When I came out of the hospital, I didn't feel too sad about it. Let's go to the quiet bar closest to the hospital with Jingxin for a drink. As it was still early, there were only two of us in the bar. Jing Xin lowered his voice, "Xia Fei, Xia Fei, it's my first time here."

"The last time I had a family party, I was with my sister and brother, and there were people singing here in a nice atmosphere and it was very quiet."

"You've really become bad, I thought that when I had a drink on my girlfriend's night, I would ask for two bottles of beer at the hot and sour noodle stall" Speaking of this, Jing Xin laughed out loud, but as soon as he laughed, he quickly covered his mouth, for fear of disturbing the quiet environment.

I asked for the pink beauty for Jing Xin, who was overwhelmed by alcohol, and I asked for Tomorrow for myself. I just want to forget about this damn thing before the sun rises tomorrow.

The resident singer is a long-haired girl, holding a cigarette in one hand and holding the microphone in the other, her voice is slightly hoarse due to long-term smoking, and it sounds as if she is whispering, and she says "He doesn't love me......." Just one sentence makes me feel drunk. Yes, he doesn't love me, if he loves me, how can he betray me, if he loves me, how can he be sorry for my family and my children? Thinking of this, I just picked it up and drank it all in one gulp.

"Xia Fei, you drink slowly, be careful of getting drunk," Jing Xin took my hand and said a little nervously.

"It's okay, I'm happy today, the child is not at home, I can finally let myself go, I feel that I have been depressed for a long time, and I can finally get drunk." I beckoned for another drink.

At this time, the girl on the stage had finished singing, finished her cigarette alone, picked up the beer bottle on the ground, and toasted to me and Jingxin.

I smiled, squinted at the girl, and drank it down.

The girl put down the beer bottle, closed her eyes slightly and sang "The prince chooses the darling, the coat looks for his model, so many glass slippers are suitable for many people, there is no unique ......."

Nothing is unique, and tonight's songs are all sung in my heart. At this time, Jing Xin, who was overwhelmed by alcohol, was already blushing and lying on the table, and I didn't ask her for wine again, but drank it alone. Gradually, there are more and more people. The girl wasn't singing, but came to our seats with her beer bottle.

"Have a drink?" The girl gestured to me.

"Okay." I motioned to come back, even if she was a beer girl, I needed a stranger to talk to. "The amount of alcohol looks good," the girl smiled at me, "you can call me Vivien." ”

"I haven't drunk in a long time, I'm just ......"

Vivien lit a cigarette again, "Because it's sad, isn't it?" Who comes here to listen to songs and drink, who is not a sad person, how much has he cried all night, how much has he been crazy, and how much has he been heartbroken? ”

"Are you sad then?" I asked, staring at the wine glass.

"If you are used to being sad, you will no longer be sad. After all, all poisons are gone. ”

"My husband betrayed me, and not long after my second child was born, his student, became pregnant with his child."

"It's not too bad, have you figured out what to do?" She asked, staring at me.

"I don't know what I want." I picked up my glass and drank it all again, "I want to ask, but I don't dare, I don't dare to mention, I don't dare to ask, I don't dare to think, I can't imagine that my husband will cheat." I said to the glass, "I love him, I thought he loved me too, but I didn't expect him to love me." Haha I'm definitely the most ridiculous joke in the whole world, sure enough, men are the most single-minded, no matter how old they are, they like teenage and twenty-year-old girls. "I finished my drink again.

She looked at me cup after cup, "Actually, things are not as bad as you imagined, you are still you, whether he loves you or not, the child is still yours, life is still yours, these are all things that the junior can't snatch, if this man is rotten to the heart, it's not worth keeping in your heart." Go back and think about it, how to give up? You've drunk too much tonight, and your friend is already drunk, so take her away quickly, or it won't be safe for the next two girls. ”

"Help me settle the bill and then call a taxi." I helped Jing Xin, who couldn't wake up, into the taxi. Before getting in the car, Vivien said to me, "I'm here every day, and if I want to come, I can come at any time." ”

I waved at her, and the taxi sped away late at night, and Jingxin was drunk and afraid that something would happen to her, so I sent her to her own house and came down to take care of her. To be honest, I didn't drink well, maybe because I had that breath in my heart to take care of her, so I didn't sleep all night.

At night I kept thinking about Vivian's words, yes, my child is still mine, my life is still mine, my life is given by mango, and I have to live well for the sake of my child. I'm going to get back on my feet, I'm going to get a divorce, I can't see myself taking these things to heart anymore.