Xiaxia slowly opened her eyes, and after a few minutes of being lost in them, she slammed into the bathroom window. Downstairs, "hulahula", flashing red ambulances and noisy crowds crowded the pavement outside the flower beds. In the dark flower bed, her nightmare was gone, except for the speckled white flowers that looked like stars in the distant sky under the light of the street lamp. She slipped and fell again in the bathtub filled with water, and the shampoo bottle, soap, and soap box on the windowsill slid down with a splash like a blooming gardenia.

"It's not true, I just dreamed, right?" She trembled and grabbed Fei Yang like a life-saving straw.

Fei Yang, who had been talking non-stop, was speechless at this time, her round eyes were full of tears, she gritted her teeth, and Ren Xiaxia's nails dug deep into her arms.

"Are you dumb? Aren't you the most talkative?! Why don't you speak?! You say! - "Kasumi roared uncontrollably.

"Don't worry—that's it—" Fei Yang's tears flowed, but she couldn't find the words, and for the first time she felt that it was difficult to speak. The corners of her mouth twitched, and her big black eyes searched around trying to find helpers. Finally, her gaze fell on the washstand, "Xiaxia——, that's it, look..."

Xiaxia followed her gaze and turned her face back.

"Poof-" Xia Xia laughed, her stiff body instantly relaxed, she looked at the toothbrush and cup flying in the air on the washstand, patted her chest and said, "It turned out to be really a dream!" She twisted Fei Yang's arm and reproached, "Why did you let me have such a strange dream, scared Miss Ben to death!" ”

Fei Yang's hand shook, the toothbrush and cup fell with a bang, and a white cup rolled down to the edge of the bathtub, and Xia Xia stepped back in fright.

"Xiaxia-" Fei Yang cleared her throat, she looked at Xiaxia deeply: "Look, I want to... That white light, you should remember that white light, right? I think my aunt should have seen it too, I saw it after the car accident, and they said it was called a near-death experience. But I think it's a wormhole, and after the end of life, it will follow it into the source of life, like a river flowing into the sea..."

"Why are you telling me this! This is said in the dream. Xia Xia interrupted her impatiently: "Second girl, are you annoying!" ”

"Hmm-" Fei Yang grabbed her head, pulled Xia Xia out of the bathtub, took off the bath towel from the wall hook to wrap Xia Xia, helped her out of the bathroom, and sat on the sofa in the living room. On the goose-yellow floor tiles in the living room, the pink apples were blown by the strong wind blowing through the balcony, and Xiaxia saw the open security net access window through the glass of the sliding door, and her tears couldn't stop falling.

"Listen to me," Fei Yang forcibly took back Xiaxia's face, stared at the long phoenix eyes full of bloodshot and tears, and said slowly: "What I want to tell you is this: life never really ends, my aunt just returned to another part of the universe through the wormhole, and her journey is over. But you haven't, you're still so young and beautiful, you shouldn't end so early. Life is so great, so not easy, so don't do stupid things again. ”

"Doing something stupid? What stupid thing to do? Xiaxia's eyes became dazed.

"Just now, in the bathroom, you..."

"You mean I killed myself?" Xiaxia struggled to remember as she looked through the bathroom door to the shampoo bottles, soap dishs, and burnt hair dryers that had slid down the windowsill into the tub. She closed her eyes, tears the size of beans sliding down with beads of sweat on her forehead. Suddenly, she pushed Fei Yang away, held on to the corner of the sofa, and vomited violently. Fei Yang patted her gradually paralyzed back and sobbed.

Xiaxia lay on the couch exhausted, the acid water of vomiting irritating her nasal passages. Turning his head, he saw another pile of vomit, and the once curly black hair floated on it...... She buried her head in the couch in resistance. However, the "ticking" of water from the old faucet in the bathroom, little by little, knocked on the surface of the bathtub with a sound as harsh as the sound of the woman falling. Xia Xia slammed her head hard, but the woman's naked body rolled down was the same as the hair dryer rolling off the windowsill, and she just refused to let her go!

