When I woke up, I felt that there was blood flowing on my body, and that blood was all the blood on Mo Xiangbei's body.

Stained my clothes.

I struggled to get my phone to make a call, but it was mountainous and there was no signal, so I couldn't get through for a long time.

Mo Xiangbei held his last breath, took a satellite phone and called for help, he reported the address, and then his breathing began to become more and more rapid, and his speech became slower and slower, after saying those words, Mo Xiangbei put down the phone weakly.

"Mo Xiang ...... North"

He smiled weakly at me.

Gulps of blood came out of his mouth, and tears poured out of my eyes when I saw the thing that passed through his body.

"Mo Xiangbei...... You hold on, you don't have anything to do, we don't break up, we don't break up...... You said you were going to marry me, I will marry you, and I will go wherever you go in the future, and I don't want anyone. ”

Mo Xiangbei's forehead was weakly against my forehead, the temperature on his body was slowly disappearing, and his voice was getting smaller and smaller, his breath was louder, and his voice was getting smaller and smaller, and his forehead was against my forehead.

"I wanted to take you to see the base, Bao'er, I want you to see those things, to see how great what we do, I love my career, but I also love you, I don't want to lose. You're someone who is more important to me than my life, and that's different. But no matter what, I don't regret loving you...... Boa. ”

He finally lowered his head and kissed me, my face was full of tears, he wanted to raise his hand to help me wipe my tears, but his fingers held my face, and soon drooped again, and smiled weakly at me, "Bao'er...... I'm sorry, I can't stay with you anymore. It's me who owes you, I didn't take good care of you to accompany you, and let you be wronged, I hope that someone in the future can replace me by your side, protect you well, and accompany you. Later...... Will I be your child in the future? ”

"If I die, I won't allow you to give up on yourself like this, you have to forget me quickly and start your own life. Even if I die, I will silently guard you, and when you become a mother in the future, and then return to you, we will not be separated. ”

He stuffed me with a real lollipop, his head slowly hanging down on my shoulder, and his voice was still slowly saying, "Bao'er, forgive me......"

"Mo Xiangbei !!" I pushed his shoulders hard, but his body was almost all over mine.

In this way, until his body became cold, the night outside gradually darkened, and the surroundings were pitch black, and at that moment I felt as if I was walking in hell on earth.

I closed my eyes and hugged Mo Xiangbei and passed out, it was the harsh light shining on my face, someone was calling my name, and when I woke up again it was more than a week later, and my parents began to cry when they lay on my bedside.

After the operation, I was in pain all over my body, and the first thing I asked was, "What about Mo Xiangbei?" ”

My mom's eyes were red again and she couldn't stop crying.

"His mom and dad have already brought him home and cremated him ......"

I still had the lollipop in my palm, and my hand under the quilt tightened tighter and tighter.

I didn't even see Mo Xiangbei for the last time, and on the day of the funeral, I struggled to get my parents to send me to see him.

His father is a very polite person, wearing glasses, a plain shirt and trousers, at first glance he is a steady and knowledgeable scholar, Mo Xiangbei's temperament is very similar to his.

His mother saw me and lunged at me, raised her hand and slapped me hard.

"It's all you, it's all you, I don't like you since I was a child, I don't like you pestering Xiangbei, how many injuries Xiangbei has suffered for you, and now it's because you're dead, if it weren't for you breaking up, he wouldn't have died! He's going to make a big difference! He will fulfill his ideals and aspirations, what about you? What will you do? ”

That's right.

I never really understood what Mo Xiangbei really thought, to understand why he liked this, I didn't care so much about him, and it was my willfulness that killed Mo Xiangbei.

……

Since then I have been a different person, asking my parents to transfer me to another school and leaving the place that made me sad.

I'm afraid that in a familiar place, I will think of everything about him.

For love things, my parents will not force me, and they will always say, if there is a suitable one, I will work hard, and every year I will donate most of the money to those students who are doing aerospace careers.

What Mo Xiangbei didn't finish, I think someone can continue to do it. I think he must have liked to see it.

But I didn't want to get married, and my father scolded my brother a few times, saying that he didn't do his job properly, and he was remembered by their husband and wife.

So their husband and wife looked at me more and more unpleasantly.

I don't think I can see it, and it doesn't matter if I'm not at home anyway.

Later, I met Lin Zixin by chance, Lin Zi was wearing a white coat when he worked, and his eyebrows and eyes were cold and indifferent, very similar to Mo Xiangbei.

But his coldness reveals coldness, and Mo Xiangbei has a kind of calmness that does not match his age, and sometimes he is a little honest.

