"When do you still have the heart to say this?"

Mu Zixiao thought of Minnana's relapse of drug addiction, and she was so worried that she couldn't help but redden.

When Minnana saw her like this, she retreated to the bed again and again, took out a pillow casually and hugged it in her arms, made a sad face, stared at Mu Zixiao nervously, and said exaggeratedly, "No! Mu Zixiao, I'm here so decently, do you have to make me cry? ”

If Minnana had woken up full of whining, she would have felt better.

But Minnana still looks like this.

Mu Zixiao knew that she didn't want others to feel sorry for her because of this.

Can...... As her best friend, Mu Zixiao only felt more uncomfortable when she saw Minnana like this.

If it was really so easy to overcome the past, there would not be so many people in the world who were deeply involved in it and couldn't extricate themselves.

The pain and loneliness, she didn't want Minnana to suffer all this alone.

The moment Mu Zixiao turned her face away, tears couldn't help but slip out of her eyes.

She didn't make a sound, deliberately suppressed her breathing, but the slight trembling shoulders still betrayed her emotions at this time.

Minnana paused for a moment, then put down the pillow in her hand and took the initiative to lean over.

Just like in the past, she hugged Mu Zixiao, pillowed on Mu Zixiao's shoulder, sighed and said, "Xiaoxiao, if you cry now, it will make me feel embarrassed." ”

She spoke softly, and all emotions were contained in it.

Hearing this, Mu Zixiao's shoulders shrugged even more, and even if she bit her lower lip, she couldn't suppress the crying that came up.

Turning around, Mu Zixiao was completely anxious, and shouted directly at her, "Minnana, why are you so willful!" Why do you do this, why do you do such things! Why do you want to hurt yourself like this for someone else. Do you know it, I'm ......"

Do you know that I watched you fall asleep all the time, and I thought you would never wake up again.

Do you know, I almost thought I was going to lose you.

Later, Mu Zixiao didn't say it again.

However, Minnana understands everything, she understands everything.

took a tissue from the side, reached out to help Mu Zixiao wipe her tears, and muttered, "I know, I know everything...... I know that I ...... Know ......"

"Minnana, I'm angry, I'm really angry."

Mu Zixiao looked at her, she was really sad, and she couldn't control her sadness.

"Alright, don't be angry." Minnana coaxed her to speak, "I'm not fine!" ”

After a while, Minnana looked at her and said firmly, "I...... It's going to be fine. ”

Under Mu Zixiao's gaze, Minnana flattened her mouth, remembering that in the past, when she opened her mouth, she began to count, "You, you have been like this since you were a child, you have always been so timid, and you are scared of everything." I really don't know this kind of character, how Shangguan Jingyu can stand you! ”

Mu Zixiao didn't eat this at all, and warned her viciously, "Minnana, I warn you, there can be no next time for such a thing." No, there's never a next time. ”

Minana smiled, patted her side, motioned for her to sit down, smiled at her, and said, "Yes." ”

Mu Zixiao swallowed the choked sobs in her voice, and only felt that it was not worth it for Mina Nana, "Actually, just for Mo Xuening, you are not worth taking such a big risk." ”

She didn't understand why Minnana would take such a risk for the sake of someone who had framed her.

In her opinion, all this is very unreasonable.

When the afternoon sun shone through, Minnana was in a trance.

It's not worth it, many people have said similar things to her.

In response, Minnana smiled faintly, shook her head slowly, lowered her head, looked at her fingertips, and sighed softly, "If you don't do it, how can you know if it's worth it." ”

Mu Zixiao looked at her, her cold eyebrows and eyes were always dignified.

Minnana tilted her head, wearing a loose hospital gown, without delicate makeup, after adding a sick look, her whole person looked a little haggard, and her lips were only a light pink, "Actually, it's not just for her, I do it for myself." ”

With her arms around her lap and looking at the light outside the window, Minnana smiled at her, her tone was relaxed, and she said like a storyteller, "Xiaoxiao, you don't know. In fact, the artists in the entertainment industry are not as beautiful as they seem. Especially, it is an artist who has just entered the circle. ”

"They are like vases in front of people. It's an object that people can choose from, and when people see it, they say, "This one looks better, or that one looks better." The possibility of being favored by others and being picked away by nature, and the rest will fall into another state of despair. It's a very difficult day like that, and it's not an exaggeration to say that you are trembling and laughing! ”

"Yes...... They persevered. No matter what their purpose is, they are all striving to pursue what they want. From a little artist who is ignored and can be called and drunk by anyone, he boiled up little by little. I don't know when I will be discovered, and I don't know where the end is, so I just wait, look forward to it, and wonder if luck will come sooner than expected. ”

"It's lonely, it's helpless, and it's even ...... It's helpless, because you need to face the uncertainty of every day in the future. Every time I want to give up, I will persuade myself if I can hold on a little longer, and then try to hold on for a little longer. However, even I don't know when this kind of persistence will come to an end. ”

Minnana said this, and her nose suddenly soured, "Actually, I was like this at first. ”

It's just that she deliberately forgot those difficult times.

