51. Hiding one's mind gradually became estranged, revealing one's true feelings and working hard step by step

After a busy time, Yuan Ziyou lay quietly on the couch, Ying'e choked back tears, and fed him medicine spoonful by spoonful. Qi Wan sat beside Concubine Zheng, she looked at Concubine Zheng with pleading eyes several times, wanting her to speak for herself, but Concubine Zheng never saw it.

Concubine Zheng looked at everything calmly, she was thinking about Yuan Ziyou's sudden illness, but she didn't move, waiting for the bustling people to disperse, she broke away from Ying'e, sat quietly on the edge of the couch, looked at Yuan Ziyou and asked softly, "Your Majesty, everyone is scattered, do you feel better?" ”

Yuan Ziyou slowly opened his eyes, saw Concubine Zheng's perceptive expression, and knew that there was no way to hide it, and the feelings that brought him from childhood to adulthood made his every move impossible to escape Concubine Zheng's eyes. At this moment, he was like a child who had done something wrong, turned over, and was about to get out of bed to greet the concubine, but was held down by the concubine, "The emperor's current body is not suitable for getting up, let's lie down, and the imperial doctor will come to ask the case later." ”

Yuan Ziyou said softly, "I can't hide anything from the concubine, I remember when I was a child, because I didn't want to go to school, I pretended to be sick and deceived the queen mother, but I didn't hide it from the concubine." ”

Concubine Zheng smiled slightly, "Now it's the same as before, the mourning family will cover it up for the emperor, but what does the emperor plan to do this time?" ”

"Don't hide it from the concubine, the closer this is to Jinyang, the more worried my heart becomes. Now even Kuan'er can see that I left Fei Mu in Kyoto because I wanted to borrow a knife to kill people, how could Zhu Rong and Yuan Tianmu not see it? I was gnawed at every inch of my bones by hatred every night, the pain that pierced my heart was unforgettable, the mutilated corpses of my loved ones were placed in front of me, the blood stained the night red, the fishy smell wrapped around me, I could smell it every time I breathed. Do you understand, Toffee? The kind of forced smile on the enemy's daughter, hiding the feelings for her, is a kind of torment for me, but I have nothing to do. I was afraid, afraid that I couldn't suppress the anger in my heart when I saw Er Zhurong, I was not afraid of life and death, what made me afraid was that I would not be able to get justice for the thousands of innocent lives in Heyin. Yuan Ziyou's eyes were red and round, and he gritted his teeth and complained, his hands kept pounding on the mattress.

Concubine Zheng sighed and gently pressed Yuan Ziyou's angry hands, "Your Majesty, the mourning family knows that you are bitter in your heart, and the mourning family's health is not as good as day by day, so I am afraid that I will not be able to accompany the emperor to the end." Since the emperor has no feelings for the queen, instead of getting along with him so tired, it is better to occasionally apply some rain and dew to the royal maid, so as not to let the flowers in the harem wither. As for Nar Zhurong, he couldn't stop the emperor from favoring the concubine. That Fei Mu originally had the responsibility of guarding Luoyang in his official position, and it was he who lowered Yuan Hao himself, and as for whether Yuan Hao left his life, it was not up to the emperor to decide. If he really died, it would also comfort the Empress Dowager Hu and the two thousand unjust spirits, if the emperor felt that it was up to the owner to beat the dog, he would read that Fei Mu also participated in the pacification of the Hebei Rebellion, and the emperor would casually give a nickname at that time, and also give Er Zhurong the face of the master. Concubine Zheng said a lot in one breath, she looked at Yuan Ziyou's somewhat puzzled eyes, hurriedly coughed a few times, and then gasped and said, "Don't worry when you get to the Emperor of Jinyang, Yuan Hao is in turmoil, Luoyang is recovered, and a time limit is still given." ”

Yuan Ziyou gently slapped Concubine Zheng's shoulder, "The concubine is not in good health, and she is still worried about the affairs of the son, it is the unfilial piety of the son, let the princess Ru serve you and go back to take medicine, the concubine's body is important." ”

Concubine Zheng saw that Yuan Ziyou's words had come to this, and she really couldn't sell Qi Yu too much, for fear of arousing Yuan Ziyou's suspicions, so she got up and called Yueru, "The mourning family has Yueru to serve, and the emperor is still not at ease?" You can't do without people, let the maid Ru serve first, and if the emperor is not satisfied, then send someone to call the queen. After speaking, he didn't wait for Yuan Ziyu to answer, leaving Qiyu and helping Yueru back to his bedroom. On the way, I saw Ying'e, who was waiting for news, and only said, "You are tired after a busy day, and the emperor has a maid to serve you, you can rest assured." ”

