The first day of October in the lunar calendar is the traditional "Winter Clothes Festival", commonly known as "October 1st".

On this day, the people pay special attention to the ancestors, which is called "sending winter clothes", which means sending winter clothes and other supplies to the ancestors. The Cold Food Festival, the Qingming Festival, and the Zhongyuan Festival are called the three major ghost festivals of the year.

At present, the custom in the southwest of Lu is to carry out formal grave sacrifices on the day of the Winter Clothes Festival or on a certain day in the first three days.

As in previous years, we went to my uncle's house on September 28 to visit the grave. After the festival, during the meal, we chatted about a nephew of our relatives.

Since the village where he is located is called Lu Village, and he is the eldest of the two brothers, let's call him Lu Da.

Lu Da, when he was a child, he was smart and intelligent. Learning things can often draw inferences, and they are often ingenious and unexpected.

He has an excellent memory, although he can't remember ten lines at a glance. But as long as it is something he memorizes by heart, a few months or more, he can remember every detail clearly, and even give you a complete restoration of the whole scene at that time.

When he was six or seven years old, he watched adults play chess on the street side of the village, and slowly learned it on his own. When he was eight or nine years old, he dared to play chess one-on-one with the adults in the village, and his chess path was weird, and he liked to play chess. Not to mention, sometimes adults are really checkmate by him by accident.

Once, an old man in the village played with him, and a negligence made him checkmate him with an afterthought. The old man messed up the chess game with a smile, and the lively people on the side deliberately asked who won, Lu Dali said that he had won, and the old man deliberately said that he had won. After a while, there was no follow-up, and everyone saw that the order for dinner was about to be eaten, and they all dispersed.

The next day happened to be Saturday, and Lu Da didn't have to go to school. Early in the morning, he went to the place where he was playing chess and waited, and when everyone arrived, he saw that Lu Da had brought his family's chess early. After a closer look, he was dumbfounded, it turned out that he had restored the final situation of yesterday's chess game.

After there were more people, he also gave everyone a complete demonstration of every move of the whole game of chess. Since then, the chess enthusiasts in the village have not dared to underestimate this little guy.

Lu Da's memory is also very strong until now, and I have also learned this. Two years ago, their brother set up a processing factory in Hebei, and I, as a relative and elder, also went over to help.

It's been a busy year, and at the end of the year, we have a reunion dinner after calculating the wages of the workers. At the wine table, he drank a little more and began to talk more, and he talked about the performance of the workers during the year.

To everyone's surprise, he remembered many small things that happened in the factory during the year, and even said many details clearly. Whoever has done something wrong or made a mistake can say it exactly at all. There are many things that even the person concerned can't remember, but he can remember exactly the same.

Lu Da was still very naughty when he was a child, and he also had a little temper, that is, he was quite tough.

Once, he and his younger brother got into a fight over sugar, and he was severely reprimanded by his father and kicked twice. He didn't cry or make trouble at the time, and took his younger brother out to play afterwards. It just so happened that a big rooster at home had just pulled a big lump of "sugar", which was the dark red sticky.

As soon as he saw it, his bad heart came up, so he hurriedly said to his younger brother: "Second and second, there is syrup here, but it's sweet, don't you eat it?" ”

After speaking, he dipped his finger and ate it first, and exaggerated his delicious expression, but he didn't know that the finger he added was not the one dipped in at all.

Seeing the sweetness of his eating, the second child hurriedly learned to wipe it and stuffed it into his mouth, and as soon as he ate it, he found that the taste was wrong, and then he cried and ran to his father to complain.

Of course, his father unceremoniously rewarded him with a strong fist and kick. It is said that throughout the beating, he was silently snickering, not crying or making trouble.

At that time, there were still many people in the countryside, and it seemed that they were particularly capable. Adults usually have to work in the nearby brick kiln to earn money after finishing their farm work, and the children are correspondingly less careful.

Of course, there weren't any good cartoons at that time, and there were generally no decent toys. In addition, the ecological environment at that time was really many times better than now.

The small rivers and reservoirs near the village have water all year round, and the water quality is very good, and there are many fish and shrimp, frogs, crabs and other small animals that children love. Naturally, these places are the favorite places for the children in the village on hot days.

However, due to the lack of adult supervision, coupled with the perennial water in rivers and reservoirs, there are some deep pits and deep pools in many places.

