090. I lied to myself

"Righteous Boss, we really. Leave it alone? The timid maids gathered together in twos, and when they said this, they trembled so much that they hid behind the pillars and were not illuminated by the light, and they did not even see the shadows of people, but they were afraid that their mosquito-sized voice would be heard.

Yibo stared at the wing room at the end of the corridor, sighed, and waved his hand to drive people away: "Let's go, let's go." ”

His tone was a little stiff, but the people who were waiting for him to speak left the place one after another.

No one dares to gossip.

The person who went to the prime minister's house was Lord Jing.

The relationship between the two, all they know is that they are both Nine Immortals.

"It's said that I knew it since I was a child."

"I am also close to the former queen mother."

If there is anything else, I don't know anything, and no one dares to guess at will.

The news that King Jing is here can't even spread out of this corridor.

Xicheng, the upper guard of King Jing's Mansion, held his sword and guarded at the end of the corridor, as steady as a sculpture.

Yibo sat down on the edge of the porch and sighed heavily.

Two people are tormenting each other like this, neither of them will tell the truth to each other, neither of them will bow to each other, each carrying their own sadness, when will it be?

The Jiang family's sufferings all fell on the shoulders of such a weak woman as the little master.

But God just wouldn't let her take it easy.

Not for a moment.

The old lady didn't see this great Jin Dynasty.

The eldest young master's blood was sprinkled on the palace building.

Now the queen is gone.

The little master of his family. There is nothing left.

Prince Jing refused to let her go.

What if I get sick again?

"Master." Yibo raised his head, "In your heart. . . What the hell do you think? ”

The slight murmur dissipated into the night.

The moonlight is sultry, and the hanging clouds are shining.

Jiang Yu didn't close the window, and the candles on the side of the table were crumbling by the wind.

Qi Dao sat opposite her, half of his face was hidden in the shadows of the dark place, and he could only see a pair of bright eyes reflecting the light, staring at the porcelain vase in Jiang Yu's hand.

She was sick.

Jiang You's death, she blamed herself all.

Even his resentment against her was fully accepted, and he finally crushed himself completely.

Seeing her like this, he should have felt relieved.

Under the moonlight, her emaciated figure was thinner than in the daytime, and the big coat draped over her body also made her petite.

Her gaze has changed a lot, and when she sees herself, she won't dodge. Won't laugh anymore.

Qi Dao didn't feel happy in his heart.

When he saw the scabbed scars on her arms, he didn't feel happy at all.

When Jiang You died, he longed for her to be punished.

She really tortured herself like this, but Qi Dao only felt sour.

Suddenly I feel like a bastard.,Blame yourself for failing to protect your best friend.。。 Blame it on a girl who was supposed to be bad.

Because she loves him.

That's why he dared to hurt her recklessly.

But that's also her own brother.

Jiang Ying's guilt and distress are no less than him.

In the two years that Jiuxian was recuperating, she grew a lot and became. He was no longer familiar with it.

And now the only excuse he can find to look at her is left. The medicine bottle in her hand and at her hand.

"One."

Qi Dao stretched out his hand and nodded on the table, "Eat now." ”

Jiang Yu lowered his eyes and clenched the medicine bottle in his hand: "Lord Jing is such a good Yaxing, why waste it on me, Imperial Doctor Yin has carefully instructed how to use medicine, I am not a three-year-old child, I know how to take care of myself." ”

The light in Qi Dao's eyes dimmed, and after half a sound, he hooked the corners of his mouth mockingly: "Eat." ”

She's such a smart person, of course she knows how to take her medicine.

Knowing what dosage to take can relieve your pain.

You can take your own life from the cocoon.

The Jiang family sent a lot of good seedlings.

She didn't plan to get married, so she had to choose a favorite child to inherit the lineage and pass on the Jiang family's tricks.

She was bent on dying.

She's been laying things out for the rest of the day.

When Qi Dao found out that she had a problem with the dosage of medication, he happened to catch her slight symptoms, and she had to cut her wrist with the tip of a knife to alleviate it. Stay awake.

Yin Zhengshan said that she had a heart disease.

It's in the thick of it.

The knot in the heart is indissolved, and there will never be a day of healing.

When he saw the blood falling from the tip of the knife to the ground, Qi Dao's heart shook fiercely.

She is a bright presence in this prosperous world.

But her roots had rotted, and she was in the midst of the lush flowering season, withering and dying.

He realized that he might not be able to keep her, and that her life was passing before his eyes.

He finally remembered ...

He loved her before he said such resolute and cruel words to her, before he abandoned her, hated her, complained about her, and drifted away from her.

It's just that the love and hate of teenagers are too strong and too hot.

Once you miss it and leave it, you will bury all the good things that have been.

Keep your head down.

I can't open my mouth.

Atria locked.

Even if it's a stone's throw away, there's nothing to say.

So he lied.

"I have the final say on your life, Jiang Yu, don't think about running away by yourself to have fun."

It seems that only such cold and malicious language can convince herself, and also convince her, to make care and worry take for granted.

It seems that only by drawing a clear distance between each other can they sit comfortably across from each other and say a few words.

Qi Dao's sneer fell on Jiang Yu's ears, and he couldn't tell whether it was a clumsy lie that satirized her or just mockery.

She didn't make fearless excuses and struggles, poured pills out of every medicine bottle, and obediently ate them according to the dosage in front of him.

