The next morning, before nine o'clock, Qin Xiyue called Che Shusheng and asked him if he had anything to do today, if he could bring the car, he wanted to check Kexin's illness. Che Shusheng dared to refuse, and hurriedly said: "It's okay, it's okay, you wait, I'll be there in a while." ”

Taking Kexin to the hospital was Qin Xiyue's idea last night. Originally, after Kexin moved back from the hospital, she had to go to the hospital for a re-examination on a regular basis, at least twice a year, but when she was re-examined in May of the previous year, something happened and almost killed Kexin, and Qin Xiyue never dared to take Kexin to the hospital again.

May of the year before last was the time when Kexin's condition was the most serious, and it was also the time when Qin Xiyue's life was the most bleak and distressing. Half a year ago, her son Qin Ru also suddenly divorced, drove the pregnant Zhu Xiaosu out of the house, and threatened her that if he dared to let Qin Xiyue and his wife know, he would kill her. His son Qin Ru has also been in Shenzhen, and after graduating from university, he was supposed to teach in Xi'an, but he was restless and insisted on going south to work hard. After a few years of hard work, he had a house and a car in Shenzhen, and he made a name for himself in the art world. Of course, Zhu Xiaosu is happy, her husband has made a difference and achieved something, and the hardships of separation between the two places over the years have not been in vain. With the support of Qin Xiyue, Zhu Xiaosu quit her job as a teacher at Yinzhou Middle School and ran to her husband. Unexpectedly, within two months of going, the family fell apart.

They really concealed this matter from Qin Xiyue and his wife, although their husband and wife had a very fierce quarrel, and it is said that Qin Ru almost used a knife, but the news has been firmly blocked between the two of them, and there is no news from Yincheng here. At that time, Kexin's illness was in the best state of recovery, not only could she get up and get off the ground, but she could also communicate with Qin Xiyue in simple language. The shadow of the fright many years ago is about to pass, and Kexin is about to return to normal. Even Dr. Jiang said that if this continues, the situation will be very optimistic, maybe half a year, maybe a year, Kexin will be able to fully recover. This is really a great joy, Qin Xiyue is very happy in his heart.

However, disaster struck at this time. It was the second day of spring, Qin Xiyue remembered very clearly, the ice and snow melted in Yincheng, the trees gradually rose, the earth spit out a breath of spring, and the water of the Yellow River slowly flowed under the iron bridge, carrying the ice floes floating downstream, and also carrying the spring in the distance. Qin Xiyue pushed the trolley and accompanied Kexin to stand at the head of the Yellow River bridge, his heart was full of spring, and his face was more joyful than spring. The tragedy happened when he went home at noon, Qin Xiyue pushed Kexin and walked home with great interest, Kexin could not only make a simple sound, but also stretched out his hand and pointed to the peach blossom mountain in the distance and said: "Peach blossom, peach blossom." Qin Xiyue knew that Ke Xin must have remembered her mother and the Peach Blossom Nunnery on Peach Blossom Mountain. He said happily: "Don't worry, tomorrow, tomorrow I will accompany you up the mountain." A flush welled up on Kexin's face—a flush of happiness.

As soon as he turned into the alley, the four plum blossoms pounced. The four plum blossoms were like a trapped beast that day, no, more fierce than the trapped beast. As soon as he pounced out, he tore Kexin on the trolley: "You pay my daughter, you pay my daughter-"

Qin Xiyue was frightened, this sudden scene really stunned him, so much so that he grabbed the trolley with both hands, and forgot that he should run over first and push the four plum blossoms away. The four plum blossoms tore Kexin's neck, and they scattered wild without saying anything.

"You have a bad conscience, you are retribution, compensate my daughter, compensate my Susu." Si Meihua cried and screamed, grabbed Kexin's hair with both hands, and then even viciously stuck Kexin's neck with one hand.

"Wow, wow......" Kexin stretched out her hands to the sky and let out a cracking cry.

