At ten o'clock in the morning of the next day, Qin Xiyue came to the long-distance bus station and wanted to take the car back to Yinzhou. Pingxi is a small county town, surrounded by mountains, and there is only a large footbasin in the middle, and the county seat is built in a crowded manner. The traffic here is extremely inconvenient, the train is not passable, and the car first has to pass through the strange mountains and mountains to reach Qinling City, and then from Qinling to various places. There are not too many people at the station, and when winter comes, the people here don't want to go out anymore, they are used to the leisure days of guarding the south wall in winter, holding the sun and lying noisily, and they are very unhappy if anyone spoils their kind of days.

The moment he bought the ticket, a shadow suddenly flashed in Qin Xiyue's eyes. "Xiaosu!" He shouted, hurriedly withdrew the hand that had reached into the ticket window, turned around and pushed out. The conductor in the window said dissatisfiedly: "What's the matter with you, do you want to buy or not?" Qin Xiyue couldn't care to explain to her, and chased after the station in a hurry. He saw Xiao Su just now, it's really Xiao Su! Qin Xiyue was sure that this time he was not mistaken, the woman who flashed by with a black bag in her hand and a backpack on her shoulder must be Xiaosu! How did she end up in this place? What is she doing in this place? A series of questions popped up in Qin Xiyue's mind, he really didn't expect to see his family's Xiaosu in this remote place.

He was stopped by the ticket inspector, who did not let him cross the iron fence because he did not buy a ticket. At this time, there was already a car started on the platform, and intuitively, Qin Xiyue concluded that Xiaosu got into the car, he was a little anxious, and quarreled with the ticket inspector: "My Xiaosu, my Xiaosu is inside!" The ticket inspector said viciously: "What are you and mine, buy a ticket!" ”

Just as he turned around and walked towards the ticket office, a shadow shook in the car, and Qin Xiyue clearly saw Xiaosu's face. It's Xiao Su, Xiao Su got into that car!

When the platform ticket was empty, an idea suddenly popped into Qin Xiyue's mind, and he jumped out of the waiting room in a few steps, and stretched out his hand to stop a noodle one. The driver asked him where he was going, and Qin Xiyue said, "Follow the long-distance bus in front, where it goes, you will go." ”

"It's a long-distance bus, it's going to the countryside." The driver stared at him suspiciously.

"I'm just going to follow the long bus." Qin Xiyue thought that the driver was talkative, and responded dissatisfiedly.

"It's expensive to run long distances, why don't I pull you over and get into that car?" The driver said kindly.

"Who told you to save money for me, let you follow you, what are you talking about?"

The driver took a beating, stepped on the accelerator, and followed. muttered in his heart, this person doesn't look like a police officer, and he doesn't look like a rich man, why do you do this? After thinking for a while, he said uneasily: "Okay, then you will have to pay according to the meter." ”

"I said that you are endless, did I say that I would not give you money?"

The driver saw that he was really hot, so he didn't emphasize it anymore and started driving.

The noodles quickly drove out of the county, followed the long-distance bus, and went up the mountain road. Qin Xiyue thought to himself, this time, he must find out what happened between Xiaosu and Ruye, and why she kept avoiding them and refused to see them.

The mountain road gets rougher and rougher, and the sight is getting empty, and you can hardly see anything but desolation and barrenness in the winter sun. This is the famous loess plateau, the mountains are staggered, the mountains are vertical and horizontal, and the highway is like the blood vessels of the mountain, winding and twisting, extending step by step in the cracks. Apart from the scattered vehicles on the road, not even a single bird could be seen. People were even more scarce, and after walking for nearly an hour, Qin Xiyue's eyes saw that a person came in, a shepherd, with a whip in his hand, and he was shaking it with a whip. The sound, like the roar of a mountain, was extraordinarily brittle and extraordinarily wild. Looking for the sound, halfway up the mountainside, Qin Xiyue saw a sheep that looked like cotton fluttering and moving.

On this bare mountain, sheep can actually live while gnawing on the ground, and Qin Xiyue's heart swelled with a layer of admiration. Let him say that it is a miracle that this day can live in the bitter land that does not love the earth and does not hurt.

About to walk this way, the driver was also a little lonely, a little sleepy, and chattered with Qin Xiyue without words. Qin Xiyue was not so impatient for a while, Xiaosu was always in his sight, she couldn't run away, so she also chatted with the driver with confidence.

After walking for another two hours, Qin Xiyue's heart was about to smoke, and the long-distance bus stopped at a mountain pass in front, and it happened to be Xiaosu who got out of the car with her, and the one who got off with her was an old man, who was about the same age as Qin Xiyue, but the difference was that the old man's legs were lame, and his movement was very inconvenient.