So in those years, there were often incidents of children drowning, which was also a major concern for many adults. Children are generally strictly forbidden to take a bath and play without an adult, and of course the means of discipline are relatively strict, as long as they are caught, they will definitely be beaten.

I also have a deep understanding of this situation. I remember one time, I secretly went to bathe in the river with my brother and them. I slipped into a deep pit and drank a few gulps of water in a panic. Fortunately, my brother and a few of his friends who knew how to water found me in time and rescued me, otherwise maybe I would have been revolutionary at that time.

But when they got home, they were all hung up and beaten for almost half an hour. Maybe it's a shadow of that time, I'm still a landlubber who is afraid of water.

I remember that at that time, adults had a simple but effective test method, which was to let the child take off his clothes after returning home, and lightly scratch his body with his fingernails, as long as there were obvious white marks. Then hit it immediately, and absolutely no credit.

When Lu was small, as long as it was a hot day, he was beaten almost every day, and he was slowly beaten. As long as he catches the loop, he will definitely run out and play in the water, and as for going home and being beaten, it will be his father's business after returning home.

He has been tough since he was a child, he never begged for mercy or cried when he was beaten, and even if the tears kept rolling in his eyes, he would not easily stay. After being beaten, he immediately ran away again and continued to be naughty.

Not to mention, it can be regarded as a hard work, although he has not officially learned to swim, but he can deal with it indiscriminately, and there is no problem with swimming and playing in ordinary river reservoirs.

And he also practiced a good skill, that is, he was able to dive breath-holding for a long time, which was the best among his friends at that time. In addition, because he was beaten every day, he was also given the nickname "beaten and unchangeable" by the children in the village.

There are unpredictable circumstances in the sky, and people have good and bad luck. People's lives are full of too many unknowns and accidents, and each of us will always encounter such and such unsatisfactory in our lives, and it is inevitable that there will be some shortcomings in life.

Admittedly, there are some shortcomings that we can avoid; There are some shortcomings that we can remedy; But more often than not, there are shortcomings that we can't escape and can't change. In the face of some disasters, we seem so small and helpless......

Just when Lu Da was happy and carefree and enjoying a happy childhood, a huge disaster suddenly befell their family.

When Lu was eleven years old, his parents slowly had a certain amount of savings through hard work. With the help of friends and family, a brand new house has just been built.

That day, just after the summer vacation, the big brothers Lu went to the third aunt's house in the neighboring village to visit relatives. When it was just dark, the contractor who was building the house stopped by and said that he had pulled down a hammer and an axe when he was pulling the equipment two days ago.

Soon the hammer and axe were found in a corner, and it was time for dinner. Originally, the contractor was friends with the boss's father, and at the invitation of the master, he stayed for dinner.

The two of them pushed the cup and changed the cup and drank lively, and slowly drank a little high. In the middle, there was a quarrel over a gossip, and under the influence of alcohol, they pulled and pushed in the house.

When they quarreled, it happened that Lu's mother went out to visit the house after cooking, and there were only two of them at home. Because in the countryside at that time, when there were guests eating, women generally did not serve at the table.

In the fight between the two, Lu Da's father touched the axe next to him and slashed the back of the head of the contractor.

At that time, the foreman fell to the floor of the house with blood splattered everywhere, and after a few struggles, he could no longer move. As soon as he saw that the person was dead, Lu Da's father's wine also woke up, and he made it to the corner of the wall, and he was stunned.

It happened that Lu Da's mother came back, and she was stunned when she entered the house and saw this bloody scene. It took a long time for the two of them to come back to their senses, and Lu Da's father tried to wipe the foreman's breath, and then he realized that he had really killed someone. Mu Ran lit a cigarette and took a few puffs, as if he had made a big decision.

However, after all, he has been in the society for several years since the early death of his parents when he was a child, and he has some courage in the rivers and lakes. He quickly washed his hands and locked the door from the outside.

Then he returned home and calmly said to his wife: "Anyway, something happened, and the person died, that is, he should die today under his own guy." It just so happened that no one saw him come to our house, and he himself said that he only came by and did not mention it to anyone. We just didn't do anything, and directly pulled him outside to deal with it unconsciously, anyway, there are no stars and moons tonight. ”

As he spoke, he began to move his hands, and his wife just mechanically helped as he said.

