At the end of the day, it became that as long as I was a young man, no one wanted to talk to me. At first, I didn't understand, but then Jingxin told me that because everyone wants to have a child, and those who have given birth want to have a second child. And my move may lead to the termination of everyone's maternity leave in the future if there is a shortage of personnel. Moreover, Liu Chuxi told everyone that she kindly reminded me, but I was very angry with her, and said that I had no lower limit for leading the leader.

Originally, after depression, I had a very low sense of existence and rarely talked to people. Now he was directly isolated. Although there is still Jingxin, the days of being isolated are really uncomfortable. This time, it made me feel that life was difficult.

There is a large terrace outside the operating room, which is said to be a terrace, but it is actually a place where the fresh air machine is placed. Every time I was unhappy, I hid there alone, looking at the cars passing back and forth in the hospital, patients, feeling the impermanence of the world and wanting to drive. But this time, I don't know how many times I sat on the terrace to see the passing cars, but I still couldn't get over it.

I always tell myself that it's good to have a clear conscience and not to think about what others say about you. But when you go into the crowd, the crowd disperses because of your presence; When the original lively small talk, because your passing by came to an abrupt end, I don't think you could do it without looking, not thinking, not listening.

I want to tell Lin Jia about such a sad emotion, but after thinking about it, how can I solve the problem by telling Lin Jia? He came to have surgery and quarreled with everyone on Mai Mang? Or let Jing Xin because I am also the enemy of the general practice? These are unrealistic ideas. I didn't know who to talk to, and I didn't know how to talk to me. I was worried that everyone would get busy due to the lack of manpower, so I reluctantly agreed. But you can't see it.

With this bad emotion, I had insomnia. On sleepless nights, I still sit on the windowsill, watching the stars, watching the traffic, the sanitation workers who work hard in the morning, and the breakfast vendors. Looking down at the 20th floor, people who are small think of ants. Does God look at us like ants, no, but dust?

This state of affairs lasted for almost a week. Working during the day, taking care of the children at night, and facing insomnia. I started to get irritable because of insomnia. I still don't have anyone to talk to, I haven't told Jingxin that I'm insomnia, I'm still sad in my heart. I didn't tell Lin Jia that I was starting to be isolated, and the whole person became anxious because of this incident. I think I have a way to get myself adjusted.

So, in the afternoon, I slapped my head with one hand and took out ibuprofen sustained-release capsules and metoprolol tablets from the medicine cabinet with the other hand trembling. As I was about to swallow it, I heard the little cream in the room crying because I wasn't there. I hesitated, I don't know how long it will take for metoprolol to be metabolized, and I don't know if it will be metabolized. So, holding back the pain, I put the medicine back in the cupboard. That's right, I still have to breastfeed, the little cream is still small, I can't let the child be unable to breastfeed because of me.

When I returned to the room, I sent the little cream to my mother-in-law's room, "Mom, can you take care of the little cream for me this noon?" ”。 My mother-in-law, who heard my voice, quickly got up from the bed, "Xia Fei, you don't look very good, black and yellow." ”

"It's okay Mom. I have a little headache, maybe my hair didn't dry after taking a shower after work, I have a cold, I'm chilling all over now, I'm afraid that I will catch a cold and infect Little Cream, can you help me take care of it at noon?" Yes, go and rest, your face is really ugly. Is there any medicine? Do you need me to call Lin Jia? "Although my mother-in-law doesn't like me very much on weekdays, she is still willing to help me when she sees me sick, which is a painkiller for me who is experiencing isolation, and I gratefully put the little cream in my mother-in-law's house and go back to the house.

Sitting at the dresser, looking at my haggard self in the mirror, tears fell from my eyes, and I was afraid that I would cry too loudly and reach my mother-in-law's room. So he quickly took a pillow and pressed it on his face, so he dared to cry out all the grievances of the past few days. I still don't understand why people think of me like this, I thought I had thought about everyone, but in the end I was isolated.

When I was tired of crying, I went back to bed, I didn't care about taking off my clothes, I lay down and covered my head, I closed my eyes, my eyes were sore, my body was tired, and my headache all hit me in an instant, and in an instant, my mind was spinning, and although I closed my eyes, I still felt that I could see the rotating object in the dark, and then I finally used all my strength to fall asleep.