Chapter 154: Her love is more than fulfillment
[Le Jingxian: "To what extent can a woman be virtuous? She thinks that her sister is a little regressive, and it is as simple as more than one step away! ”】
Certain, she turned.
smiled at the man sitting on the hospital bed, and responded affectionately: "Gu Jinheng, you told me in this ward that day that you were reluctant to lose your temper in front of me, and you were reluctant to take the torture of your illness out of anger on me. ”
There was a pause, and a little trilling sounded in his choked throat.
The sourness poured over her, and she coughed hard. After being silent for a while, he looked at him with red eyes: "You remember, I will pay you back your reluctance today." ”
"From then on, we don't owe each other any more. Gu Jinheng In this matter, I will never owe you. "She has a decisive momentum.
After a while, the anger disappeared. The voice was only tired: "Let's talk, I'll clean up first." ”
After that, countless days and nights.
Le Rongge passed by him and whispered, "Please." After all, it has become evidence that Yucibei has trouble sleeping day and night.
And this day.
Two unfinished people, two unfinished words, and two interrupted experiences are destined to become today's pain.
She thought? If they hadn't interrupted at the beginning, what would have happened now?
Will he stay for her, will she stop him from leaving?
"Gu Jinheng, if I say it, I regret it."
"Will you stand in front of me, angry and patiently coaxing me? He said, 'Rongge, it's not right for you to do that, we are communists.' We all have our own missions and responsibilities, and that's what we have to do, and there's no reason to pass the buck. 'You know what? I really want to hear it, I want to think about it. ”
"It's a pity that no one has taught me what is right and what is wrong?"
"It's really hard to ...... a person's strength"
Silent crying is most like an accusation, and the quiet environment is most like torture.
In the quiet light, only one back was curled up. And the small cry, the shadow is enough.
About that day, in fact, no one knows.
After Le Rongge and Yu Cibei came out of the ward one after another, a girl came with all the shyness and worries of a person from a girl to a young woman.
Who was given that lovesickness, they all thought at first that time would know.
Later, time knew this true feeling, and it also made the unprovoked love fall into this bitter lovesickness and nowhere to hide.
"Brother-in-law, is it convenient for me to come in?" Le Jingxian was dressed in a white coat with shoulder-length hair.
The head rope was shallowly tied, and he stood quietly and generously not far away and smiled at Gu Jinheng.
There is a hunch that her weight will make Gu Jinheng feel guilty and uncomfortable in her life.
"Come in! You know it all. "Not a question, but a statement.
Le Jingxian walked lightly and walked over with a smile.
"Know what? What does my brother-in-law think I'll know? ”
Gu Jinheng didn't want to hide from her, watching her run back and forth all day long, watching the smile on her face that gradually disappeared, and watching her look like she had been browning for months.
Aside from the great loss and discomfort, he didn't know what else he could do?
Marrying her is not to let her suffer and suffer with her.
"Jingjing, will you hide it from your sister for me? I know that my illness is no longer visible here, and I don't want to continue to drag your sister down. The man said weakly.
"Yes, you don't want to drag it down, so you choose to let Dr. Yu tell my sister that everything is well for you. But how do you know that if you leave, she will be better, she will be better. ”
"Husband and wife, brother-in-law, you really don't know your pillow person too well." Le Jingxian did not question.
Gentle knife, knife to blood.
A man supports his body and forces himself to sit up straight, which is the only dignity a man has nowadays!
The early autumn days were the same as the summer days, and the sun was blazing outside the windowsill.
The fiery red light shone on the futon, and it was golden. It looks like the vivid color of life, and it is in full swing.
Days like this are the time to sweat on the training ground or spend time with her when the house is not busy.
Watching dramas, chatting, the tranquility and beauty that couples who have passed this age should enjoy.
Instead of being like now, living is left with dragging.
How many years can a woman have?
The corners of the man's chapped mouth pulled out a smile very hard, with endless bitterness and melancholy.
"Jingjing, I don't want to see her sleep restlessly every night and get up from time to time to explore my days, I don't want to see her gaze when her brows are slightly wrinkled, and the whole person is full of anxiety and irritability. I want her to be happy, happy! ”
"This is what a man, a husband should do, can you understand me?"
Le Jingxian's fingers behind her back subconsciously clenched hard, and she admitted that her brother-in-law loves Sister A very much, the kind that loves her to the core.
After marriage, Le Rongge will be coquettish, angry, cautious, and laugh without scruples.
With such a vivid sister, Le Jingxian has seen too little.
Since she was a child, she has been an older sister at home, doing what her sister should do and taking on her sister's due responsibilities.
There is intimacy, but a little lack of play.
Unlike now, I have to admit that it all comes down to the man in front of me.
"You, why don't you speak." Gu Jinheng asked uncertainly.
Le Jingxian walked to Gu Jinheng's bed and sat down.
