Writing this, there is a sense of victory.

Because, this male protagonist Qin Wafan is not my ideal person.

When I went to college, we regarded the height of 175 as the standard of living, if it can't be reached, then the standard of life will be lowered, it can be seen that Qin Wafan, who is still two centimeters short of 170, is definitely not an ideal type - writing books for people who are not their favorites, it can be seen that at the beginning, it was a little melancholy - who doesn't want to write the best, the most perfect, the most ideal? What an exciting life it must be!

But he was a conquering man. With his code of conduct for any thing he values in life, the code of conduct for not abandoning, not giving up, and persevering in action for anyone he values, and his sincerity and love for his own life and the lives of others, he slowly conquers the things he values and the people he values!

In his persistent pursuit, he also grows and breaks through himself, but he is down-to-earth, not ambitious, but always looking at the starry sky.

Such a person, it is you, it is me, it is him, with his pragmatism and persistence, his life principles have been lived into the life spirit of him and his group, created a life that belongs to him, and continues to reshape his life, according to the appearance of the starry sky he imagined, in the communication with the star of Bai Pujia, constantly reshaping his own heart and reality of the dual life.

How can such a person not conquer our hearts and emotions?

In other words, such a person, in addition to his unsatisfactory height and not getting a scholarship in college, is a pragmatic idealist who bravely follows his heart, constantly explores life and soul, and continues to move forward with ideals in the responsibility and responsibility for the family, and in the resolution of contradictions in the reality of life.

Therefore, I don't know whether I have conquered him living in my words when I write this, or whether I have conquered him who has been carved and cut out by this text. Maybe they all - then say to each other.

The white pampas are the rising stars that awaken the rising sun when each of us is a teenager and begins to open the window to look into the distance, the ideal and feelings that give us the desire for light before the rising sun or in the dark night, the past of our youth, and the future that we want to continue to take care of. It is the blood vessels of the left atrium in the chest cavity that do not sink even if they are trapped in life, and will not be swept away and swallowed up by trivialities.

The purity and beauty of her youth, her emphasis on herself, her respect for others and emotions, her yearning for a higher life and the pursuit of truth after listening to the call of the distance, her decisive rejection of the trivialities and mediocrities in real life, without any delay or hesitation, does not live in the framework of people's evaluation of society, but purely lives in the ideals that she herself identifies but constantly pursues, with her own strength, her heart, soft and fragile, But in the process of never relying on anything, she has achieved a form of life that is not worldly utilitarian.

Probably, this is the reason why her bravery and purity made Qin Wafan go with her arms.

I suddenly remembered that when I was in college, I was actually a non-mainstream person with a bit of cynicism, looking at the people and things around me with the mentality of a spectator, but then I somehow, maybe I was shaped in the game between myself and society, or maybe I had such a seed, in short, I became a serious and upright person, yes, Banzheng, this is what a friend of mine said when describing her boyfriend, saying that I was like her female boyfriend. I laugh.

I believe that the so-called non-mainstream is the rebellious refusal to retreat in adolescence, and the so-called cynical spectator mentality is just an initial cognition of the various lives presented in front of one's eyes before seeing the dyeing power of the sauce jar of society when I was a teenager. Later, my seriousness was not entirely shaped by social culture, because I already had a life that loves philosophical meaning, and I also pursue philosophical meaning in life, so that sometimes my friends will jokingly call me a philosopher of life, of course, it is a joking title, and it is not really at that level, but at least let me see that I have such a character trait or thinking paradigm.

And the non-mainstream rebellious heart and cynical contemptive heart just mentioned are also a philosophical discussion of life.

Such habits of being's thinking and behavior will undoubtedly affect the choices and behaviors in my life, and will naturally affect and even create my life. Naturally, the original intention of my creation, the scenes that appeared in my mind during my creation, and the words that were typed out from it also faithfully and inevitably reflected the thoughts triggered by my philosophical life, and became a way for me to reflect and explore.

In everyone's opinion, it has become a work.

And in each work, at the beginning, the author is its master, whether it is knitting like a sweater, like carving a statue, like cutting an image, even cutting people with scenes, even flesh and blood, it is the master who starts with this. But the more I went on, the more I found that it and the characters and scenes in it have become the author's friends, partners, or front or back, left or right, deep and shallow, all kinds of communication, very equal, not all comfortable and comfortable, there are also awkward times, but in the end, you will find a comfortable state that both parties have reached a common comfort and move forward together.

Until it is completed, at this time, the words and sentences in the work are full of the author's emotions, states, thoughts, introspections, etc., as well as the bits and pieces of the author's creative journey with him. Or, behind the words, the breath of swimming between the lines, in the little starlight of the swimming breath, there is a kind of painstaking work, the painstaking work of the author, and the painstaking effort of wanting to inform the reader after the work itself is formed. This kind of hard work is also pleasant. It depends on who sees what they see, what they hear, what they think, and what they want to think about. Perhaps, these starlight hidden in the text will appear in different people, but there must be the same light in the eyes of different people. I hope it is an enlightenment, less and less boring, more and more pleasant, serene, just like the serene and pleasant enlightenment that I write.

