After waiting for a long time and no news, I took the initiative to write to contact the personnel there, and he said that their leaders had decided not to want me, and I wanted to explain the situation to him, but he directly returned my letter.

I had a great sense of hopelessness, but a little less than anger. I really wanted to solve the matter in the most extreme way, but after all, I don't live alone in the world, and I put up with it for the sake of my mother and my own future.

In the evening, I went home to discuss with my mother about leaving, and she also supported me in resigning.

The next day, I went to the office of the Personnel Section, asked for a resignation request, and went back to my office. Director Fan was already sitting there, his legs crossed on the table, playing with something new in his hands, making all kinds of strange noises, seeing that I was coming, he asked me with a smile: "How about it, let's cooperate, don't thank me, collect money from people, and eliminate disasters with people." I really wanted to rush up and punch him, but I pressed it down, and it didn't make sense anymore.

When he saw me standing, he pointed to the cup with his chin and said, "Oh, go and pour me some water."

"I poured your mother a coin, Lao Tzu didn't come to pour water for you!" I really couldn't help it this time, I rushed up and grabbed him and was about to beat him, but two colleagues next to me hurriedly rushed up and grabbed me and persuaded me to calm down, but the turtle grandson also grimaced and said, "Come on, hit here."

Helplessly, two fists were invincible to four hands, and my strength was no match for two people, but I thought about it and stopped. The two slowly let go when they saw me stop, and they kept persuading me to calm down.

I didn't even bother to listen to them, but I spotted the guy's position and pretended to turn back to my seat. When they saw me turn around, they all let their guard down, but I flew up and kicked him in the chest, and he was kicked so hard that he lay on the ground with a chair. I rushed up and gave him two more mouthfuls before being pulled away by my colleague.

The guy got up from the ground, pointed at me and shouted, "You wait!" Then I was about to go out, and I broke free from two colleagues and blocked the door. He didn't dare to step forward when he saw that I was blocking his way, so he had to go back to his seat and glared at me while panting.

I can't help but want to laugh when I see him like this, and I don't panic, if he can still get up, it won't constitute a minor injury, and if he stabs it out, it will be mediated at most. Seeing that he didn't dare to move anymore, I tidied up my clothes, sat back in my seat, and began to fill out my resignation application.

After I finished writing, I went to the curator's office and handed it in. Fan Guan took it with a smile and didn't say anything.

I knew that at the end of the day, I was a loser, and I was squeezed out and lost another job. But what can it be, without money and power, where can you fight this network?

After consulting with the personnel that day, I didn't go to work in the afternoon, and I didn't get paid anyway, so I might as well give myself a long vacation.

I have returned to this state of idleness, but my heart is not as carefree as before, although it is very cool to resign and leave, but what are the plans for the future? I can't continue to eat my mother's salary at home.

I wandered the streets, but it was difficult to find a quiet place, which added a little irritability to my already chaotic mind. I thought about it, and the only place we can call quiet here is ...... I bought another ticket and entered the ancient temple of the Song Dynasty, and there was no activity in the past two days, so there were not many people in the temple, but it was very quiet.

It's been almost two years since I left school, but I haven't saved any salary, and now I've lost my job. But thinking about the experience of the past few years, it is indeed much more "interesting" than I used to be, although a lot of it is not necessarily interesting. Nothing has been achieved in career, and so is love, but what capital do you have to talk about love now.

In this situation, seeing the blue bricks and blue tiles of the temple, the golden Buddha and the red tent, I really have the idea of taking refuge in Buddhism, but unfortunately, I am not considered to be enlightened.

How will you live in the future, if you go to the postgraduate examination, not to mention anything else, then the tuition and living expenses for school may be subsidized by your mother, and you still need gold and stone to learn. If you jump out of the circle of Jinshi and find a job with other private bosses, although you are far away from the things you are interested in, you can live the same life, but the days of living in vain are not two years, plus six years in the school, and I go to the private boss, what can I do? Nothing. It's a little uncomfortable to make such a choice.

When I got home in the evening, my mother's suggestion was that I wanted to study well for the exam, and I didn't have to worry about anything else, if I didn't want to take the exam, I would find a private boss to work there, and it would be no problem to be a clerk or something. I lay in bed and thought about it for a long time, but I couldn't get any results, and I fell asleep leisurely.

The next day, just after I got up in the morning and had not eaten breakfast, I was approached by someone, and the horse team came.