A boxy box looks old, and on the outside is a pastoral style that was popular in the early years.
At first glance, it is a thing that girls love to use, and it is old but well preserved.
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Le Jingxian bent her fingers and caressed slowly along the surface of the box, like nostalgia and reminiscence.
"Brother-in-law." Her voice slowed.
It's like telling a person's sincerity, or a relationship.
"We girls are in their girlhood, and everyone will have their own careful thoughts to a greater or lesser extent. Such careful thinking was like to be held in a box that seemed incomparable to anything at that time. ”
"It's said that it's pretending to be those things, but it's just pretending to be those memories, carefully hidden and refusing to show them. It may sound silly many years later, but it was the most serious thing at the time. ”
She chuckled to herself, pointed to the box in her arms and looked up and asked him, "Brother-in-law, you said this box, is it beautiful?" ”
Gu Jinheng stared at her for a long time, not knowing what she was thinking.
There was a glimmer of light in her clearly visible eyes, and she thought he must have guessed it, otherwise he wouldn't be so silent.
"Beautiful." The center of the tightly twisted eyebrows is like a deep frowning ravine, and a deep imprint is hooked.
smiled faintly, with a very contradictory expression, but it looked dull on his face.
Le Jingxian retracted her gaze lightly and said to herself: "Yes, how can the memories full of a girl's mind not look good?" There is a girl who has given all her youthful life here. ”
With a bang, the crisp sound of the metal tin box being opened was crisp and loud.
Inside were neatly arranged tickets and air tickets, she took one casually and handed it to Gu Jinheng.
He bowed his head, the ticket and the days on the ticket were so familiar to him that he could almost memorize them.
The aching heart was so uneasy that I was almost unconscious.
"She's never indulged in lust for you, and once she really thought about giving up on you." The clear eyes gradually became chaotic.
She once said to me, she said, "You shouldn't have regrets when you can't do it." ”
"No wonder? Is it any wonder that with only a little more than a year to go, her attitude towards me would be so abnormal? ”
Silent room, quiet only to breathe.
The idea of making up my mind began to become hesitant.
Le Jingxian knew that he was loose: "Brother-in-law." ”
"You didn't choose her the first two times, so the third time should be her! I know that I am a younger sister, and it stands to reason that there are parents and sisters in the middle, and it is not my turn to say anything! ”
Under the sincere emotions, there is a hidden surge, and it is not only for her sister!
That's a living, fresh life.
"So I beg you, I beg you if you can put Sister Ah first and your family first this time!"
Because her love is far more than the word fulfillment! Some love, can't hurt, I hope you can understand ......"
After Le Jingxian left, the silence in the room returned.
It was so quiet that as if no one had come, Gu Jinheng looked around the ward again.
The delicate expression is carefully copied in every place, patient and meticulous.
There is always some affectionate nostalgia, which cannot be said......
The consequence of not having a good night's rest, I woke up the next morning with swollen eyes and thick dark circles.
His face was a little whiter than usual, and he looked ugly like a hanged man.
Facing the girl in the mirror, he put his fingers on his cheeks and smiled vigorously.
"Le Rongge, come on."
She washed up quickly, put on light makeup, and put on the coat that Gu Jinheng wore four years ago.
The hotel is diagonally opposite the Olympic Center Stadium, and Le Rongge went straight to the front after breakfast.
This year's athletics competition is scheduled for 9 a.m. and 7 p.m.
There are many players who are very explosive in the morning.
After four years, the last time I was offstage, this time I was on stage.
She sat quietly in her seat, looking at the familiar and unfamiliar arena.
Familiar process, familiar face, familiar figure; Unfamiliar architecture, unfamiliar layout, unfamiliar design.
Once every four years, different cities, the same group of people! For dreams, for glory.
Looking at it and laughing unconsciously, she held her chin and waited quietly.
Backstage, lounge.
Michon's fingers curled, her legs intertwined, her head buried in her palms.
With a sad face, she didn't look like a girl who was about to play in a game.
Wei Zhongyan knew that she was uncomfortable, so he stepped forward and patted her on the shoulder: "Go, she's waiting for you outside." Go talk and we'll be waiting for you back. ”
Michon glanced back at her companions behind her, and everyone nodded to her.
She wants to win, and she wants to win on a track like this every four years.
Not for anything, just for the kindness of that person who once gave his life to encourage her.
This love, no matter what you do in this life, you can't afford to pay it back.
How could she lose? How does she deserve to lose?
In the past, Mi Qiong didn't know what it meant to be cowardly, but at this moment she seems to understand something.
It turned out that she thought that she owed only Master.
Later, I learned that in her life, the one who owes her the most is her mother, who is the little brother who lacked father's love at birth.
If she hadn't made that call that day, if she hadn't had her emotions broken down to the extreme during that time, would everything have been different?
No one can give her this answer.