"After I left the people's sight, that is, Xie Guo announced that I was dead, I made a simple disguise and walked around Xie Guo without a purpose. Pen ~ Fun ~ Pavilion www.biquge.info"

"I was a little uncomfortable at the time, but I was relieved very quickly. What really cared about me was the situation at the time... And, how many more people will die. After all, the war can be said to have started because of me, and I can't help but care. ”

"Listening to the overwhelming news, I gradually felt a terrible feeling - alive... It doesn't make sense. Don't worry, I will never commit suicide, that is a sign of cowardice. I just think... Boredom..."

"It's boring. What news, what heroes, what wars... It's as if all of this is ridiculous. ”

"Boring... What about life, what about death?"

"Boring... What is the meaning of these things? It is better to live in peace and in an ordinary way, it is better to care about oil, salt, sauce, vinegar and tea, and it is better to go on alone. ”

So I put on makeup again and became a beggar. ”

"After that, it's all trivial, not worth mentioning. But when I met them, that all changed. ”

"I was really depressed, but on the surface I was walking the streets like a crazy beggar. Unkempt and ragged. It's messy and smelly. ”

"That's when I met someone I didn't dare look at. ”

"It's ridiculous, isn't it? When I'm crazy enough to be afraid of everything and not afraid of life and death, when I'm the dirtiest, smellier, and most embarrassing... I met someone who made me feel extremely ashamed and ashamed. ”

Her smile was so bright that I didn't dare to look up, and her gentleness made me feel how foolish it was to be depraved. ”

"Just like my master. ”

"I think I can see through the red dust, I think I play the dust, I think I am chic and free..."

"What a ridiculous idea... It's naïve to think about. ”

"I finally realized that I was scared too... It turns out that I also have something to desire..."

"I never thought about such a thing, never imagined that one day I could have all of this..."

"But I found out I was wrong again. I thought about it. I longed for it. I'm fantasizing all the time, I'm longing all the time. ”

"Just because I fantasize that I crave and I am afraid... I used depravity, chic, and the game world to numb myself. ”

"It's because I'm hungry that I'm afraid... I've never admitted that I ever thought like that. That fantasy that is almost impossible, the kind that I can hardly reach on my own and that others can easily have... Things are poison. I didn't dare touch it, because it was impossible. ”

"When my master died, I realized what I had lost. ”

"It's fate. ”

"So when I got terminally ill, my first reaction was not sadness, but secret joy. ”

"So I want to die with him. ”

"The reason why I fight hard to get stronger is because... I want to go back... I want to die with him. ”

"That's all. ”

"Then I had you. I have Xiaohei, I have intelligence, and I have you. ”

"My goal changed. ”

"But I still have things that I've never dared to touch. Even mentioning it is a fantasy. ”

At this time, she appeared. ”

"Ordinary dress, ordinary words, ordinary habits, living an ordinary life, ordinary smiling..."

"But I seem to see one of the greatest powers in the world. The power almost suffocated me, and I swear my heart has never been more shocking than that moment. ”

"What power, what immortality, what freedom, it's ridiculous. ”

"The feeling of being willing to leave your life, your freedom, everything behind warmly makes me want to drown in it. ”

"It's a pity I can't..."

"Even if I abandon everything, I can't have..."

"Later, I picked up a lot of letters from my family on the battlefield, and that was the part I cared about the most. ”

"Family letters are boring and bland. ”

"But I'm envious. ”

"I'm just thinking, when... Can I have it all?"

Thinking about it, I smiled. ”

"I have a master... Isn't it?"

"But... You know what? Watching you enjoy it all... I, what's the mood?"

"Not sadness, not envy. ”

"I don't feel it..."

......

"It's like when I'm hospitalized, I'm lying alone in bed waiting for life to wither... What was I thinking?"

"I've thought about everything... I don't seem to have thought about anything..."

"I just lay there, listening to the clock and the second hand counting down my life, dreaming one dream after another. ”

"I just lay there, looking at the lines of the ceiling, fantasizing about one bizarre and grotesque story after another. ”

"One night I dreamed. I dreamed that I was walking in a labyrinth. ”

"It only took me three minutes to get out of there, because the maze was exactly the same as the ceiling above me. ”

"I looked at the stars beyond the half-floor-to-ceiling windows, and they twinkle and twinkle, and every day was different. ”

"So I was hooked on the sky, especially the night sky. ”

"Because they're different from moment to moment, aren't they?"

"Sometimes I think, master, which star is it?"

"So I kept choosing... But I don't feel good about any of them. Although they are very beautiful, they are not worthy of the master. ”

"Until now, I haven't chosen him either. ”

"It's better to live in my heart. ”

"If the master becomes a star... Won't it be lonely?"

"After all, you can't meet stars. ”

"If we meet, we will be destroyed. ”

"So, it's best to live in my heart. ”

"The universe is so big, it's terrifying, but it's also gentle... I want to be a free light, gently patting each planet on the shoulder and giving a greeting..."

