I listened strangely to the conversation between Zhang Dacang and the doctor, and most of the time I knew in my heart that I was awake.

I tried to blink, but I found that my eyes could move, but how did I feel that it was pitch black in front of me and I couldn't see anything?

Just as I was wondering, a pair of warm hands pressed against my cheeks.

"Lazy, you're awake, it's good if you're awake, it's okay to wake up."

This voice is no stranger to me, it is Ning Xue, and I can hear a trace of worry and excitement from her words.

"What's wrong with me? Why doesn't it seem like you can't see anything? ”

Zhang Dacang said to me, "You are blind..."

Before Zhang Dacang finished speaking, I sat up all at once, directly interrupted his words, and said in surprise: "Brother Cannon, you're not kidding, how could I be blind, I was fine just now, by the way, how long have I been in a coma?" ”

"Don't be excited, don't be lazy, don't worry, the doctor said that as long as you are angry and bloody, and if you rest well, it is still possible for your eyes to recover, but you need a pair of retinas that can match you, and I will try my best to help you find it."

After listening to what Zhang Dacang said, I smiled incredulously: "Impossible, impossible, how could I be blind, I am a good person, how can I be, I..."

I couldn't accept the sudden change, and I grabbed my hands around me, trying to tell them that I was okay.

"Plop"

Since I couldn't see things, I rolled out of bed at once.

In the panic, someone helped me up.

Zhang Dacang sighed and said to Ning Xue: "You take good care of him, I still have something, I'll come to see him when I come back." ”

"Yun Zhe, Brother Pao is right, you really can't see it, I'll help you back to bed to rest." Ning Xue's voice seemed a little hurried, and she also seemed a little powerless for such a thing.

I scratched it twice in the air with my hand, and after touching Ning Xue's cheek, I grabbed Ning Xue's arm tightly, and said excitedly: "You tell me, Ning Xue, am I not blind, I must not have woken up yet, I will go to sleep again, and nothing will happen when I wake up from the dream, yes, it must be so." ”

After saying that, I let go of Ning Xue's shoulder, touched the edge of the bed, and prepared to climb onto the bed.

Ning Xue pulled me with a crying voice: "You don't want to be like this, I beg you, I'm sorry Yun Zhe, it's all my fault, I'm sorry, if it weren't for my selfishness, you wouldn't be like this, I'm really sorry." ”

Ning Xue's voice became quieter and quieter, her crying took over her original voice, and the hand holding my arm gradually loosened.

I propped my hands on the edge of the bed, and at this moment, I still accepted this fact.

"Why is this so, why." My voice seemed a little pale, and in the face of the injustice of reality, I finally gave in, but I could not accept such an outcome.

A person who is obviously fine on the front foot is blind on the back foot, and no one can be willing to change such a thing.

Ning Xue comforted me as much as she could: "Yun Zhe, don't get excited, the doctor said that your condition needs to be well recuperated, if you recuperate well, there is still a chance." ”

"Chance?" I looked up to the sky and laughed wildly, tears finally couldn't stop flowing, although I knew that men don't flick when they have tears, but the old saying is also said, but it is not to the sad place.

"Do you know, what does it mean for a person to lose his eyes, it means that his life will lose most of its meaning, life once made me desperate, but then I chose to become a police officer, because my dream is to eliminate violence and peace, and rehabilitate those whose lives have lost meaning, but now my eyes can't see it, then my dream like this has become nonsense, do you understand?"

"I understand." Ning Xue tried her best to respond to me: "I understand, I also know that everything you do is for the sake of others, from the moment you saved me, I understand everything, don't worry, I will help you cure your eyes, if you can't cure them, I am willing to be your eyes in this life." ”

As soon as Ning Xue's words fell, a warm hand grabbed my arm.

I chuckled, shook Ning Xue's hand and said, "You won't understand, if I'm blind, I'm a waste, and I can't do anything." ”

I can't listen to anything at all, and I don't want to listen to anyone anymore.

"Zhang Chunhe is dead."

"What?"

The news took me a little aback, and I hurriedly repeated the question: "How could he die?" ”

Ning Xue said: "I heard that someone stabbed him to death with a knife, and at eight o'clock this morning, someone stabbed him to death in the Holy Land Castle. ”

I turned my head to the direction in which Ning Xue was speaking, and continued to ask, "Has the murderer been caught?" ”

Ning Xue said to me: "No, what Brother Pao just said to me, he asked me to convey it to you." ”

I simply said, "How is it possible, Zhang Chunhe is so powerful, how can anyone attack him, there is no mistake, or is it a reason you made up to comfort me?" ”

Ning Xue said: "Editor? Is it necessary for me to lie to you about this kind of thing, Brother Pao was in a hurry just now, so he should have to deal with this matter, and today was supposed to be the day of your competition, and Zhang Chunhe's death was incredible. ”

I don't think Ning Xue is joking with me, and she doesn't need to joke with me at all, if what she said is true, then it is estimated that the pot has exploded outside by now.

If Zhang Chunhe was really killed, then who would do it, his fame is quite famous in Marsgar, is it possible that people who do it don't consider Samoqi?

But since others dare to do it, it shows that this is not a simple murder case.

The murderer is quite familiar with the terrain of the Holy Castle, and it can be escalated into a premeditated case.

I'm in a state of turmoil now, and although I want to take care of it, I'm powerless, and the loss of the rain has made me feel a sense of despair about life.

I said to Ning Xue, "You go out first, I want to be quiet alone for a while." ”

"But you?"

I gritted my teeth impatiently: "I said, I want to be quiet for a while, don't you understand?" ”

I couldn't see Ning Xue's expression now, and I didn't know what she was thinking, so she just said to me lightly: "Okay, I'm just outside, you can just call me loudly if there's anything." ”

Listening to the sound of the snow's footsteps as she left and the sound of the door closing, I let out a long breath and crawled to the bed with difficulty by touching the edge of the bed, and for the first time I felt the helplessness of the blind.

This feeling is so uncomfortable, the feeling of wanting to do something but not being able to do anything, my actions have made it clear to me.

I'm even starting to despair of life at the moment, I don't want to do anything at all, I just want to lie quietly like this, do nothing, what the fucking case, what the fucking feelings, nothing to do with me now.

So be it......