When I met Lin Zixin, I actually had the idea of going out to other men, and I thought Lin Zixin seemed to be quite interesting, and it was quite good to always mention Lin Zixin to Lin Chumian.

I thought I just knew Lin Zixin.

At that time, Gan Haozhe deliberately calculated himself and kidnapped himself, I thought I was dead, but Lin Zixin appeared like a god.

At that moment, when I curled up on the ground in a daze, I really thought for a moment that I saw Mo Xiangbei.

When he carried me to the hospital, the first thing I saw when I woke up was him.

Later, after I was discharged from the hospital, I wanted to pester Bao'er to take care of me, but I didn't expect Lin Zixin to come to the door every day, I actually obviously felt Lin Zixin's approach, and I also noticed that my heart was shaking.

I'm afraid that I will start a new life, I will poach Mo Xiangbei from my mind, I am afraid that I will forget him, I am afraid that people in the future will let me forget him.

When I told Lin Zixin not to come again, Lin Zixin suddenly kissed me, and I knew that there were some things that I couldn't do indifferently anymore.

Lin Zixin said, come back in the evening to talk.

But what should I do?

I don't dare to face it, I don't dare to face it, I don't dare to take that step again.

So I fled.

I went to the place where Mo Xiangbei wanted to take me at the beginning, the environment was very bad, the wind and sand were very strong, very dry, I couldn't see the green at a glance, like a lifeless old man, without any life, but Mo Xiangbei stayed in such a place for so long.

Where there is no me, he still persists and still loves me so much.

The more I think about it, the more I feel like a bastard, and I've been thinking like this for the past few years, and I feel like I'm dying of a bastard.

If it were me now, maybe I would be able to understand Mo Xiangbei's courage to fight for his dreams, and if it was now, I would definitely support him, and I would wait for him to come back.

Just listening to his voice will be satisfying.

I lived there for a long time, and when I opened the door that morning, I saw a familiar figure standing in the middle of the lobby outside.

Lin Zixin was holding a suitcase in one hand, standing in front of the simple cabinet, talking to the proprietress with his ID card in his hand.

When I saw him, Lin Zixin walked directly towards me, grabbed my hand without saying anything, and grabbed me to the room.

He closed the door directly, and I was stared at by his cold and emotionless eyes, and I looked a little creepy.

"Didn't you wait for me? We need to have a good talk. ”

I turned around and walked away from him, "What is there to talk about between us?" ”

"A lot." He said, and dropped a sentence coldly, "Gan Bao'er, I have time to spend with you, I know that you have Mo Xiangbei in your heart, you have never been able to let go of him, I will not force you to let go of him, you have to put him in your heart, I will not stop you." He is the one who loves you with his life, and I will not compete with him for this position, because I am the one who will be by your side in the future. ”

These words touched my heart.

It really hurts to death.

I kicked him out, hugged my legs and cried again, until the evening, Lin Zixin went to get the key to open the door, he brought me food, forced me to eat bite by bite, during this time in the northwest, he didn't say anything, just took care of me.

After coming here, I was a little uncomfortable, plus I was injured before, some were infected, so I was dizzy and uncomfortable, and I had a high fever, Lin Zixin sent me to the hospital, because the infection was serious, it caused a high fever, and I was in a daze for a few days, and I was dreaming all the time.

I dream of Mo Xiangbei every day.

When he was a student, he liked to wear white clothes and look at me with a clean smile.

"Bao'er, you should go out, don't feel sorry for me anymore, I've been wandering around you for years, it's so tiring to wander like this. This person is very good to you, he will take good care of you, I said that I want to be your baby, if you don't get married, how can I return to you? ”

I woke up crying.

When I woke up, Lin Zixin was sitting on the edge of my hospital bed, and he suddenly gave me a real lollipop.

Gradually, my crying stopped, "You ......"

"Just now I had a dream, and someone told me in the dream, and he said, if you are sad, let me give you a candy. If there is a quarrel, you are very coaxing, so I must bow my head first and admit my mistake to you. Lin Zixin looked at me with dark eyes and said.

I had that lollipop in my hand.

I don't know if it's a coincidence, or if it's Lin Zixin's nonsense, but only Mo Xiangbei and I know about this matter.

Lin Zixin raised his hand and touched my hair and looked at me gently.

I think that dream, maybe Mo Xiangbei has really been by my side all the time, he has never appeared in my dream, but this time it is in my dream, maybe he forgave me.

Perhaps, it has never hated me.

But he still couldn't see me sad, and brought Lin Zixin to my side.

The next day, I agreed to Lin Zixin.

We're in this together.