Qin Xiyue said to stop. The driver looked in front and then at Qin Xiyue, and suddenly asked, "You won't be coming at her, right?" Seeing that Qin Xiyue was silent, he asked again: "Are you her father?" ”

"How do you know?" Qin Xiyue stared at the driver fiercely, his gaze was a little scary. The driver smiled: "I'm just thinking, what kind of taxi are you taking for some reason, now I know, you must be looking for her, right?" ”

Qin Xiyue snorted, he was listening to the driver.

"She's a good person, in our Huajialing, everyone praises her." The driver said again.

"You know her?" Qin Xiyue became more and more surprised, he seemed to have heard of Huajialing, but he couldn't remember where he heard it for a while.

The driver parked the car, lit a cigarette, and said to Qin Xiyue while smoking: "I am also from Huajialing, and I am too poor to support my family, so I went to the county seat to open a taxi." Teacher Zhu came last year, she also took my car, I knew you were here for her, so I didn't need to bother so much, I overtook it, wouldn't it be better to pull Teacher Zhu and the old principal together? The driver was a little regretful, and he could see that the two people who got out of the car in front of him had a very high status in his mind.

At this time, Xiaosu and the old principal had left the road and turned onto a mountain road. The driver asked if he wanted to drive the car over, Qin Xiyue shook his head, he wanted to know more about the situation from the driver's mouth.

The driver was actually a good talker, and when he saw that Qin Xiyue listened carefully, he also spoke with great interest. Qin Xiyue only then knew that as early as more than a year ago, Xiaosu had left Yinzhou to become a teacher at Huajialing Hope Primary School. Before Xiaosu, in such a poor place as Huajialing, few public teachers came, and it was only three or five months after they came, and they flew away like birds. Xiaosu not only signed a lifelong contract with Huajialing Primary School, but also took out his 50,000 yuan to pay three years of tuition for more than 20 children.

The lame old man is the principal of Huajialing Primary School, who has been on this mountain ridge all his life and has been a companion with the children in the mountains for decades. His leg was broken in the rainstorm to save the child.

The driver is also a lover, and after learning Qin Xiyue's identity, he refused to charge a penny for anything, which made Qin Xiyue very embarrassed.

Sending the driver away, Qin Xiyue was not in a hurry to go to school, he sat down on a hillside not far from the school, lit a cigarette, and smoked slowly. The driver's words made him suddenly understand one thing, Xiaosu was hiding from them. The purpose of choosing such a place to live in seclusion is to avoid everyone who knows her well, including her former in-laws. The driver also told him that Zhu Xiaosu is not called Zhu Xiaosu now, her name here is Zhu Xiaoxiao. Qin Xiyue is a rational person, although he is so anxious to see Xiao Su in his heart, and he wants to call her Xiao Su in person, but he is afraid that rashly intruding into Xiao Su's life will disturb her tranquility and even bring harm to her again.

In the days when Sisi came back, he also asked his brother Ruye many times, and asked about his sister-in-law, Qin Xiyue really couldn't answer, he didn't dare to tell Sisi the news of Ruye's divorce, let alone tell Sisi that Xiaosu's whereabouts were unknown, she hid in a place where no one could find her, chewing the bitter fruits of life in loneliness and pain. Sisi was a heartless child, and she didn't pester him in this matter, nor did she dig into the roots, but from her expression, Qin Xiyue believed that she had sensed something. After Sisi went back, he called Ruye twice, once he didn't get through, and once he got through, but the chat was very unpleasant. Ruye is still the same as before, his mood is very bad, and his tone of voice is also very bad, as if his life has become like this, which is caused by Qin Xiyue. Qin Xiyue chatted with him for a few words, and hung up the phone in a huff. He couldn't stand the children's heartless and unreasonable appearance, but he just fell in love with such a son.

Sitting on the hillside, Qin Xiyue's heart was filled with a thick layer of sadness. Half of this sadness comes from Ruye and Xiaosu, and half comes from himself. Qin Xiyue admitted that he was not a good father or a good husband. For the two children, there is always more demand than care, more than care. In the past days, he rarely had time to communicate with his children, and he was a little better with his daughter Sisi, but he really didn't fulfill his responsibilities as a father. Back then, Ruye wanted to learn painting and engage in art, Qin Xiyue first strongly objected, and then saw that Ruye had made up his mind and would never give up, Qin Xiyue jumped like thunder and scolded Ru for ruining himself: "If you don't choose so many majors, why do you want to choose a meaningless major?" In his heart, men should pin their ideals on natural sciences and choose those majors that can benefit mankind, so that their lives are not wasted. As for the so-called artistic things such as painting and poetry, Qin Xiyue stubbornly called them degenerate professions, believing that he was wasting his life extravagantly. At home, he never watches TV series, let alone entertainment programs, and he doesn't know any of the current popular elements, and he doesn't allow children to mention them. Sisi scolded him more than once for being an old monster, but he said loudly: "The old monster is the old monster, in short, you are not allowed to engage in those nonsense things." ”

