Chapter 21: Helplessness
Love is a young man's thing, and middle-aged people only have life.
Shu Xin still insists on getting up on time every day, drinking water on time, practicing yoga on time, and eating breakfast on time...... With such a boring and boring life mode, she was also very disgusted with thinking that people should live freely, so why set rules and regulations for themselves. Later, I felt that people should not indulge themselves too much, they should overcome inertia and establish a self-disciplined life, as for what self-discipline can bring, she doesn't care much, she just wants to stick to something, and keep going, the girl's most longing is of course love, the afternoon autumn wind is a disgusting man, but even so, he is also a comfortable person. Once a girl is tempted, it will be difficult to calm down.
One thought moves, and all thoughts are lost.
Li Sisi and the cat sat on the sofa and looked at the busy figure of Shu Xin, tomorrow is going to be a holiday, Shu Xin is packing up her things and preparing to go home to accompany her grandmother for the New Year, Li Sisi is reluctant to go comfortably, she only has a friend Shu Xin, if she leaves, there will be no one to talk to her. But Li Sisi also knew that she was just a comfortable friend, how could she stop her from returning to her lonely grandmother.
Shu Xin said while cleaning up: "Sisi, after I leave tomorrow, the cat will be handed over to you."
The cat seemed to look at Li Sisi spiritually, and Li Sisi also looked at it and said, "Okay, as for you leaving, you still have it with me, does it have a name?"
Shu Xinzheng put a book in the box and said, "Not yet, you can give it one."
Li Sisi picked up the cat and said thoughtfully, "Just call it a child."
Shu Xin stopped the movements in his hand, stared at Li Sisi and said, "Child? Do you want to be a mother? ”
Li Sisi stroked the cat's head and said with a strange expression: "Women have a day to be mothers." This sentence made Shu Xin feel the sadness and loneliness in Li Sisi's tone.
The next day, Shu Xin took the train back to Suizhou, Li Sisi sent her to Hankou Railway Station, and said to Shu Xin when she left: "Call her when you go back."
Shu Xin nodded and dragged his suitcase on the train. Suizhou is more than 100 kilometers away from Wuhan, and it takes about 70 minutes to take the bullet train.
After getting off the train, Shu Xin had to take the city bus to the designated stop sign to get off, and then take the bus outside the city to get off on the side of the road in the small town where he lived, and then walk for half an hour to get home.
It was freezing and raining, Shu Xin walked for half an hour with an umbrella and dragged her luggage, and when she saw the village, she suddenly felt a lot better, and before she entered the house, she smelled the familiar smell of rice, she was full of joy, trotted into the house, and shouted: Grandma, grandma......
Comfort's grandmother was over 70 years old, with gray hair and simple thick clothes, all of which were old clothes, but they were all cleanly washed. As soon as the grandmother heard her granddaughter's voice, she walked out of the kitchen and held her comfortable hand tightly, and her eyes seemed to be about to burst into tears. I haven't seen him for half a year, and the old man misses his precious granddaughter very much.
Shu Xin also hugged her grandmother and said, "Grandma, you rest, I'll cook the lunch at noon."
Grandma's hand trembled a little and said, "No need, the meal is ready, you go into the hall first, and you can eat later."
When people in the village pass by the door of Shu Xin's house, they will greet her warmly when they see her, and Shu Xin will return the salute one by one.
Occasionally, people should stay away from the cold city hustle and bustle, and go back to the countryside to feel the warmth of family affection and the natural air. How can the rumors of the school compare to the strong customs of the countryside! Shu Xin thought to himself: I am still suitable to live in the countryside.
When I entered the hall, I looked around comfortably, exactly the same as when I left half a year ago, the tables, chairs, water cups and other objects have not been replaced, even the position has not changed, and the house is spotlessly cleaned. It's not because Grandma came back comfortably and Grandma specially cleaned it, but that cleaning the room every morning is a habit that Grandma will never change.
At noon, I ate two bowls of white rice comfortably, what weight loss is a woman's lifelong career, what to maintain a figure to become a small bird's stomach, these urban women's stinky rules are all invalid in the countryside, and now they are let go of eating, eating happily, and eating without scruples.
