Chapter 18: The Season of Loneliness
Time gradually entered the end of August, the screams of knowing slowly stopped, the sun slowly became gentle, the air began to waft a trace of early autumn refreshing breath, everyone began to wear thicker clothes, and all life seemed to be running in an orderly manner.
The first-year students of Guangming Middle School stand in a military posture on the playground every day, next to the most poisonous sun at noon, and the bright sunlight illuminates their youthful and fearless faces; The sophomore students are sandwiched in the middle, attending classes step by step every day, and their lives are dull; The students in the third year of high school saw that there were more than 300 days left, and they did not start to feel nervous, and they still laughed and played every day; The repeat students of the fourth year of high school watched their classmates who went to college last year start school one after another, and they occupied the phone downstairs to chat with their best friends during dinner time every day, and gradually adapted to this high-pressure life one after another. It's just that they carry more pressure than high school juniors, they are no longer newcomers, and time does not allow them to do it again.
Some people say that repeaters are a bunch of timid people who will miss out on a lot of opportunities and should not waste another year. Maybe this will be true many years from now, but at this moment, for this group of people who have chosen to start over, they themselves consider themselves brave people, at least compared to those who do not have the courage to rush into a university. They don't want to regret themselves.
Time may make people forget their past failures, but when you look back, there is a regret, no matter how successful you are in the future.
At the beginning of the morning, the head teacher walked in, took a form in his hand, and handed it to Lin Shanghan, who was closest to the door.
Lin Shanghan took the form and looked at it, it turned out to be a form to fill in their ideal universities and target scores. The school probably makes a sign at the door of each class and puts it at the door of the class, so that the students can motivate themselves, this kind of thing is done by the school every year in the third year of high school.
Lin Shanghan recalled what he filled in last year: Chinese 120, Mathematics 140+32, English 95, Physics A, Chemistry B+, total score 387, ideal university: Shanghai University of Finance and Economics.
Lin Shanghan suddenly felt that he was so naΓ―ve last year, and every subject he filled in was a big difference except for chemistry, and he was like an unrealistic fool, scribbling a goal that he couldn't achieve.
Lin Shanghan didn't want to fill it out early, so he gave the form to Zhu Zhishuang next door first. Zhu Zhishuang was very refreshing, and filled in directly: Chinese 115, Mathematics 150+32, English 95, Physics A+, Chemistry A, Ideal University: Nanjing University. Zhu Zhishuang filled in the same as what he filled in last year, in fact, Zhu Zhishuang also has this potential, but people have potential and it is not something that can be stimulated.
Lin Shanghan smiled and said, "You're a bit ruthless." Zhu Zhishuang didn't respond, and continued to doze off after returning the watch to Lin Shanghan.
Lin Shanghan stared at his watch and thought for a long time, and wrote down one stroke at a time: Chinese 110, Mathematics 140+32, English 90, Physics A, Chemistry A, Nanjing University of Finance and Economics, Ideal University. This time, Lin Shanghan was a little more cautious, and he was no longer as high-spirited as he was at the beginning. As long as it is played normally, it should not be difficult for Lin Shanghan to achieve it.
Lin Shanghan turned his head and handed it to Xu Runzhi in the back, and caught a glimpse of Cheng Xiang School Committee, who was also looking at this side. "What will she fill in?" Lin Shanghan suddenly wanted to know.
Since Li Linxi left, she seems to have gradually become accustomed to studying alone every day, and only occasionally looks at the notebook that Li Linxi left for herself. is such a person who accompanied him through his entire senior year of high school and made himself spend the best year.
Although she is not from the same school as herself, she can secretly take her mobile phone and chat with her for a while every night; A one-day holiday a month always goes to see her first; Every time I take the unified examination, I first compare my scores with her, and no matter who is higher, I will encourage the other party to cheer; Especially before the college entrance examination, they cheered each other for the college entrance examination. The two of them, like all couples in the third year of high school, maintain the best love in encouraging each other. It's just that the final score separates the two people. All good visions are no match for actual cruelty.
On the third day, the school made the target signage. For a while, everyone's goal has become everyone's favorite thing to do after class.
Lin Shanghan first saw the goal of the Cheng Xiang School Committee, this girl filled in a high score, reaching 400 points, and the target was Beijing University of Foreign Chinese. Lin Shanghan was a little surprised, I don't know if she really has the strength or just the ideal, after all, she is only a score with herself in the final exam.
Re-reading and filling in this kind of thing, everyone is a little more mature, and after experiencing the cruelty of the college entrance examination, filling in is gradually becoming more practical, which is basically the goal of the edge of their own ability. Everyone laughed and talked about the goals on the sign while teasing each other about the unreality of their senior year.
Li Yixuan only filled out an ordinary book. Li Yixuan asked Lin Shanghan with a smile: "Why did you fill in this school?" β
To be honest, Lin Shanghan didn't know why he wanted to fill in this school, he just found a school in Nanjing, as long as he was in the same place as Li Linxi, but he couldn't tell Li Yixuan like that.