As the twilight faded, Ying'e watched the lights in Yuan Ziyou's room gradually go out, she put on a coat, didn't wake up Aunt Qiu, walked out of the courtyard alone, found a stone step to sit down, and drew a circle on the ground with a branch with her cheek. A man's deep voice came from behind her to greet her, she turned around and saw that it was He Batsheng, and hurriedly adjusted her appearance, but found that she was in a hurry, and it turned out to be barefoot, and she was embarrassed to pull her skirt down, trying to cover up the pair of jade feet. All this was seen by He Batsheng, and he asked with pity, "If the queen was cut by the sand and stone and injured her jade feet, wouldn't it be their sin of poor care." ”

Ying'e blushed, after all, it was unseemly for outsiders to see her feet, "It was this palace who wanted to come out to breathe and forgot to wear shoes, but it has nothing to do with others." ”

"It seems that the queen really has no considerate people to take care of her now, Qihua and Sai Xuan, one is the Ru Imperial Maid, the other is Mrs. Xi, and the emperor will arrange an old aunt to serve the mother. Didn't it make me, our general Zhuguo, feel distressed when he saw it? He Batsheng hurriedly changed his words, for fear of blaspheming Ying'e.

"The palace is fine, and when I was a child, I often liked to walk around barefoot, and my father is used to it, so I won't feel distressed because of this." Ying'e hurriedly excused Yuan Ziyou, she thought that on the first night of the meeting with Yuan Tianmu, Yuan Ziyou would leave Qi Yu to sleep, for fear of arousing their suspicion, so she said lightly, "This palace is a little tired from running around in the past few days, so let the imperial lady Ru serve the emperor sick, and the general don't think too much." ”

He Batsheng smiled bitterly, "The queen thinks about the emperor very much, and she should think about herself, so go and get a pair of shoes for the mother." ”

Ying'e saw He Batsheng turn around to go in to get his shoes, for fear of alarming others, especially not wanting Er Zhuzhao to see, stepped forward to grab He Batsheng, but because just now in order to cover his feet, the skirt was pulled too low, and he accidentally tripped and fell, leaning forward and planting into He Batsheng's arms. This scene that only appeared in He Batsheng's dream happened at this moment, He Batsheng gently held the delicate body as a lotus, her hair stroked his cheeks, and the dark fragrance on his body accompanied his breath deep into his heart, he held his breath, as if he wanted to collect the fragrance.

Ying'e felt that He Batsheng's breathing was no longer steady, she realized her gaffe, and pushed He Batsheng away, but she heard Er Zhuzhao's wild laughter that had been held back for a long time and finally broke out, she lowered her voice and reprimanded, "Brother, you shut up." ”

Er Zhuzhao covered his mouth, his face was flushed, and he looked at Ying'e and He Batsheng with a pair of bad eyes, and couldn't help the urge to laugh. was about to be released, but He Batsheng pressed against the wall, ripped off his belt and stuffed it into his mouth, and then held it down with one hand, and said in a low voice, "Er Zhuzhao, you know that things are not what you see, do you want to make everyone hear?" You don't care about me, you have to take care of the dignity of the queen. ”

Er Zhu Zhao's mouth was tightly gagged, and he could only make a "hmm" sound, nodding his head, indicating that Ying'e had flashed into the courtyard. Only then did He Batsheng let go of him, and Erzhu Zhao pulled out the strip of cloth from his mouth and tied it around his waist. While chasing after Batsheng, he said, "Oh, I won't say anything, what are you shy running." ”

He Batsheng stopped suddenly, turned around and grabbed Er Zhuzhao's collar, and said in a low voice, "Listen, although this is not a palace, but it is also a courtyard, you are shouting here, have you considered the consequences?" ”

Er Zhu Zhao stared at the surroundings and shouted, "If the turtle grandson wants to ruin the queen's reputation, don't be afraid that your head won't be able to grow." ”

Seeing that he really couldn't communicate, He Batsheng turned around angrily, didn't say a word more, and left Er Zhu Zhao to stand in place stupidly by touching his head, not understanding what He Batsheng was worried about.

Sure enough, on the second day, Concubine Zheng asked Yueru to send a pair of embroidered shoes to Ying'e, the style was ordinary, only a pair of rubies were inlaid at the toe of the shoes, but Ying'e's words were quite meaningful, "The concubine smelled that the queen had no shoes when she went out late at night, and specially asked the slave maid to make a pair for you overnight, but this is not as complete as in the palace, so the shoes are made simply." The concubine took pity, the concubine took off the gems on a pair of earrings for the queen to decorate, and asked the queen not to dislike it, don't let the general of the Zhu Kingdom think that we treat the queen slowly. ”

Ying'e's face was red when she heard this, and she got up and was about to thank the concubine, but was stopped by Yueru, "The concubine is not feeling well, she stayed up last night, she is still resting, and she will leave for Jinyang after lunch, it is better to wait until Jinyang is settled, and the queen will go to see the concubine again." ”

Ying'e didn't want to say anything, so she sent Yueru out, just in time to see Qiyu coming out of Yuan Ziyou's bedroom. The two looked at each other speechlessly, Qihua saluted Ying'e, and returned to his bedroom to freshen up.