Grandma had to drink two taels of liquor before eating, and then eat, a habit that was cultivated when grandma was young. At that time, I didn't drink to do farm work, and I was bored. In addition, in the traditional Chinese wine culture, it is said that you can't eat before drinking, which is called rice (offense), which is disrespectful to the hosts and elders who eat at the same table. During the meal, I comfortably chatted with my grandmother about the homely things that have happened in the past six months, talking and laughing, and having fun.
Shu Xin put away the dishes and chopsticks, washed and wiped the kitchen clean with a rag, and returned to the hall after the kitchen utensils were neatly arranged, grandma sat on the chair and held her face with her hands and was resting, Shu Xin walked over and said: "Grandma, the weather is cold, you will get cold when you rest like this, go inside and rest."
Grandma put it in her hand and said, "It's okay, it's been like this for decades, I'm used to it."
Shu Xin pretended to be angry and sat on the chair opposite and said, "Then I will also learn from my grandmother to sit here and rest."
Grandma glanced at Shu Xin and said, "You are still young, you can't be the same as me, I have old bones, and my bones are easy to harden when lying down, so you can rest in bed."
Shu Xin said coquettishly: "If grandma doesn't go, I won't go either."
Grandma didn't say anything, "Okay, my good granddaughter."
Shu Xin and grandma both have their own rooms, after seeing grandma go back to the room, Shu Xin also returned to her room, took out the clothes, books and daily necessities in the box and put them away, took out her mobile phone and saw a message, which was sent by Li Sisi: Sister Xinxin, have you arrived home safely?
Shu Xin replied: I'm home, I've finished lunch, and I'm packing up, what about you?
Li Sisi didn't reply to the message in time, and after comfortably cleaning up the room and his belongings, he got up after lying on the bed and resting for an hour, and his grandmother only rested for an hour.
In the afternoon, Shu Xin watched TV with her grandmother, and also chatted about Shu Xin's situation at school, grandma didn't know that Shu Xin lived outside alone, thinking that she didn't do anything else except reading and studying every day in the school accommodation. Shu Xin never told her grandmother about her at school, especially the rumors about herself.
When it was almost evening, Uncle Shu Xin came to the house, he didn't know that Shu Xin had gone home, and when he saw Shu Xin, he just said indifferently: "Shu Xin is back."
Before he could reply comfortably, he walked straight up to his grandmother and said, "Mom, give me the money, your grandson is not young, and he will soon reach the age of marriage, and the bride price will be 100,000 yuan, where do you say I have 100,000 yuan, and I still want to buy a house, where can I find so much money."
Shu Xin hates this uncle who only recognizes money and does not recognize family affection, when his father is still alive, he likes to bully his father, and he has been thinking about compensation after the car accident, if it weren't for his grandmother's tough attitude to hold the money tightly in his hands, the money would have been robbed by the uncle.
A few years have passed since this incident, and the comfortable uncle has not given up, always looking for all kinds of excuses to get money out of his grandmother, and this time he even talked about his son's marriage. Grandma knows her son's thoughts, and she knows that even if she gives money to this son, he will only spend a small part of it on her grandson, and the rest will go into her own pocket.
Grandma said earnestly: "This money belongs to Xin'er, I haven't lived for a few years, Xin'er's parents had a car accident and left a step earlier, if I also left, how can she live without much money, who else can she count on, do you have to count on you, who is an uncle."
Uncle said confidently: "I will take care of Xin'er, but if you don't give me money, what will I do to take care of Xin'er."
Grandma said, "You? You were raised by me, what the hell you are, I know very well in my heart. ”
Uncle walked up and down in front of grandma and said, "What the hell am I like? I am the one who will provide for you in your old age, not all these years I have taken care of you, what kind of person do you say I am. ”
Grandma didn't want to see the person in front of her, so she looked away and said, "When you didn't have this money before, you didn't come back to see me all year round, but you ran quite diligently in the past two years."
Uncle Shu didn't say any more, and only left one sentence when he left: "You are dead, what should I do if I think Shu Xin?"
Shu Xin hid in his room and secretly cried. Grandma heard the voice and walked into the comfortable room, and the two hugged each other. Grandma comforted and said, "Xin'er, don't cry, grandma is here, see who dares to bully you."
Shu Xin nodded, and grandma said, "We all have to be strong?" Since childhood, my grandmother taught Shu Xin to say some life roads, people must learn to forget unhappy things, people with too good memory often live more tired than anyone else.