Shangguan Rui looked at the handwriting on it.

I only felt that those handwritings were like someone holding a sharp carving knife and slashing across his heart one by one.

[We went to the theater today to watch Journey to the West.

I envy Fairy Zixia for her dedication to love.

Moths to fire, that's probably what it looks like!

The tragedy of this love is sad and helpless.

If Zixia hadn't died, there would be no way for the Supreme Treasure to become Sun Wukong; But when Supreme Treasure became Sun Wukong, he had no way to give Zixia another love.

Blind dates can't be close, maybe that's it!

Love is such a thing as a thing that is never clear.

So, I think, when I see him, I can be there for him.

All I can think of, only I want to.

As long as he is around, I am willing to do whatever I am asked to do. 】

[I bought fish and came back today, I wanted to make fish soup, but because of some small accidents, in the end, I had to give up.

Standing beside me, he watched me handle the fish, obviously disgusted, but when he saw that my hand was scratched, he actually made the dish himself.

I secretly wondered in my heart, could his behavior be understood as concern for me?

I was thrilled by the thoughtfulness that came out of my mind.

When I tried to help him several times, I was still yelled at, looking at his serious and awkward appearance, I felt for the first time that even when he yelled at me, it would make me feel at ease.

I looked at his side face and understood in a trance.

Feelings will indeed sink deeper and deeper. 】

Actually, I don't want to leave.

But if I love someone, how can I want him to be trapped because of me?

It was enough to have him with me for a short time in my last life.

He gave me a peaceful life and gave me a feeling.

It's a short time, but it's enough. 】

Everything she has is related to him.

It felt as if she was centered on him.

She remembers every bit of every day.

But she didn't tell him.

Not a word.

He saw an envelope inside.

There were some fainting marks on it, he thought, and she must have shed tears as she wrote the letter.

Shangguan Rui didn't know what kind of mood he was in, so he opened the letter.

It was the same handwriting as in the diary, and the first thing he saw was his name.

Shangguan Rui, hello

When you can read this letter, I think I have left this world completely.

I'm sorry to say goodbye to you in this way.

I don't think I have the courage to say a word of separation in the face of you.

My love has always been humble.

It's so humble, I'm used to hiding.

I don't dare to find out where you are in your mind.

I just comforted myself again and again, thinking to myself, maybe your kindness to me is enough to prove that I am a little different in your heart.

I think, with your pride, I can't wait for the day when you say 'I love you' to me."

So, if the relationship ends in tragedy in the end, I'm willing, you don't leave too much impression.

For the rest of your life, you don't even need to think about me.

Our start was not too pleasant, and even, a little bad.

I know that from the beginning, I was always a stand-in by your side.

Whether you are good or bad to me, it is the emotion that you pass on to another person through me.

This kind of realization makes me very frustrated, and even, very helpless.

Originally, I was thinking at the beginning, even if I was a stand-in, it would be good to be able to stay by your side!

However, when I can really stay with you, I want you to see me and me as a person.

It's not the sustenance of your feelings, and it's not someone else.

It's greedy to think like this, but the more I'm with you, the more greedy I become.

If there's one thing I regret in my life, it's that I haven't been with you long enough.

I appreciate the month you've spent with me.

Because of you, I don't have any regrets in my life.

But, I'm sorry, I can't love you anymore, or even be there for you anymore.

However, I know that your life can be better without me.

Perhaps, you will meet someone who loves you more.

Shangguan Rui, in love, I think I'm a very stingy person, I hope you can meet the person you love, but I don't want you to forget me completely.

I want to be able to make a little impression on you, really, even if you think of me only occasionally, I'm satisfied.

But I'm scared too! I'm afraid you'll be sad when you think of me, I don't want this to happen, what to do, I'm such a conflicted person.

I thought about this question for a long time, and then I realized that it doesn't really matter, as long as you live well, whether I'm good or not, it's all good.

So, after this life, my only hope is that you can be well.

Shangguan Rui, I hope you are happy. ”

Even if the person next to me is not me, as long as you are happy, it is enough.

Shangguan Rui saw those words, the sunset sun hit, and those clear words were a little trance in front of his eyes.

One, two tear stains hit the page.

Wet the handwriting on it.

Everything was so familiar that he could even imagine how sad it would be for her to sit at the table and write down the words one by one.

He didn't know, it turned out, that she had endured so much.

It was dark, it was dark, and it was bright again.

The days and nights of reincarnation drained his soul along with it.

He thought that he was probably like this.

She was gone, and with all his life force gone.

In his sparkling eyes, there was no brilliance for a long time, and he completely became indifferent.

He thought that his emotions would no longer fluctuate because of anything.

However, when he saw the boxy tombstone again, he realized that this was only the beginning.

Especially, when he saw that the name on the tombstone was 'Mulberry'.

Again, he began to weep uncontrollably.

