Before the rental of the bungalow expired, a few of us got drunk in the bungalow again, because I told them that I broke up with Xiao Dong and became a loner again. They counted me down for a while, saying that I didn't understand the pity and cherishing the jade, and said that Xiao Dong was as good as he could, but they didn't understand, I couldn't afford to love anymore, and I had no qualifications to ask Xiao Dong to give up the marriage contract and wait for me in Shijiazhuang for two years, not to mention that I didn't know what I was going to do when I graduated in the future, and where I would go. Then I had to drink. Halfway through the drink, we called Zhu Desan to see what he was doing.

"Zhu Desan, have you finished handling the affairs of your school, why are you still staying in Beijing after you graduate? You can't get into the tutorial class here, huh? I asked him with the strength of the wine.

"Guess!" Zhu Desan replied to me with a grin.

"I guess your sister, guess, if you go to the tutorial class, I'll let someone leave a place for you, and you won't pull JB." What I particularly dislike about Zhu Desan is that he never says something happily, either for you to guess, or he is full of nonsense every day, and you don't know what he is doing every day, I don't know what he thinks.

"Okay, I'll take care of the matter at hand." Zhu Desan's tone of voice did not look soft at all.

"What else are you dealing with, how long have you been graduating?" I asked.

"It's a little trifle, why don't you beg me?" Zhu Desan can't change his problem of speaking.

"Do you like to come, Wei Lao Er and a few of them are going to move, you can come over to help when the time comes." I instructed Zhu Desan to say.

"Oh, okay, I'll get over then." Zhu Desan said.

Second Master Yuan will call me over, and then say to Zhu Desan, "When are you coming to class?" Are you staying with us? Then what kind of house do you want to live in, we will choose for you. "I guess Second Master Yuan wants to pull Zhu Desan into the gang.

"Well, I'll have to live with a few of you, or I'll be bored." Zhu Desan said.

"Okay, then we've chosen to tell you, you'll pay half of the rental money!" Yuan Erye is going to rip off the bamboo.

"Okay, I'll go out, then you can choose." Zhu Desan is the most obedient to Yuan Erye, because Yuan Erye is more reasonable than any of us, and Brother Gongzi has a big temper, don't look at Zhu Desan is also the son of an official eunuch, compared to Yuan Erye, he is a little less arrogant.

After that, Zhu Desan came to Shijiazhuang, and followed Yuan Erye and a few of them to choose a three-bedroom house in the Binhe New Town Community of Dongwuli New Village next to the foreign translation. I also went to see, the floor is not high, on the fourth floor, the simple house, there are only beds and a few simple pieces of furniture, we made do with the purchase of TV and induction cooker, basically can watch TV, can play mahjong, can cook instant noodles is almost. At this point, Wei Laoer, Yuan Erye, Ren Hongyun and Zhu Desan began to live together without shame again.

I am on the economic and trade Wuqi Road, and the East Wulizhuang is located in the northernmost and southernmost parts of Shijiazhuang City, if you run from the economy and trade to the place where they live, take the bus to reverse and walk for more than half a day, generally if I go, are in the school to see if you can mix the school bus between the schools, this school bus was originally the teacher sitting, because only the teacher needs to walk between the branches to teach students, and then we manage the campus can not accommodate so many people, there are a lot of students also come to the headquarters, As a result, some students need to go to the headquarters of the management to report their work or get some books and materials, which directly leads to the fact that the school buses in the north and south campuses are sometimes full, and the teachers do not have seats. Therefore, in order to facilitate the teachers, the school has strengthened the management, which makes me want to go to the foreign translator, so I can only lower my head and mix in the car, which makes me go to the foreign translator a lot less.

Later, I learned that the real reason why Zhu Desan came to Shijiazhuang was that he came to accompany him. Because when he was in college, he talked about a girlfriend in Luquan District, Shijiazhuang, named Xie Ruoxin. She also signed up for a language tutoring class, and Zhu Desan accompanied her to attend a tutoring class in Shijiazhuang, and he himself was ready to take a graduate student or go abroad. Both of these paths are inseparable from the course of language. When he was fine, except for messing with Ren Hongyun in Dongwulizhuang, he was accompanying Xie Ruoxin to class. The days are also regular, and I also went to Luquan Xie Ruoxin's house a few times in the middle, which can be regarded as meeting my parents.

