She has a deep admiration and nostalgia for a father she has never met.

You need the (shēn) portion of the Gu family

Su Jinyao was silent for a while, and then said: "However, since I am ready to marry, my mother already has a descendant of the Gu family, why didn't she marry into the Gu family?" And then let her take me to a foreign land? ”

remembered that when my mother took the little Yao'er, I don't know how much hardship she suffered all the way, so that such a young girl became seriously ill and burned into an idiot.

Thinking about the hard life of her mother in the Su family, thinking about the fact that she guarded Su Xiangui, who was in name only and had a disabled leg, did she ever expect that someone from the Gu family would come to pick up their mother and daughter?

The mother sold all the jewelry for the sake of that family, and the family asked her to support herself as a weak woman; A talented girl in the capital, the eldest lady who does not touch the water with ten fingers (chūn), was forced by life to become a village woman.

So much so that in the end, the mother had to use her medical skills and (xìng) life to make an exchange with Tuoba Gao in exchange for the opportunity for the Fang family to rehabilitate Zhaoxue. What a desperate situation the mother must have been?

When Gu Shangqing heard Su Jinyao ask like this, he also sighed and said, "I don't fully know what happened back then (qíng). But I later found out that there was a decree that the Gu family was secretly not allowed to announce the matter of the third uncle and your mother (qíng). The reason should be that the third uncle (shēn) was a martyr who sacrificed his life for the country, and he should not have the slightest misdeeds that people despise, so as not to damage his reputation. Your mother is also for my third uncle, so she only took you secretly to recognize your relatives and let you see your father's spiritual position. But later, the Fang family suddenly encountered an accident, your mother and daughter never showed up again, and the Gu family also secretly looked for it, but found nothing. ”

After Su Jinyao listened, a line gradually began in her mind, and the mystery that seemed to have been looming all along was about to be solved.

Su Jinyao sneered and said, "Yes, if the Gu family announces their marriage with the Fang family, then it is equivalent to being tied to the Fang family." In this way, it will not be so easy for the person who wants to attack the other party's family to find an opportunity. Therefore, she deliberately decreed to stop this marriage, even if it was to give my mother a name, she was not willing. In the end, he finally destroyed the Fang family and erased everything in the Fang family. It can be regarded as my mother's fate, and she escaped by luck, so that I will be where I am today. ”

Thinking of this, Su Jinyao suddenly felt that she had never thought about becoming a member of the Fang family, and finally had a little bit of a feeling of returning.

Just after she knew that the real owner of this (shēn) body was actually the granddaughter of the Gu family, instead of yearning for the Gu family, she looked forward to doing something for the Fang family as an orphan of the Fang family.

It seems that because women are more able to share (qíng) women, Su Jinyao feels that her mother's life is suffering. And the root of this suffering comes from the ancient family.

"Jinyao, can I call you that?" Gu Shangqing said with a soft (qíng): "I really want to be your eldest brother and protect you sincerely." ”

"I can't." Su Jinyao shook her head and refused seriously and categorically. said: "I didn't admit that I was a member of the Gu family. I am an orphan of the Fang family, but I didn't hear my mother tell me in person who my father was. Therefore, your words are only one-sided and cannot be believed. ”

Gu Shangqing immediately said: "But Jinyao, I have been traveling around for so many years, and I also want to find you." Of course, I am also looking for a miracle doctor to cure Xueqi's leg disease. But it doesn't conflict at all with my desire to find your heart. ”

Su Jinyao looked at Gu Shangqing and looked very carefully. She suddenly asked, "Do you look alike with your third uncle?" ”

Gu Shangqing was slightly stunned, then nodded, and said, "In my memory, I am more like his son, my temper is very similar, and my face is also seven or eight points similar. ”

Su Jinyao nodded and said, "However, I look like my mother, so I don't think I have anything to do with you." For my (shēn) life, maybe there will be some proof in the future, or there may be no way to prove it at all, but in my heart, my surname is Liu, and I am an orphan of the Fang family, so I don't think I have anything to do with the Gu family. ”

Only then did Gu Shangqing understand that Su Jinyao didn't want to take a few more looks and get closer to her because she looked very similar to her father. On the contrary, it proves that there is no similarity between them, and it also implies that they are not related by blood.

