The first time I met Jing Yao was in the first semester of the third grade of elementary school, when An Jiashu and I had just quarreled and reconciled, and although we didn't stick together often, I thought I was his closest friend. Because An Jiashu is different from the other children in the class, he is always very quiet, he will not quarrel with others, and he will not chase each other in the classroom like other boys of the same age, he is always out of place, and his classmates think he is a strange child.

Jiang Li told me with his experience of being a big kid that An Jiashu may be a child with autism, because he may not have recovered from the sadness of losing his grandmother, and his mother also said that children in the same class should help each other, so I am almost the only one in our class who is not afraid of An Jiashu. During that time, I was still a little proud because I was the only friend of An Jiashu.

Jing Yao gave me a completely different feeling from An Jiashu, she was the only child in the family, well-behaved, cheerful and smiling, as if her parents had brought the best things to her. The first time I saw her was at my house, and when I came home from school that day, I went to see the puppy in the backyard hut, a little golden retriever that my father had brought back from his friend's house, and had just reached the full moon. I held the little golden retriever in my arms and was about to feed it goat's milk, when Yun Niang came over and happily told me that there was a guest at home, and my mother called me over to greet the guest. The guests were Jing Yao and her mother.

I honestly say that I rarely observe children my age directly or attentively, of course, An Jiashu is an exception, because I am an arrogant and arrogant person in my bones, and I don't think those people deserve my excessive attention, but from the moment I entered the door, the first thing I paid attention to was not my mother, nor Jing Yao's mother who was sitting next to my mother, but Jing Yao, who was standing more than a meter away from them, and even further behind.

The little girl has a melon seed face, round eyes, and looks very smart. She had long hair, two pigtails and bows down to her chest, and wore a pink skirt, small pink leather shoes, white stockings, and two hands behind her back. As I looked at her, she was looking at me at the same time. But unlike mine, her head tilted slightly, with a little playful nature.

Mother said, "Xiaoxi, come here, come and meet A-Yao." She held Jing Yao with one hand, stretched out the other hand to me, and said to me, "Xiaoxi, quickly introduce yourself to her."

I refused to give my hand to my mother, nor did I want to introduce myself, my mouth was pursed, but my eyes were fixed on her.

At that time, I was already seven years old, not a recognized child, but I was very vigilant, and I don't know why I had a sense of rejection from the bottom of my heart for this child of my age, who was taller than me, and a little stronger than me, and even more incredible was that this sense of rejection grew from that moment like an instinct, and it remained in my heart for a long time later.

I don't know, I've never felt this way with other kids, but I'm just as surprised by the fact that I still believe it's an instinct.

Later, when Jing Yao and I became very good friends, I tried to explain my resistance and unfriendliness to Jing Yao with my simple thinking, and I suddenly realized that I had been a very sensitive person since I was a child. At that time, I had already said goodbye to my carefree childhood, and was in a period of rapid intellectual and emotional growth, and the more people I came into contact with, the more complex things I learned, and the richer and more complex my emotional world became.

For this girl who suddenly appeared, a girl who dresses better than me and smiles better than me, she may be cuter than me, she may be better than me, she may be better than me in the eyes of my mother, so I have to guard against her, I am a little jealous of her. Although I thought I could do anything at the time, as long as I was willing to please and flatter, I could easily win everyone's affection, although I didn't know anything about Jing Yao at the time, but girls are born with a love of beauty and comparison, so I had to guard against her.

I didn't speak during this process, and in the end, Mrs. Chen gently pushed her short daughter, and said with a smile: "Silly boy, you introduce yourself to Xiaoxi first." ”

Jing Yao glanced at her mother noomistically, obviously she felt a little overwhelmed because of my attitude, but she finally said to me very politely: "Hello, my name is Chen Jingyao, Erdong Chen...... Jing Yao's Jing, Jing Yao's Yao. ”

The words I know in the third grade of primary school have reached the standard of elementary school to junior high school students, so I know many words that the children in my class do not know

g", which "yao", I will say that I know both of these words, one is that I learned it in class, and the other is the name of a child in our class who uses this word "yao". But after listening to her introduction at that time, I didn't think about these two words at all, but searched for a string of homophones in my mind, and the first ones that came out were "mirror demon" and "spirit demon", but I immediately rejected it, probably because she spoke with a southern accent that I hadn't heard. Then there are "Jingyao" and "Jingyao", these two names I feel are quite suitable for her, so I default to her name, anyway, I don't need to write it out.

