Chapter 239: Remorse
"Bang-"
A thick stack of folded scrolls was smashed to pieces with great anger, and everyone was silent and didn't dare to say a word. The emperor clenched his fists, and there was a terrifying cracking sound of bone joints in the quiet air.
…… Disgusted with me?
The porcelain that was laid out on the desk was all overturned, and the shattered and fragmented mess seemed to be a broken heart at this moment...... The word "disgust" in her mouth is more unbearable than all the pain in the world......
Yang Ling, who was outside the door, raised his feet and was about to enter the hall, but he was instantly frightened by the scene in front of him, and moved to the side tremblingly, for fear of angering the person who was losing his temper again. The emperor glanced sideways at the former, and his voice was not very kind:
"Is she still gone?"
Yang Ling's body trembled, and he said, "No, no ......"
The emperor turned his head suddenly, with a little disbelief in his joy: "She didn't leave? ”
"Back to the emperor, Lord Xie didn't leave, Lord Xie she...... Sick. ”
"What!" Hearing this, the emperor rushed forward, looking a little flustered;
"She's sick? How could she ......"
Seeing that the former was stunned for a long time and couldn't speak, Yang Lingfang spoke: "The imperial doctor said that Lord Xie caught a cold and contracted a cold, but it is not serious, and it can be cured after a while, and the emperor does not have to worry." ”
The sudden news was like a heavy sword piercing into his heart, the emperor's pupils shrank sharply, and his breathing seemed to stagnate in an instant...... I didn't realize that she was also in danger of fighting in the underworld, her body was not completely healed, and she was tossed by herself yesterday without knowing the severity, which actually made her sick, and guilt and remorse instantly surged into her heart, which made people feel distressed.
How could I hurt her......
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"Your Majesty." The imperial physician took the medicinal food and bowed respectfully to the comer, but he didn't want to be grabbed by the collar by the latter.
"How's she?"
"Ink ...... Miss Mo is fine, but she has some ......."
Before the words fell, the medicine in the man's hand was snatched away by the emperor, the corners of his lips were tightly closed, and he turned around and eagerly pushed open the door in front of him.
"Ahem...... Ahem......"
There was a woman's heavy coughing sound in the room, the emperor's eyes were burning, and he saw her when he lowered his eyes, the person in the futon was pale and bloodless, she exhaled heavily, and the continuous wheezing and coughing made her heart throb.
Seeing that she was wrapped in a thick layer of bedding, and her cold cheeks looked thinner and thinner, the emperor frowned and called her softly: "Lingxu." ”
Xie Lingxu's eyes moved slightly, he turned his head and glanced at him lightly, and then looked away again, and his tired body seemed to have no strength to speak again.
"I'm sorry, my ......" The emperor lowered his eyes, and then said softly: "Lingxu, drink the medicine first." ”
The woman didn't speak, she sat up weakly, raised her hand to get the medicinal food that was resting on the bedside, and didn't want the medicine bowl to be held in the emperor's hand first.
"Come on."
Xie Lingxu didn't refuse, at this moment, she really didn't have the strength to toss herself anymore, so she leaned on his arms tiredly, and let the person beside her feed the medicine into her mouth spoonful.
"I was too impulsive, I didn't expect it to hurt you."
Looking at Xie Lingxu's weak appearance, the emperor was full of remorse, and at this moment her face was tired, and her frowning eyebrows made people look very worried.
"Ahem......"
Xie Lingxu's chest ached, and he couldn't help but cough, he couldn't bear to see her so uncomfortable, the emperor couldn't help clenching his fists, resenting himself for not knowing how to be sympathetic and making her suffer.
The bitter medicine finally bottomed out, and the corners of the woman's lips were accidentally stained with some medicine stains, and she only lowered her eyes, as if she didn't care. I had never seen her so pitiful, the emperor couldn't help but reach out to Xie Lingxu's cheek, and his fingertips brushed her soft lips, and the soft touch instantly brought a burst of heartache and throbbing.
Xie Lingxu looked in a trance, slowly lay down and pulled the futon in front of him, and closed his eyes weakly.
"Do you want me to accompany you?"
"No"
She replied lightly, and then turned around, her emaciated body curled up in a ball, which made people want to use it tightly in her arms. The woman in front of her was silent, leaving only a back for herself, her black hair poured on the pillow, covering her thin white neck, the emperor's eyebrows moved, and he reached out to touch it, but he lost his courage for a while, so he had to purse his lips and slowly stood up.
Standing on the side of the door, he was supposed to leave, but the emperor couldn't help but look back at Xie Lingxu...... The person who thought he had been lost forever finally returned to his side, how could he treat her like this, and he didn't know how to cherish it?
But I was afraid, afraid that she would turn around and leave without looking back, and there was not even a back left in her eyes, and she had no strength to bear the pain of losing her again......
