How much anticipation there was, how much despair there is now.

Liu Sisi originally thought that if she went to Beixiang, she would have a new life. Although she is no longer Jieyu Niangniang, she will have a bright identity and a gentle husband, and they will even live a happier life after leaving the harem of competition.

Unexpectedly, this dream was like a bubble, which shattered in a flash.

Seeing that she was crying too badly, Chi Yun had to call Su'er and help her down to rest.

When she returned to the car, the imperial doctor and Gao Can discussed the condition, and Lou Yan instructed Xiaoxi to decoct the medicine.

Xiaoxi saluted her and got out of the car with tears in her eyes.

Chi Yun was in a heavy mood and sat beside him on the couch.

"I didn't get him back after all." Lou Yan said quietly.

Ji Yun took the initiative to shake his hand and whispered, "You have done your best." ”

In fact, they had long thought that the Ping Wangfu would not let the emperor leave easily. Let Lou Yan take him away, who knows if Beixiang will use this name to raise troops?

"I didn't do my best." Lou Yan said, "If I did everything to protect him, I would have robbed someone and sent him back to Beixiang as early as when I returned to Beijing." Ping Wangfu will do tricks, it's not that I can't guess, it's just that I still have a problem with him in my heart, and I don't want to do it. ”

Chi Yun lowered his head and said after a while: "Do you know what mood I was in when I first woke up?" ”

Lou Yan looked over.

She smiled and said, "When I knew that the Boundless Sea Pavilion had been burned, my first reaction was to kill him to take revenge. I didn't do it later, I just didn't think it was necessary. ”

She is stingy, the Endless Sea Pavilion is gone, her grandfather is dead, and she can't wait to kill everyone involved to take revenge.

"Anyway, my grandfather taught him for five years, and those brothers and sisters were classmates with him for five years, but after he succeeded to the throne, did he ever have the slightest apology for them? He didn't even go to his grandfather to pay his respects. ”

Lou Yan looked at her and said coldly: "He didn't do evil, but because he was incapable, in fact, his essence was as cold as that family." Before, you saw him protect you like that, didn't you soften your heart? Do you believe that if you die, he will forget it, and he will not turn his face with King Kang for you at all? ”

Lou Yan couldn't answer this.

In fact, what he knows is that the emperor can't do without him, not because he has any feelings for him, but because he can make the emperor live comfortably. He was forced to take poison, and every month he had an attack that was worse than death, and the emperor never thought to help him get rid of it.

"Besides, I'm dead! If it hadn't happened to someone else, I would have been a skeleton eaten by a fish. Why can't I hate him? ”

Lou Yan sighed in his heart and clenched her hand: "Yes." After you came back to life, I was so grateful to God, I always thought to myself, at least he is the one who likes you. ”

"Like?" Chi Yun sneered, "That night, he blocked me in the library, what would happen if you didn't come?" I can't afford to like this. ”

Lou Yan sighed in his heart before he opened his mouth-

"You really should...... Hate me ......"

The two turned their heads and found that the emperor had woken up.

Lou Yan got up and wanted to call the imperial doctor, but was stopped: "Don't ......"

The emperor looked very bad, his face was as white as paper, his usual handsome face, and his cheekbones were so thin that his cheekbones came out. At the moment, he didn't care about anything else, just looked at Chi Yun directly.

"Chonghua," he whispered, "are you Chonghua?" ”

It's all this time, and there is no need to deny it.

Ji Yun nodded.

Tears slowly slipped out of the emperor's eyes, and he involuntarily reached out his hand, and withdrew it in shame.

It turned out that Concubine Yu didn't lie to him, she was really Chonghua.

Therefore, he had a chance to fulfill his wish, but he missed her again, and even pushed her to Lou Yan himself.

"I'm sorry." He said in a hoarse voice, "I...... I don't want to ...... either."

He had a lot of words in his heart, wanting to explain that he didn't want to be an emperor, and wanted to tell how sad he was when she died, but in the end, he found that he couldn't say anything.

She was right, he never had a trace of apology for the destruction of the Boundless Sea Pavilion and the death of the teacher, he was such a cold person.

These days, he occasionally comes to his senses, and his heart is terrified.

Is it like to face death like this?

That night, the brothers who died at the hands of the pirates, was it the same?

No, they will be more afraid than he is, because he has someone to save, but they can only face the butcher's knife themselves.

"Chonghua ......"

Ji Yun's expression was blank, watching him look longing on his face, staring at himself without blinking.

"Can you forgive me?" He asked.

Ji Yun looked at his eyes full of expectation, but there was no wave in his heart.

"I can't."

The light in the emperor's eyes was extinguished at once.

He laughed softly and said to himself, "yes, what reason do you have to forgive me?" The teacher is dead, and you are almost dead......"

Ji Yun didn't want to say a word. What qualifications does she have to forgive? With the blood of so many people, where is her turn to forgive?

"Damn it, it's me! I'm finally going to die......"

Chi Yun didn't want to listen anymore, so he got up and got out of the car.

After a while, Xiaoxi sent medicine over, and then called the imperial doctor, and Liu Sisi came to visit......

People came and went, but Chi Yun didn't go in again.

It wasn't until nearly dawn that there was a mournful cry from inside, and Liu Sisi shouted, "Your Majesty! Your Majesty! I beg you not to leave, and don't leave your concubines behind......"

Ji Yun listened silently, with neither sadness nor joy in his heart.

After a while, Lou Yan came over and said to her, "He's gone." ”

Ji Yun nodded, finally revealing a hint of sadness.

Lou Yan reached out to hug her and gently stroked her shoulder.

"It's almost over, it's finally over......"

Ji Yun muttered, looking up at the faintly lit sky.

……

Five days later, they arrived at the Beixiang jurisdiction and joined Lou Yi.

Not long after, news came from the capital that the emperor had died.

The Empress Dowager chose the grandchildren of King Ping's branch to succeed to the throne.

Immediately afterwards, King Kang, who returned to the fiefdom, claimed that King Ping had killed the king and raised the banner to raise the army.

Thus began the war.

When they returned to Beixiang, they didn't care about these things anymore, Lou Yi was even more dedicated to building a border city, and the court asked him to send troops to quell the chaos, so he pretended to be deaf and dumb.

The situation is changing faster than expected. When this battle was fought, the people's livelihood became more and more difficult, and the people who could not survive rose up, and there were more and more rebels.

A year later, Chi Yun was diagnosed as pregnant, but Lou Yan had to say goodbye to her.

"Yu Da sent a letter, the DPRK and China are in chaos, we can't wait any longer, the eldest brother decided to send troops by edict."

Chi Yun agreed: "I really can't wait, if it goes on like this, I don't know how many people will die." You go, I've someone to take care of, don't worry. ”

Lou Yan gently covered her lower abdomen, and her eyes were gentle: "Wait for me to come back." ”

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