Qin Xiyue reacted at this time, he let go of his hand and ran over, wanting to tear her hair like Si Meihua, but he really couldn't learn, so he could only say in a panic: "Mother-in-law, you are crazy!" But she's sick, you-"

"Sick? Do you still know about illness? You wear people's clothes, eat people's food and don't do anything, pay my daughter! The four plum blossoms let go of Kexin, turned around suddenly, and crashed into Qin Xiyue headlong, Qin Xiyue was defenseless, and let the four plum blossoms fall to the ground at once. The four plum blossoms are young and old in their family, and they are pampered and pampered, and their temperament is very violent. When the two families got married, the only thing that made Qin Xiyue and his wife feel uncomfortable was this mother-in-law. After Ruye and Xiaosu got married, Qin Xiyue and his wife rarely went to their in-laws' house, and Kexin's physical condition, the two families had almost no contact over the years. Si Meihua probably also hated this, thinking that the Qin family was rich and powerful, and did not take her, a common person, in her eyes, and now that her daughter was kicked out of the house by the son of the Qin family, her life and death are uncertain, how can she not be crazy?

"You are an old shameless person, raise a little shameless one, and you will harm my daughter!" The four plum blossoms knocked over the vulnerable Qin Xiyue, and they didn't understand their hatred, so they turned around and pounced on Kexin.

Kexin must have recognized the four plum blossoms that day, and she must have heard Xiaosu from the mouth of the four plum blossoms. It's hard for you to imagine Kexin's relationship with Xiaosu. She treats this daughter-in-law better than her own daughter, and she loves and pities her. I'm afraid this is related to her mother, Aunt Mei's renunciation has hit Kexin very hard, and she feels that one of the relatives who can rely on her the most left her and escaped into the empty door. So she moved this relationship to Xiaosu, and the intimacy and attachment between her and Xiaosu were just like Aunt Mei and her back then. This family has always staged this mother-daughter story like a sister.

"Su ...... Su ...... "The violence of the four plum blossoms was painful, and Kexin made such a sound. By the time Qin Xiyue got up from the ground, retrieved his glasses, put them on, and rushed to help, it was already too late. While plucking Kexin's hair, Si Meihua let out a wild cry like a wolf: "My Su Su, my Su Su let that beast kill you!" ”

"Heavenly ——!"

Qin Xiyue had a bang in his head, his legs went limp, and he fell down weakly. When Lao Wu next door rushed out when he heard the sound and took away the four plum blossoms, he found that his Kexin, who had just recovered, was hanging his head on the armrest of the trolley, foaming at the mouth, his eyes were white, and he was like he was dead.

Threatened by this, Kexin fell ill again, and the situation was even worse than before. Qin Xiyue's four-year efforts were in vain, and Ke Xin's hopes for recovery were almost completely shattered!

Dr. Jiang was stunned: "How can this be, how can this be? She's just getting a little better, where can she withstand another threat? After treatment for a while, Dr. Jiang said helplessly: "Let's go back, I'm afraid that hospitalization won't have any effect if she's like this." Let her go home, recuperate in peace, and remember, she can't be stimulated again. ”

In May, Qin Xiyue suddenly found that Kexin, who was seriously ill, was a little abnormal, and seemed to have memories again. When I went to bed at night, I actually said a dream word and clearly called out Xiaosu's name. Qin Xiyue was not excited, so he called the car the next day and took Kexin to the hospital. Dr. Jiang didn't believe it at first, thinking that Qin Xiyue was talking in his sleep, and according to her judgment, Kexin's condition would last for at least five years. Kexin's condition is inherently strange, she is an accident, and her brain cells are suddenly paralyzed after being highly frightened, which is also rare in medicine. Generally speaking, after being highly frightened, a person will have schizophrenia, hallucinations, depression, or panic, convulsions, incontinence and other symptoms. But Kexin is amnesia, closed, and limb nerve atrophy, which is similar to brain death. Dr. Jiang suspected that Kexin had a cerebral thrombosis or blockage before she was frightened, but she didn't pay attention to it, and her family didn't notice it. Qin Xiyue was not sure about this, only said that she occasionally had symptoms such as dizziness, dizziness, and even insomnia before. After the second shock, the part of the brain cells that have been resurrected "dies" again, and the patient's symptoms only worsen, and it is unlikely that there will be a significant improvement in the short term. Qin Xiyue didn't give up, he had to check it out with Doctor Jiang, he said that he listened very well last night, and Kexin really called Xiaosu's name. Dr. Jiang said that this is not surprising, her brain cells are just fake deaths, not completely out of work, and the occasional hallucinations or excitement can also be explained. Although Dr. Jiang was talking, the examination was still very serious. Two hours later, Kexin was taken out of the examination room, and Dr. Jiang said excitedly: "Her condition is indeed better than I imagined, thanks to your meticulous care, if this condition continues to develop, there is still hope for recovery." ”