Ruye finally chose painting, so far, the knot between the father and son has been completely knotted, a few years of college, Qin Xiyue has never asked Ruye about his studies, let alone what plans he has in the future. What can be planned? With a pen, even if you can draw a day, what can you do? Especially when he saw his son with messy long hair and walking through the street without anyone or ghost, his heart was about to explode with anger. He decided that his son had gone astray, and he was simply mad! As Ruye entered the society, in many things, he and Ruye's concepts could not be reconciled, and the contradictions became deeper and deeper. The original communication between the father and son was completely gone, and they became passers-by. If he also left the northwest and went to Shenzhen to develop, it cannot be said that there is a factor of escaping from this family, but as for him, not only did he not patiently persuade his son, but also threatened to cut off relations with Ruye. If it weren't for Xiaosu, who eased the contradictions in this family later, I'm afraid that he would really break off the relationship with his son.

Oh, Xiaosu. Sitting on the hillside, Qin Xiyue couldn't help but call out to Xiaosu again in his heart.

On this day, Qin Xiyue finally couldn't resist the urge to see Xiaosu, the sun slowly slid over the top of the mountain in the west, and the moment it fell down, he stood up, stepped on the broken shadow of the sunset, and walked towards the school halfway up the mountain.

Hearing Qin Xiyue's call, Zhu Xiaosu was completely stupid. When the sunset faded, Zhu Xiaosu had just sent the students back from school, and the students from two villages had to pass through a deep ditch after school, and a landslide occurred there a few days ago, almost burying a group of sheep passing by under the mountain. She was heading towards the dormitory when she heard a voice behind her: "Xiaosu." ”

Zhu Xiaosu suddenly looked back and was surprised to see that it was Qin Xiyue, and immediately stunned. She couldn't have dreamed that Qin Xiyue would find here!

"Xiaosu, I finally found you, you kid ......" Qin Xiyue couldn't go on, in the dusk, under the evening breeze, he saw a stream of tears rushing out of Xiaosu's eyes, bursting the embankment, and pouring wildly.

"Son, you have suffered." Qin Xiyue choked up, standing in front of Xiao Su, he didn't know what to do for a while, having experienced the hardships of life. Zhu Xiaosu's body trembled, and the evening breeze blew her swaying, as if she might fall down at any time. In the twilight of this day, Zhu Xiaosu seemed to be able to express his emotions only by shedding tears, and it seemed that only by shedding tears could he pour out his thoughts for more than two years.

When the two of them were at a loss by this sudden meeting, the old principal walked in from outside the school and called out in surprise: "Guests, Teacher Zhu?" Xiaosu raised his head sadly, wiped his tears and said, "Dad, let's go inside." ”

This "Dad" directly warmed Qin Xiyue's heart, and the fatigue all the way disappeared in an instant.

It's gone.

Principal Mao is a very knowledgeable person, and when he heard the relationship between Qin Xiyue and Xiaosu, he was surprised and said, "It's not easy, you can find such a remote place by yourself." After saying that, he excused himself to boil water and went to the kitchen.

When there were only two people left in the room, Qin Xiyue and Xiaosu, the air suddenly became heavy, and it was so heavy that it was breathless. Many questions were buried in his heart, and for a while, Qin Xiyue couldn't ask. Xiaosu still understands others and knows why Qin Xiyue came, and at this time, she didn't want to hide anything, and in a deep tone, she told the bleak story that happened two years ago.

Qin Xiyue was shocked!

He couldn't help but be shocked!

Ruye's marriage with Xiaosu has long had cracks, and that child is not Ruye!

"I betrayed him first, and I don't want to ask for his forgiveness, let alone expect to be forgiven by your two elders......" In Xiao Su's almost confessional memories, Qin Xiyue heard a story that seemed like a fantasy. It turned out that in the years when Ruye went to Shenzhen to work hard, Xiaosu was lonely, because she couldn't get her husband's care and companionship, and she fell in love with her principal, a man many years older than her. When Xiaosu left Yinzhou and went to Shenzhen to join Ruye, she was already pregnant with the principal's child. At first, she wanted to hide it, which was the stupidest idea of a woman in the world, thinking that men would not understand the things in her stomach so clearly. Anyway, Ruya had been to Yinzhou before, and it was a week or two wrong before and after. As soon as she vomited, Ruye immediately asked, "Are you pregnant?" Xiao Su blushed and nodded slightly, thinking that Ru would also be overjoyed and hugged her up. They have been married for many years, Xiaosu has never been pregnant, and she thinks that she must be like her, looking forward to this child in her heart.