Lin Shanghan pretended to be casual and said: "I... I'll just fill it in.,Why did you fill in that school?,That school isn't very good.γ β
Li Yixuan pouted and said a little disappointed: "I also want to do well in the exam, but I think I can only take so many exams." β
Lin Shanghan was a little surprised by Li Yixuan's answer, but he didn't say much because of his identity, so he had to comfort: "It's okay, I think you can still take the test very well if you work hard." β
Li Yixuan's eyes suddenly flashed a glimmer of light, she raised her head and looked at Lin Shanghan with a very admiring look, and said expectantly, "Are you serious?" β
Lin Shanghan smiled and said, "Of course, otherwise? I can't lie to you. β
After hearing this, Li Yixuan smiled at Lin Shanghan, quickly turned her head and walked away. The smile was sweet, as sweet as a little girl's laugh, with anticipation, appreciation, and gratitude. Lin Shanghan was a little confused, turned his head and continued to look at the target card.
What Lin Shanghan didn't know was that his casual words might really make a girl who had no confidence in herself feel confident in her studies again.
When I got home in the evening, my parents were sitting on the sofa waiting for Lin Shanghan.
Lin Shanghan was a little overwhelmed, and said with a smile: "What's the situation today, how do I feel that there is a ghost in this meal?" β
Dad beckoned to Lin Shanghan and said, "It's okay, your mother and I want to talk to you today." β
Lin Shanghan cautiously walked over and sat down, and his mother spoke first: "Your father and I went to talk to your homeroom teacher today." β
Before Lin Shanghan could finish speaking, he interjected a little angrily: "Why do you have nothing to do with the head teacher, I haven't done anything bad!" β
Mom hurriedly explained: "We are just going to talk about your studies, not to say that we are suspicious of you." β
Next, my parents said that they and the teacher were very confident in Lin Shanghan, and asked Lin Shanghan to use this year to study hard, and finally work hard to get into a better university. Mom also mentioned Li Linxi with ulterior motives, and Mom knew that Li Linxi was actually the biggest motivation for Lin Shanghan's efforts.
Lin Shanghan listened without saying a word, and he was a little moved. Yes, my parents have always expected something from me, but I didn't make them happy in the end, and I was really sorry for them. Even if it's for my parents this year, I really have to study hard.
The next morning reading, Lin Shanghan was called out by the head teacher, and Lin Shanghan probably knew why the head teacher called him.
The head teacher put his hands behind his back and did not face Lin Shanghan, changed his usual serious tone, and chatted with Lin Shanghan in a very soft tone about the past exam, Lin Shanghan's ideal target score and his expectations for Lin Shanghan. It's all very routine content, but this kind of chat is the easiest to hit the soft part of a student's heart, so that the student has a kind of confidence in learning, and the future is promising.
The sentence that Lin Shanghan remembered the most was: "You may not gain anything from studying at the moment, but if you don't work hard, you will definitely have gains." β
Every repeater is dissatisfied with himself, so that he chose to repeat this path, his senior year of high school may have worked hard, although the college entrance examination did not meet expectations, but he still chose to work harder for another year. Although most repeaters are improving, who can say for sure that they will improve? Who can say that if you don't work hard, you will perform extraordinarily? Everything is unknown, only hard work is the unchanging truth.
Lin Shanghan thought a lot, no matter what the purpose, he must do well in the college entrance examination next year.
Lin Shanghan gave himself a simple plan for the study tasks of each subject, and went to the bookstore at noon and evening to buy a bunch of tutoring materials. In fact, this information may not be very useful, but buying it always gives me peace of mind and does not leave me with nothing to do, even though I know that I am unlikely to stick to it seriously.
Everyone seems to have changed in the week after the exam, and the results of the test have made everyone have a clearer understanding. There are a lot of people who bury their heads in the middle of class, there are a few fewer people who doze off during class, and there are a few more serious people during afternoon exercises, and everyone gradually realizes the real purpose of their coming here. The target card attached to the outside reflects a dazzling light in the light of the sun.
Zhu Zhishuang, who was at the same table, began to make various teaching and auxiliary materials like Lin Shanghan; Behind him, Seo Yun-sik began to read a lot of football magazines less; Wang Xiaoyang in the back also began to be as serious as his tablemate Deng Ziyi; Later, the Yangtze River also had less contact with many girls; Li Zeren also rarely talks about League of Legends; Zhang Shaoxuan no longer secretly brings his mobile phone to school; Li Yixuan is no longer in a daze in class, and she asks Lin Shanghan questions more frequently; Cheng Xiang, the school committee, still has a cold expression as before, and is still studying as usual.
On the road of growth, you must experience a lot of ups and downs, you must believe that you will eventually have your own grand event, don't stop your steps because of hardships, and you will have your own blueprint if you persist.