Volume I 138 Although perfect, it is incomplete
Have you ever met a child?
As soon as this question was asked, the first child that came to Mu Zixiao's mind was Little Peanut.
In this way, she recalled carefully, today, she saw some photos of Peanut when he was a child in Peanut's room.
What the kid looks like......
Actually...... It's exactly what she saw in the scene......
As soon as this thought came out, it was so frightened that she clenched her hands tightly and shook her head, Mu Zixiao really didn't understand why this happened!
Little Peanut is something she only met recently, and besides, it is Shangguan Jingyu's child, how could she have a connection with Little Peanut!
In other words, once, how could she have a connection with Shangguan Jingyu.
Even if she has amnesia, Shangguan Jingyu has no amnesia.
Moreover, even if she has amnesia and can't remember what happened, Shangguan Jingyu should be able to recognize her.
However, this is not the case.
As if sensing her nervousness, Nie Chen spoke up and said slowly, "If Miss Mu has been in contact with children during this time, then it is not difficult to explain the situation that appeared in the dream. In people's consciousness, there is often a strong sense of substitution, so if there is contact in life, it is not impossible to subconsciously connect dreams and reality. There is not such a saying, 'think during the day, dream at night', there is a certain correlation in the treatment of this sentence. ”
The smooth and gentle voice makes people unconsciously convincing when they hear it.
Mu Zixiao shook her head and muttered, "Is that so?" ”
Holding his forehead and closing his eyes, he couldn't hide the panic in his heart, "But, just now...... Everything I saw was so real. It's like my own experience......"
Shaking her head, without waiting for Nie Chen to speak, she then denied her inner thoughts and said, "But...... How could that life be my experience......"
How could she have had children?
If, if she did have children, then - how old should the child be now? And why not by her side?
Once this condition is a hypothesis, then one confusion after another is confronted.
She just couldn't believe it.
She couldn't believe that it would be her life.
But...... A flash of light flashed through her mind, and there was a scar on her abdomen......
She at least has the confidence to understand her own body.
She hadn't had surgery, so ...... What is that surgical scar......
Mu Zixiao only felt that a strange idea popped up in her mind, but it set off a huge shocking wave, and even she couldn't explain it herself.
Although the person she is facing is Dr. Nie, whom she has always trusted.
But those thoughts are really hard for her to say at this moment.
Nie Chen was on the side, listening quietly, and being a listener with peace of mind.
After she fell silent, she only sat quietly on the side, acting as a guardian of the soul.
This silence lasted for a long time, and it was not until Mu Zixiao completely regained her clarity that this state ended.
If, in the process of treatment, the situation about the child is seen from the contact with the little peanut in daily life, then what about her coma?
Is there a connection?
Nie Chen turned his face slightly, in the trend of general fitness to maintain his figure, his figure was not old-fashioned and strong, his body was thin but not weak, on the contrary, he was a little warm, and his voice was just right when he spoke. A white shirt is worn on his body, and the sun falls on his shoulders, and just one glance at it will remind people of the words 'the years are quiet'.
Nie Chen is not the most beautiful person she has ever seen, but he is the most comfortable person she has ever seen.
Yes, it is comfort, that is a kind of soul engraved in the bones.
Every move exudes a unique charm.
It seems that the time that has passed is helpless in front of him.
The kind of comfort and leisure that naturally exists in him is the natural light that he is born with.
It's not very dazzling, but it's enough to illuminate the whole world in front of you.
As long as you see him and are in front of him, you will really be willing to be impressed by him.
His hand rested on the black tabletop, and the slender hand with the bony knots contrasted strongly with the heavy color of the tabletop.
Mu Zixiao's gaze stayed on him for a long time, and then she asked, "Doctor Nie, ...... me Lately, for some reason, I've had some headaches, and a few times I've fallen straight into a coma. ”
Coma...... Nie Chen lowered his eyelids slightly, but a trace of something flashed under his eyes quickly, and the speed was too fast to be captured.
Just for a moment, it's back to normal.
Mu Zixiao was unsure about her situation, "Doctor Nie, is my coma related to my amnesia?" ”
Every time Shangguan Jingyu asked, she couldn't explain the reason.
However, she can remember some of the moments before she fell unconscious.
She always hears and sees scenes that don't belong to her current life before she falls unconscious.
In the hospital, she did not tell the doctor about such a situation.
Now, in front of Nie Chen, she just wants to ask him for verification, is the situation she is experiencing now within the normal range?
"Miss Mu, how is your usual schedule?"
"Everything was normal. I've tried to schedule my time as regularly as you say. ”
"That'...... What about the stress of life? ”
“……”
"In short, in Miss Mu's current life, is there anyone who makes you feel nervous and always vigilant?"