Ruye spread his butt on the sofa, his face turned pale, and after a long time, he asked in a deep voice: "Tell me, is there a man over there?" ”

This sentence immediately made Xiaosu's heart collapse with luck, at first she wanted to deny it, and she didn't want to admit it soon, but how do you know, if she also saw her shaking her head, she pounced and tore her hair: "Say, who is that man?" After being beaten violently by Ruye, Xiaosu knew that it was meaningless to deny, so he nodded and admitted that he had an affair.

Ruye was really crazy that day, according to Xiaosu's description, Ruye actually had a crazy side for a long time. It's just that, most of the time, he hides this side with silence or other means. In their marriage that is not too long but not too short, there have been a few crazy performances. For example, if he drank wine, he wanted to paint on Xiaosu's body through wine, and if Xiaosu didn't comply, he would pounce hysterically, want to strip her naked, and blast her out of the door. Also, in the dead of night, when Xiaosu had already fallen asleep, he would sneak out of bed unconsciously and check Xiaosu's satchel, mobile phone, and even wardrobe. Xiaosu doesn't know if the reason why she has an affair has something to do with this. She didn't think about it that way afterwards, in short, it was she who betrayed Ruya and cuckolded him.

She admits that she is immoral, and she has indeed made a lot of efforts for this family and for them, but she doesn't know how to cherish it.

She told Qin Xiyue that it was because of this guilt that she didn't dare to see them, so she could only sneak to the hospital, run to the road to the hospital, and look at them from a distance.

Qin Xiyue was shocked at first, then angry, and then made Xiaosu's words quiet, and in his heart, he actually forgave her for Ruye.

On this day, Xiao Su was tantamount to stripping himself naked, from his soul to his body, and he was bloodily presented in front of Qin Xiyue. There was no begging for forgiveness in her words, and there was no thought of returning to Ruya. She said that after this emotional change, she seems to have become desperate, and only hopes that for the rest of her life, she can live quietly in the mountains and be with her children.

She loves children.

The child, who did not belong to her and Ruya, unfortunately miscarried in a quarrel.

She would never have children with any man again.

After speaking, she lowered her head and calmly waited for Qin Xiyue to judge her.

Qin Xiyue really made Xiaosu's words dizzy this day, and he actually ignored an important plot: how could Ru Ye be so sure that the child was not his?

Xiao Su didn't tell him, Xiao Su knew that this matter could never be said, even if she died, she would hide this secret for Ru Ye.

If you are also sick.

In the third year of marriage, he secretly went to the hospital for a check-up, and he suffered from congenital infertility.

Xiao Su thought that Ruye's crazy actions might have something to do with it.

This night, Qin Xiyue had no sleep, Xiao Su had no sleep, and the old principal sat under the starry sky, and he also had no sleep all night.

The old principal really wants to be noisy with Qin Xiyue, this deep mountain and old ditch, it is rare to come to such a guest, he is used to being lonely in the mountains, but if he is lonely for too long, he will also go crazy, and he also wants to find someone to vent.

He wanted to tell Qin Xiyue that this school was built with donations from the old Red Army, who was originally from Huajialing, participated in the revolution in his early years, climbed snow-capped mountains, crossed grasslands, and later followed General Wang Zhen, jumped over the Yellow River, and fought all the way to Xinjiang. After the liberation of Xinjiang, he responded to the call of the central government, took off his military uniform, and threw himself into the construction of the frontier. When he returned to his hometown that year, he was shocked to see that his hometown was still the same, there was no decent school, and dozens of children were crawling in the cave to attend classes. After returning home, he donated his savings and the manuscript fee from writing his memoirs to his hometown and built this school. But since the school was built, no young people have been willing to teach in this ravine. The old principal ran over and appealed with his weak strength, and to this day, except for Zhu Xiaosu, there is no second person who can hand himself over to this poor mountain and evil mountain.

The old principal was afraid that Qin Xiyue would take Xiaosu away.

The old principal wanted to make an appeal to the children in the mountains through Qin Xiyue. Children in the mountains are also children, and they must not be allowed to become illiterate and become illiterate from generation to generation.

Qin Xiyue was in the mood to listen to the old principal say this again, before the sky was clear, he got up and left. Before leaving, he left Xiaosu with a word: "Child, no matter what happens to you and Ru in the future, Dad and Mom will always look forward to you coming home." After taking a few steps, he turned around again and said with tears in his eyes, "Your mother...... Miss you! ”