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The huge palace, the houses are towering, the people in the palace come and go, but the two people who don't want to see each other can always meet, looking at He Qingyu in front of him, He Yan couldn't help clenching his fists...... I thought that time would pass, the years would smooth everything, and the hatred of the past would gradually fade away, and the two might be able to look at each other politely and smile when they met again, as strangers they didn't know very well, but they were still wrong after all, and the former wish made the hatred deeper and deeper, even if time could no longer kill it.
The man froze in place, a little at a loss for a moment, and the remorse of the years weighed on his heart, so that he did not dare to raise his head and look directly at the person in front of him. He Yan looked at him indignantly, his eyes were full of hatred, he snorted coldly, don't look away from looking at the face that he is extremely familiar with and incomparably unfamiliar, the trauma of childhood is too clear, after all, it is difficult to let go, the dark shadow left by the former in his heart will not linger no matter what.
He Yan threw off his sleeves and immediately turned away, only to feel that the man never explained, nor begged for forgiveness, but still seemed to be afraid of the thing called "face", he clearly retreated from the danger, but he never showed up, as if hiding from himself. After twenty years, I finally accepted the fact that he no longer existed in this world, and I even felt a trace of guilt in my heart, which seems really ridiculous now.
The person behind him remained silent, and the anger in He Yan's heart grew, and the feelings that had been buried in his heart for decades suddenly burst and gushed, and the latter turned around and scolded as if out of control:
"He Qingyu, you abandoned your wife and children, you are shameless, what kind of thing are you! You disloyal and unrighteous hypocrite, ashamed of my mother! It's a shame that the fire of chaos didn't burn you to death! ”
A scolding and scolding hit He Qingyu, but the latter didn't seem to care, and even felt a little relieved in his heart, there is nothing more ruthless than being silent, and at least he can make up for it if he tells all the words in his heart, and there is still a chance to release his suspicions.
He Yan's face was red, and after a while, the violent and violent emotions gradually calmed down, he looked at the man in front of him, and was surprised by that face, that body was not the same as before, and his indifferent heart couldn't help but give birth to some different feelings...... After all, the years have left a mark on the man, he is no longer as high-spirited and graceful as before, the wrinkles on his forehead make him look more sophisticated and calm, and the slightly dull skin seems to bring him the frivolity that grows in his bones.
Looking at the man in front of him who was half his head shorter, He Yanmeng's eyebrows frowned slightly, and he had to admit that the years had passed, and the person in front of him was no longer young, and he was no longer the drooping young man who watched him leave ruthlessly and could only hold his mother's hand at a loss.
"He, I'm sorry." The man lowered his eyes, as if he had mustered up the courage to finally spit out the words buried deep in his heart, but the former was stunned as if he had been suddenly struck by thunder.
…… He hates him, he hates him to the core, but what does he hate, does he really know? In the past 20 years, what he resents is actually not his ruthless abandonment, he sacrificed his life to protect his mother in the battle of the underworld, and he can see the affection in his heart, but he clearly regrets not being at the beginning, why don't he try to keep it and try to make up for his mistakes? If he could admit his mistakes and truly repent, he might be able to forgive him for his absurd behavior, but this "I'm sorry" made him wait for 20 years, and he kept his name incognito for 20 years, but he never came to see him.
Is it that hard for him to repent? After such a long time, I forgot my past feelings, and there was only hatred in my heart......
He Yan smiled contemptuously: "What's the point of saying this now?" Moreover...... The person you should apologize for is your mother! ”
"Mercy...... I do, owe her too much. ”
"Back then, I used the He family's forbidden technique to protect my mother's soul, even if you still have a little conscience, but now your mother has been sleeping in the cold ice for twenty years and has not woken up, who knows what you have done with the demon girl of the Qinglou in the past twenty years!"
Knowing the irony in He Yan's words, He Qingyu didn't take it to heart, but said indifferently: "I know that you don't want to go, I also feel that my past behavior is too ridiculous, although I know that the current apologies are useless, but I still want to tell you that after leaving your mother and son, I regretted it, and I didn't do anything with her, I left her in the battle of the underworld, and I never had anything to do with her." ”
Hearing this, He Yan couldn't help but be surprised, and seemed to be a little shocked: "Haven't you done anything?" ”
"I only appreciate her, maybe it's sympathy, maybe it's just ...... It's just being used by her. ”
He Yan's eyebrows frowned, and Fang listened to the predecessor continue: "But there is no need to explain now. ”
Seeing that he was able to listen to himself calmly at the moment, the man couldn't help but feel a little happy, and then smiled faintly: "Actually, you already know my identity, right?" ”
"I heard Lingxu say that the pavilion master of the Hidden Pavilion forced her to take medicine, and I knew that person was you."
Hearing this, He Qingyu said with a sincere look in his eyes: "Now that the power in Lingxu's body has been activated, if she breaks the Nine Heavens of Cold Ice, she will definitely be able to break the seal and rescue Ah Lian, He Yan, can you put aside the hatred between you and me for the time being, and let's work together to rescue your mother first?" ”
He Yan's eyes moved slightly, only to feel that his heart seemed to be a little more comfortable after the two were honest, he raised his eyes to look at the man in front of him, and his tone was particularly indifferent: "I promise you." ”