"Besides, if I think about it, I'm probably not suitable to be a teacher at this stage."

"Why?"

"Well, being a teacher is not just as simple as finishing the lecture in class, but also having to follow the rules in every word and deed and become a model, I am a rebellious person at heart, I am afraid that I will become a model of rebellion for students, it is not good."

"Then you don't have to go so far to Beijing, it's so far, the climate and diet are not suitable, you can go to Guangzhou and Shenzhen, isn't it better? It's close to home. ”

"I thought about it, in fact, when I was in college, if I wanted to go to Guangzhou, I could go to several universities in Guangzhou for the college entrance examination that year, but in order to see the sea, I went to Bincheng Normal University."

"Shenzhen, I originally wanted to go, but, Shenzhen, you know, someone has been transferred from Guangzhou, and I don't want to meet it again - it's all gone, so why bother to have anything to do with it? So, I chose Beijing. ”

"Beijing also has a strong cultural atmosphere, I like it, so I am willing to go there, you can see the snow, you can have the Great Wall, the Forbidden City, Tiananmen Square, and all kinds of hutongs, which are very different from our southern places, oh yes, and the ice of the Summer Palace with thick ice."

"But...... If ......"

"Vafan, there are too many things in life, but if and if, it will be too late. I don't want to regret it in the future. You also know, I took the graduate school exam once in my senior year, a university in Beijing, but I didn't do well in the professional course, and I came back this time and took the exam once, but something happened, some impact, the English single subject line was not passed, but the main thing is that I didn't review enough by myself, but it was just a few points worse, so I wanted to go to Beijing to try, I still want to study again. ”

"Pu Jia ......"

Qin Wafan called out so mournfully, his heart was more painful than the voice that came out, why every time, when he felt that he had puffed up the sails again and had hope to be together, a violent storm would come and knock down his hope in an instant, he was like this, he could only follow her forever, and he couldn't catch up?

His heart was on the verge of despair.

"Pujia, do you have to go? Have you thought about it? For example, how do you arrange your life and work in Beijing? ”

His tone quickly came to his senses, and his brain was racing.

Bai Pujia is a girl who lives in her ideals, he knows it, but today he knows that she is still so brave in her ideals.

In that case, what she hadn't considered, so he would think for her, so that he could avoid risks for her, and maybe there was hope for her to come back?

It's really not good, he doesn't care about it, he just followed her to Beijing, everything starts from scratch, she is not afraid of a girl, what is he afraid of?

"It's okay, the last time I had a reunion with my classmates in Guangzhou, I happened to meet a boy from Beijing, he was very kind to me, and later he also came to our school to stay with me for a few days, and we both felt very good. He'll help me when I get there. You can rest assured. ”

This was no less than a bomb, which blew Qin Wafan's chest to the point of flesh and blood in an instant. This, thrilling suspense dramas don't bring such unexpected thunder people one by one.

"Oh-it's you, uh, your boyfriend?"

"Hmm."

Qin Wafan asked with difficulty, and Bai Pujia was silent for a long time before answering.

"Okay, since that's the case, then I'm relieved."

Qin Wafan hoarsely voiced and added:

"It's better to call more often, and feel free to say anything."

"Hmm. I will. ”

Bai Pujia also said in a depressed tone:

"You will work hard after you graduate, and we will contact you when you are free."

"Okay, I will."

"Then I'll go to see the self-study first."

The last note of Bai Pujia is also hoarse.

After Qin Wafan said "um", he heard the sound of Bai Pujia walking in the corridor, she hung up the phone, and he took PHS into his arms.

Qin Wafan, who was standing in the middle of the playground, was like a wooden man, turning a blind eye to the lights under his feet, the classmates who came and went, and the irrelevant words related to him. No matter how strong the heart is, it can't accept this succession, coming and going, between hope and hopelessness and even despair.

If it was in the past, no matter what Pu Jia said, he could weave hope through his own strength again and again, but this time, he really couldn't. Because, she will go to that snowy distant place, with her lover, that will definitely be into marriage, and what awaits him can only be complete hopelessness - despair.

The hope of love between him and Bai Pujia is really on the edge of the cliff of despair, no matter how he thinks of it, there will be no way, unless he thinks through to the black endless abyss of pain at the bottom of the cliff, otherwise, he can only stop, turn around, and find his own sea and sky.

Under the intertwined street lamps, he didn't know that he had burst into tears. He didn't know how long he had been standing there as if he had been so numb. In the past, because of Bai Pujia's way of eating hot and sour cabbage and drinking spirits, it has also lost its effect on him at this moment.

He didn't know when, Bai Yu stood beside him, trying to take his hand and pull him back, but he didn't move, looking like he was going home. This is how Bai Yu later described it.

As a result, Bai Yu had no choice but to be like him, like a fool side by side, standing in this place where the light intertwined with the night.

It took him about two hours before he came to his senses, and he hugged Bai Yu and wept bitterly for half an hour, plus half an hour of hoarse, undulating howls.

Fortunately, the night is late but the people are not quiet, those dormitories are still full of people, walk by and see, turn their heads to look at the past, they all think that it is the senior students who are reluctant to graduate and separate and are in pain, in the dark, two single boys, together, are seen as a pair of inseparable college twilight lovers.

Qin Wafan never told Shang Chu about this.

He hopes that his boss will happily go to Zhejiang University, if he knows that Bai Pujia will find a boyfriend as soon as he graduates, and it is the destination of the great north, he believes that the boss will be very sad.

This kind of sadness, he has been hurt, and he doesn't want to have one more person to hurt.

During that week, he played Amu's "There Is a Love Called Letting Go" on a loop on his computer, and everyone consciously turned down the audio file of their computer.

On the second weekend, he proposed that everyone go to KTV together, and he had a treat.

For the last time, he sang the whole song "There Is a Love Called Letting Go" with a very accurate tone, and everyone listened to his song for two weeks with a solemn face, and Bai Yu was ready for him to cry.

Who knows, after singing, he just put the microphone down, and began to take the initiative to ask everyone what song they want to sing, and became a waiter who ordered songs for everyone.

Monk Bai Yu glanced at each other, then turned his gaze again, and said nothing.

This is also about to graduate, in addition to the emotional sadness that Qin Wafan pressed in his heart, everyone also has sorrow in their hearts.

So, the six boys, finally in this space where they don't need to close the emotional floodgates, roared loudly, bringing together the youth in their hearts that had been flying with the wind in the past four years into complex emotions about the unknown future.

Qin Wafan and Bai Pujia's love affair came to an end here, and with Qin Wafan's youth for nearly four years, he silently drew a painful dash with Bai Pujia's long journey - it was not over, but he was unable to continue to follow, so he could only leave it for the future.

Pu Jia, everything has to be fine.

This is Qin Wafan's deepest blessing to her silently in his heart when he sang that night.

Come back if it's really bad, and be sure to tell me!

This is Qin Wafan's inner advice to Bai Pujia after silently blessing in his heart when he sang that night, and he both hoped for this and didn't want to be like this.

The only photo of him and Bai Pujia. He had been to the seashore again, the boat, still silent, but it was very old.

He left a single photo there, and when he came back, he put the two photos, together with the single photo of her bachelor's uniform in Valentine's Poe that he had snatched when she graduated, into a brown paper envelope, just like the jewelry given by her mother's family when the girl got married, pressed to the bottom of the box.