The Buddha said that if the relics survive all suffering, will piety be blessed? Who will go through my afflictions? Sitting on the bus back to the city with Liu Wei, I suddenly wanted to take her as a lifesaver, and wanted her to help me get out of the sea of suffering, I tentatively grabbed her arm, she didn't object, I gently leaned on her shoulder and narrowed my eyes.

I may have fallen asleep, and in my dream there was a small boat on the sparkling lake, and I sat on the boat with a woman, her back to me, her hands paddling in the water, and I paddled the oars, and it was quietly floating on the lake. At this moment of quiet and peaceful beauty, I feel very happy, but who is the woman who is boating with me, I don't know, I am waiting for her to turn back, when she turns around, I see her face, it is Xu Yang, I woke up for a while, how could it be her?

Liu Wei was startled when she saw me sleeping, and touched me, I was a little embarrassed. It just so happened that the bus also arrived, and we got off together. The provincial library is a transit station, she to the south, I to the north, watching her leave, I stood on the side of the road and smoked a cigarette, took a photo of my own shadow reflected on the road, changed it to my QQ number avatar, and then returned to the economy and trade, and continued to be a student for a day and hit the clock for a day.

An unburned cigarette

An unfinished bottle of wine

One bed, two quilts

One man and two lines of tears

No one can expect to get what they want from others

Behind indulgence is never the addiction and pain of drugs

A sentence of affection and forbearance

A pair of misty eyes

A heart that craves to have

Someone you can't read

No one can happen to meet a partner who understands themselves

How much to look for before you can rely on your body covered in bruises

Hugging tightly

I can't grasp the heart

on both sides

Fate is not confused

I called Yuan Jie and consulted about signing up for the army, and looked to see if there were many people in the school who chose to join the army.

Yuan Jie told me that there are not many people, and this conscription requirement is also relatively strict, first you have to pass the physical examination, and then you have to have a political examination or something, not to say that it is quite appropriate. I told her I wanted to be a soldier.

Yuan Jie was surprised, didn't know what I thought, and asked me if there was something wrong. I told her that no, I just thought I wanted to be a soldier, I thought about being a soldier when I was in college, but I didn't think about it at the time, and now I want to try it when I have the opportunity.

"Alright then, I respect your choice. You can come to me when you have time. Yuan Jie told me.

"Okay, I'm sure I'll have to go to you, or I don't know how to sign up."

For the next few days, I went to the playground next to the dormitory building every night to run five laps to try to look fit and fit for a good check-up. When I run on the playground, I will still think of Xiao Dong, the first time I met her, Gao Wei, and the only two walks with her, of course, I have no expectations, and I will no longer think of meeting a beautiful woman on the playground, I think I have decided, so let's be free.

After filling out the spring conscription registration form, the school organized a unified physical examination, and many people were brushed down because of unqualified indicators, but fortunately I passed. Then there is the political examination, the school issued the form of the political examination, and you need to go back to the township and police station where the household registration is located to fill in and seal. This just gave me a few days off to go home and visit my family.

Before going home, I asked Xiao Na, Fan Xiaobo and Huzi to eat in the city together, and let Huzi find a place, just behind his unit, Hu's big plate chicken, which is considered a delicacy in Xinjiang, there are many chain stores in the city, Liu Wei also likes to eat, I have been to her twice, but now Liu Wei is working in Beijing.

I told them about going to the army, and they thought I was joking, but I told them again in a serious way, and they believed me. I told them that after this meal, I was going back to my hometown to get a political trial, so we both drank a lot of alcohol during this meal.

"What do you think, you will graduate in one year, why are you going to join the army?" Cortana didn't understand what I was thinking.

"yes, what's going on?" Fan Xiaobo thought I was joking. I didn't really talk to him about it.

Huzi didn't say anything, he felt that I had already made a decision, and it should be difficult to change.

I smiled and said to them: "I didn't think much about it, I just think that it should be good to be a soldier, and now the policy is good, I can go to graduate school when I come back, I can choose to change jobs to join the job, and I will be paid a salary when I become a soldier, which is very good." I wanted to be a soldier when I wasn't in college. ”

"Then how old are you, and how old are you after being a soldier?" Cortana said.

"It's okay, three years will pass quickly, and when I finish serving as a soldier, you will both work for two years, and then I will come back to you to eat and drink."

"You're just going to be foolish, where are you going to be a soldier?" Huzi also asked me.

"Go to Lanzhou and be a communications soldier, I didn't say what the specific place is." I told the three of them, "I'll divide the specific places when I get it, and I'll call you when I know it." ”

"Okay, this time you can eat authentic Lanzhou ramen." Huzi said.

"Yes, yes, I think I should let you go, you know Lanzhou ramen all day long." I told Huzi that no matter where he goes, when he arrives at the restaurant, he asks him what he wants to eat, Lanzhou ramen forever.

When I returned to school, Fan Xiaobo and I went back to the dormitory, and I didn't say anything when we looked at Cortana's very reluctant eyes. She grabbed me and asked me, "When are you going home?" I'll send you. ”

"No need, I'll pack my things and go back tomorrow." I told her.

"No, I'll send you tomorrow, if you don't tell me, you'll break off the relationship." Cortana said stubbornly.

"Okay, okay, I'll call you tomorrow." I couldn't screw her, so I told her.

When I left the next day, Fan Xiaobo asked me if I wanted to tell Xiao Na, and I said no, I didn't want to go home and didn't come back, so I took a bag and took the car to the train station, I had to take the train to Beijing, and then reverse back to Jintan.

Getting on the bus, I called Cortana, she scolded me, I heard her cry, but I didn't expect her to react so much, I told her that I didn't come back, not like this, she hung up the phone and didn't pay attention to me.

In fact, I like to walk alone on the streets of Beijing, to feel the busyness, the warmth and ruthlessness.

The cold wind woke me up, and I was still on my way home.

No one can escape the responsibility of life, my parents said that I am still like a child, I don't get up in the morning, I don't sleep at night, I really want to be a child all the time, and I have candy to eat every day. I told my parents that I wanted to be a soldier, but they didn't object, they just said that they would follow the road by themselves, and if they chose, they would stick to it, and they didn't object to my decision.

Look at the many people around me who have worked, some are married, and there is a sigh for a while. I got all the political examination forms that needed to be filled out, went out of the police station, and passed by the high school when I was in school, the big willow trees on the campus were still there, the exterior wall of the third floor of the high school was freshly painted, and the bell for class was still the same tune, but there was no longer our once immature figure in the whole campus.

Unconsciously, I embarked on the road to Yang's house, looking forward to meeting her, even if it was just to see her from afar. I was also afraid to meet her, afraid to not know what to say when I saw her, afraid to know that she was a wife and a mother.

I wandered aimlessly, echoing Eason Chan's song in my ears, the song said: "I came to your city, walked the road when you came, imagined the days without me, how lonely you were, holding the photo you gave, the familiar street, but without your picture, we can't go back to that day, will you suddenly appear, in the coffee shop on the corner, I will wave with a smile, sit and chat with you, how I want to meet you, see how you have changed recently, no longer to say that it was just a greeting in the past, to say a word to you, Just to say, long time no see. ”

I think if I see the ocean, even if I have a thousand words, I can only say one word, and I haven't seen you for a long time.