I vaguely remember that the first encounter with it was on a rainy summer day

The rain was heavy and the weather was surprisingly stuffy. At that time, she didn't know what kind of mood she was in, and she rarely reached out her hand to wipe the mist from the glass window. Looking out from the hazy glass window, which is stained with water droplets, countless tiny crystal raindrops form a gray smoke screen under the dim sky. On the streets, passers-by are in a hurry, hoping to escape the rain.

In front of the glass window, she quietly watched the figures of those people...... Walked through, ran through.

It doesn't matter if it's joyful, it's not sad, it's just a simple look...... Actually, it doesn't matter what you see.

Life is the beginning of death, she thought so at the time. Regardless of the course of life, death is inevitable. The so-called life is just three parts of birth, growth, and death, and it doesn't matter what the process is in life.

Happiness will eventually fade, sadness will inevitably be forgotten, joy, pain, and sadness, no matter what kind of strong emotions they are, are only a very small part of life, and as life continues, it will gradually drift away and become unbooked.

Because death is unavoidable, it is not far away because of nobility, nor approached because of lowliness. It won't leave you because of your prayers, ah, it may come when you're not looking. Everything has no meaning in the face of death, it takes away everything from the world.

Since you are alive, you can only open your eyes, look at what is in front of you, and then use time to completely forget it.

The story...... It's not pretty, it's just a little bit of what she sees and hears when she's still alive.

......

It may be dark or gray, or simply white.

In her eyes, there are only three colors in the world.

Black, white, gray, pale tricolor.

No, it could just be white and black, gray doesn't really exist, it's just a mixture of black and white, the boundary between the two. The junction of black and white, the blending of the two, the influence of the two, this is the gray. From then on, all that was left in front of her was this kind of scene - the tricolor world, everything, there was a world made of three colors.

It didn't matter to her what it meant or what it meant, she didn't care. The monotonous world, the monotonous colors, are like fantasies that have lost all hope.

All that remains is pale and powerless

.........

Black, white and gray, the world of three colors, people of three colors, laughter is this color, crying is also this color.

But, on that rainy summer day, she saw someone special. That figure in the rain, she was a little special, and even her dead heart couldn't help but ripple a little. The figure was just walking in the rain, but it was so striking in his own eyes.

Wearing a set of light green dresses, gently treading the water.

A touch of green, a beautiful color!

It walked in the rain, the corners of its clothes rising in the wind, and there was no wet weight of water.

A very peculiar scene, I watched it blankly.

But, it's just watching.

Simply staring, imprinting this scene with your own eyes, without thinking or guessing.

No matter how strange it is, it doesn't make any sense.

She simply lived, watched, and then spent time forgetting about it.

Day by day, this step is repeated in a predetermined trajectory.

Until a time when even she didn't care about herself, this scenery of a rainy summer night quietly left.

Completely disappeared from his memory, as if it had never appeared.

......

......

Sitting in a wheelchair, passing through the hallway of the hospital.

Not far from the hospital ward, is a small park

In the middle of the park, there is a small pond that is not very large, but quite delicate.

The water in the center is not deep, less than thirty centimeters. The clear water has no impurities and shimmers in the sunlight, like a huge crystal stone. In the center of the pool, a beautiful fountain blooms from one of the stone pillars, painting a beautiful rainbow in the warm morning sun.

Swing under the maple tree

Slides next to rockeries

The park is flanked by rows of fitness props......

The park is not big, but there are many children who come and go.

Laugh at each other in groups of three or five...... The children in the surrounding neighborhood love to play here.

"Xiaoyin, do you like it here?"

As she passed the hallway, gazing at the glass window, the nurse who was taking care of her asked. A nurse dressed in white, with a slight maternal glow in her neatness, was pushing her for a walk, and since she woke up in the hospital, it was this nurse who took care of her.

"......" In the face of the nurse's question, she nodded, and gave a not very good response with a blank face.