Gu Shangqing pursed his lips and thought for a while: "Jin Yao, I know that you have many doubts in your heart, in fact, I have the same doubts. I also know that you have a lot of grievances, because you and your mother have suffered too much. But have you ever thought about what benefits it will be for you after returning to the ancient family? ”

"Do you think I need those false names?" Su Jinyao sneered and said, "Gu Shangqing, I didn't expect you to be so superficial. ”

"It's not that I'm superficial, it's that you're too naïve." Gu Shangqing took a deep breath, looking quite calm and sophisticated, and then said: "I can know a little bit about you and the prince (diàn), so I feel even more that you need the (shēn) share of the granddaughter of the Gu family." Since this is yours, why can't you fight for it? ”

Su Jinyao's heart "chuckled", and a string broke.

Because she remembered that Gu Xuebin had said before that the arrangement between the emperor and the queen mother was to let him marry the princess of Tianze Kingdom and then marry a girl from the Gu family.

And Gu Shangqing's meaning is clear...... If she becomes a girl from the Gu family, she will also have such an opportunity. Then all the previous problems are solved.

If Gu Xuebin and Helian Ruo joined forces and destroyed Tianze Kingdom's plan to sow discord, then he wouldn't have to marry that princess again. Then (shēn) is a girl from the ancient family, isn't there a greater chance?

For a moment, Su Jinyao's heart began to waver; But the next moment, Su Jinyao became firm again.

She will never admit defeat, will not be at the mercy of others, and does not need to borrow other people's power or rely on the connections she has picked up to consolidate her position, let alone rely on these false names to get another more false name.

Su Jinyao looked up at the increasingly blue sky, took a deep breath, and then looked at Gu Shangqing and said, "Jasmine Garden will be returned to you, my mother has long been sharpened into a village woman in the countryside by firewood, rice, oil and salt, and she has long disliked jasmine." Therefore, I have no intersection with you. ”

After saying that, Su Jinyao turned (shēn) and walked towards the dilapidated house. She (shēn) is the daughter of the Su family, and this is still her home.

Gu Shangqing stood in place, silently watching Su Jinyao enter the door, and couldn't even see her back, before she smiled happily and muttered, "Silly girl, your temper really seems to be like that of the third uncle." No, I'm like him, and you're like him, the two of us are really like a pair of children of the third uncle, and the combination of the tempers of the two is what the third uncle really looks like. ”

Live with (xìng) and live with (xìng).

Su Jinyao, who was supposed to have the joy of going home, was not so beautiful in her heart (qíng).

Back at Su's house, she stood in the foyer, which had been renovated but was still a little shabby, and it took a while to come back to her senses.

Xiuning and Sophie came out of the kitchen, both of them had smiles on their faces, but when they saw Su Jinyao's appearance, they all fell silent.

After a while, Xiu Ning slowly stepped forward and shouted, "Master? ”

"It's fine." Su Jinyao shook her head, looking a little tired. She had just had a home, but now she gave it up because of that backbone.

Jasmine Garden was bought by her for forty taels of silver, and for the current Su Jinyao, forty taels of silver is not a big amount.

But after all, it was a home that Su Jinyao recognized in her heart, and it was a small world that completely belonged to her. Now there is suddenly no more, which makes Su Jinyao's heart empty.