Originally, after seeing the news circulating on the Internet, he really thought that this matter was related to Mu Zixiao, and he wanted to go over and fight hard.

However, it wasn't until Shangguan Jingyu took out the information that he knew that she was, Sang Yu.

The entanglement between him and her is too much, too deep,

They did meet at Pyeongcheon University.

He had also pursued her.

At that time, he was young and frivolous, and he casually forgot about her in a blink of an eye, but he didn't want to, so he let her remember it silently for so many years.

He looked at everything that had become cold in front of him, and suddenly a sentence came to his mind, "It's okay, even if you don't like me one day, I will find a way to become what you like!" ”

That's what she once said to him.

I don't know what's going on, the picture that was originally blurred in my mind, these days, I have all remembered it.

Thinking of the absurdity of all these years, he wanted to give himself two slaps.

With someone like him, it's no wonder that so many people hate him!

But he didn't understand, why didn't she tell him when she had loved him for so many years!

She didn't tell him anything, and stayed silently by his side.

If it weren't for the information that Shangguan Jingyu threw in front of him, he wouldn't have known that she had suffered so much for him.

Every look in her eyes appeared in front of her eyes, every expression, every movement was deeply rooted in her mind, and the traces she left in his life were so profound, but in an instant she completely withdrew away.

No thought is left for him.

If he hadn't gotten the news, he thought, he wouldn't have even seen her for the last time.

He knew that she really loved him, but sometimes, she was really cruel to him.

He didn't understand why she said goodbye to him in such a way, obviously they got along very well during this time!

He had a lot of things to say to her, but he didn't know where to start, let alone whether she could hear them.

Looking at the photo on the tombstone, I suddenly thought that on the day they went to Pyeongcheon University together

She stood in the sunlight and smiled at him.

She said to him, "Shangguan Rui, I once saw you here. ”

She only mentioned this sentence to him, and she didn't mention a word of the rest.

He remembered the taunt on her face every night they were together, and she asked him, "Do you like this face!"

Every time he answered, he was mad.

Seeing the deep sadness in her eyes, he still answered her 'yes'.

But, for all this, she never said to him.

By the time he knew all this, it was too late.

He could no longer hear her say a word, nor could he see any of her eyes......

If you don't lose, you don't know what you ever had.

He re-selected a handful of purple hyacinths and placed them in front of her.

Along with a letter addressed to her.

"Hello, Sang Yu:

I'm sorry, but I can't say a word to you until now, I love you.

It's a little late, isn't it?

There is nothing more sad in this world than when I know that I am deeply loved, but there is nothing possible in this life.

Sorry! I knew the moment you left, and I knew that I had fallen in love with you a long time ago.

Actually, you are not like her, you don't have to be like her at all, you are yourself, just yourself.

When I was with you, I never felt like a shadow of you.

You've always been just yourself.

But, unfortunately, it was too late.

Indeed, when you were first by my side, I thought you were nothing more than a stand-in for my affection.

But it wasn't until you were lying in my arms slowly losing your body temperature that I finally knew what you meant to me.

You're right, I've never known how to love people, and my so-called emotions are to get what I want.

Just when I was chasing the figure of others, I realized that there was a person behind me who had silently guarded me for so long.

I'm sorry to have made you love me for so long, but I can't love you anymore.

Sometimes, do I want to have a next life?

If there is a next life, will we be able to meet again?

I tried to think about a lot of possibilities, but every time I thought about it, I was very unconfident.

I'm a very bad person, selfish, irritable, I don't know how to take care of people, and I have a very bad temper, I don't know if I will have so many bad shortcomings if I have an afterlife.

I'm even more afraid that such a bad me will be met by you again.

The thought of this possibility made me even more worried.

So, if there is an afterlife, I think, you don't have to remember me, you don't even have to fall in love with me.

If you can, I hope that in the next life, you don't know me anymore, don't meet me again.

If I could, I would like to see you, without intruding into your world, just looking at you from afar.

I hope that the love that I didn't give you will be brought to you by another person, you don't have to be sad, you won't be sad, you won't be painful, you won't have to carry other people's lives, you will live peacefully, live happily, and have no worries in your life.

Although it is a little late, this is a letter to you from someone who does not dare to love you.

I dare not ask for your forgiveness. ”

[PS: I'm trying my best to write this paragraph.

I think that some regrets, once caused, are likely to be eternal regrets.

So, if you miss something, you miss it.

Some missed, and they didn't even have the opportunity to make amends.

Jin Yuhan, her past, she didn't mention it to Shangguan Rui again, because she was worried that Shangguan Rui would be indebted to her, she was with Shangguan Rui, and from beginning to end she thought of the love she wanted, not any pity or debt, so she wouldn't mention her past.

Shangguan Rui and Jin Yuhan didn't start well, and it is inevitable that they have developed to this day.

Combined with Shangguan Rui's absurdity, this can be regarded as a punishment for him! Ay! This pair of CP is written hen xin s]