First around the operating table, then a little bit to radiate outward, not under the bed, not under the instrument table, and then under the electric knife, I started to move little by little, little by little, for fear of missing any point.

"Ah, I found it." I let out a long breath, and my heart finally settled in my stomach.

The needle lies quietly under the pendant, emitting a charming silver light.

I picked up the needle and let everyone see, "Found it, found it." ”

I threw the needle in the sharps box and waved my hand at Jing Xin, "I'll wash my hands." "I walked out of the operating room, carefully washed my hands with disinfectant, I was in a daze, rubbing my hands repeatedly, I thought to myself, before this matter was resolved, it seemed that Lin Jia and I were not suitable for surgery, so it was irresponsible to the patient.

After the operation, after I sent the patient back to the ward, I met Lin Jia in the doctor's office, who was knocking on the case. "Lin Jia? Let's talk. ”

Lin Jia, who had his back to me, stopped, "Let's go, go to the rooftop." ”

Lin Jia explained a few words to Li Nan, and went to the rooftop with me, today's night wind is not very strong, the weather has gradually warmed, the outdoor air is exceptionally good, and you can even see a few sparse stars when you raise your head, which is particularly special in the reinforced concrete city, looking at the neon lights lit up in the distance, I looked at Lin Jia and said, "We might as well ask for leave to rest, right?" ”

"Why?" Lin Jia looked at me puzzled.

"I don't think it's suitable for work in this state."

"Where doesn't it fit?" Lin Jia was a little impatient and frowned.

"No, it's just that I'm afraid that there are too many trivial things, too many distractions, and not enough focus on the patient."

"Impossible." Lin Jia's words were cut off, obviously not wanting to continue the topic.

"If you don't have surgery, you don't work, how do you pay your salary, how do you pay back?" Suddenly, Lin Jia smashed his fist on the cement wall, "Lin Jia! I exclaimed, "What are you doing here?" ”

"Do you think I'm useless now? Think I can't do anything? Lin Jia became excited, "You say, do you think I'm useless and think I'm a wreck!" ”

"Lin Jia, can you calm down?" I also started to get excited, "I've never said these things, okay?" I don't mean that in my words! It's just that I'm afraid that the trivial things at home will affect the concentration of the hospital! ”

"After all, you still don't believe me enough. Don't believe I can handle it? ”

"Handle it? You tell me how to deal with it? How to deal with it if you don't have money? Can you calm down? "I try to keep the sound as low as possible, the wind is a funny thing, it amplifies the sound infinitely and then floats away.

He took out a cigarette from his white pocket and lit it, took a sharp breath, spit it out, and continued, "I won't rest, I want to work, I will work harder than before, I want to make money, I want to pay off my debts." After speaking, Lin Jia turned around and left the rooftop, "Xia Fei, go back, don't say anything more, I don't want to hear anything now, you just let me go back and write the case." ”

Leaving me alone on the rooftop, I didn't move for a long time, a sense of powerlessness hit me instantly, I knew the simplest and roughest way to make Lin Jia happy, but I didn't have the ability to do it.

The night was peaceful, and if I hadn't been able to sleep all the time, I think it would have been better.

The next morning, after talking to my mother on the phone, I drove to Lin Jia's house with Lin Jia, and we didn't speak on the way, Lin Jia suddenly asked me when I was waiting for the red light, "Wait a minute, how should I speak." ”

I held Lin Jia's hand, "You are thin-skinned, let me tell you." ”

Lin Jia didn't speak, started the car again, and soon, when he got home, there was no joy when he came back this time, every step was extremely heavy, only four floors, and we were as exhausted as if we had walked thousands of steps.

Opening the door, Lin Jia's mother came out of the kitchen, "Why are you back here?" ”

I barely managed to squeeze out a smile, "Mom, you sit down first, we'll have something to say to you." ”

"What's wrong?" The mother-in-law was full of doubts.

"Mom, can you ...... Lend me money, I need money. I closed my eyes and said it in one breath.

"Borrowing money? What's wrong? ”

Lin Jia...... Lin Jia...... Lin Jia owes money outside. ”

"Oh, I'm going to die, Lin Jia owes money outside?" The mother-in-law was a little unconvinced, "Lin Jia, you tell your mother what's going on." ”

"I ...... I owe a sum of money, Mom, can you lend me money. When these words came out of Lin Jia's mouth, the mother-in-law was a little surprised, but quickly stabilized, because she was still not sure how much Lin Jia owed.

"Your family's money?"

"Our family doesn't have enough money." Lin Jia said softly.

"How much do you owe?" When my mother-in-law heard that our family's money was not enough, she had some questions, she looked at me, and that look revealed that I had doubts about not being able to save myself.

"Two, more than two million."

When this number was spoken, the mother-in-law stood up and said, "What!"

"Jiajia, don't scare your mother, you, you say it again, how much do you owe?"

"More than two million." This time, Lin Jia seems to be able to say this number smoothly.

The mother-in-law slid on the sofa with a pop, "Mom." I hurried to help my mother-in-law for fear that something would happen to my mother-in-law, "Don't touch me, Lin Jia, tell your mother what's going on." ”

I withdrew my hand bitterly, sat quietly next to me and listened to what Lin Jia told my mother-in-law, Lin Jia was so frightened because of her mother's actions just now that she didn't dare to say any more, for fear that something would happen to her mother, so she closed her mouth, lowered her head, and was silent.

"You say!" The mother-in-law was obviously a little annoyed, "There is no beginning or end to the speech, you hurry up and tell me clearly." The mother-in-law was in a hurry.

"Okay, I said." Lin Jia swallowed his saliva, and then poured out all the causes and consequences of everything.

After hearing this, the mother-in-law stood up angrily, "Xia Fei! Then a slap hit me in the face, and I was feeling sad and completely stunned by this sudden slap.

"What do you do?" I covered my face and got up from the couch.

The mother pointed at me, "You, if it weren't for you, how would my son have gambled!" You're still sitting here like you're all right. ”

"Mom!" Lin Jia frowned and got up and looked at my face, "What are you hitting Xia Fei for?" It's all my fault, what does it have to do with Xia Fei. ”

This is the first time Lin Jia has come out for me, but I didn't expect it to be at such a moment.

"You're still speaking for her now, if it weren't for her, would you want to make money desperately? You're not here for the good of this family? You are at fault, the fault is that the way to make money is wrong, but Xia Fei is your daughter-in-law, and she is not even optimistic about you. ”

My mother-in-law stood in front of me and said this, and I almost vomited when I listened to it, and I felt as if I was suffering from motion sickness or heat stroke.