"That's good, as long as Xiaoyin likes it, we can come every day~~" Miss Nurse leaned over and rubbed her face affectionately: "You, you have to smile too!"

The corners of her mouth twitched, trying to give a response.

However, that could only crumble the otherwise calm face.

Laugh...... What is it?

She may have known before...... However, it is now forgotten.

She must be looking ugly now.

Looking at the way the nurse shook her head and sighed, she thought to herself.

As if noticing her loss, the nurse reached out and flicked her nose, and said comfortingly: "It's okay, Xiaoyin is a good boy, even if you don't laugh, it's okay!"

Her eyes twitched slightly, and she looked at the nurse, and she was a little puzzled.

"Because, Xiaoyin has never cried, no matter how sad she is......"

Crying, maybe I've forgotten what it's like.

When she first woke up from the hospital, she was the only one by her side, and her whole body was wrapped in thick bandages, looking like a mummy.

After some time, the bandages were removed, but the countless infusion tubes never left her body......

At that time, she could only lie quietly on the bed alone, unable to move.

For nearly half a year, I couldn't move or make a sound.

But no matter what, she couldn't shed any more tears...... No matter how painful and uncomfortable it is, you can't shed tears.

Inadvertently, her eyes flickered a little, in the park, there were a pair of parents with children. The child is on the swing and the parents are standing aside. In the wheelchair, she looked out the window in a daze, her fingers covered with scars grabbed the armrest and held it tightly!

...... Maybe it's all over, and I shouldn't have survived.

Life is always so monotonous, sunrise... Sunset...... The people around them, coming, leaving.

Day and night alternate, light and darkness reincarnated.

As in Tai Chi, Yin and Yang are relatively independent, but they are unified in that perfect circle.

The monotony of ordinary people is even more so for her.

In the morning, I got up at the call of the white nurse lady and washed up my breakfast quietly......

Then go to that calm but lively little park, rain or shine, wind or rain...... Always go to that little park with the help of that nurse.

......

......

That night, she was as usual.

Lying quietly on the hospital bed that had been sleeping for a year, without any movement, like a dead corpse.

The curtain was opened by the nurse, and she could see the cold moon outside the window.

Silent loneliness, wordless sorrow...... The solitary self is like the broken moon in the sky - no, the self at that time is even more sad, when the moon is reunited, but he will always be incomplete and will not be complete.

Quietly close your eyes, wanting to fall into the deepest dreams......

It is only in the deepest dreams that you can find a touch of warmth!

......

'There was an itchy sensation in the nose and it was a little uncomfortable. ’

The moment she opened her eyes, a pair of eyes appeared in her sight.

A girl not much different from her own age, with a pair of amber pupils inlaid on her round cheeks, a straight nose with a ceramic sheen, and a hint of sparkle in her beautiful cherry blossom-like lips. The gentle strands of hair hung down, glowing faintly in the moonlight, and gently hung down, brushing the tip of his nose.

She hovered over her body less than a foot away...... Levitation?

Yes.

It just like that, like a ghost, hovering over her.

Amber Hitomi looked straight at her with curiosity.

How should she react at this point?

Afraid?

Astonished?

Or is it screaming?

Moving her stiff body slightly, she adjusted the position of her head to better see what was in front of her.

No exclamation, no surprise, no fear, in fact...... It doesn't matter what it is.

At that time, she reached out to touch it, but lifted it and put it down.

Because of what?

...... By the way, I guess that's it.

Those eyes were beautiful, and their amber pupils shone with a charming brilliance, like an innocent child.

That dreamlike beauty, like a fragile phantom.

I can't bear to break it, and I'm afraid that I'll make her disappear as soon as I reach out. Under the silent moon, a milky white light flowed down the gray hospital room and fell on her bed. In the light, she looked at her silently, and no one wanted to break the different silence.

"Can you see me?" The crisp voice and curious tone probably felt like that.

'Is it strange to see you?' she was a little displeased, and turned her head slightly, not responding.

