044. Let yourself go

After Concubine Qing took over the matter, she also specially asked the people in her palace to take a look at the Min Lake, and the people who came back said that the stone had indeed slipped off, and she didn't dare to get close to the moss from a distance.

There are a lot of fish in Min Lake, and it is also interesting to feed and feed at night.

I can't feed it now.

The matter of the palace banquet has been finalized a long time ago, and now the prime minister has returned to Beijing, shocked to hear the bad news of the queen, and has not even opened the door of the prime minister's mansion, and then has many disputes with King Jing, and is recuperating in the mansion.

Qi Ying wanted to take advantage of this palace banquet to hold a reception banquet for Jiang Ying, and by the way, let Qi Dao also enter the palace to accompany the Queen Mother, and ease the gap between Jiang Ying.

I was afraid that Jiang Ying would not come, I was afraid that she would feel that there was trouble between the concubines, and there was no one she wanted to see during the banquet, so I asked her what she meant early, who knew that Jiang Ying actually agreed happily, saying that she would definitely attend on time at the banquet in the Winter Palace, which greatly surprised Qi Ying's expectations.

It didn't take much effort, she was willing to come.

Qi Dao, who knew that Jiang Yu would go to the palace banquet, stood in the courtyard for a long time, he stared at the high wall in front of him, knowing that outside this high wall, Jiang Yu was located, as long as he walked out of the door to the opposite side, no one dared to stop him.

Although he broke his leg that day, he also sobered up Qi Dao a lot, and he carried the black pot that was rumored on his back, and he was originally going to find Jiang Yu to settle accounts.

But every time I returned to her yard wall and stood still in the past few days, I could smell the smell of boiling medicine.

The nobleman in the palace said that Jiang Yu was sick, and Qi Dao froze in place, obviously it was just a wall, but he suddenly lost the courage to hold her accountable.

Later, he didn't even dare to go to the opposite wall, so he could only stand in the courtyard of his mansion, and he couldn't smell the medicine, but he was even more flustered.

Why is it sick?

Why not?

What is the disease? Okay? Can it still be cured?

It's all questions, but I don't know in what capacity I can ask, when did we become so estranged from each other? Probably from. Jiang Nian died at that time.

Memories came flooding back to me, flashing for a moment before being forcibly stopped.

Fortunately, in two days, he could meet in the palace, Qi Dao raised his hand irritably and rubbed his eyebrows, and after taking a long breath, he turned around and left the wall.

When that time comes, talk to her again.

At this time, in the Mei Xi Palace, the silver carbon was warmly burned again, a good day is unavoidable, and now the day is also gray, Jiang Wan has to read a book by the window, turned two pages, and raised her eyes to look at Pinzhu who was standing beside Jingyue and was a little uncomfortable.

On the day Qi Ying came to eat dumplings, Jiang Wan asked Jingyue to let Pinzhu out, her body was sore, and she was helping in the back kitchen that day, but she didn't come closer.

Today, I stood in the house again and waited, and Jingyue guarded it, no matter how I thought about it, it was wrong.

The person in front of her was still her familiar face, but what she could say, what she did, what she liked to eat, and her habits of life had completely become unfamiliar.

Song Yujiao doesn't read so quietly, and she doesn't like to eat dumplings, her eyes are not so resolute and cold, and her tone of voice is not so soft but full of undoubted coercion.

Something has changed, but Pinzhu has thought about it for so many days, and he can't figure out when an accident happened that made Song Yujiao what she is now.

Standing here now, being looked at by Jiang Wan, Pinzhu felt a little cold on his body, and even trembled a little in his heart.

"What are you doing standing that far away?" Jiang Wan chuckled at Pinzhu.

She opened her mouth to speak, and Jingyue also looked back at Pinzhu, and stretched out her hand to let herself switch places with her.