When it was my turn to introduce, I said very confidently and generously: "Hello, my name is He Xi, the Xi of Xiguang, which means the sun in the morning." ”

I was very happy because I felt that I was smarter than her, and I introduced my name very clearly, and also explained the meaning of my name as well, without feeling ambiguous and unremarkable like she did.

Later, when we weren't struggling with each other's names or what they meant, we both found our names really hard to write, but I enjoyed hearing her call me "Ah Xi" and "Ah Xi", which made me feel like a very powerful person, as energetic as the morning sun. I also like to call her "Ah Jing", but sometimes I will also call her by her first name "Jing Yao".

Later, Jing Yao told me that when she first heard my name, she thought that my name was "He Xiguang", because she was distracted when she listened to my introduction, and then she had been struggling with whether it was better to call me "Ah Xi" or "Ah Guang". Thank goodness really, I thought to myself. Thankfully, she went out of her way to say hello to me before deciding what to call me, otherwise if she had decided to call me "Ah Guang", I would have vomited blood.

Our mother wanted us to get along well, preferably like sisters, but I didn't think so. We didn't know each other at all, and I still have An Jiashu, I don't need another friend who goes wherever I go, like a fart. However, Jing Yao took our mother's words to heart, she was an obedient and well-behaved child, and she was very brainless.

When I was in the third grade, Jiang Li was already in his first year of high school, and since he was in high school, we didn't let Lao Ma drive us to school, Jiang Li didn't want to behave in school, and I didn't want to, so we unanimously gave up the car as a means of transportation. But he would still send me to school, his high school class time was relatively early, he would accommodate my time, in the morning he would take me to the school gate, and then he would take the bus from our school bus station to his school, often when he arrived at the school, just in time for class.

Jing Yao transferred to our school from the third grade, and in the class next to us, Mrs. Chen was worried that her daughter would be a little uncomfortable when she first arrived in a new environment, and hoped that I could help Jing Yao more and get along with her more, so that she could have a partner in school. She explained this idea to my mother, who asked me to go to and from school with Jing Yao.

Of course I was reluctant at first, Jiang Li accompanied me at school, and An Jiashu accompanied me after school, I didn't need another superfluous person at all, and I was afraid that she would tell my mother that An Jiashu and I would secretly buy ice cream and marshmallows after school, because at that time I had two cavities, and my mother forbade me to eat any sugar products, but sometimes I couldn't help it, so I would ask An Jiashu to buy it for me. I'm afraid that if Jing Yao follows us and she finds out, she will sue my mother, and in this case, I will no longer be able to eat the ice cream and marshmallows of the "little second aunt".

I said to Jing Yao, I will come home late after school, you should be able to go home by yourself. At that time, the school was only 4 bus stops away from our neighborhood, and it was less than a 40-minute walk, so I thought she would be fine.

Jing Yao shook her head resolutely, she insisted on waiting for me to come along.

I was afraid that she would complain to my mother, so I had to say that I don't like to take the bus back, I like to walk, and you can be tired if you want to walk for so long.

Jing Yao said, it's okay, I can also go, I want to go home with you.

I couldn't do anything about her, I thought she was a nuisance and unreasonable, so I angrily returned to my seat, intending to ignore her. An Jiashu and I did our homework as usual, we sat together to brush up on math problems, discuss the explanation of words, Jing Yao sat on the side, I don't know if she was drawing or practicing calligraphy, I only noticed that she took several pens out of her school bag, but I told myself that I didn't care what she was doing.

By the time An Jiashu and I finished our homework, it was already half an hour later, and An Jiashu walked over and knocked on Jing Yao's desk: "Let's go, we're ready to go home." ”

"Oh, good." Jing Yao answered, and quickly packed up her things to keep up with our speed.

On the way home, I walked with An Jiashu, and rarely talked to Jing Yao, I deliberately let myself ignore her as much as possible, An Jiashu asked her several questions because of the first time I met her, but he was not the kind of boy who was very curious and talked a lot, and they stopped talking after a few simple conversations.

Later, I grew tired of her following us silently, intentionally or unintentionally trying to distance myself from her, and even wanted to get rid of her. This thought is growing wildly every day and then quietly dies down, An Jiashu also seems to have noticed that I was in a very bad mood when I got out of school during that time, and he finally reacted that I don't like Jing Yao to stay with us, but he will still take care of Jing Yao's feelings very carefully, sometimes we leave her far behind, he will turn back to see if she has followed, and then he is very careful to see if I am happy.

Finally, one day I couldn't control the idea of getting rid of Jing Yao, and that day I had a problem with my gluttony, and I wanted to go with An Jiashu to the store we frequented to buy a pair of popsicles. In the past, where did I have to endure for so long, I just didn't want Jing Yao to have this opportunity to grab my little tail and run to complain to our mother, so when I was only about half a kilometer away from home, I grabbed An Jiashu's hand, as if I wanted him to give me a little courage.