“……”
If there is someone who can make her nervous and vigilant all the time, it must be Shangguan Rui.
Since she broke up with him that day, she didn't want to see Shangguan Rui.
After being with Shangguan Jingyu, she was always afraid that she would see Shangguan Rui, and she was afraid that he would be like a regular **bomb**bomb, popping up anytime and anywhere, and she would be forced to die together.
Thinking of this, Mu Zixiao honestly admitted, "Yes." ”
"So, how long has this been going to last?"
Mu Zixiao inadvertently sighed in her heart, "Recently, this has always been the case. ”
"Perhaps, Miss Mu has put a lot of mental pressure on herself during this time."
“…… Maybe......" Mu Zixiao raised her eyes and glanced at Nie Chen opposite, and the words in her heart were a little hesitant.
Nie Chen smiled, "Miss Mu, what do you want to say?" ”
"My memory...... Can it really be recovered? ”
When Nie Chen heard her words, his tone paused for a moment, and then asked, "What does Miss Mu mean......"
Mu Zixiao shook her head, got up, and stood in front of the window, the scene outside was sunny, but in her mind, it seemed that there was a lingering cloud forever.
She had lost a memory, and now she was searching for it, and before she knew it, time had passed
Today, when Shangguan Jingyu asked, she answered very resolutely.
However, at this moment, her heart was shaken.
In the past, do you really need to get it back?
"I don't have confidence in myself." Mu Zixiao turned her head and smiled at Nie Chen, but her smile was very reluctant, even helpless, "I'm thinking that I've worked hard for so long, but there is still no sign of recovery, does that mean that it shouldn't be everything I want to remember in the first place." ”
"Does Miss Mu think so?"
“……”
The corners of Nie Chen's lips always have a shallow smile, and even his eyes will convey some positive power, he said, "In this way, Miss Mu and I have a slightly different opinion. I think that human memory is a part of life, and it is the most important part to ignore. The loss of memory, in other words, the loss of life. Sometimes, a memory represents a person's existence. Only when memory exists, can this person truly exist. ”
In Mu Zixiao's silence, he continued, "Make an assumption. If I lose my memory now, even though I have the identity of 'Nie Chen' and all the connections in the world, 'I' will never be 'me' again. ”
Her soul, because these words are a shock.
A memory represents a person's existence.
After listening to Nie Chen's words, she said to herself, "What about my past?" ”
Nie Chen's eyes flashed, and he was honest, "Miss Mu, you are a lucky person. ”
“……”
"I think maybe after a while, Miss Mu will find the answer herself."
“…… Will it? He seemed to be able to give her an answer to something that even she could affirm herself.
"Yes." These two words, he replied firmly.
“……”
Sunlight shining in through the window is a very warm force.
This kind of light and warmth can resist all darkness and cold.
Nie Chen said thoughtfully, "Time is a magical thing. It can dilute some things, but it can also bring some miracles. So, with enough time, everything can find a perfect answer. ”
"Perfect?"
"Yes, perfect."
Nie Chen's firmness invisibly gave her strength, listening to his words, Mu Zixiao thought that Dr. Nie must be a very optimistic person about life.
"Sometimes, memory loss, which seems perfect, is incomplete in terms of life." Nie Chen looked at her with a slight meaning, "After all, the loss of memory, in addition to the damage caused by the outside world, is more important because the memory loss person mainly avoids some things in his heart. ”
Perfect, but incomplete......
Take a deep breath, there is still a faint aroma in the room, which is very intoxicating.
I couldn't help but inhale more of this faint fragrance, and even the headache caused during the treatment just now became lighter.
Mu Zixiao asked, "Just now, did you also order this kind of incense?" ”
"Yes, this incense has a calming effect......" Nie Chen opened the window as he said this.
The fresh air poured in, and the original fragrance was diluted in an instant, but Mu Zixiao was always immersed in the afterglow of the incense just now, and asked, "I also think the effect of this incense is very good, Doctor Nie, where can I buy this incense?" I want some too! ”
The smell that diffused in the air instantly dispersed, and there was almost nothing left.
Looking back, he explained with a gentle smile, "This incense is suitable for psychiatrists. ”
"That's it......" between the nose, I can't smell the aroma anymore, but the smell that fascinates people's bone marrow is unforgettable for a long time, "It's a pity......"
"Sir." After Lin Mo sent Mu Zixiao to Nie Chen's psychological treatment room, he did not leave in a hurry, but waited for news outside.
Of course, this is also an arrangement made by Shangguan Jingyu in advance.
So, after Mu Zixiao entered the diagnosis and treatment room, he called Shangguan Jingyu.