Pinzhu was a little weak-hearted, and didn't dare to look at Jiang Wan more, with the experience of being instantly suppressed by Jingyue and Shuncai before, and didn't dare to talk to Jiang Wan like before, he was at a loss for a while, so he could only shout in a low voice: "Princess." ”

Jing Yue corrected on the side: "It's Concubine Jingniang." ”

Pin Zhu pursed her lips, lowered her eyes and nodded, Jing Yue said again: "Niang Niang was so bad when she was in Dongshu in the past?" is so cold, Imperial Doctor Yin came to recuperate, but it can't be completely cured. ”

After listening to Jingyue's words, Pinzhu suddenly raised his eyes and glanced at Jiang Wan, seeing that Jiang Wan didn't react, and after he had already flipped through the book in his hand again, he hurriedly restrained his expression: "Yes, Niangniang's physique is special, Taiyi. But what else is there to say? ”

Jingyue took in Pinzhu's reaction, and deliberately paused for two seconds before shaking her head: "I didn't say anything, I just said that I had to raise it slowly." ”

After listening to Jingyue's words, Pinzhu's stiff shoulders loosened a little.

It seems that Song Yujiao doesn't completely trust the aunt in front of her, at least she doesn't dare to talk nonsense about Dongshu's affairs, and she doesn't dare to talk nonsense about her own affairs, so it seems that Song Yujiao should have had nowhere to vent her anger before, and no one paid attention to her when she was in Dongshu, so she insisted on finding a prestigious aunt to accompany her when she arrived in Dajin.

At that time, Song Yujiao did not scold people angrily, she should also know the rules of the Great Jin Palace, and knew that Jingyue would listen to her as the master, so she took the opportunity to have a seizure and wanted to make herself respect her.

Although it is still not clear how Song Yujiao knew these things, but thinking about it like this, the matter has also been explained, and now that he has called himself back to serve by his side, he also knows his identity as the princess of Dongshu.

Thinking of this, Pin Zhu finally suppressed Fang Cai's uncomfortable feeling a lot, stood beside Jiang Wan and unconsciously straightened his chest, and exhaled a little turbidity.

After hearing this slight and relaxed voice, Jiang Wan nodded at the teacup in front of her without raising her head: "The tea is cold." ”

She hadn't waited for several days, and Pinzhu's movements couldn't keep up with the reaction in her head, so even if she stood closer than Jingyue, Jingyue still grabbed the teacup first.

"The slave maid is going to change the cup of hot for the mother." After Jing Yue finished speaking, she turned around and retreated.

There were only two people left in the room, Pinzhu glanced at the empty behind him with a slight sideways face, and after a moment of silence, he stepped forward and said: "The princess is right that she didn't tell the palace people of Dajin about Dongshu, there is a lot of involvement here, even if the princess is angry with a slave and maid, she doesn't want to think about the queen, she should think about her body and think about Dongshu." ”

This girl, even after being punished, is still so self-righteous, it can be seen that when she was in Dongshu, she used this kind of educational tone to talk to Song Yujiao and said that she was used to it, and the dog couldn't change her eating.

Jiang Wan raised her eyes to look at her and chuckled, "I naturally know." ”

Hearing Jiang Wan's tone softened a lot, Pinzhu was still a little apprehensive in his heart, but now he also put his mind at ease: "Don't resent the queen mother, the princess is also for the good of the princess, and she has no choice but to become like this." ”

Is it the Empress of Dongshu?

Jiang Wan still looked at Pinzhu without changing her face: "I know." ”

It's good to know.

Pinzhu finally breathed a sigh of relief and brought two smiles: "I haven't been with the princess these days, I don't know how the princess got the favor of the emperor?" ”

Song Yujiao married so reluctantly, why did she suddenly change her temperament, not to mention, and suddenly she was willing to get close to the emperor and get this first favor?

Jiang Wan didn't avoid her gaze at all: "Xuan Jin is in your hands, isn't it?" And.. I want to live. ”

The first half of the sentence was said for Song Yujiao.

The second half of the sentence was Jiang Wan's thoughts.

After listening to Jiang Wan's answer, Pinzhu's last doubts were dispelled.

Yes, as long as there is the 'handle' of Xuan Jin Gongzi in the palm of her hand, she will try her best to be favored and seek benefits for the Dongshu royal family, this is her fate as a princess of Shuguo, and she can't change the fate of turning around.

Pinzhu didn't say more, Jingyue soon came in with a teacup, put it in front of Jiang Wan, and whispered, "Concubine Qing sent someone over." ”

Jiang Wan put down the book in her hand: "Bring it in." ”

Soon a little eunuch with a face came in outside, and there were many palace people in various palaces, but the few Jiang Wan who were serving the little masters nearby were somewhat impressed, and this one in front of them. I've never seen it before.

