We settled in a house in a village, and there was a group of survivors next door, led by Li Eryi and Hu Yu in the name of condolences, and after the two looked around, Hu Yu, who looked like a student, spoke first: "What about the girls?" ”

I smiled and didn't answer.

Li Eryi slapped him back and scolded: "I know the girl!" It's not productive! ”

After speaking, he turned back to me and said, "Brother Shi, don't mind! My little brother just fell in love with your teammates at first sight, and he can't help but want to meet them. I beg your pardon! ”

Don't look at the sloppy clothes worn by Li Eryi, but he still knows how to drag two idioms when he speaks.

I smiled and waved my hand, invited them to sit down, and then asked, "Is there something wrong with Mr. Li here?" ”

"That's the case," Li Eryi handed over the bag in his hand and said: "In this world, it's fate that we can meet, so I'll bring my brother over to sit down, everyone will get to know each other, and we will help each other in the future!" It's a bit of food, please laugh! ”

I took it and looked at it, and it contained some eggs, instant noodles or something, and a half bottle of liquor.

"Thank you then." I put the bag at my feet and said, "Our supplies here are still a bit messy, and when the statistics are ready, I will send you some when the time comes." ”

"No, no, Brother Shi is too polite!"

"Hehe, are you still courteous!"

"By the way, Brother Shi, where did you come from......"

For the next period of time, Li Eryi was basically messing around with me, but his eyes couldn't help but look around.

Through this conversation, I probably judged that Li Eryi actually didn't have any oil and water in his stomach at all, although he often used idioms and some ancient sayings, but he used them too often. He seems to have deliberately tried to disguise himself as a man who reads poetry and books, but it is only self-defeating. Just his eyes and the look of his soul are enough to explain this person's character.

Later, Shi Yao also came back and chatted with Li Eryi for a while, mostly asking about the survivors and the things that brought everyone together, Li Eryi did not agree happily, but always diverted the topic.

After chatting for a while, Li Eryi began to ask me where the girls in the team had gone. I just replied that they were tired and needed a break, and then changed the subject. The boy named Hu Yu next to him had long been tired of listening to our conversations, and he sat next to him drowsy and couldn't keep up his spirits.

Li Eryi always talked to me about something else first, and then asked about the girls, but he always couldn't get the answer he wanted from me, and in the end even he was impatient.

"It's not early today, let's rest early, we won't bother much." Li Eryi's expression began to be a little impatient.

"Okay," I stood up and said, "Mr. Li should also rest early and walk slowly." ”

Li Eryi nodded, slapped Hu Yu awake in a daze, and then walked out with him. I followed the two of them to the door, and at this time the person on duty had been replaced by Di Yan.

"Yo! Let's go, buddy! Di Yan said briskly.

"yes, hard work." Li Eryi didn't have much energy, and Hu Yu next to him was even more lazy to speak.

"Okay! Walking! Di Yan helped them open the door.

The two said goodbye again and walked out. I asked Di Yan to lock the door, and then we went back to the room together.

It was only then that I went to the back room and wanted to call Xiaoyu and the others out, but I saw that except for Su Qi, the other four girls were all asleep.

Seeing this, I had to tell Su Qi to go to bed early, she also wanted to apply with me to go to the night guard, but I refused, it is enough to have these men on duty tonight.

When I came out of the back room, I told everyone that I was on the first shift, that they were all asleep, and that I would wake one up when the shift changed.

I still instructed Xiao Qi to keep an eye on Lin Qiuwan's big man, and then I walked out of the room with the half bottle of liquor that Li Eryi brought.

When I got to the courtyard, I unscrewed the lid of the bottle, poured it straight down the wall, and then put the empty bottle upside down at the door, if someone sneaked in and knocked over the bottle, I could hear it.

There was a ladder in the corner of the yard, and I straightened it up and climbed up to the roof. The roof here is made of cement slabs, which is very flat and thick. I first looked at the movement in the courtyard next door, and then sat directly on the ground, the notebook was still in Xiao Qi's place, and I could only look into the distance in a daze now.

The view here is neither good nor bad, you can finally see the farther lanes, and if there are zombies approaching, you can quickly spot them.

I just stared into the distance for a long time. When I came to my senses, I looked down at my watch, and it was already 11:40.

I took out Maya, untied the strip of cloth, and said to myself, "Today, my mind is messed up, and I don't know if it's right to do this...... Hopefully, this time will clear all my concerns. ”

At this time, the real night is a little strange, not very different from the past. In the past, when I pulled out the real night under the moonlit night, the sharp blade would reflect a faint but fascinating light. But this time, no matter how much I shook the blade, the light that came out was gray.

"You...... Do you think it's wrong for me to do this? I looked at the blade of the knife and said in confusion. But it didn't take long for the idea to be ridiculous. It's just an ordinary knife, so what could you think.