They tied the deceased to the bicycle he was riding with iron bars and two additional stones. Taking advantage of the dark night, he dragged the corpses wrapped in plastic bags and threw them into a large pit outside the village, which had not dried up since the elders.

When they returned home, they hid their murderous axes in another hidden place. Then he used the water in the well at home to repeatedly wash the murderous room, smashed all the dishes and chopsticks at that time and destroyed them, and even scraped off the wall skin that had not yet dried and repainted the paint overnight.

After checking for all the clues left, the next day the couple drove the tractor to the brick kiln as usual, and it felt as if nothing had happened. Sure enough, nothing happened for more than ten days after the incident, and no police came to the door.

But Skynet is magnificent, negligent but not leaky. The old deep pit, which has not been done for nearly 100 years, has almost dried up after more than a month, I don't know if it is a drought or some kind of providence in the dark.

As the saying goes, the water comes out. Soon, most of the carcass had been eaten by the fish and turtles, and it was found by the people who went down to catch the fish. In fact, the deceased has been reported as a missing person, but there is no target for investigation, and it has only been investigated within the scope of emotional vendetta on the periphery.

After the body was found, the police immediately conducted a detailed investigation of the area. Soon, Lu Da's father was basically locked, and the case was solved in less than two months. On suspicion of murder and destruction of corpses and harboring accomplices, the husband and wife were arrested at the same time.

Lu Da's mother, who is said to have committed suicide in a tightly guarded detention center out of fear or for some unknown reason.

At that time, the two Lu brothers were still children, and they had no grandparents and dear uncles. Lu Da's uncle and the village committee where he worked were hastily buried after consulting with the detention center.

Lu Da's father should have been sentenced to death for drunken manslaughter and intentional mutilation.

However, after his arrest, he voluntarily confessed and actively cooperated with the investigation and evidence collection, and then considering that his wife had committed suicide in the detention center, and the two children were still lonely children, he was finally sentenced to life imprisonment.

The sudden change is like a thunderbolt from the blue. made Brother Lu's originally happy childhood suddenly seem to have fallen into a cold hell. Because of the complete interruption of financial resources all of a sudden, and the family has just finished building a house and does not have the slightest savings.

There are no close relatives in the family, only three aunts who have gone out, but they are not wealthy. After my uncle's family returned from the detention center, for some reason, all the relatives over there never came to the door again.

Fortunately, their father turned out to be very popular in the village and had many friends. With the enthusiastic care of these neighbors and the leaders of the village committee, and the care of the three aunts as much as possible, the two brothers survived with great difficulty.

Since then, Lu Da has become a little reticent, and his behavior has gradually become a little strange at times.

According to neighbors, he often closes all the doors at home alone, and when his younger brother is asleep, he himself holds a wine bowl and squats in the position where the crime occurred. There he was talking to himself, as if he was talking to the ghost of the dead contractor.

He pointed to the place and said coldly: "You come out, come out, work, let's have a good time." Come on, let's give you some wine first, and we'll talk. I'm telling you, don't mess around underground in the future. The matter has long passed, dust to dust to dust, you should have died early in your life, he should have squatted in prison for the rest of his life, and the two of you don't owe each other anything. You just honestly wait for reincarnation, what kind of ability do you two have in the next life, and then continue to fight. Did you hear that? ”

After a slight pause, he continued to shout at the ground, "I'll tell you, this matter is like this, don't pretend not to hear it." If you dare to make trouble again, believe it or not, I will dig you out of the ground again, and I will give you a second furnace, and then refine you again, and refine your soul for you, so that you don't even think about reincarnation. Also, my brother is young, if you really want to make a fuss, come at me, don't scare him. Today, I'm going to give you a good voice and drink some wine, so you can give me some peace down below. No, as long as you are well in the future, I will often pour you some wine to drink. ”

After saying that, he really poured the wine in the dry bowl on the ground where he died.

One day, it was Lu Da who had dropped out of school to work, and he was eating and drinking alone in the house in the middle of the night. For some reason, the power went out suddenly, and he didn't bother to do it after a tiring day, still pouring himself a drink in the dark room.