It is estimated that Xie Ruoxin's parents should agree with Zhu Desan and their daughter, otherwise Zhu Desan would not be able to accompany him so carefully, I didn't see this Xie Ruoxin, when I had time to go to the foreign translator's side, either Zhu Desan was not there, or they went out to class, which was perfectly staggered. Listening to Yuan Erye and Wei Laoer, this girl is very beautiful, relatively quiet, quite tall, and a good match for Zhu Desan. It's just that in the end, the two of them didn't get together, because Xie Ruoxin went abroad and went to France, and Zhu Desan's going abroad was not done, so he could only stay in China and take a two-year undergraduate at his original school in Beijing, which was a retreat. This made Zhu Desan very helpless, and after paying so much affection, he ended up fruitless again. A few of us can only accompany him to drink, play cards, and play games, but the main escort should be regarded as Ren Hongyun, not only to play with Zhu Desan, but also to learn Zhu Desan, and what to talk and do is the same as Zhu Desan, as soon as you ask what is the guess, it seems to have become Zhu Desan's godson.

I feel like I'm so unproductive right now. I always dream about people at night who shouldn't be dreaming about them, and then I wake up early, and I don't have the heart to sleep. He would look at the roof of the dormitory in a daze, think about his dreams and the people he dreamed of in his dreams, and then put an insurmountable shackle on himself and drown himself in it. Life is supposed to have its own color, why am I still entangled in some things, some people, and can't let go? I want to find a home for my feelings, but the impossibility of looking forward to is analyzing the reasons over and over again in my mind, analyzing the future, and analyzing the hazy sadness after all the pain. I put myself in this whirlpool of emotions and swirled with the dream. It's as if I've always been a mortal, can't I be detached?

In the past, if the night, I would wake up and tell the person I missed, but now I still miss it, but I can't tell it anymore, I put myself on the edge of the cliff, and I don't want to cause any trouble to others, just solve it myself, everyone will yearn for beautiful things, but I won't get it if I don't have the strength.

I found a lot of things for myself to do, tried to make some new friends, tried to seal my heart, but I still can't forget.

This damn love is everywhere.

What should I do?

Bored in the dormitory, I logged on to a fortune-telling website, and after entering my birthday, the system gave me this hint:

Basic character: kind-hearted, kind-hearted, strong sense of justice, always support the weak at critical moments, and oppose the powerful. Compassionate, often putting himself in the shoes of others, magnanimous. Be kind to others, so much so that you have become a slave to this kindness. Longing for loyalty. The path of life is often accompanied by sadness and melancholy.

Motivation: Feelings.

Love traits: Although you long for eternal love, you will always tell each other that when you are not in love, you can leave at any time.

Love Story: I'm not wordy and picky at all, really! If you know how to clean yourself and love yourself......

Affection: full of romantic love.

Ideal Lover: You are an ambitious and stable intellectual, so you will not be noticed by the opposite sex who is unrealistic and has no wisdom. Only pragmatic, calm, and down-to-earth people are qualified to be your lover.

Innocence index: ☆☆☆☆

Virgo, because of their cleanliness for love and fear of being hurt, is calm on the surface, but ready to move at the bottom of their hearts. It's generally recognized that the degree of innocence is very high.,In fact, it likes to discharge everywhere.,Maintain a good relationship with everyone.,But the relationship is very long-lasting.。

Charm: Seemingly gentle but resolute personality, chastity and intelligence with a high degree of artistic appreciation, so that the charm is natural, coupled with its willingness to learn, it can be enhanced by the efforts of the day after tomorrow.

This website is very comprehensive, I took a good look at it seriously, the analysis of the website, let me gradually question myself, and nodded with great certainty and said, well, this website is really accurate, this is me.

The website also says that I am a person who likes to observe and think, has a critical spirit, has a strong desire to learn, is good at digging into people's psychology and exploring the essence of things, and sometimes only pays attention to details and ignores the overall situation. You should mingle more with your classmates to avoid loneliness and the growth of a suppressed sexual psychology. I should have a deep understanding of this, every time I do an activity with my classmates in the student union, I am full of energy, and as soon as I am free, I will burst with negative emotions. Moreover, I also analyzed that people like me do not like to use their talents in independent careers, but prefer to work as assistants next to experts, professors or leaders, so the benefits received are generally not commensurate with the hard work paid. This may be more appropriate, sometimes the pay is not proportional to the return.

At the end of the day,

It's loneliness,

Poisoned me deeply.

At Christmas 2005, Wei Lao Er thought that I was bored, so he called me to go to Dongwulizhuang for Christmas, just to share the table mahjong with a few of them, or play poker or something, in fact, a few of them are also enough, I think this is to let me go to their side to change my mood. I also got better, but I felt that I couldn't be looked down upon by a few of them, so I went to the foreign translator alone, and it was not interesting to eat and drink with a group of big men, so I sent a text message to Zhu Boyan with the attitude of trying it out: "Is there any arrangement for Christmas?" If not, let's spend Christmas together, shall we? ”