Just as I was about to stand up, I heard someone climbing a ladder. Looking back, it was Di Yan, how did he come up.

"Why haven't you slept yet?" I asked with a smile.

Di Yan didn't hold his crossbow, which surprised me a little, he only carried his own slash all over his body. Knife.

"Shi Lei, dare to tell me what you think now?" Di Yan said as he walked over and sat down more than a meter away from me.

"What's wrong, so serious, not like you."

"Don't fight me haha!" Di Yan said in a deep voice: "Tell me what you think now!" ”

"What do you think, what do you say?" I'm still smiling.

"Don't play dumb with me." Di Yan said: "Do you say it or not! ”

"I said? I don't even know what you're talking about. ”

Di Yan paused for a moment and said, "Okay, then I'll ask you!" Now, apart from Xiao Qi, Xiao Yu and Lin Yue, what do you think everyone else does? Do you see them as companions? ”

"You're not sick," I snorted, "go to sleep, you're so tired!" ”

"Okay, okay, if you don't say it, I will say it!" Di Yan raised his head with his chest straightened, and said solemnly in a voice that could only be heard by the two of us: "Today, you took the initiative to invite Shi Yao and them to join, you let go of the three foreigners, you took the initiative to save that stupid big man, and you talked with Li Eryi, who was obviously a pervert, and had such a happy chat." Even though I've only known you for two days, I know you certainly weren't like that before! It's so unusual! Especially since you laughed almost all day today! ”

"What the hell are you trying to say......

"You've hidden all your thoughts in a smile. Shi Lei, you didn't treat Shi Yao and them as companions at all from the beginning, you just treated them as tools, which can be thrown away! Because Xiao Qi and the three of them are injured, you need manpower, but you don't need companions anymore! So they're all your tools! I've noticed that when you set up your tasks in the morning in the residential building, you separated them all and didn't leave any of them in the house, because you were afraid that they would hurt your companions, because you didn't trust them at all! Just now, when you gave Xiao Qiwi to those three foreigners, I saw that Xiaoyu had hinted that you should not say it to your face, but you said it without scruples. Why? Because you don't treat Shi Yao and them as people, they are just your tools and your chess pieces, if anyone doesn't go your way in the future, or when Xiao Qi and they are healed, you will push Shi Yao and them into the fire pit at any time! They will even kill them with their own hands! So you're not afraid of them hearing anything! ”

"Enough!"

Di Yan didn't listen to me at all, and then said: "That stupid big guy who broke the car door is also a mallet, I said at the time that he wanted to drive him down because he didn't want him to become your pawn too!" But he still slept soundly! I don't care either! Besides, those people in the yard next door, you can laugh when you are scolded by them, but I see you looking at those people, you are looking for a gun, right? You'll be even more relieved when you find out they don't have guns! All of us saw that Li Eryi staring at the woman in our team with bad intentions, but you didn't kill him either, why! Because you also didn't care about Li Eryi and them, because you wanted to kill everyone in that courtyard! Just tonight, including that kid! You won't let it go! Because you already have enough tools, you don't need extra tools, you kill them, you can take their weapons, and food! ”

When I heard Di Yan say this, I couldn't hum a word, and my hands trembled with anger.

"But you can't do it in front of Shi Yao and them, in that case, Shi Yao will definitely stop you, and then it will be a big trouble, so you choose to do it at night! You said you came out on duty, but in fact you wanted to go through the roof and kill all of them! Then set fire to it, remove the body, destroy the body, and no one will know what you did! Isn't it!? ”

"Enough! That's enough! That's enough! I yelled at him to stop him from continuing, almost losing control of his voice.

"Last night, the night you stabbed your own brother, you went from a frozen and cold-blooded man to a sunny boy in an instant, but you buried all the cruelty and violence in your heart! You think you're smart, you think you can fool everyone...... Don't it! Don't take people for fools! I'm telling you, you're still almost playing with your heart eyes, I can see it, and it won't take long for others to see it too! When the time comes, you fool who thinks you are clever will die without a place to bury! ”

"Shut up, you fuck! What nonsense ......"

"I'm talking nonsense!" Di Yan immediately stood up and rushed to my side, pulled my sleeve open, pointed to my arm and said, "What is this!?" This is what you carved yourself with a fruit knife last night, you thought I was asleep at the time, but in fact I saw it, this is what you made yourself change, it was a contract you gave yourself! ”

I gritted my teeth and glared at Di Yan angrily, and then slowly moved my gaze down, and on my arm, there were three scarred letters, BTS.

