Now my life should be in a state of self-chaos, just going to class, eating, sleeping, and occasionally surfing the Internet every day, what else? Think about the only few things you can do, maybe this is college life, if you don't have any hobbies, you can die idle. In fact, everyone understands that a student should attend class well and hit the bell with peace of mind. I'm still afraid, afraid of a weekend alone, afraid of waking up in the dark at night, afraid of not knowing how to spend a lot of time. Sometimes when I go to the Internet, I just sit in front of the screen and stare blankly. Different information, different people have broken into your world, your life, and left quietly, one by one, passers-by, fleeting in my life.

Night and day naturally still have to come as scheduled, and the days still have to follow his flow, according to the laws of his own rolling, and then the next day can start from the same place accurately, and the cycle repeats. I started to like to read books, read books that had nothing to do with studying, and look at other people's stories to get a feel for life. I fantasize that I can have the kind of aesthetic love like Jin Ha Ren in "Magnolia Blossom" to come to me, to have a beautiful home, to find a good future for myself, but what a slim concept the future is, fantasy is fantasy after all, and dreams will always wake up.

Yang still often intrudes into my dreams in the middle of the night, but her appearance is a little blurry, and it is no longer unforgettable. I think time is really a good medicine that is not bitter, so I chose to forget, let her pass, and everything will flow away in the long river of time. I still think of Yang occasionally, but my heart is no longer so painful, I can face it with a normal heart, think about Yang and her him who is far away now, maybe I also live a happy life. I was helpless, but I sincerely blessed them. Because everyone has the right to choose happiness, not to mention that loving someone is to make her happy. I won't break her wings to fly.

It's also said that there has been no news of foreign news for a long time, and it's really like disappearing. There is no message in QQ, no email in the mailbox, no text message on the phone, everything is silent. I think I still don't bother her life, now that we have separated, I have said that I don't love anymore, when she thinks of me as a person, I think she will contact me, because she can find me at any time, I said that I will always use this number, I will always wait, wait for her call, wait for her to come back, wait for those beautiful dreams to come true one by one, because I really still love. But in fact, until now, the dreams have been shattered one by one. I'm like a lamp, dim and lonely, but my heart is burning there, I don't know if she will come back, if there will really be a miracle, but I think I will always use this phone number, this is the most direct and fastest way to find me.

Xiao Dong sent me a text message saying that she was going to Kunming for a few days and wanted to see me before leaving. I said yes and made an appointment to go to her daily rental house together.

The weather was nice and the sun was shining in the house very mildly. I think if this kind of life is really true, it is also very pleasant to be able to clean up the room and drink a cup of tea with my loved one on a sunny and warm afternoon. Xiao Dong said that he also yearned. I asked her why she went to Kunming and how many days she was going to go. She said that because of some things at home, she would probably go for more than ten days. I didn't ask anything more, and then lay on the bed gasping for air, and she lay beside me, with a faint fragrance.

Xiao Dong likes perfume very much, often change different brands, she told me that this time the use of pure water, the brand is Kenzo, light fragrance, there is a very elegant feeling, like a deep pool after the waterfall falls down, quiet but hidden surging, like a clear stream of water murmuring, but also has a long history. I rarely pay attention to her eyes, and my gaze is always drawn to her body first, and then my gaze wanders away. Slender waist and slender legs. But her eyes are also extraordinarily bright and bright, although they are a little small, but they are so set on her delicate face, which is even more charming. Behind the brightness in her eyes, there is always something that is difficult to fathom, which seems to be very deep in the city, which makes people feel very scheming. Sometimes I don't like to look into her eyes, as if everything is too revealing and naked in front of her.

When Xiao Dong left, I was in class, and I wanted to send her, so I secretly ran out of the back of the classroom, and the big classes of economics and trade are generally in the ladder classroom, with several classes in a major, and one hundred and ten people go together, so the teacher is not how to manage it, and generally can't manage it. The most classic one is when we first came to our professional small class, the teacher called Wang Yanzhen by name, he replied, the teacher was very surprised, because from the name is also a girl's name, the answer is a boy, including those of us who have not seen Wang Yanzhen himself are also confused. The teacher didn't believe it, so he asked him to stand up, but he still didn't believe it, and in the end he had no choice but to take out his ID card. This has also become a joke when we talked about Wang Yanzhen in college, a Zhangjiakou man with a long woman's name.

