Hearing my questioning, Lin Jia slammed the car door shut. He pulled out a cigarette, a lighter, the garage was dark, and he didn't turn on the roof lights. Except for the movement of the cigarette, I couldn't even see Lin Jia's face clearly.

Every time Lin Jia was angry with me, he never defended himself and didn't speak, and sometimes when he was angry and we were reconciled, I would ask him why he never spoke when there was an argument. He always said he wanted me to calm down. If I'm angry, he'll be talking about it, and it will aggravate the contradiction.

So this time, there was no suspense, just sitting in the car and smoking silently, and not saying a word. But he didn't know that this way of dealing with the problem made me, who was already on the verge of collapse, blood rush to my brain. Even at that moment, I could feel the heat on top of my head.

"You don't answer, you're ready to acquiesce, right?"

Lin Jia still smoked and didn't say a word.

A cloud of resentment rose from my chest, and I held it in my throat, unable to spit it out and swallow it. My throat hurts.

"You really don't think you're unusual to her? I'll just ask you, did I call you before or after you agreed to take her to the hospital? I was on maternity leave and was not in the hospital, what happened to you? "I was about to collapse at this moment, I gasped for breath, hoping that I would calm down, but the more I did, the more I could feel the heart in my chest swinging back and forth as if it were sitting on a swing.

I want to hear Lin Jia give me a response, even if they are already together, I especially hate when they quarrel, one of them doesn't say a word, I hope that even one of the two people will fight better than now I am as grumpy as a shrew, but he is as motionless as a stone sculpture.

"You can die if you say a word?" I shook Lin Jia in the darkness vigorously, and I swore that I had never been so embarrassed in the past twenty years.

"Xia Fei, are you finished?" Lin Jia said softly, looking very tired, "Am I not worthy of your trust?" I'm tired from a morning lecture at school, how about we go home? ”

When he opened his mouth to say that he was tired, I grabbed him by the collar with both hands. His face was so close to mine that I thought my heavy gasps must have all hit him in the face.

"Are you tired? Where were you when I was holding my baby in the middle of the night? You get up in the morning and care about me and rush to work, what are you and me? I get up in the middle of the night to feed, what are you doing? Mango is sick, how many times have you fed the medicine at night? Are you tired? You have surgery during the day and I will also have surgery, if you want to be promoted, I will also be promoted, since I have a child, have I slept all night long? Except for you helping me during the month, all the other times, it's me! "I said everything in one go, and I gasped for breath as if I had run a 5km trail race.

"You're trying to say you're wronged." Lin Jia said.

"Yes, I'm just wronged, I'm wronged, why am I so excited, you can still be so calm, don't you think you're abnormal? I don't feel any grievances towards my own children, I'm a mother, and it's natural for me to take care of them, but that doesn't mean you can ignore all my efforts, you can take it for granted! "The tears haven't stopped since just now. I slid from my seat on the mat in excitement, I couldn't get up, I didn't want to get up.

Huddled in a small space, I said to myself, "If I have wronged you, why don't you justify it?" Do you know how hurtful cold violence is? Do you know, I'm in a panic of grievances, you don't even want to quarrel with me, what do you think I can think? In the past, you said that the co-pilot was my own position, but now you sit in someone else's seat, and you don't explain or coax me, but say I don't believe you, and you tell me how I should trust you. ”

I stared at the darkness with blank eyes, smiled and laughed at myself, "I gave birth to two children, not only did I have no uterus, but I also had scars on my stomach that can never be erased, I had depression, I had to go to surgery every day, and I went around the child after the operation. ”

"Xia Fei, do you have to say that I love you every day to love you? Is it just because she was in the co-pilot that we have a relationship? Don't make a fuss, okay? Let's go home. ”

Now that Lin Jiadu has said this, it seems that today's conversation no longer has any meaning. I wiped tears from my face, moved from the mat to the seat, sniffed and said, "Okay, go, go home." ”