew that if this matter was known by others, what would happen to Lin Huaiyin. But Lin Huaiyin is the only son of Lin Xuanying and Yi Qi Mingyin, so it is difficult to say whether the end will be as it should be. But Yi Qi Wanxi knew that if this matter was known by others, her reputation would be really ruined. It is not a loss to exchange his reputation for Lin Huaiyin's life, but if he can't exchange his life, he will lose a lot.

So Yi Qi Wanxi chose to keep her mouth shut. She also tried not to think about it, thinking that she could seal it in her memory, but she always remembered it from time to time, so she was always depressed about her powerlessness.

"It's disgusting. Such a person should have died sooner! Why do such people exist in the world! Even though many years have passed since she became sensible, Yi Qi Wanxi still thinks so when she thinks about it.

Originally, Yi Qi Wanxi wanted to bring down the person, and if she wanted to, she would definitely be able to bring it down, but because that person was the only son of her eldest aunt, she couldn't do that.

Because he is his cousin, Yi Qi Wanxi has always buried this as a secret in her heart. It's a secret that others can't see, but it will make your heart ache.