The little eunuch lowered his head from the time he came in, and after kneeling down, he said everything that Concubine Qing had brought.

It's just the matter of the Winter Palace banquet, thinking that Concubine Jing came from Dongshu and was not familiar with the place, so I came to inform me that the fish raised in Min Lake are very beautiful, and the candlelight is faint at night, so there is no fun, and when the palace banquet is over, you can go and take a look.

After saying that, Jiang Wan didn't mean to keep anyone, she knew where the palace banquet was held and when it started, and the little eunuch's mouth mentioned the fish, which seemed very abrupt.

If it was really Song Yujiao sitting here, she might feel that Concubine Qing was warm-hearted, and she was afraid that she would be bored before she said more.

But Jiang Wan knew about the fact that the stones by the Min Lake slipped and couldn't get close, she was still waiting for the people around Guo Zhenzhen to come and tell her about it, who knows, wait and wait, it was Concubine Qing who was waiting for her, and she didn't remind her, this was a side thought, and she was going to attack her.

After Pin Zhu looked at the little eunuch and went out, he smiled and said, "Princess. . . Niangniang loves to feed the fish, and the slave will accompany you to take a look. ”

Jiang Wan raised her eyebrows slightly, and said with a full mouth: "Okay, Concubine Qing is kind, naturally I want to go and see." ”

If she doesn't cooperate, this play ends early, what's the point?

Concubine Qing has always been reckless and doesn't like to use her brains, and because Qi Ying came to her and felt uncomfortable, she should have vented it to her on the street like before, instead of beating around the bush like this.

Concubine Qing also had a pair of hands behind her to manipulate her.

During the evening break, Pinzhu didn't wait nearby, Jingyue combed Jiang Wan's hair, and said softly: "Concubine Qing sent someone to just inform you, if Niangniang thinks it's interesting, it's naturally nothing to feed it, but Niangniang has always been afraid of water, and the wind is so strong when she comes to Min Lake at night, Niangniang is weak now, why do you want to allow that girl to feed the fish?" ”

Jiang Wan took off the earrings: "The stones on the shore of Min Lake have slipped in some places, and the moss must have grown a lot during this time, and if you don't pay attention to it, you may fall into the water." ”

Jing Yue paused for a moment, and then listened to Jiang Wan continue: "At the end of autumn, I mentioned this matter to Concubine Xian, thinking that the weather was getting cooler, and at the end of the year it was a time when there were not enough people, so I put aside the matter of repairing Minhu Lake. ”

Who knew that this matter was delayed, but she didn't wait for the beginning of spring.

Jingyue's hand combing her hair stopped: "Niangniang deliberately agreed?" ”

"Concubine Qing should have heard about this from Concubine Xian, no, she took the errand of the West Third Palace, just to wait for me here, if I don't go, wouldn't it be in vain for Concubine Xian to instigate Concubine Qing?" Jiang Wan took the comb in Jing Yue's hand and put it away, got up and walked to the edge of the bed and sat down, covered the quilt after lying down, saw Jing Yue frowning and looked disapproving, and smiled lightly, "Although I know about this, but this body shouldn't have known, I can hide once, but it's useless to hide everything, Concubine Xian is sensitive, and she can't see any clues now." ”

"But..." Jing Yue still wanted to say something, but when the words came to her mouth, she felt that her truths were hidden in selfishness, and she couldn't convince Jiang Wan, so she could only swallow it back and sighed.

On the day of the Winter Palace banquet.

The carriage of the Prime Minister's Mansion was ready to leave early in the morning.

Jiang Yu stood in front of the mansion door, looking at the closed vermilion gate opposite in a daze.

She got up early, confident that she was earlier than Qi Dao, the street outside was still quiet, and she didn't hear the sound of horses' hooves riding away, indicating that Qi Dao should not have gone out yet.

He has stood outside her wall these days, and Jiang Yu knows it.

Later, he didn't come to stand anymore, and Jiang Yu also knew.

I thought that he would block himself here when he knew the news that he was going to enter the palace, but he didn't expect the door to be closed, and he didn't want to see her.