Seeing Ying'e looking at Yuan Ziyou's room in amazement, Aunt Qiu couldn't bear it and persuaded, "Empress, the emperor let Imperial Maiden Ru serve her because she was unwell." ”

Ying'e's eyes were moist, and she couldn't help but cry when she looked at the shoes when she went back to the house, and the tears dripped on the upper of the shoes, which quickly melted in, leaving only a wet mark. "Aunt Qiu, you are sent by the emperor to serve this palace, this palace knows a lot of things you know, but you can't tell this palace, so you don't want to talk to this palace. It's just that the palace really feels so lonely, the huge palace is full of betrayal, and the people around the palace are all empty and gone. This palace is not sad, really, because this palace no longer needs to think and guess, who is planning this palace. But the palace also wants someone to accompany him to talk, the emperor used to be able to say anything, but now he seems to be far away from the palace, and all he touches is cold, and there is no previous temperature. Bengong thought, it's okay, it's the day when the diaphragm will disappear, and Bengong is willing to work hard to achieve what the emperor envisions Bengong to be. But now this palace can't see clearly, all the people and things seem to be guarding against this palace, against this palace, Aunt Qiu, you say, is this palace too innocent. Back then, Empress Dowager Hu was such a powerful woman, from the chaotic harem to the court, opened the curtains, and pointed out the country, but there were still people who harmed her, and she was imprisoned several times when she became the queen mother. So think about what this palace is, from the very beginning, the father of this palace is a sinner of this Great Wei, and this palace is also a sinner, and everything he suffers deserves. ”

Aunt Qiu took the shoes from Ying'e's hands and knelt on the ground to put them on her feet, "Queen, you're right. Empress Xuanwushun, the old master of the slave, is also a true master, but what is the ending, you must have heard of it, queen. The slave and maid watched Empress Xuanwushun with their own eyes, and they were poisoned, and the slave and maid also witnessed Sister Baoyue being knocked to death by them pulling her hair and hitting her on the pillar. The blood flowed out of Sister Baoyue's forehead, and the blood on her face was gradually a puddle on the ground, and when Sister Baoyue was carried away, the blood was all fused into a human form, and she was afraid when she looked at the slave. From that time on, the slave and maid were reluctant to talk more, and if they saw too much and talked more, they had lived enough. The slave and maid have not lived enough, and the slave and maid still have their mother and younger brothers to support, so the slave and maid have not spoken, and they have lived for so long. Queen, in this palace, you have to listen more to what others say and do, you have a powerful father, it is the queen's luck and misfortune. But the queen has to think clearly, who you are biased in your heart, let anyone know, otherwise it will hurt the queen's heart. ”

The first time Ying'e saw Aunt Qiu tell her so much, she was still so to the point, if she saw a savior, she grabbed Aunt Qiu and asked, "Aunt Qiu, there is only one emperor in the heart of this palace, but the emperor no longer trusts this palace, what should this palace do?" Say nothing, do nothing? ”

Aunt Qiu said with a firm gaze, "Queen, you are the queen, the first person in this harem, don't guess the emperor's thoughts, do your best." But the queen, your heart is too kind, you can't prevent the bad intentions of the villains, but you can't indulge them to do whatever they want, and it is still necessary to make an example of them once in a while. Your most respected Empress Dowager Hu was originally a soft and weak woman, but she was forced to step by step to become the master of the harem who made a decision to kill. Don't hurt others, but you can't be submissive, after all, you are the queen. ”

Ying'e nodded, "What should Bengu do now?" ”

Aunt Qiu finally understood this woman in the past few months of getting along, and her heart under Allure's face was so weak, like a cactus that had all its spikes removed, enduring the sun and rain without any protection, and could knead it at will. And a woman is willing to fade all the edges, just for the man she loves the most in her heart, and wants to carve herself into the way he likes. It's a pity that when she tried her best to show her changes, the man only had her as she used to be in his mind, and he turned a blind eye to all the good and changes, and it was because he was selfish and unwilling to admit it, so he bullied her with peace of mind.

Aunt Qiu stared at Ying'e sympathetically, "Queen, the slave shouldn't have told you so much, the emperor's heart for you has always been, you must first tolerate the maid Ru." will soon go to the queen's maiden house, what will the queen do, will she get the emperor's gratitude, make the concubine happy, and the queen is clear in her heart. ”

Ying'e felt that she gradually understood, she looked at the shoes on her feet and did not start to be so awkward, she had to wear these shoes to walk the next road, at this time she did not know the relationship between Concubine Zheng and Qihua, but she also understood that she could not please Concubine Zheng at all, and she could only fight alone in the future, fortunately she understood who to guard against.

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