He asked me, "Xiaohua, I heard from your colleague that you resigned?"

"Yes." I told him about the censorship again.

"Shit, this son of a bitch. What are your plans for the future, are you looking for a new job? ”

"Not yet, I don't know what to do."

"Then I have a job here, you see if you want to, it's an underwater gold and stone project."

As soon as I heard about the underwater gold stone, I suddenly became interested, I had only heard of such a thing in class, but I really had never touched it.

"On which side?"

"It's not far away, it's at Lake C."

It's not that far, but it's an inland lake, and the underwater gold and stone are not all going to the sea to salvage shipwrecks or something, I originally thought it would be in a harbor city. But last night's thoughts came back to me in an instant.

"That'...... Will it be less stable? "To be honest, if I had the same mentality as when I went to Xinjiang, I would never ask this kind of question, but now I am really afraid of living in vain.

"It's up to the people, if you do a good job, you should be able to be a contract worker, and if you have the opportunity to take the exam again, you won't be mixed into the provincial gold and stone institute. Even if you can't pass the test, I will help you contact you, and it shouldn't be a problem to stay for a long time. And the field subsidy over there is definitely in your hands, and the subsidy for underwater gold and stone is twice as much as that on the shore, do you want to consider it? ”

"Good...... Thank you, I'll talk to my mother in a moment, and I'll tell you when I go. ”

My mother came out of the kitchen with two bowls of noodles and asked me what was the matter, and I told her them all.

There was a look of helplessness on her face.

I asked her, "What, you don't want me to go over there?"

She shook her head: "I hope you will start a family and live a good life as soon as possible, and I will be relieved, but I can't move you." Well, you're so old, it's up to you to decide what to do. ”

I heard this a little bitterly, if I think about it from another perspective, I am quite helpless to have such a son. But now for me, there is really no better choice and opportunity in front of me, and I can really only do the work that everyone else can do when I go to other private bosses.

So, I decided to go anyway. After I finished eating, I told the horse team that I had decided to go and asked him to help me get in touch again.

When I got home, I didn't even dare to look at my mother because I knew she must be unhappy on her face. I don't understand that when I was going to the Northwest, she was so approving of it, and now I haven't gone far, but she is like this. Maybe I'm really old, and getting married is still a standard in her heart.

Soon, they wrote to me and asked me for some detailed information, and asked me to wait for them to inform me, and then I would go over and train together.

This kind of waiting is very boring, and I didn't expect that one day I won't be able to stand the days at home. Fortunately, a few days later, I was notified to report to an address.

Unexpectedly, after only one year at home, he would embark on another journey. However, in this year, the actual time in my hometown is only a small half. Before leaving, according to the old rules, I called several old friends together, after all, I was "leaving the team" again.

During the meal, I told them what happened to me, and they all said they had never seen such a bastard. Who's to say it isn't, I haven't seen it if I hadn't experienced it myself. But recently, I have also realized a truth, what kind of grandson in this society does not have? But for people like us, we can only strive to be defenseless.

The date of departure was fast approaching, and I packed my bags and took out my departure ticket. It was my mother who sent me this time. On the platform, she checked me back and forth, for fear that I was missing something.

"Okay Mom, go back, how many times have I been running outside, and where have I come back?"

"Anyway, it's not far, so I'll go home and have a look if it's okay."

"Don't worry, I don't have anywhere else to go except at home, as long as I have a holiday, I'll take the car back, you can go back." Having said that, as we all know, Jinshi generally does not have a holiday except for rainy days, and the underwater Jinshi is estimated to be enough.

Seeing that the motorcade was coming, I took the luggage from my mother and said, "Okay, the car is coming, you stand far away."

The carriage stopped, and I followed the flow of people and squeezed onto it.

"Remember, if you're okay, come back and check it out." Mother said again.

"Don't worry, you can go home." I turned my eyes to look at her, only to find that she had tears in her eyes.

This glance also made me feel bitter. People say that people are old and affectionate, but she is indeed old and has worked hard for me for so long.

Alas.

I got into the car with my luggage, said goodbye to her at the door of the car, and went inside. There was still a familiar "human smell" in the carriage, and I found my seat and sat down.

The carriage started moving, and I saw that the scenery outside began to speed up, and I thought to myself, Isn't this also "the deceased is like Sifu"? In order to live, he is reluctant to run around day and night. Looking at it, I slowly fell asleep.