Chapter 80: Reluctant to Wait
Life is not easy, work hard!
Unfortunately, I don't know when, maybe just in an instant, you may encounter unexpected pain, one second you are full of scenery, the next second is painful**, and you can't imagine when bad luck will befall you.
"Life is a book, the cover is given by my parents, the content is written by myself, the thickness is determined by myself, and the excitement can be created by myself.
You arrogantly broke into my world, but unscrupulously let go of my respect, leaving me greedy, lovely, ignorant and unrepentant, heartbroken, speechless, heartache and hurtful tenderness. ”
When I was a child, I cried a ghost and a wolf, and when I grew up, I cried quietly. Because when I was a child, I didn't know what it meant to be ashamed, but when I grew up, I knew what it meant to be embarrassed. Later, I couldn't smile in front of people, and I didn't dare to cry. Only when I am alone in the middle of the night, I can cry without scruples like when I was a child, crying and wiping my tears while lying on the bed, while comforting myself: "I don't cry!" I can't cry! I don't want to cry! "I can't say why, it's just that my mood is suddenly low and out of control.
I don't like money, but I have to work hard every day for a few taels of silver, money can buy back recovery, but can't buy life, life is like this, it's really helpless......
"When I grow up and go out, I know how difficult it is to mix up, whenever I am frustrated, I want to talk to my family but I don't want my family to know my predicament.
"You sent me a dream at dusk, full of lovesick joy and the stars of the universe."
"Once upon a time, there was a chivalrous man, a sword, a pot of wine, and two sleeves of clear clouds, whose ambition was as high as Qingyun, and he was bent on being alone. Traveling all over the world, thousands of mountains and rivers alone. Later, there was a chivalrous man, a broken sword, a pot of turbid wine, ragged and tattered, haggard and sad, looking for half a lifetime, thousands of rivers and mountains. He gave her all his love and righteousness. He was embarrassed for half his life. He fell in love with her, and he had no regrets. ”
I have seen a glimpse of shock, I have felt my heart move, but I just walked away, and my heart was very empty.
It's just a dream that doesn't know where it starts and ends, so let's come back.
I had a dream in which I fell in love with you, but you didn't know anything about it, and I didn't return for ten years, and when I woke up from the dream, I realized that it was just a dream. But in a blink of an eye, I met you again in the lamplight, you can't help it, I can't help it, I can only drink in this small restaurant, I met you again in the dream, you walked in the dream so decisively, "I forgot you after waking up from the dream!" ”
"I used to like a person, but now I like a person. That year, under the maple tree, we laughed and said we would see each other again, until the maple tree withered and he never came back. ”
The wrong time, the wrong person, the most afraid is to make mistakes again and again, and lose the beginning.
"I'm talking to you with a dead face, even if there is no topic, I have to talk hard, I am very happy when you reply, but in your eyes I am just a dispensable person."
"Some people, you see he is always alone, going home alone, shopping alone, eating alone, giggling alone, crying alone, but in fact he just likes comfort too much and is unwilling to share himself with others"
"You finally went to the rivers and lakes without me, and with your most cherished sword, you became someone else's hero. And later, it seems that we never knew each other. ”
I have never had the sweet love you say, nor have I had the family affection that others envy, the only thing I have is: alone in a foreign land as a stranger, every festival I miss my relatives but I don't know who to miss, my father and my mother fireworks in an instant, the three of us finally became: strange road forward, towards three directions, exploring alone, each going to the unknown......