Su Jinyao brushed the hair on her forehead and said to Xiuning: "You go to Jasmine Garden, get back some of our things with (shēn), and then go and inform Ma Liu, and ask him to move for us, and move immediately." ”

"Master, you said to move?" Xiuning also couldn't believe it, and said nervously: "Is it that Gu Gongzi didn't sell Jasmine Garden to us?" ”

"No, it has nothing to do with him." After Su Jinyao finished speaking, she said to Xiuning with a serious face: "Xiuning, you are not a person who talks much, so I will let you do whatever you want." Remember to tell Ma Liu, just move our things, and don't bring anything that originally belonged to Jasmine Garden. ”

Xiuning asked again, "What about ...... Where to move to? ”

Su Jinyao took a breath and felt really tired, so she said, "Just move here, aren't there a lot of empty houses here." ”

Su Jinyao looked up at Su Fei'er again and said, "Eldest sister, your room lends me to lie down, I want to sleep for a while." ”

After speaking, without waiting for Xiuning to ask anything more, and without waiting for Sophie to speak, he went to Sophie's house by himself.

Lying on Sophie's little (chuáng), Su Jinyao took out the handkerchief that Sophie gave her, flipped it back and forth, looked at it, and then felt that she still had such a home, which was good.

I can't sleep at all, Su Jinyao is in a mess now, and there are too many problems that are difficult to digest.

But she didn't want to investigate, she felt that those things (qíng) were far away from her. Because the real Yao Er of the Fang family has left, she is Su Jinyao, and she should stick to her life.

But there seemed to be a small but clear voice in her heart begging her to take the Fang family's affairs (qíng) as her own and give the Fang family a deserved justice.

"Yao'er? Is that you? Are you still there? Su Jinyao couldn't help but ask her other self softly. However, there was no voice to answer her.

Su Jinyao was unwilling, and said, "If you are still here, then what's going on with all this?" Can you see it over there? Or are you going to come back and continue with it all? ”

"......" was silent, and no one answered her.

"I must be crazy and stupid." Su Jinyao laughed self-deprecatingly, laughing at herself for having a day of gains and losses, and she was stupid enough to talk to herself.

But suddenly, she felt that she was "Yao'er", and Yao'er was her.

Since he got this (shēn) body, he inherited everything from her, why was he able to accept the people of the Su family, and even willing to share hardships with them, but he was not willing to accept everything that should have belonged to Yao'er?

Yao Er is the orphan of the Fang family, and Su Jinyao is; Yao Er is actually a girl from the Gu family, and Su Jinyao is; The blood feud of the Fang family's annihilation only fell on Yao Er's (shēn), which was the responsibility that Su Jinyao had to shoulder.

"Silly girl, you finally get it." Su Jinyao knocked on her head and called "silly girl" to herself.

But when these three words came out, her tears almost flowed.

She misses Gu Xuebin! He used to call himself a "silly girl" and accompanied her through the most difficult times.

But it seems that after this separation, her heart has repeatedly become empty (dàng) (dàng), and her sense (qíng) is also suffering from gains and losses.

Only then did Su Jinyao understand that this was called "deep (ài)". She has inadvertently changed from (ài) to deep (ài), from self-reliance to dependence.

Although she still has pride and stubbornness in her bones, she will inevitably have the softest (qíng) feeling in her heart, and she will make herself chaotic because of the changes and uncertainties of things.

At this time, she especially wanted Gu Xuebin to be by her side (shēn), calling "silly girl", but she inadvertently helped her solve one problem after another.

Even if she encounters a problem that neither of them can solve, Gu Xuebin will find a way to help her get rid of the knot in her heart.

Su Jinyao sat up, put on her shoes and walked out.

Sophie hurriedly chased after her and said, "Jinyao, why are you going?" Is there still something uncomfortable? Get a little more sleep. ”

"I'm fine, big sister, thank you. I don't have to prepare dinner, and I don't necessarily come back for dinner. After Su Jinyao finished speaking, she went over and lifted the curtain of Su Xiangui's room and said, "Dad, I'll go out for a while, and I'll come back later." ”

"Jinyao, if there is anything, just talk to your father, even if your father can't solve it......"

"It's okay, there's nothing I can't solve." After Su Jinyao finished speaking, she left quickly with confidence.

When he went out, Gu Shangqing was no longer there.

Su Jinyao just glanced at it, and then left inadvertently.