"I walked gently on a certain track in the universe alone, feeling the silence around me and the twinkling beauty of the stars..."

"It must be beautiful..."

"I'm not afraid of loneliness. Because I have a master by my side..."

......

"That's what it feels like..."

"There is no feeling at all..."

But, she showed up. ”

"Unlike the master, there is strictness in love. ”

"It's real gentleness. ”

"Tenderness from a mother..."

She smiled and patted the dust off my body and asked if I needed a bowl of hot porridge. ”

"I followed her into a normal house, and there was a person in the house, who was also smiling and chatting with me and laughing with her. ”

"After eating the hot porridge, he left me to bathe, prepared new clothes for me, and then said something I will never forget—"

"Don't wander. Be my son. ”

"It was a smile from the heart. Looking at their smiling faces, I burst into tears. ”

"I ...... I have parents. ”

Bu Xiu said a burst of words that made Ouyang Qing sad, but his expression was still so indifferent.

Ouyang Qing secretly regretted his previous cowardice, but he was glad that he had returned to his side.

The boy... It's worth her life's care...

"My mother takes care of the small restaurant every day, and although she is busy, she is very happy. ”

"My father was one of the best chefs in the area, but he almost never cooked, just sitting in a restaurant and talking to his neighbors. I was doing the usual chores in the restaurant. ”

"They were very nice to me. When I came back to that little home, my mother would always cook delicious meals for us, and watching them laugh at each other gave me an indescribable peace in my heart... It's as if you've left all your worries behind. ”

"My mother has rough hands and does a lot of chores, cooking, laundry, cleaning the house, and managing the restaurant. She often smells of food on her. ”

But my father still didn't say anything, just took care of my mother carefully. ”

"They quarrel sometimes, but they always laugh when they quarrel..."

"My mother occasionally coquettishly told my father, and when she was shy, she either made a lot of noise or smashed a rolling pin... There is no longer a trace of tenderness. ”

"But I feel happier. ”

"I enjoyed it all carefully, enjoying every detail. ”

"It's a scene I've dreamed of countless times... Now it's happening so really... I am very happy. ”

"They took care of me gently... I didn't expect parents to take care of their children... It's so delicate. ”

"It's as if they worry about me for everything. ”

"I'm worried that I'm not eating well, I'm cold, I'm in pain, I'm sick..."

"It turns out... Parents will do so much for their children..."

"It turns out... When children are uncomfortable... Parents will ask affectionately..."

"It turns out... When children have problems... Parents will help solve it... Even though they can't solve it..."

"It turns out... This is the parents... These are children..."

"It's... Happiness is there..."

"All I want is all this ordinary thing. ”

"It's just this ordinary thing..."

"But... What should have happened happened happened. ”

"I finally don't want to deceive them anymore, I don't want to steal all this happiness that doesn't belong to me. I'm a thief, but I don't want to steal happiness..."

"I never wanted to steal happiness..."

"That's not mine..."

"I'm not a beggar, I'm a thief. I'm dirty. Such happiness should not be enjoyed by me..."

"I have stolen heaven and earth, stolen ghosts and gods, but never stolen happiness..."

Buxiu's face was expressionless, his eyes were red, there were no tears, only a trace of blood seemed to ooze out of his eyes and gathered in the corners of his eyes.

"So I told them everything. Tell them I'm a step away. I was restored. ”

Looking at their surprised expressions, I forgot what it was like to have a heartache. ”

"Probably... It's just that the whole world has turned gray. ”

"They deserve to be parents... The father quickly recovered, with a hint of sternness in addition to kindness. ”

"It's like a master. ”

He frowned and pondered. My mother, on the other hand, comforted me with tears in her eyes. ”

I smiled. ”

"That's good. ”

"Even if I die, I don't have any regrets. ”

"That's all I had on my mind at that time. ”

"My father said to me solemnly, I should do one thing, one thing that must be done, and if I were still a father, I must do it, what a man should do, what he must do, what he must do, what he must do. ”

"He said that if I didn't do it, I would regret it for the rest of my life. ”

So I set out again in my mother's eyes full of tears and worries, and my father's eyes full of determination and expectation. ”

"I watched the battlefield. ”

"I looked for Xie Xue. ”

"I took the lead in the surrender of Xie Guo. ”

"I found Bai Rui. ”

PS: Everyone thinks I'm garbage or disgusting...... I cried once when I was writing about White Butterfly, once when I was writing about Wisdom and Yellow, and again today. Even if this novel does not bring me any gain, I have cried, laughed, feared, and satisfied because of it, and its value is enough for me.

I want to write the novel I want to write.

Measuring the value of an object is actually very simple, and my Chinese teacher once told me that if only one sentence of the teacher's words in two lessons makes you feel it, then the time of these two lessons is completely worth being consumed and not wasted.

Since I'm pouring my feelings into it, that's enough.