"Enough is enough!!" Suddenly, she sat up straight, pushed Fei Yang's reassuring hand away again, and smiled hatefully: "Suicide? Do you think I'm suicidal? Why should I kill myself? What am I doing wrong? I'm sorry for this world! It's God! Since I was born, I haven't had a good day, no one loves me, I don't even know what is really alive, why should I die?! It's it, it's them, what does it have to do with me?! Why should I die?! ”

"It's not suicide, that's good..."Xiaxia's anger made Fei Yang speechless again, she looked at the face that was red from anger in a daze, and gradually turned white, and the living room fell into a dead silence...

"Maybe... I can, and you should—" Fei Yang finally found the words. Xiaxia lifted her drooping eyelids, "The NDE gave me superpowers, and you should be able to-"

"Superpowers?"

"Yes! You see! Fei Yang raised his hands, and the apples that had fallen to the ground flew and hung in unison. Xiaxia's eyes gradually brightened, she sat up straight, rubbed her eyes, and asked again, "Isn't this really a dream?" ”

"Of course not! Close your eyes, try to feel the object in front of you with your heart, and tell me, what can you see? Finally able to help Xiaxia, Fei Yang became excited.

"It's pitch black, I can't see anything!"

Fei Yang closed her eyes and took a closer look, she saw a very slight gap on the forehead of the white humanoid on the opposite side, and there were some faint blue light spots in it that were trying to break through, Fei Yang used her blue tentacles to pull the blue light points inside, like a thread, breaking through the last barrier little by little. She heard Xiaxia scream, "I can see it, there are some white shadows." ”

At this moment, the sound of hurried and noisy footsteps outside the door interrupted them...

This night, Fei Yang completely lost sleep. Before dawn the next day, she got up and made Xiaxia's favorite shrimp wonton with her grandmother, carefully packed it in a crisper box, asked for a day off from school, and rushed to Room 102 of Building 6 early.

But as soon as it was lunchtime, Fei Yang came back. She sat quietly, finished lunch, and consciously helped her mother clean up the dishes and chopsticks for the first time. After tidying up, she silently returned to her pink room, sat at the white desk, and stared blankly out the window at the gloomy sky through the pink veil.

"Squeak-" An Ran pushed the door in, and she sat down on the chair next to her desk, smiling and waiting.

Fei Yang's eyes turned to her mother, and An Ran asked with her eyes. For the first time, the childish baby face showed a quiet sadness, the wind blew the fluffy bangs on her forehead, and the eyes under the bangs were like a deep lake, calm on the surface, but there were endless waves inside. After a while, she spoke: "Mom, why were you so sad when I had an accident?" ”

"Silly girl," An Ran said softly: "What's the problem, don't you need to say, you are my baby daughter!" ”

"If I had been crippled and never recovered, would you still love me so much?"

"Of course! In the eyes of a mother, her daughter will always be her supreme treasure, no matter what she is! An Ran held Fei Yang's hand, her eyes full of love.

However, Xiaxia's mother was dragged to the funeral home last night and cremated. Xiaxia's grandfather said that her death was unlucky, no funeral was held, and she could not be buried back in her hometown, and the ashes were disposed of casually by her cousin in the countryside. Dealt with—casually, Mom, you know? Fei Yang's tone was as calm as possible.

"These are some customs in the countryside, and many people believe this, which does not mean anything."

"But," Fei Yang took a deep breath and choked up: "But, when I went to Xiaxia's house this morning, it was only - after seven o'clock, their family had already made Sichuan dandan noodles, and Xiaxia's grandmother warmly beckoned me to eat a bowl." ”

"And what about Xiaxia?" An Ran asked.

"Xia Xia didn't sleep well last night, but unfortunately, it was because of the superpowers that she practiced all night. This morning, she escorted me to her room again and practiced with her all morning, and I came back on the pretext of eating. ”

Fei Yang finally cried: "I'm really sorry for Xiaxia's mother!" Spiders – Spiders really are the scariest thing in the world! If it weren't for that spider - if I hadn't used that spider to provoke Tang Man, Chen Hao's father wouldn't have had an accident, Xiaxia wouldn't have had to go to the hospital, and Xiaxia's mother wouldn't have jumped off the building! I thought I was doing chivalrous acts like Batman and Iron Man, but things are like the wings of a butterfly, and they have become like this! Xiaxia's mother is really pitiful, her life is like an ant, so small, so humble! No one really cares about her existence, not even - her daughter and mother, father - it's not fair! ”