"You should know how to get home here, just turn left in front of you, and Katsuki and I will go first if we have something to do." I said to Jing Yao.

I tried to make my voice sound lighthearted, like a very honest lie, and without waiting for her to say anything, I grabbed An Jiashu and ran away.

Although I was happy to get rid of Jing Yao's little burden, and although the double popsicles I shared with An Jiashu were very sweet and delicious, I was very depressed that night, and I felt a little nervous, even when I lay in bed early, I kept tossing and turning and not falling asleep. I was afraid that my mother would suddenly come in and take me out of the bed, accusing me of being ignorant, accusing me of not leaving Jing Yao alone halfway, because she had already told her all the facts.

I waited for a long time and my mother didn't show up, and tonight before going to bed, she lay down on the bed with me for a while as usual, and then she left after plugging in the electric mosquito coil, and my father came to say goodnight to me. Both of them looked the same as usual, and today was a normal day, but I don't know why I didn't fall asleep.

I remembered to call An Jiashu, hoping that he hadn't slept yet, but when I went to the living room, I happened to run into Jiang Li who was thirsty and looking for water in the kitchen. In order to prepare for a competition at their school, Jiang Li stayed until 11 p.m. before going to bed. Seeing that I couldn't sleep, he moved his homework to my room, and he waited for me to fall asleep while writing his homework, and sometimes read his chemical element tables and equations in his mouth.

"Xiaoxi, aren't you sleeping yet? I'll read you the chemistry questions from our last exam. Jiang Li looked at me and said.

Probably since I learned to read and write, Jiang Li's way of coaxing me to sleep is different from others, my father, mother and Yun Niang will tell me children's novels and children's movies, but when Jiang Li coaxed me to sleep, he told me all his homework, what mathematical propositions, Chinese reading, classical Chinese translation, English composition, chemistry problems, physics problems, etc., Jiang Li said with relish. He said that he would explain to me in detail important knowledge points, sometimes I can understand, sometimes I don't understand half-understood, sometimes I don't understand at all, but the hypnotic effect is good, I will always fall asleep listening to it, but since Jiang Li went to high school, such opportunities are rare.

After a few days of calm, I changed from being nervous at the beginning to being at ease, my attitude towards Jing Yao is still lukewarm, I look forward to her emotional outburst, it is best to show her hateful true face, so that I can tell myself, look, she is not so honest and sensible as she seems. But no, Jing Yao has always maintained her original well-behaved and quiet appearance, and I began to become discouraged, and finally changed a little guilt and sympathy for her.

The relationship between us really began to turn around half a month after this incident, when I decided to accept Jing Yao to join my team of two people, but only if she had to secretly buy snacks for me and An Jiashu to keep it a secret. That day, An Jiashu and I finished our homework as usual before going home, Jing Yao went to the commissary to buy snacks and wait for us, and when we arrived at the commissary, we didn't see Jing Yao, but on the other road where we came out of the commissary and turned right and went forward, we saw several boys who were older than us surrounding Jing Yao, and they forced her into a corner, which was under the steps and overgrown with weeds. They were intimidating her, threatening her, and preparing to snatch the snacks from her hands, while Jing Yao kept her head down, holding things in her arms, trying to escape from their encirclement.

Most of these senior boys are from our school and other schools, and most of them we don't know. I felt very angry in my heart, and the latest action was An Jiashu, who rushed forward first when I was about to break out.

Although An Jiashu in the third grade is older than me, he is thin and small, only a little taller than me, and he has thin arms and legs, I am really afraid that if I fight with them later, I will be unloaded by those tall and strong boys. So I didn't think about it and ran in front of him, but unlike him with my bare hands, I picked up two rocks bigger than my fist on the way.

We rushed into the encirclement of these senior boys, An Jiashu and I stood in the front, and Jing Yao stood in the back, protecting our snacks like chickens. The senior students were stunned when they saw us rushing over without hesitation, and they were so frightened by us that they took two steps back, but in the blink of an eye, they saw that we were smaller than them, shorter than them, and smaller than them, and they immediately became arrogant again and approached us.

I was the only one with a weapon in my hand, so I took the lead, scaring them into hitting whoever came near me if they didn't let us go. A few senior boys were not afraid at all, but I aroused their patience to tease me, and kept provoking me to say, come on, try to hit here, why don't you throw it, are you scared little brat.