After prescribing medicine and listening to Dr. Jiang's advice, Qin Xiyue picked Kexin into the car and walked home. On the way, he was very excited, held Kexin's hand, and said over and over again: "Kexin, have you heard, there is hope, Dr. Jiang has said it, there is hope." The car was running on the highway north of the Yellow River, and Qin Xiyue's heart was also galloping with a warm current. Hope finally let him catch it again, he believes that a miracle will appear, and his Kexin will definitely stand up and walk under the blue sky and white clouds again like a healthy person.

Yes, blue sky and white clouds.

The sky was really blue that day, a few white clouds floated in the air, like cotton, and the fields in the suburbs were extremely enchanting, splashing endless splendor on him. Qin Xiyue hadn't seen such a beautiful scenery for a long time, and he was a little forgetful for a while, and for a moment, he even threw away Kexin's hand and yelled at the field outside the car, causing the driver to look back and look at him in surprise.

The car drove from the suburbs to the city, and at the moment when it was about to turn onto Anning Avenue, a terrible scene happened. It was about Qin Xiyue's forgetfulness that affected Ke Xin, and Ke Xin actually poked her eyes out of the window, but at the moment when the car turned a corner, Ke Xin suddenly struggled out of her seat, opened the car door and threw herself out. The driver and Qin Xiyue heard it at the same time, and Ke Xin shouted: "Xiaosu!" Fortunately, Qin Xiyue retracted his gaze in time and hugged Kexin, if he slowed down a little, the consequences would be unimaginable. Kexin, who had never moved her hands and feet, actually opened the car door at that moment, and half of her body had leaned out of the car. Oh my God, if she's a second short, she'll jump!

She must have hallucinated and mistaken the girl walking on the street for Xiaosu.

After that, Qin Xiyue no longer dared to take Kexin to the hospital, for fear that if he was not careful, something dangerous would happen again. When it's time for a recheck, he will find a way to bring Dr. Jiang back, but fortunately, Dr. Jiang is also a warm-hearted woman, and she is really close to Kexin.

Not long after the phone call, Che Shusheng came, and he also brought a female graduate student in the institute, probably to take care of Kexin to make it easier. Several people were busy for a while and carried Kexin into the car. Ke Xin's body was already thin, but she has been sick all these years, and she has become even thinner, and Qin Xiyue, who is sixty years old, still seems to be very easy to hold her.

The psychiatric rehabilitation hospital is located on the outskirts of the Yellow River, which is out of the provincial capital and is a county below Yinzhou. After the car hit the road, Che Shusheng said, "Someone called me last night to greet you." ”

"Who?" Qin Xiyue asked mechanically.

"Guess what?" The sound of the car tree seemed to be deliberately trying to liven up the atmosphere in the car, but Qin Xiyue ignored him: "If you want to talk about it, if you don't want to say it, pull it down." With this spare time, think about the right thing. ”

"Forget it, since you're not interested, I won't talk about it." Che Tree Voice.

"What's the matter with you, when did you learn from your mother-in-law?" Qin Xiyue suddenly became unhappy. Che Shusheng smiled secretly, it seemed that he was still uneasy in his heart. "Elder Wang." He seemed to be casually telling the caller.

