Why can't you start a new life......

In fact, Xu Nanqiao also asked himself.

"Because I'm not worthy."

is still this sentence, she can't forget those things, people like Lu's father and Lu's mother, because of her willfulness, died unexpectedly.

Everyone in this world wants to buy regret medicine, and many people want to go back to the past.

But it's hard to buy money, and I knew it earlier.

"Nan Qiao......" Qin Yaping still wanted to argue with reason, but the words of explanation almost reached his mouth, but he still swallowed it back alive.

For many years, he knew that it was useless to force her like this, so it was better not to say anything and stay by her side silently.

Carried Xu Nanqiao to the wheelchair and pushed her out, and it began to snow lightly outside, and the originally beautiful garden was slowly covered with snow and turned into a white expanse.

Looking at the scene in front of him, Xu Nanqiao smiled slightly, "The air is so fresh, I haven't breathed like this for a long time." ”

There has always been a pungent smell of disinfectant in the hospital, but I got used to it when I smelled it.

When she looked at the sun, she suddenly felt a little dizzy, and some fragments flashed in her mind, but the speed of the flash was too fast, and she didn't have time to think about it, so it passed.

"What's wrong, isn't it comfortable? Shall we go back? Qin Ya usually pays attention to her movements all the time.

Xu Nanqiao slowed down and shook his head, "No, I suddenly remembered, wasn't it summer before?" Why did it suddenly become winter? ”

"Are you misremember...... Qin Yaping didn't know how to explain it, he didn't even know what time it was in Xu Nanqiao's consciousness, so this time. In Xu Nanqiao's hospital room, there is never such a thing as a calendar.

"Really? Maybe I'm misremembering. ”

Pushing her to continue walking, suddenly there were bursts of flashing lights, and soon a group of people rushed up and unceremoniously handed the microphone to Xu Nanqiao.

"Miss Xu, what happened to you?"

"Miss Xu, are you sick?"

"Miss Xu, are you a junior?"

"We are reporters from Weekly Entertainment, may I ask if you intervened in Miss He Lingxi's relationship before, is it true?"

"Miss Xu, it went viral on the Internet that you were retaliated against for bullying Zhao Xinqian, is that so?"

"Miss Xu, someone said that you committed suicide and were admitted to the hospital, please respond!"

The sudden reporter scared Xu Nanqiao so much that he didn't dare to speak, and Qin Yaping also wanted to protect Xu Nanqiao for the first time, but there were too many people on the other side, and some people had already pushed Qin Yaping away and pushed Xu Nanqiao to leave.

Xu Nanqiao just felt a little dizzy, what were they talking about? Why can't she understand a word? Who is Zhao Xinqian? Who is He Lingxi?

The scene got out of control little by little, and I don't know who shouted, "Lu Yunzheng is over there!" ”

Everyone rushed in a certain direction for a split second.

Those questions swirled in Xu Nanqiao's mind for a while, and she gradually reacted.

Lu Yunzheng?

Brother Yun Zheng is back?

It seems that she can't hear Qin Yaping's voice asking for warmth, she only knows one thing, Lu Yunzheng is back!

She wanted to stand up and walk with the group, but she hadn't walked for a long time, and she couldn't stand up at all.

Qin Yaping pressed her to the wheelchair, with a panicked look on her face.

"Nan Qiao, you can't go over."

Xu Nanqiao didn't hear what he said again, and just repeated the sentence just now in his ear.

"Yaping, did you just hear that?" Xu Nanqiao wanted to grab Qin Yaping and stand up, "Did you hear that?" They just said that Lu Yunzheng was over there, did Brother Yun Zheng come back? ”

Is she finally a chance to repent and atone?

Qin Yaping couldn't bear it, pressed Xu Nanqiao back to the chair again, turned around and walked in the direction of the ward.

"Yaping! No! I'm going to find him! ”

Until she pushed Xu Nanqiao to the ward and carried her to bed, she was still struggling.

"Yaping, please, let me go to him, you know, I've been waiting for him for years, years, I finally waited for him to come back, I want to say sorry to him, I want to make up for all my mistakes, I want to ......"

Before she could speak, she felt nauseous again, she hadn't eaten for a few days, she couldn't vomit anything, she could only retch.

Qin Yaping was also afraid of irritating her and reminding her of the past, he patted her back gently, "Nan Qiao, you may have misheard it just now, they weren't talking about Lu Yunzheng, Lu Yunzheng didn't come back at all, you are tired today, let's have a good rest first, okay?" ”

Xu Nanqiao was skeptical, but she obviously heard those people shouting Lu Yunzheng's name.

Knowing that she didn't believe it, Qin Yaping had no choice but to say: "The doctor also told us that you sometimes have some auditory hallucinations and hallucinations, don't care, we will receive treatment well, and we will gradually overcome it, okay?" ”

"Really? Wasn't it Yun Zheng's brother just now? She still didn't believe it, maybe she couldn't tell the difference between reality and dreams?