I'm going to die of rage, really, my face is flushed, I hate people calling me a little kid the most, and I hate their contemptuous and provocative words, I am provoked, I close my eyes, and I am ready to throw them out regardless of it, and see if they dare to say it, and dare to laugh at it. However, just as I finally made up my mind to give them some color, who knew that An Jiashu would suddenly grab my hand, rush forward like a fool, and shout at them: "What kind of ability do you guys have to bully two girls?" ”

I rolled my eyes in my heart, thinking that his small body is similar to me and Jing Yao, if we don't bully us together, is it possible that he can win so many people stronger than him alone?

I stepped forward again, fighting alongside An Jiashu, but this time I calmed down a bit and decided to lure them verbally to divert their attention, as in The Art of War, and then take advantage of their unpreparedness and hit them with a single blow.

I threw a stone, used this hand to lead An Jiashu, and then asked him to hold Jing Yao with the other hand. I think we'll have to find a chance to get out and get help from the adults, preferably with no one left behind.

I said, "Do you know who I am?" ”

One of them immediately grinned and replied, "Kid, who are you?" ”

I told them loudly that my name is He Xi, my grandfather's name is He Tangzhong, he is a general, my brother's name is Jiang Li, he beats people the hardest, he will come to clean you up immediately. They immediately began to laugh, what a general, I haven't heard of it, kid, you are lying. Your brother is really so powerful, what about others? Do we know each other?

I said, "Aren't you all hooligans, hmph, you don't know who Boss Jiang is such a powerful person?" Just wait for him to find out and come back and beat you. ”

As soon as they heard this, they began to discuss in detail who this Jiang boss was and what our relationship was. I thought our chance to escape had finally arrived, and I clutched An Jiashu's hand tightly and began to count down in my heart. But the last number hasn't been read out yet, and the escape plan is not needed, because I don't know if we made too much noise, and a senior female student came to this remote corner with the security uncle, and he yelled, and these people were all scared and urinated, and the security guard also chased after him.

I finally threw all the stones, sweating in my hands, and before I could find a tissue to wipe it, I was startled by Jing Yao's sudden cry. She was really crying uncontrollably, tears falling down in strings, her little nose was red, and she was twitching. An Jiashu and I hurriedly walked over to see, but she leaned against the wall alone, crying louder and more aggrieved, and even the senior girl who came over just now was moved by compassion.

I hurriedly threw the snack to An Jiashu to take, stepped forward to comfort her, I handed her the tissue in my hand and patted her on the shoulder: "Okay, okay, don't cry, it's okay now, if you don't cry, I'll share half of the snack with you, and I will share the other half with An Jiashu." ”

She cried breathlessly, nodded her head and said "yes", but immediately cried again. I think I've really met a crying bag, a person who can cry more than me, and I'm glad I didn't make her cry before, otherwise I would have suffered.

That day, Jing Yao really leaned on my shoulder and cried for more than ten minutes, without stopping for a minute, crying until finally her eyes were swollen and her voice was hoarse, and she was finally willing to stand up and go home with us. However, since the three of us outwitted the little hooligans that day, Jing Yao finally joined An Jiashu's small group with me and justifiably.

For a long time, the three of us studied together, and we were inseparable before we went back to our respective homes for dinner. Jing Yao especially likes to follow me, wherever I go, she goes, what extracurricular books I read, she will also take other books of this type, sit on the side and read them decently. Her relationship with An Jiashu is not as good as mine, and An Jiashu doesn't care about this difference, in short, without my participation and organization, the two of them will never have any activities behind my back in private, and I am firmly in the position of the backbone of our team, so I have been in pride and complacency for a long time.

From third to sixth grade, we spent a lot of time doing a lot of things together like conjoined babies. We went to the natatorium to learn to swim together, learned English together, secretly ran out to play in order to avoid the eyes of our parents, put purple paper airplanes together to make codes, climbed Cangyun Mountain together, watched the stars on the top of the mountain, and lived our happy and worry-free little days together. At that time, I was surrounded by the beautiful and enchanting beauty An Jiashu, and Jing Yao, who was the bell of the ice and clear mountains, which could not be said to be dissatisfied, and at that time, I always thought that the three of us would be together like this forever.

The happy times of our youth are always fleeting, and the promises we promised to be together all the time seem ridiculous in the face of the passage of time, and fate always plays tricks on us in an impermanent way. After many years, the enchantress beauty An Jiashu is still by my side, but the white butterfly in my heart has flown away forever and ever.

I have always told myself that if I am given a chance to choose again, I will definitely take her away and protect her before all the harm is caused, just like when I was a child, even if I have those jealousy precautions, I still feel that as long as I am in front of me, others must not bully her.