Probably because I majored in history, I once told my students in class that history is very simple, for example, if you shoot a mosquito to death yesterday, that is your history, but if it bites you or not, the impact is different, and it is not enough to be in the history of your life. Therefore, in any of my works, whether it is the previous "Orphan in the Countryside" or the current "On the Tile House" or other different forms of works written in the future, I may inevitably have this kind of thinking habit of history professional, that is, I always want to use the series of characters' words and deeds and characters and events to carefully carve the changes and growth of the characters from the inside to the outside one by one from the cross-section and longitudinal section, so as to try to portray and show a certain relationship between the characters in the times, society, and life. or some kind of relationship graph.

In order to better understand and portray human nature, I used a little bit of the analysis of people's life that I just got started.

Just like, in "On the Tile House", there is a longitudinal growth history of Qin Wafan, Bai Pujia, Bai Yu and others, from college to society. There is also a relationship between them.

In short, my writing has become a tragic bearer of the personal and social values that I hope to achieve in the practice of the various fields I study, as well as the things that I suffer when I fail to achieve them ideally.

Of course, it will take a long time to really achieve it, and to achieve it artistically and in a brilliant way. It's so long that it's hard to estimate how long it will take. But the long optimism can happen in a sudden, like an epiphany. In this case, it is possible to accumulate thick and thin, and change from quantity to quality.

Therefore, this kind of encouragement makes me feel that I can run towards this ideal, because I also know that there are many realms in the realm of art and transcendence, and waiting for me to break through the realm, but please be diligent first and then be smart to enter the country, which is probably the most important thing.

I also have to admit that my writing style of "On the Tiled House" pays attention to the details of language, and many psychological descriptions, whenever possible, are expressed in dialogue as much as possible. The exploration and practice of this method was influenced by Wang Xiaobo's "Xu Sanguan Selling Blood". In my impression, Wang Xiaobo used dialogue to express many of his thoughts through dialogue between Xu Sanguan and the people around him.

I remember that I couldn't help writing reading notes at that time, probably saying that as soon as I read "Xu Sanguan Selling Blood", I knew that the person hidden behind the text liked Mr. Lu Xun, with similar sharpness, and also had his own unique frankness, and I could also see from the ideological brilliance of the dialogue of the characters that he himself was a person who followed human nature and pursued freedom.

Therefore, love it.

So, thanks with this.

Of course, different eras and different works express different eras, different writers, different levels, and of course, different gods. It's just that in the brilliance of my inspiration, there is that touch of thought, which comes from that person who is free, straightforward, enthusiastic and sharp. No matter how many you have not learned, it is estimated that you will not be able to learn it. Thank you again for this, the representative of the human expression.

And like me, I work hard, I am serious, but I don't force myself to get close - a free person always wants to express himself, otherwise, he will lose his soul and life, so what is the meaning of expression?

I would also like to thank my lovely editor in charge, Mousse, for maintaining a dialogue with me during this special Spring Festival, and forgiving me for missing the need to provide a synopsis and a short biography of the characters of "Orphan in the Country" again. I couldn't repay it, so I added an extra chapter of "On the Tile House" every day to secretly send thanks. Chatting with a little cute literary friend mentioned that I always forgot to read the QQ demand, she questioned why I survived to this day, and she was also very upset for my cute beauty editor teacher, saying that it was unbearable to be like me. But the fact is that I have been endured, which shows how cute and tolerant Mr. Mousse is! Probably, there shouldn't be many thick lines like me, otherwise, wouldn't they all be dazzling? …… Whew.

However, I also consciously supplemented the requirements in case I had to disconnect again...... Yes! Sorry! Respect!

I was also careless to my literary friends. I always think that my dedication to writing books, writing good books, and gradually writing books that everyone loves to read and are satisfied with is my first priority, and it is also my greatest favorite expression for my literary friends. Love, offer!

Suddenly remembered a long time ago, one of my prototypes said, can you modify a small detail for him, or someone who knows him will read it one day, and immediately know that it is him, he said that he wants my work to be famous, but he doesn't want him to be famous himself, haha, I promised to revise, and I also thought about changing it, but I forgot which chapter it was in, so I had to wait for the completion or when there was enough time to go back and find it, and then revise it. Record it first in case you forget.

After pouring out these words, it was too late to continue to talk about the alien love between Qin Wafan and Bai Pujia. Then it depends on tomorrow or when the mood comes, and then express it.

In the special Spring Festival, behind every number, there is a living world. I hope that all the good things in the world will come to every person and every family forever!

It's best to be well. Blessing..

Make an exception for a late bed. Scolding time, going too fast and too fast, not taking special care at all, more people who hate and love to treat it truthfully!