Zhao Ming: "I said, if I want, I am willing to understand your past." ”

Tian Qianqian: "I'm really a very bad person, although I always seem to be very aggressive. ”

Zhao Ming: "I would like to hear about it." ”

Tian Qianqian: "You know the basic situation of our family, since I was three years old, my current mother, that is, my stepmother, came to my house, and there was no younger brother at that time. My dad was nice to me. ”

Zhao Ming handed over a cup of hot milk tea: "Take it, don't worry, say whatever you want." ”

Tian Qianqian: "Later, with my younger brother, all the energy of my stepmother and my father is on my younger brother, I don't care about my stepmother, there is no blood relationship, people are good to their children, it is understandable." Maybe it's because I look more and more like my mom, my dad and him, angry? Probably. They didn't treat me badly, they ate, dressed and had fun as before, and even later when the conditions were good, I would give whatever I wanted, at that time I said that I wanted to learn to paint, to learn dance, to learn piano, all the cram schools were the best, of course, basically on a whim, and in the end I only wanted to paint. It stands to reason that I should be content, but, the longer time passes, the more I feel that I am an outsider, at first they except for calling me to eat, go to school, communication is very little, later, even no care, a lot of pocket money, but, I am basically invisible at home, three meals a day at school, in the end except for money, there is no communication, I deliberately make trouble at school, the teacher invited parents, my dad went, but after coming back did not say anything, not even a look, after that time, the teacher looked at me differentlyI don't know why, but I'm at home with a family of three in the living room, or in the kitchen, and I'm in the bedroom. When I first came to menstruation, I was caught off guard by the fact that my roommate lent me her sanitary pads, helped me deal with the filth on the ground, and gave me her red dates and ginger tea. Throughout junior high school, except for the holidays, we basically didn't see each other, and paid me on time, and there was always a lot of extra money so that I didn't even have a chance to talk. Even during the winter and summer vacations, we don't often see each other, they are a family of three, either go back to their hometown, or go out to travel, I don't know where to go, they won't tell me, the thunder can't move, there must be enough living expenses on the living room or dining room table. I don't understand why, why they are so indifferent to me, all my things, are done alone. ”

The milk tea cup was already empty, and Tian Qianqian still habitually kept sucking, her voice trembling and helpless. Zhao Ming took the empty milk tea cup and threw it into the trash, bought a new cup of red date and ginger tea, and asked softly, "Then, your mother?" Didn't come to you? ”

Tian Qianqian sniffed hard and choked up,

"My mother thought my dad was poor at the time, that I was a drag bottle, and I left by myself when I divorced, and my dad wanted to foster me at my grandmother's house at first, and my grandmother was very good to me, but my aunt was not happy, and my uncle couldn't be the master, so I was sent back to my own house."

"From the time the two of them divorced to the end of my freshman year of high school, she never showed up, not once, no matter whether she asked, and there was no alimony required by the court."

"Later, when I was in the second year of high school, I was going to report to the new class, and I packed up and went out of school to buy stationery, that day, it was a special coincidence, my roommate saw her first, and asked me if it was my mother, and I looked like it, I said it was impossible, and then, the woman who was dressed very luxuriously came up and asked me if my name was Tian Qianqian."

Zhao Ming: "Don't get excited, it's not good for your health to be excited, be obedient." ”

Tian Qianqian: "It doesn't matter, if you are excited for the last time, you will never be excited because of them in the future." ”

She said, she was my mother, showed me the household registration book, photos when I was a child, said where our family used to live, what were, who the neighbors were, and what toys she bought me, where the scars on my body were, how they fell, and the birthmark on my back. She gushed endlessly, kept saying that I didn't have any reaction, everything has been resisted, those lonely and fragile times were my own gritted teeth and survived, she took my hand and said, she got married abroad, the conditions are very good, she has a son, I really wonder, why do you want to come back when you are doing well, do you want to revisit the place, she said to compensate me, gave me a card, I asked her, according to convention, the password is my birthday, right, she hesitated, said, just gave a password, I guess she doesn't remember. ”

Zhao Ming: "And then, you rejected her?" ”

Tian Qianqian sneered: "Why refuse, why refuse, who would dislike money?" My father's family property must be given to his son, my mother's side, not to mention, do you still have the right to speak when you marry someone else's family, I don't have their love, if I don't even have money, wouldn't it be too miserable. ”

Tian Qianqian took a sip and sucked the remaining red date ginger tea,

"Since then, and now, I have been in a state of living expenses on both sides, and my dad knows about this I don't know about it, and I don't want to know about it. Both of them have always been very generous to me, but, in the same way, they don't want to say a word to me, yes, after they divorced, they each had their own satisfactory home, and I was the product of this unhappy marriage, or the kind that was not welcomed, maybe, on the day I got married, I didn't need to set up any seats for my mother's family. ”

Zhao Ming was silent............

