I helped Vivian bring the dishes one by one to the second floor, Feng Nannan was still basking in the sun, and she seemed to be so full of youth under the sun.

I've always felt that some people's girlishness is born with nothing to do with age, and like I'm born with a sense of vicissitudes, what is girlishness? I didn't have that as a teenager.

"Let's get ready for dinner." I called Feng Nannan, who was basking in the sun, back.

Vivian made Zuo Zongtang chicken, which was full of hairy blood, and a fresh vegetable salad with roasted apples. Traces of sap oozed from the roasted apples along the cracked skin. The air smelled of happiness.

It was already noon, and there was a hissing sound of vegetables and oil colliding in every house, and at this moment time seemed to stand still, comfortable, satisfied, and a moment of silence cushioned my heart.

Vivian opened a bottle of red wine and poured a glass for her and me, because Feng Nannan couldn't drink, so Vivian specially made passion fruit juice for her.

"Would you like to have a drink?" Vivien proposed.

"Okay." Crisp glasses collide in the air with a sound.

"Feng Nannan, you have to take care of yourself after you are discharged from the hospital, you have to remember that when the sense of security is given to you by yourself, don't lose your way."

I said to Feng Nannan.

Feng Nannan nodded: "I know, sister." ”

"At noon, what kind of ideological and political lessons do you give people, what kind of poisonous chicken soup, it's better to drink more when you have time." Vivien picked up the bottle and filled it up for me again.

"Such a beautiful afternoon, don't live up to this sunshine, can't you just eat quietly?" Vivien lectured me, and I took my glass and swallowed the whole glass of red wine into my stomach, "Okay, don't think about anything, just look forward and enjoy the moment." ”

Throughout the meal, we listened to Faye Wong sing old songs one after another, basking in the sun, and watching the cat lick her paws and comb her hair.

Happy times are always so short-lived, the sun after two o'clock is not as warm as at noon, the table is already scraps, Vivien lights a cigarette again, slowly, still smug.

I asked curiously, "Vivian, are you troubled?" ”

She gently exhaled a smoke ring, "Have you ever read Chibi Fu?" One of them is: But the breeze on the river, and the bright moon in the mountains, the sound of the ear, the color of the eye, the inexhaustible, is the endless hiding of the Creator, and I am suitable for the Son. To be able to sit down and watch the plants grow, the branches and leaves, the Creator has given us so many treasures, why should I have troubles, your so-called troubles are just self-disturbing. ”

She extinguished the cigarette butt, "All people and things can't last long, everyone can only accompany each other through a journey of life, you will experience separation from your parents and children, and even separation from the world, why use limited time to worry about these problems?" Wouldn't it be good to follow your own heart and do what you want to do most? ”

I poured the last wine in the bottle into the glass, yes, just follow my heart, only by following my heart will I have no regrets, no regrets.

Feng Nannan and I left Vivian's bar and prepared to go back. Because I drank alcohol, I couldn't send Feng Nannan, so I had to take a taxi back, and while waiting for the car, I took out an envelope from my pocket and handed it to Feng Nannan.

I took out the money when I took it out that day. "Feng Nannan, you take this well, there is some money in it, you have to take it well, you have to work hard in the future, only what you work hard to win can you eat and sleep well."

Feng Nannan said, "Sister, I can't ask for this money, I didn't take the right path before, I can't ask for it, you have already paid for my hospitalization, how can I collect your money." As for the hospitalization fee, I will definitely pay you back when my family pays me. ”

"Come on, I don't know how your relationship with your family is, even if your dad pays you how much you can get, and you just had surgery, do you want to do a part-time job? It's almost time to prepare for the exam, do you have time? ”

"I, I," Feng Nannan was speechless for a while.

"If it weren't for Lin Jia's bad concentration, it wouldn't have brought you so much damage, here is 100,000 yuan, you must take care of it, you can call me sister, let me make up my mind for you in the operation, I will have to take care of you." But how to go in the future, sister, I can't be the master for you. ”

Feng Nannan suddenly cried, "Sister, I'm sorry, I hurt you, I want you to be so sad, sister, I'm sorry." ”

I patted Feng Nannan on the back, "It's all over, isn't it?" Aren't you okay now? Everything starts again, starting from scratch, you have to stand at the starting point again, and take every step steadily. ”

I took out a tissue and handed it to her, hoping that she would wipe her tears, "From the time you leave, we may never see each other again, if we have the opportunity, we may be colleagues, of course, I hope you have a better development." For the rest of the time, you have to do your best. Of course, I have to work hard, and I can't fall, because we all have things to carry. ”

"Sister, stay with me for a while, I don't want to go back alone so soon."

I looked at my watch and said, "Okay." ”

Just like that, we stood at the bus stop, didn't speak again, and looked at the cars speeding by.

I don't know how long it took, Feng Nannan suddenly turned her head and smiled at me, "Sister, it's time to say goodbye, right?" I'm leaving, and this time I'm really going to say goodbye to you, and this goodbye means never to see you again. You're my sister, all your life, please forgive me for the hurt I have done you, so it's better to never see you again. ”

I hugged her again and "learned to feel sorry for myself." I secretly put the money in her coat pocket and waved at the taxi in the distance.

"Goodbye, Feng Nannan."

Feng Nannan got into the car and said to me, "Goodbye, sister." ”

Looking at the taxi that was moving away, I pinched the bridge of my nose, and the strength of the red wine and the sleepiness of the past few days made me unable to support myself to go back to the hospital, so I took a taxi and decided to go home for a day of rest.

I endured that I didn't sleep in the taxi, and when I returned home, the sleepiness disappeared, sitting alone in an empty room, thinking about Lin Jia, mango, and little cream in my head, thinking about the days when Lin Jia and I were not married, thinking about the night when Feng Nannan lived at home, and accompanied her in the hospital for a few days.

After a few days, I met her and said goodbye to her. I thought that Lin Jia and I could grow old and die, but he took me off guard and almost lost him because I was walking too fast.

Suddenly, I felt that all people in this world seemed to be puppets in the hands of God, and who they met and how they met were all predetermined. The only thing we can do is to perform together.

After swallowing a piece of Valium and Metoprolol, hoping that his nerves were no longer so tense, he changed into new pajamas, used a little sandalwood, put on a song "Down by the Salley Garden", lay down in the warm duvet, and fell asleep.

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