"Meow~ You're talking. Fluttering eyes, it actually reached out and pinched her face.

'Huh, it's a warm feeling, not a ghost. ’

Looking at the girl, she had nothing to say...... No, I guess I can't talk anymore.

Just watch, and ...... Let's sleep.

Obviously, the girl did not want to give herself a chance to forget. The impolite guy was running around her hospital room, from the ceiling to the TV, from the toilet to the top of her head. Didn't she know that it was rude to disturb a patient's rest?

In hindsight, it was a clear violation of the laws of science.

'Really, no polite fellow!' she opened her mouth slightly, but couldn't say anything.

At that time, she didn't care at all, and regarded the girl as a beautiful dream.

'Wake up quickly, I dreamed of this strange thing.' Closing her eyes, she fell into a deep sleep again.

The guy didn't bother, did he stay quietly by her side, or...... Leave?

I don't know.

I don't care.

Just be a fairy in your dreams.

......

......

Every day is like this, without any purpose, just looking at it like this.

The peculiar dusk of dusk shrouded this small park, and those children were reluctant to embark on the way home under the guidance of adults. It didn't take long for the originally lively little park to fall silent. A flock of birds is flying in the sky, and they are about to go home.

Gradually, the time that belonged to man passed......

"Xiaoyin, are you happy today?" the people had dispersed, and as usual, the nurse pushed her back to the ward.

...... nodded, she didn't say anything.

Let the white nurse push herself, she didn't say anything else.

Get used to it, this boring world, this world that you have long been tired of.

Black, White, Grey ...... A world made of three colors.

"Mu Lian, come over for a moment, the head nurse told you to come over immediately. A young man ran up to the nurse sister and shouted. The visitor was wearing a white coat with a white shirt underneath. In his mouth, she vaguely knew that his name was Rocco, and as pretended, he was the doctor in this hospital. Speaking of which, at the age of 26, he became an official doctor in the city hospital, and he is still the object of admiration of a group of nurse sisters.

"Really...... I'll go right away and help me take care of Xiaoyin. ”

Anxiously glancing at her in the wheelchair, the nurse's sister folded her hands and said to the man.

"Okay......" solemnly patted his chest, and Dr. Luo agreed very angrily.

.........

'Gray, but ......dark,' she whispered to herself as she looked at the guy next to her.

She didn't hate black, black and white, even gray, were the same in her eyes.

I don't know why, she inexplicably feels that people with three colors are harmonious...... Black and white, like yin and yang, good and sin, reward and punishment, are like the principles of the two rituals, which exist in opposition and unity.

No, not so good and evil.

Maybe it's a delusion, she knows.

Know the principle of black and white, know the gray junction.

Everything is a simple matter, based on your own body, to judge the world of the three colors.

Dr. Luo straightened his clothes, leaned down and pulled out a bright smile, and said to her, "Little one, come and tell uncle your ward number." Uncle suddenly remembered that there was still something to do, so let's send you back first. ”

"......" shook her head, and she turned to look out the window.

Dusk, orange-red light.

Warm, and a little lonely.

She likes this color, life is not beautiful, the tricolor is too monotonous.

The sun, with only a little light left, slowly sets into the horizon, sending out the last rays of light at the moment of disappearing.

A small park at dusk with few pedestrians and a swing swaying in the breeze.

...... She doesn't want to go back yet.

"Really...... It's up to you. The smile on the young doctor's face suddenly collapsed, and he pursed his lips in disdain, turning away from her. After a moment, he whispered, "Annoying imp." ”

She heard it, and the doctor didn't hide it.

He knew that she couldn't speak, so naturally he didn't have to worry about her complaining to Miss Nurse.

She didn't respond, and the doctor crouched down beside her, looking boredly at the pedestrians in the park.

...... There was silence and no sound.

The air was like a heavy layer of mercury, overwhelming one's breath.