"You killed your brother who turned into a zombie, and your psychology also changed, you don't know where to go, you don't know who to believe, you don't know what to do! You tell yourself over and over again that you have to be strong, you have to be cold-blooded, and you have to protect this team! But in fact, you are still so fragile in your heart! You are confused! You're afraid! You're afraid of losing again, even if it's not the first time you've lost your brother, but it's the first time you've stabbed your own brother! You're scared of this kind of thing again! So, these three letters are the last choice you give yourself, and the choice you force yourself to engrave in your heart! You chose to throw away your conscience completely, except for Xiao Qi, Xiao Yu, and Lin Yue, you only divided everyone into two categories, enemies! and tools! That way you won't be afraid of anything! So you laugh, you think you'll be strong that way! But you've become a waste who doesn't know when to laugh or when to cry! ”

Di Yan's voice was very excited, but it was always controlled, even if someone was standing in the courtyard, they should not be able to hear clearly, but these words smashed into my body like a boulder, and pierced into my heart like a sharp knife. This made me nervous and angry at the beginning, and gradually became weak and panicked.

"You dare to say it, you dare to say it, don't you!"

In the face of Di Yan's questioning, I was almost speechless, "I, I ......"

"You what you! Tell me about it first! What do these three letters mean! ”

“B… B… Behi

d the **ile。 ”

"What do you mean?! I'll let you say it! ”

"I ...... I ......" I glared and looked down at the letters on my arm again, wondering why Di Yan could guess my thoughts in so much detail and in such detail.

Just when I was about to say the Chinese meaning of BTS, that long-lost bloody feeling suddenly appeared in my heart, I frowned at once, waved my arm and opened Di Yan's hand to push him out, and then I immediately stood up and said angrily with Maya: "Do I grass you!" ”

Di Yan was thrown back by me and took three or four steps back before he stabilized his figure. See the martial arts in my hands. He was stunned for a moment, then stabilized his emotions and said lightly: "I...... Let me tell you, if you continue like this, all you have left in your mind is how to play with people, and then the team will be over. Maybe I'm just a tool for you, but ......"

Di Yan pointed to the two courtyards separately and continued: "On one side are companions, and on the other side are women and children, since I am here today as ***, I must stop you!" ”

I didn't say a word, the blood in my heart rushed to the top of my head like a volcanic eruption, and my eyes began to blur a little. I gasped heavily, glared at Di Yan, and slowly lifted Maya up.

At this time, Di Yan also pulled out his machete-

"Shi Lei, do you know...... Knives can also cry. ”

To this day, I still remember that night's matchup. There is also Di Yan, who seems to be able to penetrate people's hearts, and Xiao Qi, who stands silently in the corner.

Night, February 6, 2013.

After a long time, I was lying on the roof of the bungalow, my body felt like it was going to fall apart, it was sore and painful, only my tongue could still move, and I didn't know where it fell in the night. Gently licking the blood from the corners of my mouth, there is an indescribable joy in my heart.

There is another one next to me, it is Di Yan. He was lying there in a large shape, his eyes closed, blood flowing from the corners of his mouth, and he was so quiet that he didn't seem to be breathing.

"Hey," I said, looking at the moon, "how do you know what's going on in my mind, like a roundworm?" ”

"I'm not blind," Di Yan said with his eyes closed, "I've been watching you carefully since I heard that gunshot from you upstairs last night, and then I realized that something was wrong with you." I don't have this experience, I don't know what you're going to become, so I have to keep an eye on it, and I won't miss every word or action you make. ”

I sneered and said, "Then your analysis is too suspenseful." ”

"More than half of it was guessed, after observing you for a day." Di Yan said: "Later, after I read your diary, I can be sure. ”

"Have you read my diary?"

"Well, you said before that you were on duty, and as soon as you came out, I went to the Seventh Brother to look at your diary."

I was silent for a moment and said, "What do you know from the diary?" ”

"Ideas, fonts." Di Yan said two words and continued: "Your previous experiences were written in detail, including your own thoughts, but last night, after you did it upstairs, you didn't write your thoughts, but directly covered it with a quilt...... Ahem...... And your final ending, which reduces such a tragic parting to just two lines, and then a large blank space. ”

I thought to myself, you can see that, too.

Di Yan continued: "The font of the last article is also more messy and sloppy than what you wrote before, indicating that you are in a fierce conflict in your heart, but you have not written it directly in words, which can be seen from this that you must have something that people can't find out, and you want to deceive everyone." If you write it in your diary, you might be seen. ”

Di Yan, who knows this, will cough a few times if he talks too much.

Listening to his analysis this time, I smiled again, but there was only some helplessness in this smile.

"I want to know," I said, "and now that you've found out about these things, haven't you thought of throwing me away and living for yourself and the rest of the team?" ”

"I've thought about it," Di Yan said happily, "I began to think that you were hopeless, although I didn't want to replace you, but I also considered whether to push you down." But one of your actions today shows your last bottom line, which makes me feel that you still have some hope, so I came up to persuade you, I don't want you to become a real villain. ”

I looked at the miserable situation of the two of us, and wondered if this could still be called 'persuasion'. He asked, "What act?" ”