"What?" Qin Xiyue in the car shook suddenly, and subconsciously bounced up, "Elder Wang? He...... What did he call for? Qin Xiyue's voice trembled a little, and it could be seen that this Wang Lao was very unusual.

Che Shusheng didn't rush to answer, he didn't mean to make Qin Xiyue anxious, in fact, this question was really difficult for him to answer.

The call was not made by Mr. Wang, it was he who made the call without authorization and called Mr. Wang. Che Shusheng lied to Qin Xiyue.

Che Shusheng has this character, some ideas are either not generated, and when they are generated, they can't stop wanting to implement them. At the moment, he is really anxious for Qin Xiyue, he is afraid that Qin Xiyue will not quarrel or make trouble, and let the family be wronged in vain. In a hurry, he was in a hurry to get to Old Man Wang. At this time, only Wang Lao can help Qin Xiyue, and only Wang Lao can publicly stand up and support Qin Xiyue. With a nervous heart, he first dialed the phone number of Mr. Wang's secretary, but fortunately, the secretary was there, he said that he had something important to report to Mr. Wang, and the secretary asked him who he was? Che Shusheng remembered that if he wanted to buy time at Wang Lao's place and get a chance to talk, he should first report to his home. So he said that he was a student of Wang Lao, the director of the desert institute, and also reported Qin Xiyue's name. He was afraid that if he just talked about himself, Wang Lao might ignore it, and if he said Qin Xiyue, Wang Lao's phone call would be settled. The secretary said that Mr. Wang was receiving guests and asked him to wait for an hour. As a result, he waited for three hours, and was about to be disappointed, when the phone suddenly called.

After the phone was connected, Wang Lao smiled and said, "You are a small car, do you have something to do with me?" ”

Che Shusheng was excited and grateful, and told Qin Xiyue and Heyang in one go. Wang Lao was silent for a long time and said, "I just heard about this, but I don't know that Xiyue has been suspended. In this way, you tell Xiyue not to worry, rest for a few days first, and then contact him when I figure this out. Che Shusheng hurriedly said yes, well, it took a long time before he remembered that he should greet Wang Lao's body and family first. But before he could ask, Wang Lao's voice sounded again: "Little car, how is your work going over there?" How did I hear that the desertification rate in Tengger is getting faster and faster, and the poplar river basin is about to run out of water, which is very dangerous. ”

As soon as he asked, Che Shu's voice was dumbfounded.

Wang Lao didn't force him to report on the phone, and when he answered a little hesitantly, he said: "Tell Xiyue that in a few days, I will go to Yinzhou to see him, and by the way, I will talk to him about the Huyang River Valley." ”

After talking on the phone, Che Shusheng was really excited in his heart.

"Mr. Wang...... He didn't approve me on the phone, did he? After a long time, Qin Xiyue asked again.

"No, no, he told you to have a good rest, said ......"

"Say what?"

"Elder Wang said that after a while, he will come to Yinzhou and make a special trip to visit you."

"Is he really coming?" Qin Xiyue was also encouraged by this news.

The scenery in the hospital is really beautiful, like a paradise, as soon as the car drove into the gate of the hospital, Qin Xiyue saw the figure of Dr. Jiang waiting downstairs.

Dr. Jiang is over 60 years old, a few years older than him, but when Xin first fell ill, she was still on the job, and she was rehired by the hospital over the years. Several people were busy and carried Kexin upstairs. After asking a few questions, Dr. Jiang asked the nurses to bring Kexin into the treatment room.

The young graduate student stayed in Dr. Jiang's office, waiting to call at any time, Che Shusheng didn't know where to run to answer the phone, and his mobile phone kept ringing in the car, probably because he was afraid that Qin Xiyue would be annoyed, so he didn't dare to answer. Qin Xiyue knew that the treatment had been going on for a long time, he was in turmoil, and he couldn't wait, so he simply walked out and walked along the corridor in the building to the side where Kexin had been hospitalized.