At this moment, a little thief who didn't open his eyes quietly climbed over the wall and touched his house, and approached the hall lightly. He was groping around in the dark, trying to pry the door and steal. Suddenly shouted loudly: "Here, work!" ”

At that time, I almost didn't scare this little thief down. After a while, he didn't hear any more movement, and he thought he was listening to evil ears. After a while, he had the audacity to turn on his miniature flashlight and shine it inside. This time, it almost didn't scare him to death.

The door of the hall was wide open, empty of furniture, and a half-grown child with a dirty face was sitting shirtless in the center. Carrying a wine bottle in one hand, a cooked chicken leg in the other, and some spiced peanuts and a few ham sausages in front of him.

In particular, this half-grown child still has a weird smile on his face, staring straight at himself.

The little thief was so frightened by the strange phenomenon in the middle of the night that his flashlight fell to the ground, and he was about to flee trembling all over. Lu Da jumped up from the ground with a "come, don't go", and pressed the little thief to the ground without saying anything.

The little thief was almost scared to death by him, and collapsed there all of a sudden, and it turned out that he suddenly remembered that a family in the neighborhood had killed someone. In his fright, he really regarded Lu Da as the resentful soul who died tragically, so he was frightened and overwhelmed.

In the end, under Lu Da's compulsion, he really sat with Lu Da until almost dawn, but Lu Da had been eating and drinking in a muffled voice, but he was trembling and stubborn until almost dawn.

In the end, Lu Da sneered and waved his hand to let him go, and when he left, he kowtowed to Lu Da again, which made Lu Da laugh.

It turned out that Lu Da was working overtime on the construction site that day, and when he got home, it was almost eleven o'clock in the evening. He was so tired and hungry that he took out the supper he had brought back from outside without washing his face, and Tu Liang sat down on the floor of the hall and ate it. When he was drinking happily, he didn't know if it was a trip or a power outage, and he didn't bother to care about it, so he continued to eat and drink in the dark.

It just so happened that this short-sighted thing came, and Lu Da kept him without thinking much about it, originally thinking that he would let him drink some with him, who wanted to almost scare this thing to death.

Not to mention, I heard that there have been no more overnight thefts on their street for many years, maybe that little thief really regarded Lu Da as a wronged soul.

Because he was in the ignorant stage of his youth's growth, the sudden disaster made Lu Da deeply feel that this society was unfair to him. Sometimes, even the kind consolation of neighbors and classmates will make him mistakenly think that others are deliberately mocking him.

Slowly, his personality became withdrawn and weird, although he was still very enthusiastic on the surface, but he invisibly gave people a cold feeling. He gradually developed a paranoid personality that bordered on schizophrenia, and he did everything according to his own wishes, dismissing anyone's advice and comments.

At a certain age, he loses the restraint of regulation, and he slowly turns from free and loose to indulgent and rebellious. As soon as I was in junior high school, I became obsessed with the Internet, and since then I have been out of control and finally completely addicted to it.

After repeated persuasion by relatives, friends and teachers of the village committee to no avail, he and his younger brother dropped out of school one after another and went home, and since then they have basically escaped from everyone's supervision.

After all, everyone also has their own families and burdens, and the rebellious psychology of children in this period is also the strongest.

After dropping out of school, I played crazy for a while. Ruda, like a real big brother, bravely took on the burden of supporting the family.

When he was only fourteen or fifteen years old, he begged his uncles in the village to take him to work in the neighborhood, and to follow them to do some simple odd jobs on the construction site, such as moving bricks and mud.

Under the scorching sun, in the biting cold wind, under the intensity of not seeing the sun at both ends, and under the condition of drinking cold water and nibbling steamed buns, he stubbornly supported this family of only two children with his thin body.

In addition, sometimes I go to an Internet café to surf the Internet at night, and I rarely miss work and rest work. At that time, rural migrant workers generally worked 230 or 40 jobs a year, except for busy farming and weather reasons. But when Lu Da was a child, he worked 322 jobs, which is almost impossible for adults.

Of course, many of the older workers in the village still take good care of him. To be honest, at that time, he did his duty as an older brother. Although the people around him regretted that he didn't go to school, thinking that his school grades had always been very good,

Until he dropped out of school and came home. But seeing that he was so dedicated, and he was also responsible, he secretly gave him a thumbs up. Slowly, the basic life of the two brothers has been guaranteed normally, and they no longer need to be funded by others.