"Imp, I'm going to buy a bottle of Coke, and you're staying here honestly. "Maybe I can't stand this too quiet atmosphere, Dr. Luo didn't make an excuse to leave in less than five minutes.

"......" watched him leave quietly, and she didn't feel the slightest feeling.

It doesn't matter, like it or dislike it, it doesn't exist, there's no such thing...... It doesn't matter.

"Hey, why are you sitting in a chair?"

With a crisp voice, a delicate figure appeared beside her.

'It's that guy......"

"But it's not night, is it?" she thought she must have two big question marks on her head at that time.

At that time, her eyes were a little glazed, and she looked at it blankly.

A goblin in a dream?

Why is it here?

"Hey, you're talking, meow!!" Seemingly annoyed that she wouldn't answer, the strange girl waved her hand impatiently.

Cat-like guys.

Playing - not quiet - looking at the heart - not liking——?

“......”

Shifting her gaze and tilting her head slightly, she simply ignored the girl and looked at the small park under the sunset again.

"Really, it's not fun at all, I'm going to meow ......"

The cat-like girl ran out of the closed glass window and disappeared into the small park at dusk.

'Are you gone?......' she whispered to herself as she looked at the vanished figure.

It's better for the goblin to be in a dream......

.........

"Guess who I am~" A pair of warm hands reached out from behind her, blindfolding her.

Black...... Through the fingers, there is a ray of light.

"Lie to you, I haven't left yet~" After a while, the cat-like girl suddenly let go of her hand and came out from behind her, seeing that she was not frightened, the cat-like girl sighed in disappointment: "This can't scare you meow~~"

Looking at this guy who was not at all restless, she couldn't help but feel a little curious in her heart...... She's so amazing that she can appear in her dreams, walk through glass, and walk in the rain without getting wet - is she really a goblin?

"Why don't you speak?"

'Strange people. A curious whisper in his head, no response.

It looked at her, then at the park, and then at the park in silence.

"Is it nice to look there?"

Maybe she noticed that she was always looking outside, and the cat-like girl was also squatting next to her, accompanying her blankly.

We watched the people playing outside the window until late and late......

.........

A long time had passed, and the last rays of light had disappeared.

Miss Nurse didn't come back, the doctor didn't come back.

She pushed her wheelchair with great difficulty and walked to her hospital room.

"I'll help you. ”

For some reason, she always felt that this cat-like girl seemed a little unhappy.

She ran to the back of her wheelchair and carefully escorted her back to her room.

............

............

Half-asleep, she woke up to an annoying sound.

When I opened my eyes, I looked at myself with a pair of expectant eyes, "Xiaoyin, let's go play~"

She nodded, obviously a little tired, but she couldn't bear to let it down.

In her eyes, the girl is so unique.

That different color made her fascinated.

The faint feeling in my heart is very warm, so warm that I can't bear to refuse.

Carefully helped her into the wheelchair, and the cat-like girl carefully took a sheet and covered it for her: "Mmmm, in this way, Xiaoyin won't be cold meow~"

Pushing her wheelchair, the two slowly walked out of the ward.

It was late at night, and the corridors of the hospital were not dark under the cold lights, and the wards, the gray doors, and the sound of coughing came from nowhere, making this overly quiet corridor more infiltrating and shivering.

They walked past the duty desk, and the nurse didn't notice them.

After leaving the hospital, the two walked slowly in the small park.

There was no special purpose, just walking and watching......

"Xiaoyin, it's beautiful at night here, too. The girl pushing the wheelchair whispered softly in her ear, "Hehe." Xiaoyin will get better soon, I know some more beautiful places, and when Xiaoyin is better, let's go and see it together. ”

“.........”

"If you don't speak, I'll take you as a promise~~"

.........

In the small park at night, the milky moonlight leaves countless shadows in the small park.

The shadows of the trees and the dancing of the swings and curtains render the silence of different days in the park under the moon.

Countless intertwined lights and shadows form a wonderful artistic conception.