We were a group of four, walking towards the bus stop, and the other two were her roommates. Xiao Dong wore very professional clothes, looking mature and steady, and suddenly felt that the distance between us was so far, so obvious, and cold. She didn't say anything on the way, but just told her to pay attention to safety and health on the road, and to call me if she had something. When I arrived at the platform, there were not many people, and Xiao Dong said goodbye to me. We hugged each other, just looked at each other, and then I told her to get over there and send a message back to say she was safe.

Xiao Dong nodded and told me that she didn't bring Shijiazhuang's phone, because if someone here was looking for a house to live in, it would be good to use that phone to contact business. She said she would get a new number, and she told me.

The car is coming. She just left, to Kunming, a city as beautiful as spring.

Xiao Dong is not here, and there seems to be a lot of things missing in life. I continued to attend classes every day, eat, and complete the things arranged in the class schedule step by step, and went to participate in activities in the student union, but my heart was still bored and empty. will unconsciously call Xiao Dong's phone, knowing that Xiao Dong didn't bring it, but he still can't help it. Time began to be reversed, I went to sleep during the day and went to the Internet café at night, and after three days in a row, when my body began to feel unwell, I suddenly realized that what I was doing was really a bit masochistic.

It's more idle on weekends.,I used to go to the weekend of foreign translation.,Because the things of the first few days are so inferior.,I didn't plan to go over.,After a while, everyone forgot to play in the past.。 As soon as there was no arrangement, I realized that the circle I didn't want to jump out of was so small. Just a few narrow dots, wear it, one line, and the others are gone. The roommates are not as close as they were when they first came to report, they eat, drink and have fun together, everyone is busy with their own things, some will not return home at night, some will not see each other for a few days, and they seem to be indifferent to each other. Everyone is a scripture, a scripture that few people can read. This reminds me of a story that Gu Lao Mao told me, about his dormitory.

Gu Lao Mao is also my brother, and the road to study is more bumpy and tortuous, of course, the main reason is that he is not good at studying. After a year of college in Chengde, he transferred to Shijiazhuang to attend a railway school, because his uncle was from the Ministry of Railways. Gu Laomao's dormitory and unit are a model, four bedrooms and one living room, big enough, for twenty-one people, and a small field in the living room. Household appliances are basically complete, maybe everyone is in a wild way to go to college, I want to convene these 20 people to a meeting, how difficult it is to convey the spirit of the teacher, so their meetings are often difficult to get together, but Chairman Mao said that the working people are always the smartest.

Gu Lao Mao said, the head of my house is a high-ranking person, and he posted a piece of paper on a wall in my house, and wrote: A love action movie will be played in the house at 7 o'clock on Tuesday night, which is super exciting. Welcome roommates to watch the game.

Tuesday's situation. More than 20 people, all took out their own small horses, and the four of them sat in front of the TV in the living room in five rows, all looking at what they wanted to wear. Gu Lao smiled at the risk of his house, stood in front of everyone and began to convey the spirit of the teacher's meeting, and the communication was completed. began to show the film, silent and serious. It's a true story.

What happened to the current college students?

Xiao Dong is not here, I am alone, and there is no rule in life. I would go to the library and fantasize about meeting a quiet girl like on TV, and then find a book that seemed literary and artistic, sit quietly next to her, look at the book, peek at her, but unfortunately I went so many times, and I didn't meet any of them, so I had to take a lot of books back to the dormitory, and then read them one by one, and read them one by one, and then read it in one breath if I could attract me, and then sleep happily, and throw it aside if it was not interesting.

On Wednesday, Wei Lao Er called me and asked me why I didn't go over last weekend, and I said, "I haven't lost my anger yet, the more I think about it, the more angry I become, I can't get over, it's too embarrassing." ”

Wei Lao Er said: "Okay, why don't I clean him up again?" ”

"I just want to beat that kid up, but looking at his honest appearance, we can't meet him in general."

"Okay, then don't grind, I'll take care of that kid and come over for a drink another day." Wei Lao Er said quietly.

I said, "Okay." ”

On the weekend, Wei Lao Er called me over for a drink, saying that someone had a treat. I agreed, thinking that I would have nothing to do at school by myself. When I arrived at the foreign translator, there was always a strange feeling when I walked in the square and empty campus, looking at the familiar faces that used to be so many familiar faces, and now I just said hello and walked away, I think I really don't belong to this place anymore, I don't belong to the foreign translator anymore. I only belong to Wei Lao Er, Yuan Erye, these people are in the circle of foreign translation, and they will be lost when they leave. No matter how glorious and sad I used to be on this land, looking at the trees I planted with my own hands, looking at the basketball court I painted with my own hands, looking at my classroom, looking at the windows of the former dormitory, I really don't belong to this land anymore.