It's okay if she doesn't see it, when she spread the news that Prince Jing was drunk and broke his leg by climbing over the wrong wall, didn't she just hope that they could describe strangeness, neither acquaintance nor resentment.

She.. Not care.

Yibo settled the carriage and trotted over to call her, Jiang Yu didn't react, glanced at her line of sight, sighed, and called again: "My lord." ”

Jiang Yu came back to his senses at this time, glanced at Yibo with a cold expression, and then looked at the carriage not far away, bowed slightly, and walked towards the bottom of the stairs.

The little guy in the house came to step on the stool, Jiang Ying lifted the curtain, and when he was about to go in, he suddenly felt a cold behind him, and then as soon as the carriage sank, he was hugged from behind and fell into the carriage.

The horse was frightened, and even the carriage trembled, Jiang Ying heard Yibo shouting outside, followed by the boos of the stable horse, and after a clear sound of drawing the sword, it was immediately much quieter outside.

But the man she was leaning on like a pad of flesh still didn't let go of the hand that was clamping her arm.

Jiang Yu quickly calmed down, she jerked away, turned around and leaned against the side of the carriage, and saw clearly who was the person who had taken her and rolled into the carriage.

Qi Dao sat crookedly, extravagant.

The one outside who drew his sword was his cronies, called Xicheng.

Presumably the brand of King Jing's Mansion was revealed, and Yibo and they didn't dare to make a noise.

Jiang Ying's chest rose and fell violently, and it took several deep breaths before he stabilized, and when he raised his eyes to look at Qi Dao again, he returned to his indifferent and cold appearance, and said as far as he could: "What is this doing, prince?" ”

Qi Dao leaned back, and a pair of piercing eyes narrowed into a long line: "The carriage in the house is broken, borrow the prime minister's carriage to sit down." ”

This kind of excuse is like a ruffian relying on money, there is no place to be trusted, Jiang Yu dismantled the stage without changing his face: "The prince can ride a horse." ”

"I can't ride." Since Qi Dao guarded her out and got into this carriage, he didn't plan to go down, he was determined to get to the end, he pointed to his feet and hooked the corners of his mouth, "I was interrupted by the prime minister, and the prime minister has to be responsible for driving me for a ride." ”

Jiang Ying stared at him, I don't know why, seeing him like this, her heart that she originally thought that she would never care about any emotions anymore suddenly hurt, she avoided Qi Dao's gaze, turned around and went down by herself: "There is still a surplus carriage in my house, this carriage prince sits, I will let Uncle Yi give it to me again." ”

Before he finished speaking, Qi Dao had already reached out irritably and grabbed Jiang Yu's wrist, she was fluttering as if she had no weight, and was gently pulled back by Qi Dao to his side.

"Let's go, don't delay the time to enter the palace." Qi Dao yelled outside, and the carriage immediately began to move slowly.

It shouldn't run away now, after all, no matter how you look at it, Jiang Yu doesn't look like a person who can jump out of the car, but Qi Dao just didn't let go, but glared at Jiang Yu viciously, and said coldly: "Is it so difficult to talk to you?!" ”

Jiang Yu didn't struggle, just let Qi Dao drag him like this, he didn't say anything when it hurt, he didn't even frown, he just endured it silently, and then replied decently: "The prince and I, haven't we had nothing to say for a long time?" The prince complains about me, I already know that I will avoid the prince in the future, and I will not let the prince look upset. ”

She shouted one by one.

She looked at him like this, but Qi Dao never found himself in her eyes.

Annoyed! Timid!

He is dignified and apprehensive, and he has actually reached the point where he has to brazenly drill other girls' carriages to block people before he can speak!

"Lord Wang?!" Qi Dao smiled even colder, he didn't know what he was angry about, Jiang Ying obviously just told the truth that everyone knew, but he was so angry that it seemed like a fire was burning in his chest, he supported the wall of the carriage, wrapped Jiang Ying between his arms, and the whole person was bullied closely, "Jiang Ying, are we so strange?!" Can't you just talk to me?! ”

Jiang Ying pressed against the wall of the carriage and stared at Qi Dao's eyes: "What does the prince want to say?" ”

He got so close, but she still didn't hide, Qi Dao suspected that Jiang Yu not only couldn't see herself at all, but even her own proximity couldn't stir up the slightest wave in her heart.

