When he returned home, he put down his luggage and went to open the window to ventilate. After habitually looking around the room, he walked to the bookcase near the window, picked up a linen handkerchief, and wiped the photo with Yoo Zhicong when he graduated from college.

After that, he changed into a clean and loose linen clothes, walked to the bathroom, and washed away the fatigue of the journey.

"Knock knock."

After the shower, the butterfly who walked out heard a knock on the door, and through the cat's eye on the door, he saw the courier standing outside the door. Thinking that I hadn't been shopping online recently, I wondered why there was a courier, and after a little hesitation, I opened the door halfway.

"Is it Ms. Peng Huadie?" The courier guy holding a large bouquet of roses asked professionally.

"I am." Butterfly replied.

"Your roses, please sign for them." The courier brother said.

"Who sent it?" Butterfly asked.

"Anonymous courier, I don't know." The courier replied.

The butterfly took the rose, signed for it, thanked him, and closed the door.

When he was drawing a butterfly, a message came from his mobile phone, which was sent by Zhang Jiufang. She said in her heart that it was not good, it would not be sent by Zhang Jiufang, this is an embarrassing thing. Open the message and take a look, "I made an appointment to see Lao Mo at the café at two o'clock tomorrow afternoon, and I will pick you up." ”

Butterfly exhaled, thinking that it was okay, it shouldn't be him, if it was the roses he sent, it would be troublesome. Immediately, he replied with a "got it", and then began to untie the bouquet of roses, insert them into a glass bottle with a colorful frosted texture, and turn on the stereo to play the singing bowl (the singing bowl originated in Tibet and is now commonly used in music therapy and aromatherapy). When the bowl is struck, it makes a low "hungry ......" sound, and the singing bowl makes an ethereal sound. I sit on the futon, close my eyes slightly, adjust my breathing, and enter a state of meditation.

Butterfly's position in the company is the head of planning, and she has a high proportion of positions in their cosmetics company specializing in cinemas. It is usually difficult for her to get the opportunity to take a vacation, but with the help of this economic downturn, her work is relatively relaxed, so she has a few days to spare. Before his resignation was approved, he applied for annual leave to free up his energy to promote his own business. This time I took annual leave, one was to go to Eye City to see Liu Zhicong's parents, and the other was to start preparing for my own aroma studio. Aromatherapy has developed from scratch in Chinese mainland and has quietly developed throughout the country in recent years. In short, aromatherapy (standard in five-star hotels) is the use of music, oil massage, environment and taste to balance the mind, body and spirit. Since 2015, Butterfly Painting has been studying in this area, which is also a learning trend for urban white-collar workers. Of course, this kind of lifestyle, which requires personal experience and self-realization, is often easy to enter the level of mystery. However, it is more acceptable for people who are easily troubled by themselves, or who seek a sense of experience in life.

When the butterfly meditates to a state where the self feels balanced, and the body and mind feel peaceful and relaxed, gather your mind, end the meditation, walk to the desk, and start to prepare for the discussion with the painter Mo Sandu tomorrow. At nearly ten o'clock, the alarm clock began to ring, and after getting up and doing stretching exercises, Butterfly walked to the bedroom and fell asleep.

Carnivores, it is easy to think that this simplicity is a kind of pretense, a kind of hypocrisy. But who doesn't pretend to be a man who walks through darkness under the sun?

The picture of the butterfly that entered the meditative state, the picture of her relationship with Yoo Zhicong during college, and every word between her and him entered her mind......

"Many people have parents, children, friends, colleagues, and lovers in the world, but they don't have themselves. So whether he is there or not, in fact, this world has no meaning for him. Liu Zhi said from the first time he talked to Hua Butterfly about his dream, "I'm not sure if my idea is correct, but I want it." I lived in the world, and I was always confused. I perceive the world entirely from my senses. For me, I am the whole world. The first time I felt shocked was when I was 10 years old, I suddenly realized that I was really going to die, and I was going to disappear completely. At that time, I was playing football on the playground of the elementary school, and I was at a loss for what to do. Since then, my perspective on the world has changed a lot, and my curiosity about the unknown has changed from fun to hunger, and I have a fear from the heart. It was also from then on that I often felt a sense of nothingness and disillusionment. ”

"Have you conceived your dream ever since?" Butterfly asked.