"Xiaoyin, I'll dance for you to see~" The cat seems to be a girl under the silver frosty moon, holding her little fist, learning the cat's ingenious posture and dancing gently.

The trees move slightly in the wind, and people dance lightly under the moon.

The corners of her mouth outlined a little graceful arc, and there seemed to be an imperceptible smile blooming on her face.

In a milky halo like mist, she looked at the guy dancing to her heart's content and smiled rarely. In the moonlight mist, the mysterious girl's hands gently followed the light of the moon, and in the hazy gray park, her hands slowly added a little divine light, faint, revealing a seductive sense of confusion.

The cat-like girl smiled at her and placed the handful of water in her palm in front of her.

"I'll show you something interesting~"

With the brisk words, a cow-like light poured down from the cat-like girl's hand. From between her fingers, the wisps of light became thicker and thicker, and the further down they flowed, the lighter and thinner they became.

It's like a few moonlit waterfalls, quiet and hidden, but so gorgeous!

"Hey...... Yes... Oh........." She opened her mouth to sing for her as she watched the moonlit waterfall cascade down her little white hands...... Sing a song of light under the moon, sing a song of smiling faces under the moon.

However, all she made was that hoarse, disgusting voice.

She lowered her head and sighed in disappointment......; But, I still can't help it. ’

"Xiaoyin's singing voice is the most beautiful meow I've ever heard~"

"........." raised her head, and she looked at the smiling figure in front of her in amazement.

She was under the moon, reaching out to herself.

Laughing and glowing......

............

............

"Xiaoyin Xiaoyin, I've come to see you~~"

The cat-like girl walked up to her and reached out and pinched her little nose as usual.

With a frown, she turned her head to the side and glanced at the girl angrily.

"Huh...... Is that right, Xiaoyin is cute, but the expression is too little meow~" Giggled, she expressed satisfaction with the effect she had caused.

"......" looked at this playful guy, her eyes twitched slightly, as if there was a kind of flame!

Annoyed...... It seems to be.

"Yin, what's wrong, are you uncomfortable?" Seeing her frown, the nurse next to her asked with concern.

"It's a little cold, isn't it cold?"

From beginning to end, Miss Nurse did not notice the existence of this girl...... Really, it's amazing!

"......" shook her head at the nurse, and then she stared blankly at the children playing in the small park.

Quieted down, the cat-like girl was like a lazy kitten.

sat lazily on the ground, and then accompanied her to look at the scenery outside.

Time flies...... Sure enough, she was still restless, and the cat-like girl was already rolling on the ground!

Roll over and over again......

Even if she rolls on the ground, there is no trace of dust on the girl's clothes, and she is as neat as ever.

"It's boring, it's boring, it's boring......"

The mouth kept shouting, but the girl had no intention of leaving

- She's used to it.

It's been three months, and it's been three months since it first appeared in its own world.

It doesn't matter if it's windy or rainy, whether it's sunny or cloudy.

Every day at noon, this cat-like girl comes here...... Then stay with yourself all day until you fall asleep. A warm feeling was wrapped around me, as if I wanted to save myself from the world of black, white and gray.

Isn't she bored...... I'm boring. Turning to look at the bored wallowing fellow, she thought to herself, she didn't think she was an interesting person, she didn't think it would be nice to be around her, she couldn't talk, she couldn't play with her. Even if you spend an entire afternoon with her, you may not make a sound.

It's boring, isn't it...... certain

But

Don't want her to leave.

'How it feels to be with her...... That's great!'

But

Didn't want to be with her.

All this is meaningless, death will take away everything from the world, and I, for a long time, have been looking forward to that moment. ’

I don't want to feel that warm feeling anymore, she obviously wants to leave, leave this three-color world.

Whenever no one is in the middle of the night, she always thinks of her parents who have left, when everything has not started, when she is coquettish in her mother's arms, and when she thinks of the dinner together as a family...... Every time I come back from the warmth, I look back.

In the white space, there is only indescribable coldness.

Ah, what a bad feeling!