Qi Dao's smile looked two points more satisfied, and he slowly threw these bottles and cans into the box in his hand: "You let Jiang Ting enter the palace at night?" ”

Jiang Ying didn't answer, just stared at him like this, and said coldly: "Is Prince Jing going to climb my wall like this all the time?" This is the Prime Minister's Mansion. ”

"What about you? You're going to be selfish like this forever, so that you can seem like you're a maverick, aren't you?! Qi Dao gritted his teeth, "Prime Minister Jiang!" If you hadn't made the decision in the first place! ”

At the mention of this, Jiang Yu's pupils shrank suddenly, and then clenched his fists.

Qi Dao was also paused, and he didn't continue, he was a little irritable, stood up with the box, jumped lightly, and climbed out of the window.

He turned his back to Jiang Ying, and said in a deep voice after half a sound: "Now you want to end your life without permission, right?" Jiang Ying, you are always like this, why are you... ”

Why did you leave without saying a word?

Why don't you tell him when he's sick?

Obviously, she also pushed him away with her own hands, but for a momentary gaffe just now, Qi Dao still felt guilty.

But I want him to apologize. It's also hard.

He didn't say anything more, his figure flickered away, and the moonlight, which had been briefly obscured, fell again.

Jiang Ying's slightly trembling hand finally let go slowly.

She covered her heart, pressed her forehead against the table, and gasped for air to relieve the dull pain in her heart.

It takes courage to make up your mind to die.

"Why bother me." She bit her lip and slowly. Hold yourself tight.

Now even the courage to die is about to be gone.

She didn't want to admit her cowardice.

Now there is no place to escape.

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Qi Dao walked in a hurry, his face was gloomy, as if he was going to kill someone.

Yibo was frightened by Qi Dao who hurriedly walked in front of him, and after kneeling down subconsciously, Qi Dao was about to come to the end of the corridor.

Xicheng, who had not moved, seemed to have finally been turned on by someone, he opened his eyes, and turned sideways to take the box in Qi Dao's hand.

"Master, are you back?" Xicheng's voice was soft.

As soon as he asked, he heard the old slave not far away, calling out to Qi Dao.

"Lord Wang, please stay here!" Yibo knelt in place and kowtowed in pleading.

Thinking that Qi Dao would not pay attention, Xicheng glanced at him, then retracted his gaze and prepared to follow Qi Dao's footsteps.

Who knew that Qi Dao suddenly paused and slowly turned around.

Yibo just pleaded with the mentality of giving it a try, but he didn't expect Qi Daozhen to stop, he was a little shocked for a while, and his speech became a little incoherent: "Wang... Lord, please have mercy. My master loves to be quiet after a serious illness, and often has to stay alone to calm his mind. Imperial Doctor Yin said, the master can't be stimulated, if he is frightened, he can't do it. Inevitably. Old.. The old slave only asks for the prince. I implore the prince to read it for the sake of acquaintance. Reading the spirit of the eldest young master in the sky. Don't let the master hurt her again, the master is still the girl's family, the prince behaves like this, it's really. ”

Qi Dao didn't listen to him, he understood what Yibo meant.

He was afraid that he would hurt Jiang Yu again.

The protector is heartfelt, and he doesn't blame him.

But there is no need to listen to the rest of the words.

Qi Dao walked simply, Yibo spoke messily, most of the words were still behind, and there was no chance to say it again.

He knelt here until the corridor fell silent again for a long time, then he raised his hand to wipe away his tears and stood up against the pillar.

The night was extremely quiet, and Qi Dao still didn't go out from the main gate.

He is already more familiar with Jiang Mansion than Jiang Yu, the master's family, and he really does a lot of things to climb over the wall everywhere.

He also didn't want to be seen in and out of the Prime Minister's Mansion.

Yibo is right in one sentence, it is still a girl's house in the end.

Xicheng followed behind Qi Dao, and after half a sound, he muttered, "Master, every time I go, I'm so angry enough, why do you still go?" ”

Qi Dao didn't look back, and only after he finished climbing over the wall on his house did he snort irritably.

Now I can't even remember to go back to my house.

What a mess of habits they all raise!

Xicheng was so frightened by Qi Dao's irritable snort that he hurriedly closed his mouth.

Qi Dao raised his hand and rubbed his eyebrows, glanced back at the high wall behind him, and then moved his gaze upward, squinting at the moon in the sky.

Xicheng looked at Qi Dao's line of sight.

Is this moon a stinging eye?

Why did he think his grandfather's eyes were red?

However, Qi Dao didn't give him another chance to look at the confirmation, he retracted his gaze and turned away neatly.

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He met her when she was young.

Seen the moon together.

Together, they talked about dreams.

In the countless days of acquaintance, companionship has become commonplace.

She said she wanted to learn how to ride a horse with him.

They agreed that after the end of the war, they would sing on the prairie on the banks of the Huai River.

She is still the little sister of the Jiang family who can weave garlands.

He is also the little Dao baby of the Qi family in the Nine Immortals Martial Arts Hall.

Prime Minister Jiang and Prince Jing of the imperial capital are just a dream in the lazy afternoon.

After waking up.

Qi Ying and Jiang Wan's wedding has just been witnessed by the Huai River.

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So why go for it?

Because he lied to himself.

He misses the days of doing Qi Dao very much.

Those, only as the days when Qi Dao lived.