What he didn't know was that the hands hidden in Jiang Ying's sleeves had already clasped the edge of the bench under him.

"Are you sick?"

Jiang Ying pursed her lips and did not answer.

"What disease? What happened to you? Why don't you say it when you're sick?! Qi Dao frowned, knowing that she was acquiescing if she didn't deny it, she was really sick, so serious that she had to go to the Nine Immortals to recuperate for two years, and he didn't know anything.

He pressed very hard, and Jiang Yu felt that he was about to lose his breath, so he could only stiffen his neck and say: "My own business has nothing to do with the prince. Why should the prince ask more? ”

Never mind?!

It's okay to be a good one!

She turned her face away slightly, raised her hand and pushed Qi Dao, trying to make the space between the two a little bigger.

A very small action suddenly angered Qi Dao.

He raised his hand and forcefully broke Jiang Ying's face back, and bowed his head and kissed her with some revenge and anger. Or rather, just biting her lip fiercely and venting her anger that she has nowhere to vent.

Jiang Yu's eyes widened suddenly, his mouth hurt, but more shame welled up in his heart.

His approach came too late.

His inquiry came too late.

So much so that his unwilling emotions came too late.

She has lost the right to love and hate, a person who can't even forgive herself, how can she ask for forgiveness from others? And how to embrace, to love others?

She is a flower that has withered in the corner, and even the rhizome has rotted, and no matter how much she irrigates and cares for her, she will not survive.

Yin Zhengshan could cure her illness, but no one could cure her heart.

If.. If it was earlier, before she buried herself completely, Qi Dao could look back at her, maybe...

But it's all gone.

Those days are all gone.

She pushed him hard, but she could only exchange for Qi Dao's stronger attack, and soon, Qi Dao felt that Jiang Yu, who was still trembling with anger and struggling like a small beast in his arms, suddenly lost his soul and quieted down.

Except for the trembling of her lips, she was like a puppet that had suddenly lost its long traction, stiff and powerless in his arms.

Qi Dao was finally willing to let her go and hugged her, but as if he realized something, he tightened the string in his heart, and didn't dare to look down at her face.

From the time she left Shengjing to go to the Nine Immortals, she didn't return for two years, to these days when she knew that she was sick and was finally determined.

What exactly is he resenting?

hated her and left without saying a word, without saying anything clearly.

I still hate my own sluggish heart. It wasn't until I smelled the smell of medicine that I slowly regurgitated the pain of the past two years?

"Qi Dao, let me go." Jiang Yu suddenly spoke, and her voice finally showed a crack outside of the coldness, "You can also let yourself go." ”

Jiang You is dead.

He died on the current crane tower, and his blood was buried under the bright glazed bricks and tiles.

If it weren't for her. Carelessness, indulgence. If it weren't for her contempt, laugh.

Jiang You will not die, and now he is in the position of prime minister.

And she is the one who wants to rejoice in the red hijab and marry the bride of the man she has been pestering since she was a teenager.

Shengjing was supposed to be colorful.

But since then, Sheng Jing in Jiang Ying's eyes has only been gray.

Between them was the blood and corpses of his brother and best friend, and he should blame her, he should blame her.

Qi Dao shouldn't forgive her, and she shouldn't forgive herself.

It turned out that she was so helpless that he was entangled, maybe he had been entangled with some little love, Jiang You's death, so that this little bit of love. It also vanished.

It's good to hate her.

You don't have to pity her because she's sick, and you don't have to punish yourself like that.

"Jiang Yu." He called her in a trembling voice, he hated her for killing Jiang You, but he hated even more that he couldn't arrive in time to save Jiang You.

He was moved because of Jiang You, because of her insistence and obsession, but he was not just moved.

He's just like her, he doesn't know how to face it, he doesn't know how to cross this hurdle in his heart.

He didn't know she was so sick, he thought. She fled.

He also wanted to talk to her properly, but every time he opened his mouth, it was like taking out a knife and cutting them into a blur of flesh and blood.

He wanted to say, but... As soon as he lowered his head, he saw Jiang Yu with tears on her face, her eyes were out of focus, and unconscious tears rolled down.

She said, "If torturing me makes you feel better, that's fine." ”

"I don't care," she said. ”