As the younger brother slowly started working, the two brothers supported each other, and their lives got better day by day. At the age of eighteen or nineteen, Lu Da began to do decoration work with higher wages. When he was a little over twenty years old, he went out to sea to fish, which was a high-paying and high-intensity job. Lu Da went to sea to fish, and his brother also went out to work.

In those years, they did make a lot of money. The two brothers not only renovated the family house and bought decent furniture, but also bought a small car. For a while, the two brothers really became good children praised by everyone in the village.

But as the conditions improved, the younger brother also achieved a management position in the factory in the field, and slowly some of the bad problems of Lu Da also appeared.

At first, Lu Da only smoked, drank and fought, but slowly learned slot machine gambling, and even began to frequented KTV, discotheques, bars, music cafes, and even nightclubs. Although it is said that he can earn 40,000 or 50,000 yuan in half a year after he goes to sea, he often dares to spend more than half of it a month or two after he returns.

Someone once filmed him lighting a cigarette with a real 100-dollar bill with his mobile phone, and throwing money around a disco after getting drunk. Later, I was once obsessed with "looking for a young lady", not only seriously setting the time and number of times for myself, but sometimes calling several young ladies by myself.

There was a joke at the time, once he went to the town to find a young lady, and when he went to the bathroom, he actually ran into his junior high school English teacher.

Lu Da not only generously paid for this "soul shaper", but also joked that if he had time one day, he would definitely invite the teacher to go to the city to play a foreign lady, and the teacher's professional knowledge was not in vain.

Lu Da eats a huge amount, don't look at him less than 1.7 meters tall, and he is not fat, but he can eat three or four people's things alone. He joked that this was when he was a child when he was hungry and scared, and he would eat wildly when he encountered food, no matter how good or bad it was.

But others think that he stayed up late to practice on the Internet in an Internet café, and as long as he got on the plane, he didn't often go down for two or three days to eat. He can eat and really hold on, and he dares not to eat for a day or two when he is working.

Once, when he had just returned home from a part-time job, he walked through the town and found a sheep soup restaurant. When I entered the door, I asked the boss to serve a big bowl of 20 mutton soup, and then cut two catties of cooked mutton, a platter, plus six large biscuits and a bundle of beer.

At that time, it was not too cold, and the large pieces of cooked mutton were generally still in the refrigerator, so the boss said to him: "Young man, I will serve you a big bowl of mutton soup and a platter first, and you will wait for your friend with a slow beer." In addition, I will heat the mutton separately in a casserole, don't worry about weighing it for you first, it will definitely be a lot of catties, okay? ”

When Lu Da heard this, he dared to love the boss and thought that there were others, so he smiled and said: "It's okay boss, just cook the mutton cold, I have a good stomach." In addition, I eat alone, and I don't have to wait for others at all. That's it, it's not necessarily enough, I don't believe you just look at it, hehe. ”

The average person's meal is a large bowl of 20 mutton soup plus one or two large baked cakes, and at most three or four taels of cooked mutton. Of course, the amount of alcohol can also be bundled, which mainly depends on the amount of alcohol consumed by the individual.

This boss has been running a restaurant for most of his life, and he has never seen such a young man fit so many things. He gave Lu Da a full order, and also added a plate of oily baby cabbage and a plate of cucumber segments in sauce.

It just happened to be a meal, so the boss really moved a chair and sat aside. I thought to myself, "Boy, I'm going to see how you eat all this stuff." ”

I saw Lu Da directly pick up the big baked cake, quickly rolled a large bag of cooked mutton with ice ballast, and ate it in a big gulp. In the middle, the mutton soup was sent inside, and in less than ten minutes, the boss was surprised to eat up six large baked cakes and two catties of cooked mutton, and drank a big bowl of mutton soup.

Lu Da stretched his waist slightly, and then began to drink and eat. It took him about twenty minutes to drink all the beer and eat all the dishes. In the end, he paid for it in the stunned eyes of the boss and left with a smile.

Although Lu Da has many problems, this child has three advantages, which is the three-word mantra that he often hangs on his lips and has always abided by: "loyalty", "filial piety" and "righteousness".

Generally, children from families like their brothers are very likely to go down the wrong path. But Lu Da has adhered to principles since he was a child, and he can't go down the road as a man. No matter how poor his two brothers were, they never sneaked a bit, let alone eat, drink and bully people with the ruffians and hooligans in society.

