41. I used to be a man

Seeing Manla ask herself, she said a little embarrassedly, "I'm absent-minded today, and I don't feel anything." However, today Sister Manla ...... No, yes sir, it's a great day. ”

Manla shook her head and smiled bitterly: "You, I'll take you to a place in a while, let's have a good chat." I'll send you to the studio in the afternoon......" Speaking of this, he looked at Chen Xingchen and Yi Ran and said, "You two are also more familiar, so you will be busy with the company's affairs first." I went first with Painted Butterfly, and we had something to call for. ”

Chen Xingchen nodded and said, "There are more things today, tomorrow I will take Qingyu and go to your place to have a look." The two of us apologize to you and Manra in person. ”

Yi Ran also nodded and said, "I am familiar with the company in the afternoon, so I will go to the studio to help." ”

Painted Butterfly smiled and nodded, and then walked out of the room with Manla, and after a few simple words of communication with Lao Mu Jinqiu, he left the company.

About half an hour later, Manra and Butterfly rode to the door of a temple building. Manla said: "This is a Zen temple, the fifth Zhenhao introduced me, and the chat atmosphere is very good. She frowned when she saw the butterfly, and said with a smile, "It's just you and me today, let's talk alone." ”

The butterfly, who originally felt kind to this place, was sad when he heard the words, and he liked it even more. The two walked into the monastery and walked through the golden oak forest. They stepped on a large leaf fall, entered a courtyard, and came to a meditation room, where a young girl had already stepped forward to greet them.

The young girl said: "Mr. Manla, the elegant room is ready, the two of you can enter it directly, and no one will disturb you." Fifth, I have prepared some of your favorite walnuts for you, which are freshly picked and have an excellent taste. ”

Manla nodded, thinking, I just like the feeling of walnuts and don't particularly like eating them. Thinking about it, he smiled unconsciously, and led the butterfly into the elegant room. When the butterfly entered the house, he found that the room was very elegant, with almost no decoration. The whole room is about 20 square meters, and you need to take off your shoes when you enter the room, walk on the tatami mat, and kneel on the square seat. The milky white walls around are faintly shadowed by the Qingming Riverside Map. A square table in the middle of the room is placed with a tea set, and a bottle of emerald is accompanied by it, quiet and inactive. After Manla and the painting butterfly sat down, Manla said, "Zen tea, can you handle it?" ”

The painting butterfly did not speak, smiled lightly, and directly and skillfully interpreted the tea matter. Manla, who was sitting on the opposite side, was full of joy when she saw it.

After a cup of tea, Manla asked, "Is it Riffy?" ”

"Basically, but not all ......," Butterfly began to talk about Riffy, and after talking to her about Zhang Jiufang, he continued, "I think I may be sick too, I may not be like Zhang Jiufang, the tendency is already obvious. I'm not in that state, but I can't tell what it is. I've been thinking about it for the past two days, no, I've been thinking about it all this time. I might, just ......" Butterfly lowered her head, no longer looking at Manla, and continued her words in a slightly lower voice, "just interested in you." ”

Quietly listening to the butterfly talking about her thoughts, Manra also fell into deep thought. After a while, she said something that she regretted very much in the future. Manla said to Butterfly, "I don't think there's anything wrong with you, because I was a boy before. ”

"What?" Painted Butterfly couldn't say what mood she was in, and blurted out.

Manla said calmly and slowly, "You can know this secret. I'm not the real Manra, she's been in a coma right now, and it's impossible to wake up again in this life. My previous name was Sogura, the same person mentioned by Zuo Dengfeng, who was Manla's missing brother Soguera. I have considered myself a girl since I was a child, and when I grew up, I always wanted to be a real woman. Although in our Siam, it is very tolerant of gender awareness. But our family still has its own obsessions. After years of struggle, we compromised with each other. I survived in the name of Manra and made Sogra disappear forever. I was having surgery when your boyfriend had an accident. I've been blaming myself for not taking good care of your boyfriend. ”

The amount of information is a bit large, and I don't know how to express it for a while. It's just that it seems that some of the previous knots have loosened a lot. However, before I knew it, there was a new knot. However, Manla felt a lot more relaxed, and felt that it might be easier to draw butterflies, and maybe she would be able to live happily in the future. From then on, she no longer worries about things she shouldn't be entangled in.