The hospital is a bit quiet, and the psychiatric rehabilitation hospital is a special place, and in the imagination of ordinary people, it may be a mess, but in fact, it is much quieter than the average hospital. Under the scorching sun in September, the flowers in the yard are quietly blooming, and there is a very open garden in front of the hospital building, in addition to planting potatoes and vegetables, there are many kinds of flowers. Half of these flowers Qin Xiyue can't be named, and they are rarely seen elsewhere. Some of them bloom in March and May, while others wait until July and August. Qin Xiyue's impression is that this is the world of flowers, the ocean of flowers. The hospital can use flowers to decorate the world of patients, which once moved Qin Xiyue very much. When Kexin was hospitalized before, he liked to take Kexin to the garden the most, and he liked to pick up those broken flowers, weave them into a wreath, and wear them around Kexin's neck. For this reason, Dr. Jiang reprimanded him, saying that this flower is for appreciation, not for picking. Qin Xiyue said stupidly: "Flowers can bring inspiration and blessings to Kexin, so let me pick a few." Dr. Jiang smiled, it was rare to meet such an innocent old man, so he also gently said to the flower worker: "Let him pick it, just don't trample on the garden." ”

Although it has been a long time since Kexin left the hospital, every grass and tree here, even every flower and leaf, and every inch of air, he is so familiar and impressed. It seems that over the years, Kexin has gone home, but he has left him here. There are some things that cannot be planted in memory, and if they are planted, they can never be erased. Qin Xiyue was a little stunned, and even couldn't help muttering in his heart, was it a mistake to insist on taking Kexin away?

He stopped at the other end of the corridor, staring at the inpatient department on the other side of the wall. Compared with the garden here, there is another world, where the patient lives and recovers. The air over there is very different from here, and the flowers and plants over there are very different from here. If there is a sense of detachment and ethereal inspiration here, it is a bit heavy over there.

In a trance, Qin Xiyue returned to the past, back to the days when he accompanied Kexin to the hospital. The scene that once made him afraid of the hospital slowly bloomed in front of his eyes......

It was also a day in September, Qin Xiyue left for a while because of an urgent matter in Shaxian, and when he finished dealing with the work on the experimental site, more than half a month had passed. The hospital was so quiet that day, a little frighteningly quiet. Dr. Jiang was not in the hospital because he attended the wedding of his colleague's daughter. Qin Xiyue said hello to the doctor on duty and went to the wall. Generally speaking, the patient's family is not allowed to go to the other side of the wall, and the hospital does this for two reasons. One is afraid that the family members will see the truth about the patient's life, after all, there are all kinds of patients on the other side of the wall, some are ridiculous, some are cute, and some are not good, I am afraid that you will suddenly see it, and you will think that you have come to the wrong place, and you will have nightmares one after another when you go to bed at night. Second, I am afraid that the normal behavior of family members will affect the patient. It's a ridiculous logic, but it's true, and you can't believe it. Patients are with patients, they have their world, their joys and sorrows, and their ways of communicating, and you think it's ridiculous, but they think it's real, it's very regular, and it's very good at upholding that kind of rules. If a normal person suddenly intervenes and breaks that rule, the stimulation brought to the patient is very serious. Qin Xiyue didn't believe this before, but after seeing a lot, he slowly believed it.

That day, he was probably too anxious to see Kexin, Qin Xiyue walked through the small garden, and in a hurry, he crashed into Kexin's ward.

That scene was so horrible that I will never forget it!

Kexin was actually with a female patient, the female Qin Xiyue had also seen before, she was more than ten years older than Kexin, she was from the suburbs, and I heard that she had lived here for 20 years. She is a typical schizophrenia, she has a seizure, and she doesn't even know how to wear clothes, so she runs around the ward. When Qin Xiyue saw her for the first time, he was just in time for her to get sick, crazy, holding a bouquet of flowers, singing as he walked, and singing love songs. Perhaps that completely crazy state left a very terrifying impression on Qin Xiyue, so he was always afraid that Ke Xin would be infected by it and become like that.