Lu Dachang joked that our brother couldn't go the wrong way, and if he couldn't get it, he would go in and take over from his old man. Seeing that he usually fights fiercely and is righteous, some people in society with ulterior motives have pulled him to mix with the underworld several times, but he refused.

He often said: "As long as others don't go up and down too much, I won't take the initiative to bully others!" ”

Don't look at Luda, who is usually a little confused, but he takes the word "filial piety" quite seriously.

He not only knows how to be orderly with his elders, but also respects his elders. Connect to make friends, I heard that if anyone does not honor their parents, persuasion is ineffective, then they will immediately break off friendship. If there is something in the neighborhood, as long as he can use him, he has absolutely nothing to say, and it is absolutely unambiguous to contribute money and efforts.

The old people on the street recognized him very much. Lu Da often said: "After all, our brothers grew up eating hundreds of meals, and we must never forget our roots at any time." ”

may be the shadow of childhood, which caused Lu Da to be short-tempered, and often draw a knife at a discord. But when he was in the village, he barely fought a fight when he grew up, and even if he suffered a loss in the village, he generally would not use force to solve it like outside.

Although Lu Da grew up in hardship and poverty, he was bold and righteous by nature, and he kept his promises. Even sometimes the morality is to the point of being unprincipled.

As long as it is a friend he identifies, as long as you speak, he will not be ambiguous in the wind and rain. Employing people out of people, saying that they will leave in the middle of the night in the cold winter, and they will pay with money, and sometimes they have to do it without transferring.

As long as his friends drink and play with him, unless he really doesn't have any money with him, he will never let others pay.

I heard that because they were drunk and fighting to pay, they ended up fighting with their friends, and of course they were still good brothers when they woke up the next day.

Lu Da has a fatal problem, that is, he is addicted to alcohol, and he is drunk nine times out of ten, and he has no ability to control himself after being drunk. Generally, it's okay to drink some beer, three or five bottles or even a bundle is fine, but I'm afraid that he will continue to mix liquor. As long as it is mixed, it will not count, and you will never stop if you don't get drunk.

And when he gets drunk, he will use the strength of alcohol to go crazy, and there will also be a short story, that is, he doesn't remember everything when he was drunk. He has been drunk and out of many people, not only making a lot of noise, kicking and jumping, but also fighting and causing trouble.

I once competed with my friends to pay for it at KTV, and finally got into a fight, and after being pulled away by my friends, I actually opened a scoop for myself with a beer bottle. The next day, when I woke up, I kept asking others why my head was broken.

The most powerful time was when I got drunk and yelled that I was going to cut someone, and I really touched the knife. The friends who drank together panicked, and they all hurriedly stepped forward to pull him desperately. During the pull, he actually used a knife to cut three tendons on a friend's foot when he lost consciousness.

In the end, he broke away from the crowd and ran madly into the street, madly brandishing his bloody machete, and rampage through the street. As a result, he was hit by a speeding car and flew straight out.

Fortunately, his body was caught by a billboard on the side of the road, and his life was saved in a great way. But he suffered multiple fractures and contusions, and six teeth were knocked off the spot, and he ended up lying in a hospital bed for more than a year.

Everyone also sat down and analyzed the reasons why Lu Da was addicted to alcohol and almost insane after being drunk. The first is the great changes in his childhood family, which had a huge impact on his young mind at that time.

The life and death of his parents, the indifference and helplessness of life, the empty house where he killed people, the long and fearful dark nights, and the cynicism that he was pointed at behind his back since he was a child, all planted a deep shadow in his childhood heart.

Moreover, there is also a version that he was on the side when his father killed drunk that night, and he clearly saw the bloody scene.

That terrifying scene remained in his mind forever, and slowly evolved into the madness in his subconscious.

Coupled with his obsession with online games, he got a long-lost excitement and satisfaction in the virtual world.

The wanton tyranny and pleasure of revenge in the game gave him the ultimate release of his pent-up tension, where he found deformed values and a sense of nihilistic existence......

Forget it, I'm really tired after so much casual chatter.

As an elder, I really hope to help him find a way to get him to quit drinking.

Only then can he face life soberly, do a job that suits him, and then find a woman of his own and live a simple life peacefully......