Manla looked at the butterfly for a while and asked, "Have you always felt that I have a special relationship with Zhicong?"

Drawing Butterfly's mind was still a little confused, and after hearing Manla ask herself, she thought for a while, and she did have this question, so she nodded.

"In the future, you don't have to think like that, I and Zhicong are confidants, so I know him and you, as well as your dream blueprint, well. You have to remember that no one can replace your place in his heart......"

Hearing this, Painted Butterfly felt a little guilty in her heart, because in her heart, a place had been vacated and put into the Sister Manla in front of her.

In the time that followed, the two talked to each other and confided a lot of thoughts, but they both seemed to deliberately hide the deepest things. Until, Manla sent the butterfly back to the studio, and the two of them were not satisfied with each other, and said goodbye to each other.

Sister Manla was a daughter before, and she was Sugra. Butterfly believed Manla's words, but she unconsciously had a trace of doubt in her heart. This suspicion became a seed at this time, and it was planted in the heart. Waiting for the right time, awakened and sprouting the power to see through the heavens and the earth.

Painting Butterfly, who calmed his thoughts downstairs, returned to the studio and chatted briefly with Wang Sen and others. Today, some classmates and friends came over to help with the process and make suggestions. At the same time, some part-time lecturers were invited to talk about cooperation, and several rounds of interviews were also conducted, and several absent employees were screened.

It's been a busy day, but there's nothing to worry about. Painting butterflies today is considered to have untied a knot. After having dinner with everyone, he returned home with his younger brother Yiran Xiaoxue. When they got home, they were surprised to find that the house was moving next door. It is estimated that Zuo Zhengfeng knows that renting here again is a waste of money, and it is boring to ask for himself, is there any point. So, he didn't even show his face, and directly dragged his friends to move home.

After the painting butterfly who didn't care about it was cleaned up, and was about to rest and fall asleep, Guiyan sent her a video.

Guiyan's first sentence was: "Painting butterflies, what's the matter with you and Riffy?" What did you say just now, you robbed Zhang Jiufang and asked me to block you with her and cut off contact? ”

Painted Butterfly said aggrievedly: "Do you think I will do this? ”

Gui Yan said depressedly: "You two can really do it, I just found out about this." I don't think so, why don't you call and ask you what's going on? Hey, that Zhang Jiufang is also a treasure in Riffy. ”

Painted Butterfly sighed: "Riffie hates me so much now, and there are some things that I can't tell her." ”

Guiyan said: "I just finished scolding Zhang Jiufang, and he didn't say a word or two. But I can probably guess what's going on, there's nothing going on on your side, right? ”

Huadie said helplessly: "What can I do, it's just a headache." Annoy, Riffy isn't going to pay attention to me anymore! ”

Gui Yan said: "Hey, we can't tell her the truth directly, I'll try to persuade Li Fei." ”

Huadie suddenly remembered that Guiyan's body was happy, so she said: "You are pregnant, let this matter go, give Lifei a while, and she will think clearly." ”

Guiyan said very gentlemanly: "Leave me alone, I don't think it's time to have a child, so I'll do it." ”

Painted Butterfly was stunned for a moment and said, "What? Does your husband agree? ”

Gui Yan flashed her eyes, pouted and said, "I didn't tell him when I was pregnant, let alone say it." I plan to apply to the headquarters and return to China to work. You two don't let me worry, I'll have to go back and take care of you. Forget it, don't talk about me. Do you know about Riffy's marriage? ”

Painted Butterfly was stunned again and said, "So fast! Hey, she doesn't even pay attention to me now, how could she tell me. Ay...... How is she now, I miss her. ”

Guiyan sighed and muttered, "She didn't say it, but I don't feel good." If you are in such a hurry, you must be angry for a while, and it is difficult to have a good result. ”

Painted Butterfly complained: "What is she doing, she is really in a hurry." ”

Gui Yan said even more bitterly: "Also, she can do more than one thing now, which makes me feel bad." She is now three months pregnant. And her parents, who are now getting divorced! ”

Hua Die was stunned for a moment and asked, "Does Zhang Jiufang know?" ”。

"I won't tell that bastard......"