I'm Vivian, I'm a little drunk at the moment, and I'm very excited to be a guest at Xia Fei's house. I staggered and prepared to get up and leave Xia Fei's house, Xia Fei wanted to send me, but I refused, I am a cool girl, how can I let people send it back?

I'm the owner of a bar, and people say I'm drunk and incompetent. Actually, I didn't drink much, just two cans of beer, but I don't know why I got dizzy.

I sat in the taxi and staggered back to 'Tomorrow' to close the door, shutting out all the traffic on the road in the afternoon.

I squinted and fumbled in my bag, as if the two cans of beer were too strong, and I couldn't find what I wanted in such a small bag, or maybe it was just that everyone was drunk without getting drunk.

I sniffed and laughed at myself and said, "It's useless, two cans of beer knocked me out." Finally found a cigarette and a lighter in the bag, shook and prepared to go upstairs, it seemed to be shaking too much, the bag fell to the ground, anyway, if you don't open the door at night, it will fall off, trembling and lighting a cigarette, and snorting hard, "Shh, damn, suffocate the old lady." ”

Walking upstairs step by step, with a cigarette in my hand, I really wanted to sing a song at this moment, so I hummed "Fly me to the moon And let me play among the stars......" and even took a hard puff of cigarette in the middle of the song.

Back inside the house, sitting at the dresser, looking at your reddish cheeks, and looking at yourself in the mirror, "You're so stupid." I giggled.

I turned on the stereo, played the song "Fly me to the moon", took off my long skirt, and spun around the room in my underwear, until I was dizzy and threw myself on the bed.

The long hair was scattered on the bed, and he closed his eyes and sniffed the residual perfume on the bed, and smirked.

"You, just go, just go, tell me what to do? I'd rather hate you all the time. "I lay on the bed, staring at the ceiling and muttering to myself." Just left, why are you so hard-hearted, you won't even let me see the last side. ”

"Do you know, I was pregnant when I left, I had children, do you know or not?" Tears ran down her cheeks and remained on her long hair. "Do you know that if the child is still there, he will already be older than Xia Fei's child."

I sat up from the bed with all my might, and pushed all the bottles and cans on the dresser to the floor, and in an instant the sound of glass exploding sounded in the room.

"You said, you want to protect me for the rest of your life, you said you wouldn't give up on me no matter what, since you fished me out of the bad girls and made me want to wash my hands and make soup, why did you leave me alone in the end!" I shouted at the rooftop, "You say, you say." ”

All my questions, no one can answer me. I sat on the ground and said dejectedly, "Do you know, I have hated you for so many years, and finally I don't want to hate anymore, you actually told me that you died, you actually had a terminal illness back then, why do you think you are filming a Korean drama?" ”

I burst out laughing, my cheeks filled with tears, "I'd rather you live well with my hatred." Because of you, I had a falling out with my best friend, I came back here with nothing, I beat the child, do you know it, I almost died on the operating table back then! ”

I took out a small box with a combination lock from the box, opened it, and it was full of photos, the photos showed the young me with a beautiful face, but the shyness of the girl and the stubbornness of the world snuggled up to the boy, I once thought that I was about to get the whole world, but in the end, I was abandoned by my whole world.

I took out the boy's photo and touched the boy's face in the photo, "You, you have such a big secret in your heart that you won't share with me." I just want to ask you, did you hurt before leaving, did you think I didn't want before leaving, did you remember the way I wore white yarn before leaving? ”

I wiped a handful of tears, put the box on the bed, and took out the white gauze from the wardrobe and put it on my body, "Well, yes, it's okay, I can still wear it on my waist, but my chest is a little tight, look, it's getting bigger, the little girl has grown up." I sniffed and glanced down at the boy in the photo.

I pulled my hair up and picked up eyeliner, lipstick, mascara from the ground. While shedding tears and applying makeup, he kept muttering, "It's all waterproof, otherwise what should I do"

"Fortunately, it's still so beautiful, it's more temperamental, and the figure is not bad, if the wedding is held now, the old lady must be the most beautiful in the audience." I looked at myself in the mirror and nodded.

I pulled a bottle of red wine out of the wine cabinet and said, "Let's have a drink," I said to the boy in the picture.

"Knock, knock, knock" Half a bottle of red wine was drunk in one gulp "After leaving you, you didn't learn anything, you learned to drink, is the amount of alcohol more powerful than before?" Come, I salute you" I swirled in a white veil and kept repeating "Fly me to the moon"

I rotated hard, hoping that the tears in the corners of my eyes would be shaken off my face, I didn't want to wipe the tears off my face, how could I be washed away by tears when I worked so hard to put on makeup? "I'm so proud, you really know my weakness. I know I can't stand the slightest betrayal. "I collapsed on the bed and held up the photo, which showed the boy holding up the trophy and smiling brightly.

"The person who mentions the breakup does not mean that you are not sad, if you have another way to go, you will never let go of me" I wiped my tears and choked up and sang "I have been happy, so be silent, never say anything that makes you embarrassed" Gradually, all my energy was consumed, and I fell asleep in bed.

In the dream, the boy holding the trophy raised his chin, smiled and handed the trophy to me, against the light, the white racing suit he was wearing was even glowing, "Vivian, I said that I will propose to you if I win the championship, I want to marry you in front of everyone now, Vivian will marry me." ”

The long skirt rustled in the wind, I nodded shyly, and then I saw the big boy grinning and showing his white teeth, and his eyes flashed like the sea of stars, and he hugged me horizontally, "From today on, I will have a wife!" I have a wife! ”

The two of us swirled around in the open space until we had exhausted all our energy, and we fell to the concrete floor and laughed. The smiling and smiling boy's smiling face gradually blurred, and I could no longer hear the words Vivian, marry me! From today onwards, I have a wife, I have a wife!

"Don't go, Jiang Ning, don't go, I beg you, don't go" I woke up from the dream crying, hugged my knees, and buried my head between my legs "Jiang Ning, I don't hate you anymore, can you come back?" How about coming back? I whispered.

In this way, I kept repeating in this kind of exhausting sleep and awakening, until the next day, the sun shined warmly on my eyes, the tears on the pillow had long been evaporated, everything was new, when I opened my eyes, I really felt that from today on, I lost Jiang Ning, the big boy who always had a bright smile, of course, not only lost Jiang Ning, but also killed our child with his own hands.