"Really, would I lie to you?" Qin Yaping patted the back of her hand and tried hard to squeeze out a smile, "You're very tired, let's sleep for a while." ”

Xu Nanqiao couldn't sleep, Qin Yaping accompanied her for half an hour, and she showed no signs of falling asleep, so Qin Yaping had to go to the nurse and prescribe some sleeping pills.

"The patient can no longer take sleeping pills, and the last time she took them was fifteen hours ago." The nurse looked at the record and frowned, "Are you a family member?" She is now in the normal sober time, sleeping pills can't be relied on in the first place, you don't give her medicine indiscriminately. ”

As an expert of the Food and Drug Administration, how could Qin Yaping not know, but he was really afraid that Xu Nanqiao would remember what happened before, and he was afraid that once she sobered up and remembered, he would not be qualified to be by her side again.

If she can stay by his side, even if she is depressed for the rest of her life, he will be happy.

Since he couldn't find sleeping pills, Qin Yaping had no choice but to go to the attending doctor.

"Doctor, I want to go through the discharge procedures."

According to reason, Xu Nanqiao can be discharged from the hospital, her vital signs are basically stable, as long as she no longer takes medicine indiscriminately and eats well, there will be no big problems.

"She's in stable condition right now, but my advice is to find a hospital that specializes in depression and let her receive specialized depression interventions."

After thanking the doctor, Qin Yaping completed the discharge procedures, returned to the ward, and saw another circle of people outside the ward, including many people carrying machines.

He opened the crowd and saw Xu Nanqiao lying on the ground, surrounded by a circle of nurses.

"This is the hospital! Please get out! ”

A group of paparazzi couldn't control their excitement when they saw Xu Nanqiao, they just chased Lu Yunzheng, but they didn't ask anything, and Lu Yunzheng quickly got in the car and left.

They had no choice but to come back and besiege Xu Nanqiao.

Xu Nanqiao was pulled off the bed by them and fell to the ground, she was a little scared, feeling that it was the first time she had encountered this kind of thing, and in the confusion, she pressed the lamp at the head of the bed, which led the nurse over.

"What are you doing!"

Qin Yaping had a strong fire in his heart, which was about to erupt, he held Xu Nanqiao in his arms and shouted to the nurse next to him: "Call the police!" Call the police now! ”

A nurse picked up the phone to call the police, and before she could dial the phone, the group of paparazzi quickly dispersed.

Xu Nanqiao trembled in Qin Yaping's arms, and she finally found her voice back, "Yaping, who are they, and why do they keep asking me strange questions?" Why do you keep forcing me to answer? Who is He Lingxi? Who is Zhao Xinqian? ”

This is the second time she has heard the names of these two people today, and she heard it very clearly, it is definitely not an illusion, it is real.

Qin Yaping hugged her tightly, as if he was afraid that she would disappear.

"We'll leave now, we'll be discharged right away."

There was no way, Qin Yaping could only avoid her question.

I can't stay in the hospital anymore, this place is already known by these paparazzi, they will only bother Xu Nanqiao endlessly, but Qin Yaping can't completely put down his work, after all, he must have work income to afford Xu Nanqiao's medical expenses.

must leave here immediately, go back to Xu Nanqiao's house first, with her current situation, I'm afraid she can't go out, as long as she doesn't show up, those paparazzi will have no chance.

After simply packing up his things, Qin Yaping took Xu Nanqiao out of the remote basement.

I haven't been back to my home for two months, and when I opened the door, it was still a little dusty, Xu Nanqiao waved his hand, "I haven't been back for a long time, I want to clean it." ”

How could Qin Yaping let her do it, in order to make her feel a little involved, he only gave her some very simple work and asked her to wipe the table.

"Yaping ......"

Xu Nanqiao stopped what he was doing, "Is Brother Yun Zheng really back?" ”

Qin Yaping, who was still busy, suddenly stopped, struggling in her heart, whether to tell her, if she didn't tell her, I am afraid that she will remember those pasts, it must be very painful, but tell her that she may go to Lu Yunzheng, then the result will only be worse, with Xu Nanqiao's current mental condition, I am afraid it is impossible to accept any humiliation from Lu Yunzheng.

"Needless to say, I see."

Looking at Qin Yaping's reaction, she already knew that it must be her brother Yun Zheng who is back, she has to get better quickly, she wants to go to Brother Yun Zheng to apologize, no matter what he wants her to do, she will do it.

"Nan Qiao, don't do stupid things anymore."

More than two months have passed since the accident, Xu Nanqiao is awake, but her depression is getting worse and worse, her eyes can't distinguish colors, and the whole person's reaction is even more slow and sluggish.

In just over two months, she has lost so much weight that she is about to lose her human form.

"No, Yaping, I promise, I will definitely be alive this time."

The two of them cleaned up the house all night, Xu Nanqiao just wiped the table and used all her strength, she leaned on the sofa on the balcony, and leisurely looked at the lights of thousands of homes outside the window.

Qin Yaping simply made gruel and served it to Xu Nanqiao.

"Nan Qiao, why don't you drink a little, you can't stop eating."

Xu Nanqiao held the bowl, her hand touched the warm bowl, and a slight smile appeared on her pale face, "It's so warm." ”