"This dream came after the college entrance examination, and I officially began to have a kind of obsession with life, as if I felt that after I disappeared, there would be no trace of myself in this world. I've been looking for a way to keep me going. Liu Zhicong continued, "Our city is a multi-ethnic mixed area, with multiple religious beliefs, and we are also the birthplace of shamanism, which has been selected as a national intangible cultural heritage. The first thing I'm interested in is exploring reincarnation and finding a sense of security through religion. I was still young at the time, and I was confused and couldn't explain clearly, but I felt that by touching these things, I could gain infinite power. After that, as he got bigger and bigger, he began to indulge in Qimen Dunjia and the art of cultivating immortals. Later, he indulged in the world of martial arts, imagining that he was fighting the sword world, and his chivalry and righteousness were famous through the ages. ”

"How do you feel that your dream should be to be a novelist?" Butterfly smiled.

"Almost, though, after I finished the college entrance examination, my grandmother passed away. That feeling of chilling in the neck happened again. Liu Zhicong's voice was a little low, and he said, "I'm very sad, I cried and shouted a few times." I am desolate for my grandmother, and I am also panicking for myself. My grandmother was the last woman in our hometown to marry in a sedan chair. When she was young, she had already caught up with the new school life, so she did not bind her feet. However, she still married my grandfather at the behest of her parents. The kind of marriage in which happiness depends entirely on luck, and married life is even more uncontrollable. My grandparents had a very bad relationship, and when I was very young, I could feel the awkward atmosphere of hatred and intimacy between them. I guess they weren't happy with each other, and it was even harder to say if they gave each other a chance to be happy. ”

"Didn't they think about divorce?" Butterfly asked.

"I don't know this very well, and I haven't had a chance to ask. When I was in my first year of junior high school, my grandfather passed away due to illness. Liu Zhicong explained, "People live in the world, nothing more than eating men and women. First is survival, then enjoyment, and finally consummation. I wonder if there's a scene or a way of life that can make people perfect. One day after my grandmother was laid to rest, I suddenly thought of Tao Yuanming's "The Story of the Peach Blossom Spring", and I began to have this dream. ”

"Isn't this a kind of escapist thinking, it seems that the current otaku and otaku are like this, you don't need any energy to achieve it, you can stay at home." Butterfly questioned.

"It's embarrassing, I want to build a kind of inertia, so that the process of returning to the basics after seeing the prosperity can be circulated, instead of going directly to the simplicity. This is not the idea of the ancient Western philosophers that it is better not to be born, and then to die immediately. Life is an experience, and fun is a growth process that can go through a process of 'seeing the mountains as mountains, seeing the water as water, seeing the mountains as not mountains, seeing the water as water, and looking at the mountains as mountains and rivers as water'. When the coffin is closed, when I die, I will definitely smile, my life is enough. ”

"I like your train of thought and will get into the process. However, this should be a process of self-cultivation, not a career, right? Butterfly said.

"Indeed, everything can be practiced. Building a city and building an ideal country with others is more reflected in the way of life. Under the framework of the market economy, it is not illegal, not against the will, and not harmful to others. It is to do whatever you want and not exceed the rules, and everything can become a commodity. ”

"Do whatever you want and don't exceed the rules, it seems simple, but in fact, once you enter the freewheeling, who cares if the rules are unruly, after all, once you open Pandora's box, things will get out of control." Painting Butterfly flashed her big eyes, looked at Liu Zhicong and said.

"Therefore, I want to work with you to build this dream blueprint and make it a controllable reality, not a boundless fantasy."

"You're looking for me to be a partner? Or be a life partner? ”

"Both."

"So you're pursuing me, aren't you?"

"Do you agree?"

"Agreed."