Out of the city, Su Jinyao went directly to Ma Liu's side and took her white horse Moyun out.

Ma Liu hasn't followed Xiuning's news yet, so it is estimated that Xiuning is still packing up his things in Jasmine Garden.

Su Jinyao told Ma Liu directly: "Call a few diligent people to come over and help me move." Move out of the Jasmine Garden and settle down in the old house under the city walls. ”

Ma Liu was surprised: "Master, it's good, why do you want to move?" ”

Su Jinyao smiled and said, "Why do you talk as much as Xiuning?" I just don't like it there, live with (xìng) and live with (xìng), can't I? In the future, there is no need to go step by step, I will do whatever I want. ”

Live with (xìng) and live with (xìng)? Ma Liu was stunned, is this the master who wants to do everything (qíng) without leakage and completeness?

Su Jinyao had already stepped on the white horse and said, "I'll go walk the horse and run two laps well." Xiuning should still be packing up in Jasmine's Garden, and she'll tell you how to move it. ”

After speaking, Su Jinyao shook the reins and urged Mo Yun to run out.

Ma Liu watched Su Jinyao leave in a dashing manner, and looked at the snow-white desert cloud as if it was a cloud floating to the sky, taking Su Jinyao all the way. couldn't help but sigh: "This woman is really unpredictable." ”

I have this bathhouse

Su Jinyao rode Moyun all the way, letting the horse gallop and let the wind blow the silk. The sound of the wind whistling in her ears made Su Jinyao feel (xiōng) majestic.

She just suddenly felt that she really shouldn't be thinking too much.

Since God has let her live again, so that she has already put aside the killer's (shēn) part, why can't she really be herself?

Whether it is a person who is deep (ài) or a person who passes by, she has left traces in her heart to a greater or lesser extent. Gradually, she became a victim of gains and losses.

But now that I think about it, when the horse runs, does it mean that as long as she blindly moves forward, she can put those problems behind?

Why should she care if she is an orphan of the Fang family or a girl from the Gu family? Anyway, she is Su Jinyao, there is only her Ren (xìng) in the world, and she should not be bound by others.

There is no need to care about the princess of Tianze Kingdom, as long as Gu Xuebin identifies her, and she has nothing to do with him in her heart, then all obstacles do not exist.

If you want to be together, you will be together, and if you want to be separated, you will be separated; Even though they are separated, they are still going on with their own things (qíng), and there will always be a day when they will get together.

In other words, nothing is a big deal. Dividing and combining, walking and stopping, or galloping on horseback, or sitting in front of the court, is a life after all, it depends on how you want to choose.

It's as if Gu Xuebin chose Moyun, a weird horse, for her to know for the first time that the horse's (xìng) is not explicitly revealed, and it will also trick people into tricking you into riding and then falling you even worse.

Now she can be arrogant, because she has her own power; can be safe, because she has no worries about food and clothing; can be free, because the person of the heart (ài) is willing to follow her to the end of the world.

Since everything is so beautiful, she doesn't have to be tied up and entangled. Everything she has to do in the future (qíng) is from the heart, don't look ahead and backward, otherwise she will be tired.

"Drive!" Su Jinyao urged the horse again, making Mo Yun run faster.

She wanted to know where Moyun's limit was, and wanted to know how fast the horse Gu Xuebin chose for her could run.

Mo Yun seemed to know the proud state of mind of his master, hissed, and galloped with his hooves. The long ponytail straightened up, and the mane stood upright, as if it had really turned into a cloud and was about to fly.

Su Jinyao squinted, as far as her eyes could see, it was a wilderness in early autumn. The world is no longer vast, but it is also cool with autumn.

Taking a breath, the smell of ripe rice filled her lungs, letting her know that the harvest was imminent, and her heart was filled with beauty.

"Whew" Su Jinyao let out another breath, feeling that the depression in her heart was really put aside.

After running for a while, Su Jinyao and Mo Yun were all sweating profusely, so she let Mo Yun trot, and then slowed down.