Everyone said that she was born lucky, but they didn't know that in the difficult nights, she was also trembling and suffering.

Even when Zhou Ningyuan broke up with her, she cried so much that she couldn't help herself at night, and the next day, she could still cheer up her spirits, try her best state, and show her brightest smile in front of people, talking and laughing about some things that she was not interested in.

If you ask her what she used to rely on to keep going, she will say it's a 'dream'.

Can...... The most ironic thing about reality is that time can make you forget what a dream is.

With a long sigh, Minnana smiled and said as easily as possible, "Every industry will have such a 'strong', such an inherent situation, there is no way to break it." However, the way all this is now is not what it should have been. ”

"When did we see injustice but refused to stand up and say 'unfair', and when did we start to see the sadness of others? It seems like...... It's about growing up. Reason, more and more, leaving less and less emotion for oneself and others. ”

Shaking her head, Minnana denied all this, "I think it's not good, it's an unhealthy trend, but no one jumped out and said it was wrong." Because, no ability, no qualifications, no background, no confidence, or because all this is not related to themselves, so treat all this in an indifferent way. As a result, the direction of the wind is only constantly growing. ”

"The reality is like this, but it doesn't mean that this is how it should be."

"Performance is a very rich and layered thing, and it represents art. Beauty, although important, is far from being the standard of people's evaluation, let alone something that others can easily exchange with the existing rights in their hands. ”

"Those, who are famous, can get the admiration and envy of others; And those who are dull and dull are always dim, and then, in this circle, they have been wandering, wandering endlessly. This situation is too bad and too sad. ”

"Mo Xuening is like this, she is weak and weak in this circle, she has no right to speak, and even, she has no choice. What she endured was far from what she should have endured. Although she didn't say all this to the public, it didn't mean that the damage inflicted on her was what she should bear. ”

"A lot of people are admonishing others that suffering is part of growing up."

"Was mich nicht umbringt, macht mich stsrker.

"Yes...... Suffering can sometimes kill. Suffering needs to be experienced before it can become growth and become stronger; Whereas...... Those hardships that cannot be overcome are suffering, suffering that cannot be escaped. ”

"My calamity is over, but ...... There are still many people who are still deeply involved in it. I, I've gotten so much of the benefits that this circle has given me, fame, fame, respect, but whatever I can get here, I've gotten. ”

"So, I thought, I should do more. Because, compared to others, I still have a choice, and I can even control more. So, I don't want to see a life fall in front of me and be indifferent. ”

It is true that she does not have too much affection for a character like Mo Xuening, but she is willing to lend a helping hand when she needs it in such a life.

That's all she has.

So, when others are asking her if it's worth it, even she is asking herself this question in her heart.

Is it worth it in the end?

But at best, the answer was not so clear even to herself.

She always felt that she had to do something, whether it was for herself or for someone else, she always needed to do something.

"I know that in this world, there may be the same events happening at the same time, and I may not see, hear, or even have no way to lend a helping hand. However, within my power, wherever I can, I am willing to try to help as long as I can. ”

"Knowing how to protect one's life, everybody will do it. However, today, we are silent in the face of the misfortunes of others, and what about when misfortune befalls us! Do others retain their attitude towards us? ”

"I think that what this society needs is more enthusiasm, not more and more indifference." Speaking of this, Minnana smiled a little, "So, I, I have nothing to regret, I used to think I was a strong person. But...... I overestimated my mental endurance, I just saw all this, and I couldn't bear it, let alone ...... What's more, those are all things that Mo Xuening has personally experienced......"

"So, the situation now...... It's not bad. ”

Staring at his fingertips, "I'm fine, I feel like I'm going to get through this." ”

[PS: Everyone has joys and sorrows, and those who have experienced it personally, whether it is good or bad, are the ultimate self. And what Minnana insists on is her insistence on the heart of justice, which may seem a little ridiculous in the eyes of others, but only those who walk into her world can appreciate the preciousness of this. 】