Chapter 8: Guilt
The wound avoided the veins in her palm, not to ruin her hand, but it kept her awake under the severe pain.
And the pain in his palm made Su Ruan know clearly that everything in front of him was true.
She died, but she was alive again.
and returned to the Xuanping Marquis Mansion before it was destroyed, and her mother had just married Xie Yuan, and she made a big fuss about the wedding banquet.
Su Ruan was originally the daughter of Su Xuanmin, the governor of Jingnan, in the eighth year of the Yuan Dynasty, there was a great drought in Jingnan, and the disaster relief grain in the middle of the country had an accident on the road, and it sank in the river, and then it was raised by the Southern Wei Dynasty.
Su Xuanmin had the heart to defend the city, but he had no power to defend the city, and was later captured by the rebels and killed by Xie Yuan himself in front of the battle.
After the chaos in Jingnan was calmed down, Su Xuanmin was condemned by the palace because of the disadvantage of defending the city, and although Su Ruan's mother and daughter escaped, they also lost their shelter.
The Chen family was originally the daughter of a noble man in Beijing, who was raised weak and unassertive, and she had a beautiful body but couldn't protect herself at all, and Su Ruan was only thirteen years old at that time, and she already had most of the Chen family's appearance, which was even worse for them.
The mother and daughter were bullied because of their appearance, and because they were the wives and daughters of the guilty ministers, even the Chen family's family refused to take them in.
The young Su Ruan could only be like a wolf cub, fiercely protecting the weak Chen family, and struggling to survive under the coveted hearts of everyone.
She learned to do everything she had never done, threw away all the etiquette of the ladies of the family, bared her teeth, stepped on the blood, and almost poisoned an entire family of people in the mansion who wanted to rob their mother and daughter, in exchange for half a year of peace.
But God is so unfair, even so, he never let them go.
Less than half a year after Su Xuanmin's death, it was suddenly rumored that he had something left by the previous dynasty in his hand, and suddenly a large number of people poured into Jingnan to look for them.
Su Ruan fled with the Chen family several times, but he was still captured, and was rescued by Xie Yuan when he almost died.
After Xie Yuan concealed his identity and protected them for more than a month, he brought them back to the capital, and Su Ruan only knew at this time that the person who saved their mother's life was actually Xuanping Marquis who killed her father, and what made her even more unbearable was that Chen knew Xie Yuan's identity, and finally married him.
Su Ruan hated Xie Yuan, and hated the Chen family even more.
She hated Xie Yuan for killing her father for merit.
She hated the Chen family even more for the sake of Ronghua's commitment to the enemy, and hated her for forgetting her father's hatred to marry Xie Yuan and become the wife of the Marquis of Xuanping.
Su Ruan still remembers that in her last life, it was this day, and she smashed the Xie family's wedding banquet because she resented the Chen family for marrying the enemy who killed her father.
That is, on this day, after she didn't say anything in the Jintang Courtyard, she was slapped by Xie Yuan, tied and knelt in the snow for a day and a night, when she saw her father's tablet thrown in a pile of rotten things, she stabbed the "culprit" Xie Qingyang like crazy, and then broke into the palace ban with the tablet.
She wanted to sue the royal court, wanted to rehabilitate her father, and wanted the Marquis of Xuanping to accompany her father to the funeral, but she didn't want to be used.
Full of scheming and thinking that he was forbearing, he returned to the Xuanping Hou Mansion, deceived the trust of the Xie family with a weak attitude, entered the Xie family tree, and later single-handedly destroyed the entire Xuanping Hou Mansion.
Su Ruan still remembered that when Xie Yuan died, he hugged the crazy Chen and looked at her calmly, saying that he had killed her father but never regretted it.
She still remembered the disbelief in Mrs. Xie's eyes, when she thought she was truly repentant and regarded her as her own granddaughter, when she finally learned of the betrayal.
Even if she later entered the court, killed Empress Dowager Qian, killed Concubine Yu, and killed all the people who had used her to harm the Xie family, she still felt guilty and uncomfortable for a lifetime.
She didn't expect to come back one day, and she didn't expect that she would see these people who were sealed in the depths of her memory and never dared to touch easily.
When Chen and Xie Yuan were talking just now, Su Ruan was actually awake all the time, and she could clearly hear that Chen was obviously afraid, but he still mustered up the courage to take her out of the Xuanping Marquis Mansion.
I even heard Xie Yuan's unquestionable voice that they would never be allowed to leave.
In fact, Xie Yuan was probably in love with her mother as early as this time, and her mother, a woman who had always been weak and timid, and even couldn't survive alone like a silk flower, became a part of the Xie family in order to protect her, and finally drove herself crazy.
Su Ruan's eyes were red, she curled up her legs to hold herself, buried her head in the crook of her arm, and tears fell silently.
Xie Yuan sent Chen away, and when he led the doctor back, he saw Su Ruan crying silently inside through the window.
Xie Yuan paused at his feet, he originally wanted to enter directly, but he knew how strong Su Ruan was, so he was directly outside the door, stretching out his foot and kicking on the door frame.
The sound of "bang" startled the doctor.
"Master Hou?"
"It's okay, I accidentally kicked the threshold, Doctor Chen, please come here."
Su Ruan heard Xie Yuan's voice and looked at the threshold that was almost level with the ground, and for some reason, his heart became more and more sour.
Xie Yuan looked at Su Ruan and looked at him in a daze, but when she was still hating him, she directly took Dr. Chen into the room and said, "Doctor Chen, this is a little girl, I accidentally injured my hand when I was playing with someone before, and I ask you to ...... for her." Su Nguyen! ”
Before he could speak, who knew that he saw the blood stains on the edge of the bed, and the blood that was still dripping from Su Ruan's hands, and his face suddenly changed greatly.
Xie Yuan strode forward and grabbed Su Ruan's hand, and when he saw the more and more hideous wound in her palm, he only felt angry: "What did you do again?!" That's how you hurt yourself to get revenge on me? ”
Su Ruan opened his mouth and didn't speak.
Xie Yuan's face turned black with anger, and he wanted to say something, but because there were still people around, he could only suppress his anger, grabbed Su Ruan's wrist and turned his head and said, "Doctor Chen? ”
Dr. Chen sensed that the atmosphere was wrong, but he didn't say anything.
The injury on Su Ruan's hand didn't look like it was accidentally left when she was playing, and the wound was so deep, but this little girl didn't cry or make trouble, as if she didn't feel pain at all.
Dr. Chen was skeptical, but he also knew what to say and what not to say.
After taking a closer look at the injuries on Su Ruan's hands with a normal face, he spoke:
"Master Hou, the wound on this young lady's hand is extremely deep, although she has avoided the tendons and veins, but if she doesn't take care of it well, I'm afraid it will affect the flexibility of her hand in the future."
Xie Yuan's face became even heavier: "You say what medicine you want to use, what herbs you need, Hou Fu will find it, heal her hand for her, don't leave a scar." ”
The doctor's face was embarrassed: "It's not difficult to take care of your hands, but this scar ......"
He glanced at Su Ruan, who was calm and didn't like to speak, and then looked at Xie Yuan, who had an ugly face, shook his head and said: "There is more than one wound with such a deep wound, even if you use the best wound medicine, there will still be a scar after the injury is healed." ”