The woman was not crazy that day, and she was also wearing clothes, but the scene of her sitting next to Kexin suddenly stabbed Qin Xiyue's eyes. Instinctively, Qin Xiyue seemed to remember something, but he didn't seem to think of it, but he was stung by the scene in front of him. Kexin sat on the trolley, the trolley was under the woman's knees, Kexin looked weak and lovely, her head was leaning on the woman's lap, her face was against her knees, very obedient. As for the woman, one hand caressed Kexin's face, caressing it very tastefully, and the other hand gently rubbed Kexin's shoulder. It's nothing to say that such a scene is nothing, patients, it's good not to fight, not to make trouble, not to tear each other, it should be a happy thing to get along so friendly. However, Qin Xiyue is afraid of this, and he can't stand this. Instinctively, he pounced and pulled Kexin up, while pointing at the woman's nose: "You go, go away!" ”

The woman smiled stupidly, not caring about Qin Xiyue's attitude, but when she saw that Qin Xiyue took Kexin in her arms, she didn't follow it, her eyes were evil, and she took a bite of Qin Xiyue's hand. Qin Xiyue let go of his hand with a sigh of pain. The woman snatched Kexin back with a quick and very agile hand. What about Kexin? That day, she didn't seem to know Qin Xiyue, she first screamed at Qin Xiyue twice, and then, with madness, she wanted to throw herself into the woman's arms......

What really scared Qin Xiyue was Ke Xinpu's posture.

It seems that that woman is her everything, her life. And Qin Xiyue was just a robber who suddenly broke in.

That scene stung Qin Xiyue deeply, and when he brought Kexin to the wall, he said that he would not let Kexin live in this courtyard at all, and he would take her back.

Later, Dr. Jiang found out and didn't say anything, the hospital always adhered to a principle, that is, to stay for oneself and never force anyone. However, later during the re-examination, she said lightly: "Some diseases, I am afraid that they are not in the hearts of patients, and it is difficult for any of us to guarantee that our psychology is fine." Qin Xiyue didn't understand Dr. Jiang's words, anyway, after Kexin went home, his symptoms improved day by day, and he felt that his choice was right, so he said, "I still don't feel at ease if I leave her here." ”

Dr. Jiang smiled and didn't contradict him.

There was a faint fragrance wafting in the air, like a flower, but not a flower, when Qin Xiyue looked back, he saw a young nurse holding a flower basket and was heading to the office behind him. Qin Xiyue sniffed it, and felt that the taste was quite fragrant and comfortable, but I don't know, this fragrance, this comfort, is it from the nurse, or from the flower basket?

He put away his reverie and walked back, thinking to himself that Kexin should have finished his treatment.

He had only taken a few steps when his steps stopped abruptly, and his eyes were fixed on a spot in the depths of the garden, and he did not move.

That place was a little hidden, a little dark, but it was strange, so Qin Xiyue could see it.

"Xiaosu!" He screamed and chased downstairs.

When I ran downstairs, to the depths of the garden, to the big plane tree, I found that it was empty, and there was nothing. But clearly, there was a smell left there, and it was the smell of his family Xiaosu!

"Xiaosu, where are you, come out quickly, don't hide from us!" Qin Xiyue shouted at the empty courtyard. At this moment, he firmly believed that Xiaosu was in the hospital, hiding in a deep part of the garden. He even remembered the figure he saw on the bus on the day he was suspended. Yes, it's Xiaosu, she's in the city, right next to them, but why didn't she come out, why did she avoid them!

The shouting alarmed the sound of the car trees, the nurses at work, and Dr. Jiang. When everyone heard the sound and ran down, Qin Xiyue was still saying: "I saw Xiaosu, my Xiaosu is hiding in the garden, she knows that we are coming to the hospital today, she came to see us on purpose!" ”

The sound of the car and the trees looked around, where was there anyone in the garden? But Qin Xiyue still stubbornly stayed there and didn't leave, and he had to wait for Xiaosu to come out. Che Shusheng sighed, and said in his heart, this old man, eighty percent is also crazy.