Tian Qianqian: "I'm done, maybe it's because no one has loved me, so when I got to college, I was anxious to find a boyfriend, more of an emotional sustenance, you always said that I was talking at the time, that was the words that I had saved for half of my life, and I vomited it out." ”

Zhao Ming: "So, you're just in a hurry to find someone to rely on, right?" Even if it's not me, it doesn't matter, does it? ”

Tian Qianqian: "Yes, at the beginning, it was indeed because you were tall and handsome and good-tempered, and you were the perfect person I could rely on, but later, I felt that I really liked you." You're going to blush, you're going to have your heart racing, you're going to think about what you're doing all the time. But now, all of this has been ruined by my own hands. It's me who is sorry for you. ”

Zhao Ming: "Since you like me, why don't you keep going like this, you must do this to break this harmony??? ”

Tian Qianqian: "Strictly speaking, I don't have a family, that day, there was a long-term plan, and there was an impulse, that was my first time, I was still clean and clean I left traces on your body, I was satisfied, as if I had married someone I liked, and had my own home." Anyway, no one will be with me forever, sooner or later I will still be alone, and having such a precious memory is enough, really enough. ”

His eyes were slightly closed, and he exhaled a long breath of relief,

"I'm sorry, I'll explain it to them, then, that's it, goodbye, thank you for staying with me for so long and giving me so much warmth."

Tian Qianqian got off the high chair, and before she could take the first step, she was pulled into a strong and warm embrace.

Zhao Ming: "I said yesterday that I am willing to accompany you forever." ”

Tian Qianqian: "I can't believe it anymore, my heart has been closed for so long, floating alone in the lonely cold current, your appearance has made me see the sunshine, if I am used to warmth and love, one day, this sunshine is gone, and then throw me back into the cold current, it is better that I have never fallen deeply." At the very least, it won't be too sad. ”

Zhao Ming: "You are a good girl, worthy of all the good things in this world, and people are the same, worthy of my stay for you, and the deadline is forever, do you understand?" I don't allow you to be presumptuous. ”

Tian Qianqian: "Promises are the least valuable, especially verbal promises, the legally valid marriage certificate did not keep my parents' marriage, and verbal promises are even less credible." ”

Zhao Ming stepped up his efforts and tightly held Tian Qianqian in his arms, and Tian Qianqian was soft and let him keep it.

Zhao Ming: "Then you say, what do I have to do to make you accept me all the time?" I beg you, don't do this, okay? ”

Tian Qianqian: "I don't know, no one taught me to love, I can't love, and I don't deserve the love of others." ”

Zhao Ming: "Even if it's a stone, there will be a day when it will be covered with heat, let me come, give me a chance, I will accompany you until you ......... The day I didn't want to. ”

Tian Qianqian: "I want to be quiet." ”

Zhao Ming: "Who is Jingjing??? Well??? ”

Tian Qianqian: "I'm afraid you're not a fool!" ”

Zhao Ming is colorful: "Be happy, I want you to be happy, do you want to see you smile?" ”

Tian Qianqian: "What if I really fall in love with you and you leave me?" ”

Zhao Ming: "Then I'll tattoo a four-leaf clover on the ring finger of my right hand, and if I betray you, then chop it off!!! ”

Tian Qianqian: "A man's mouth is a deceitful ghost." ”

Zhao Ming: "My little ancestor, then let's fall in love unilaterally, don't be distracted, let me be good to you, okay??? ”

Tian Qianqian wanted to speak and stopped, but was interrupted by Zhao Ming, "Let's go, I'll send you back, you've been outside for too long, it's still a special period, you can't take it lightly." ”

couldn't help but pull Tian Qianqian to the door of the dormitory and pat her on the head: "Be happy, every day, I'm always there, anytime." ”

After speaking, he left in a hurry.

Tian Qianqian entered the dormitory, Qi Keran and Chen Kou handed over hot water and blankets, and no one mentioned Zhao Ming tacitly.

Chen Kou: "Qianqian? Dinner? I bought it back, together with a time? ”

Tian Qianqian restrained her emotions: "I drank two large cups of milk tea just now, will you eat it?" I'm going to sleep. ”

Qi Keran and Chen Kou made "I understand" eyes at the same time, Chen Kou was a little worried,

"For three people, how can we finish eating so much?"

Qi Keran: "It's okay, the dog food has been completely appetizing for me, and now I have a full appetite, I can arrange for two servings." In the future, too. ”

Chen Kou: "Oh, your little belly, lately, it's quite meaty, and you have a fight with the dumpling pillow on your bed." ”

Qi Keran: "That's a mermaid line, okay." It's just that it doesn't have a shape, and it's a three-body one!!!!! ”