She took the tissue from her mother, wiped away her tears, and continued, "Isn't Fieryas, who was reborn in the storm, the Super Queen, a person who has been sent from heaven? Isn't it time to maintain world peace and save the world, and isn't it time to act chivalrous and righteous and do the right thing for heaven? However, Mr. Liu said: This world has the laws of this world, and there are natural rules of nature, when will it be the turn of this world, I am such an insignificant little girl to make a move, that is a joke! It sounded so ridiculous at the time, but now that I think about it—"

She shook her head and laughed at herself, "Who am I?" Is it really the reborn Fireyas in the storm - the super queen? Secondary 2 girl, who crowned you? Why should you judge who is right and who is wrong? Who gives self-confidence? Why are you above others? Who gives the power? Your chivalrous deeds have led to the loss of a life, even if she is as humble as Xiaxia's mother—"

She turned to An Ran, grabbed her mother's hand and shook it, "Mom, do you know? Some things have existed for a long time, even before the universe itself, and they have been studying for tens of billions of years to shape us today. Every atom and molecule in our body has evolved through the Big Bang, stars, and planets, and isn't it precious and great to think that we were once part of the sun? ”

"Of course, life is the greatest miracle of the universe!" An Ran affirmed.

"But, Mom! Do you remember the Nanyue Temple where we went to burn incense during the New Year? ”

An Ran nodded.

"At the gate, those disabled people who lie on the muddy mats and beg, their lives are the same as Xiaxia's mother, so lowly and humble, many of them come to this world, and no one may even remember their names, so they disappear in a hurry. If life is so precious and great, why is it so uncherished and unfair? Let some people like me be very happy, and let Xiaxia's mother be so sad, is her life valuable and meaningful?! ”

An Ran listened carefully, she brushed the bangs in front of Fei Yang's forehead, and kissed it gently on the smooth and full forehead. After thinking for a while, he said: "At dusk in late spring and early summer, by the river, pond, and lakeside, there is a small insect with a small body, delicate and soft, which flies up and down in swarms, looking very much like mosquitoes, and their tail filaments are raised high in the air. Do you know what this insect is called? ”

Fei Yang shook his head.

"'Mayfly'" An Ran smiled, "The life cycle of a mayfly could not be shorter. Generally, they only live for a day or a few days. People use the idiom "life and death" to describe the brevity of its life. The larvae of mayflies live in water, and the adults only have a life span of one or two days, during which they lay eggs and reproduce the next generation, and then they are exhausted and leave silently. And the sun, which is proud of heaven and earth, has the supreme power, it has burned lonely for 4.5 billion years, but it has achieved the prosperity of the earth. Can you say that mayflies are humble? Can it be said that the sun has no meaning and no value? ”

Fei Yang pondered, she stared at the sky outside the window: "Su Dongpo said: Between heaven and earth, everything has its own master; That is what Teacher Liu said: This world has the law of this world, and nature has natural rules..."Suddenly, her eyes lit up: "Life is the same!" The sun is lonely and ephemera is short, but the atoms and molecules of our body come from the sun, and our blue matter has existed in the form of mayflies, so those lives that seem humble and lowly to us are their journey and task. There is no real end to life, otherwise suffering is meaningless, the meaning of life is to learn and grow, and growth is crucial! ”

An Ran looked at Fei Yang with a smile and looked up at the room: "Maybe it's time for us to redecorate your room." ”

"Why? It's still new—" Fei Yang asked absent-mindedly while still pondering.

An Ran stroked her daughter's hair: "You have grown up, pink is no longer suitable for you." I am very happy and envious of you for having such wisdom and feelings. You're right, God does treat you very favorably, it makes you happy, beautiful, intelligent, has superpowers, and more importantly, it also makes you have a compassionate heart. I don't know what it wants you to do, but no matter what you do, keep it compassionate: because it's the purest, gentleest, and most powerful thing in the world. But you also have to understand that compassion, like kindness, is sometimes painful, expensive, and comes at a cost. It will make you tired, but it will be the light that will lead you out of the darkness and find your way home..."