She woke up, and after I was done thinking about what was next, I heard her calling me in a slightly trembling voice. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info

I quickly got up and walked over. She held my hand tightly as if I was the most trusted person in the world.

Looking at her slightly pale face, somehow, I remembered the dimples on her lips when I first met her.

I quickly interrupted the reverie and slowly comforted her. That's what psychologists do best. Soon, she was back to normal.

She smiled at me with a slightly shy face and whispered, "I love you, and you will always protect me, right?"

There are always some people who, after many years of patience, will behave so impatiently when they see that happiness may be just around the corner. For example, a crush: the girl doesn't know the boy at all, and they don't even say a word to each other, but the guy confesses to the girl very abruptly. This guy must have had a crush on girls, and it's likely that he's been hurt by other girls before.

This situation is psychological, and it makes easy sense.

Looking at her hopeful eyes, I suddenly didn't know how to answer. It is not uncommon for clients to fall in love with a psychiatrist because they often rely on the doctor as their own, and this support makes them strong. Therefore, there is always a lot of beautiful talk about doctors and patients getting married. However, this is not the way to go.

So I was silent. Her expression froze a little, but she still stared at me with hopeful eyes.

"Me, I already have a girlfriend. I, I love her very much. "I tried to phrase it as hard as I could, but it was still so straightforward.

Fighting back her grief, she asked, "Can I see her?"

I slowly walked out of the bedroom pushing my wheelchair, the tires grinding against the floor pattern.

"This is my girlfriend, her name is Xiaoxiao. I smiled and introduced. Seeing the smiling face, my nervous mood suddenly relaxed.

Bai An stared blankly at the smile and didn't say a word.

I sighed, and thought helplessly, "After all, you have to pass this level, Bai An, compared to what happened in childhood, the despair after this second hope is the darkest, I hope you don't collapse. 」

"The girlfriend you are talking about, is it really her?" Bai An's face was full of disbelief but felt ridiculous and wanted to cry: "This, physical doll, Miss?"

I smiled and said, "If it weren't for her, I'd definitely fall in love with you." ”

Bai An still asked me repeatedly: "The girlfriend you are talking about, is it actually her?" Her tears rolled down her pale cheeks, and she whispered in disbelief: "Why? It's me, what's wrong with me? I, can't I even compare to a physical doll, no, even her?"

Bai An could be hysterical when he talked about his childhood, but now he didn't seem to have the slightest strength, and just said dreamily: "Ah Hurt, you, do you dislike what I said? You, do you think I'm dirty? But I've said it all, I'm not defiled, Ah Hurt? Are you lying to me?"

Looking at her eyes, which were gradually indistinguishable from those of a dead man, I felt that the effect of the fierce medicine was already enough, but it was too much. So I replied softly, "I will never lie to you." ”

Her eyes flashed, but they were lifeless again.

I continued, "She's my girlfriend indeed, a physical doll. Also, I love her. ”

I sat next to Bai An, looked at her, and said slowly, "I'll tell you my story too." ”

I used to be a loner too. Lonely to the point that I became addicted to this loneliness. So, I wanted to figure out why sometimes I enjoyed solitude, and other times it caused me so much sadness. So I thought, why am I in so much pain?

Then I figured out that the pain was because I was missing something, and that was called intimacy.

I always felt like I was walking on the edge of this world, and everyone in my organization was like that. So gradually, our organization became called: The Walkers. Of course, I didn't say this to Bai An.

Why? Because we don't have close people around us. Only yourself.

What is intimacy? It's a feeling that you can feel that you are being deeply understood, cared for, valued, and cared for by someone you love.

So, I met Xiaoxiao for the first time.

She can give me all that feeling. Although that feeling was given to me by myself.

The fear of loneliness is deeply rooted in my heart, and once I can find a warm, warm, and caring home, how can I resist this temptation when I am struggling in the emptiness?

But I was a psychiatrist after all, and I didn't love her as much as I do now.

But as I gradually shared all my joys and sorrows with her, whether she was a piece of code or an ordinary doll, she was my closest person.

I also have a mental disorder. My heart is also fragile. I miss the old days so much. I was so reluctant to give her up. So, I decided to open the door of my heart.

I gave her a soul, and she came back to life.

So, she now has a soul. It holds all my sorrows, all my joys.

You can think of her as a vegetative person, the vegetative person with whom I used to fall in love.

I could see her soul, and that was love.

Bai An had already stopped crying.

"I envy you. She said, "But I smile more with envy." ”

Bai An showed a smile that I hadn't seen for a long time: "Do you want me to find a boyfriend like this?" But I'm sorry, I already have someone I love." I will always be by that person's side like a smile. ”

There was silence.

I didn't dare respond.

Why?

What am I afraid of?

As she parted, she looked back at me, smiling, tears shining like crystal. I saw the shape of her mouth, and she was saying, "I'm sad."

This sight is so unforgettable with the glow of the sunset.

Alluring the city and the country.

We have laughed, we have cried, we have dependence and trust, we have understanding and love. It seems that all the necessary elements for love are there. But this seems to be just Bai An's own performance. As for me, I, will I fall in love with her?

I don't know, I just know that I'm still expressionless.

Psychotherapy always has to go deep into the heart. A deeper heart than ordinary love.

But deep in the heart, but not for a long time.

So, I got drunk.

The lover can be replenished by emotional interaction and inner gaps, but no one can fill the loneliness in his heart, and she has a world that no one else can ever understand, and many people have never understood.

However, I can.

Because I have surveillance.

Bai An said she was sad. Plus I think she still has something to hide from me. So I feel like I need to keep monitoring her.

Well, it's time to visit my neighbors. It's really rude to put the pinholes in place and hang them.

The neighbor who lived in the east was an old man named Kim, Caucasian, with small triangular eyes, on the thin side, but not very thin. He often bent over, saying that he used to bend over at work, but he was used to it. He said that there were so many knick-knacks he made when he was young that only a small part of them are now stored in his basement, and most of them are rotten.

Rotten?

He said yes, rotten, those things can't stand the time, it's still fresh, it's the best, it's strong and textured.

Well, strange, an old man who looks a little kind at first glance, but can't see through it when you look closely.

The neighbors who live in the West are a husband and wife, the male owner is named Wang Li, wearing a pair of black-framed glasses, and his figure is slightly rich, which is the standard figure of a middle-aged man. In his thirties, he has no children yet. He used to be a respected university teacher, and in the eyes of his neighbors, he was a happy and happy married man.

Well, honest, ordinary couple.

Sure enough, it was a peaceful town, and I sighed again. It's hard to hear words like ordinary, kind, and so on in other towns. I didn't expect my two neighbors to be like that.

Emotion is emotion, I still have to observe it routinely.

However, this look makes me creepy.

From then on, I finally understood the advice of the withered old man before entering the town. This town is no longer called Peace Town in my mind.

I call it "Gongzhen". The word 'fear' is unintentional, that is, Gong. Since then, I have finally thoroughly understood a sentence that has been circulating in the organization for a long time: killing people is not terrifying, it is the human heart that is terrifying.

This Gongzhen, it contains all the things you can think of or can't think of. The few people I met after that, without exception, were labelled as 'untreatable' by me.

The picture on the monitor was unremarkable, but I had a faint sense of an eerie aura coming from it. I shuddered, but I couldn't take my eyes off the monitor.

Kim's performance in the past few days has been mediocre, fully playing the image of a kind old man.

And Wang Li, the middle-aged man who made me feel good at first sight, really scared me.